Symbiotic relationship| Dolan Twins
Summary: Boys are sad about not winning a TCA
Warnings: Cursing, mention of anxiety.. kinda? But that’s it
Disbelief. That is the only word that could explain how you’ve felt after seeing that Jake Paul won Choice Youtuber and not E and G. How could that happen? You witnessed their fandom vote day and night not stopping for one single moment, trying to land that award for the boys.
Twins worked their asses off this year, put all they had into the content they created and a guy who puts holes in his walls and bullies people who don’t have English as their native language over their accents ended up winning. Talk about a total let down. You could just imagine how disappointed and sad would the boys be.
Not an hour later, you hear the front doors being unlocked and soon after, whispers fill out the hallway. Your eyes start stinging as one of them turns the light on since you’ve been exposed only to TV light for the past three hours. What hurt more than that light going straight to your tired eyes was seeing Ethan’s and Gray’s faces. It was worse than you thought it would be.
With everything that was happening during the past few months, you were extremely worried how would this affect them both. You get up from the couch and hurry your way over to Gray giving him a big hug. He just gives you a light smile and a hug back before leaving to his room. Just as you turn around, you felt Ethan’s arms wrap tightly around you. Just seconds after, his soft sobs filled the room.
“I’m so sorry, baby. I am so fucking sorry for this,”
“Not your fault,” he mumbles, still not letting go.
“I know, but I also know how much hard work, time and heart you two put into those videos this year and you so fucking deserved that award. It breaks my heart to see you like this,” you say, pulling him towards the couch.
“I just.. I feel like we’ve let the fans down. Everything we do is to make them happy and they worked so hard to get us this award and it didn’t happen, it just sucks so fucking hard, to feel like this. Like a failure,” he barely finished his thought before starting to sob again. Wow did it suck to see him like this.
“Ethan baby, your fans are like the best, most understanding, loving human beings I have ever encountered in my life and the love they have for you and Gray will not change due to some award that was probably picked by producers anyways. I know this goes deeper than just that award, I know you’re still trying to figure out the whole self worth situation but I’m begging you, don’t take this to heart so much. I know it sucks baby, but it will literally not mean shit to your fans. Tomorrow, when you wake up, they will love you and want you to be healthy and happy just as much as they wanted it this morning. Surfboards mean shit to them… and also to me,” you couldn’t/didn’t want to stop talking cause Ethan was listening and not crying which you wanted, of course. He leaves a quick kiss on your forehead and than takes a deep breath.
“I love you. I love you so much. Please just stay here with your mess of a boyfriend until he falls asleep, yeah?” Ethan finally gave you a little smile, making himself more comfortable on your lap.
“Of course E,” You smile right back at him, slowly stroking his hair, hoping it would calm him down some more. Half an hour later, when you were sure that Ethan was asleep, you carefully moved his head to a pillow and found your way over to Grayson’s room. You lightly knocked and called his name.
“Hey Gray, you up?”
“Yeah, come in,” You hear his tired, sad voice. Walking over to his bed, you sit at it’s edge waiting for him to get up. He is soon in a sitting position, looking at you kind of empty. His eyes were red and so was his nose. He was for sure crying earlier.
“Are you okay?” You ask not really knowing why, cause obviously he fucking wasn’t.
“I just kinda feel like failure, like a let down or whatever. We just really wanted this for the fans. They’ve done so much for us throughout the years, especially in these last few months and I can see how disappointed they are. I never want to disappoint people who enabled us to live this life, be in this house, sleep in this damn bed. It’s all because of them and we wanted this for them,”
“I totally understand that Gray, but I’m gonna tell you the same thing I told to E. They are most likely disappointed but not with you but just with the fact that you didn’t win. It’s a symbiotic relationship, what you guys have. You want them happy, they want you happy. They don’t want to let you down which they probably think they have since you didn’t win, which results in the madness that is happening. But it’s just because they love you and want the best for you, like you do for them. I’m making no sense, but I think you understand..”
“Yeah, I get you even with those stupid biology references. I’m super glad that both E and I have you in our lives even tho you literally eat all my food, all the freaking time. Thank you,” Grayson says, motioning for you to give him another hug, which you do.
“Get some sleep now,” You tell him, walking out of his room. “Good night.”
After getting a blanket from Ethan’s room, you go back to the living room couch and cuddle up to your sleeping boyfriend hoping that they would wake up a bit happier, more understanding of the situation because seeing them like this sucked major balls and you didn’t want such a thing to screw with their minds even more.
Literally haven’t written in months and it probably sucks cause I haven’t even proof read it, but I really liked the idea (idea credit goes to @wonderfuldolans whos blog is the shit if you’re into the twins, btw) and wanted to give it a shot. Baiii now.