damn it! impostor!

Uh yeah, impostor syndrome day. 

Turns out I really can’t write anything anymore without adding a million of footnotes, and being scared to death of getting it wrong. Whatever happened to “spontaneous presentations aren’t that hard”? 

(It’s not even finding the words, it’s more “constantly questioning everything I do and wondering whether there is actually any original work in there”) 

Impostor syndrome is a psychological phenomenon in which people are unable to internalize their accomplishments. Despite external evidence of their competence, those with the syndrome remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve the success they have achieved. Proof of success is dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than they believe themselves to be. Notably, impostor syndrome is particularly common among high-achieving women.
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Impostor syndrome

damn.