damn it robert

anonymous asked:

i so want the twist to happen but i'm trying to not get my hopes up. what kind of twist would you like to see or think could happen? i just can't think of anything but i really hope we get one though

Hope for the best, but be prepared for the worst, is literally my motto right now, because as much as I’m 100% convinced, that this is happening, there is always gonna be a little voice of doubt, that tells me to keep my expectations very low, so I’m not disappointed.

For me, it’s a Robert breakdown, I want things to pile up, until Robert can’t take it anymore. I want Emmerdale to strip him down, and have Robert, have to rebuild himself with Aaron’s help. 

I want him to just break, because it’s about damn time, Robert has carried so much, for so long, and sleeping with Rebecca, was him beginning to bend, and Aaron finding out about the affair, and lashing out (which would totally be justified, not trying to say it wouldn’t be) but just laying it on, about how he let him down, maybe even a Jack mention, would just break him.  

And I think the character needs that. He needs to break, he needs to know Aaron can step up and be strong, and ground him, and he just needs to let go. Holding everything inside, only ends one way, badly. 

When you cram so much into one space, it’s bound to burst, and Robert is cramming all his emotions into one place, willing himself to be strong, to be everything Aaron needs and wants him to be, to be everything the village, and Vic and Diane and the Dingles want him to be and his drowning. 

He can’t find the surface, but his trying so damn hard. His right there, he can see the light, but he can’t find that final push inside him to break through to the surface and take that gasping breath of fresh air.  

And because of this he needs to break. Break and start again. 

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.