When you’re trying to find a good way to say thank you to someone whose been hella supportive and understanding when you’ve been gritting your teeth trying not to show your continuing mental turmoil to the world at large, but you just don’t know how to word it without it seeming like you don’t mean it.
If you do see this, and I hope you do, I want you to know that getting all those little messages from you really means a lot. They make me laugh, and give me a reason to come on here when everything is imposing and scary.
Especially since, dammit, you don’t have to send them. I’m just an opinion on a computer, and yet you still care enough about my stupid ass to go out of your way to send those. FOR NOTHING IN RETURN.
Man, idk. I’ll send you a message back when I have a proper grasp of what I want to say, but until then just know seeing those means way more than I can articulate.
Oh man I’m so excited for you but also slightly worried pls don’t be gone for a long time, I know this would be such a good opportunity for you to teach and get your name out and I want you to go but pls don’t be gone in Korea for anything longer than like 2-3 weeks tops otherwise I’m gonna miss the shit out of you. You’re amazing and capable of such incredible things and I know you gotta go out there and work for it but pls come home soon if you have to be gone long, and FaceTime me so I can see ur lovely face
DAMMIT ADAMS DAD IS HERE AND I DECIDED TO STAY HOME AND MAKE CUPCAKES WHILE THEY GO TO LUNCH SO THEY COULD HAVE TIME TOGETHER AND THEN AS THEYRE WALKING OUT HIS DAD GOES “oh I thought you were joining us” AND NOW IM LIKE FUCKIN SHIT MAN I WAS TRYING TO DO A NICE THING DAMNIT
I thought about it today, and I realized that I’m less bitter over you than I am dissappointed in you. I still see just as much potential in you as I ever did, I am just absolutely disgusted with the choices you’ve made. You could be a great man once you grow up if you just ever decide to do it. I get that you didn’t have anyone to raise you but forget the pity parties and raise your damn self to be someone.