Just a moment, please. I’d like to explain the title of this one, the last piece of the puzzle, the “grand finale of a life poorly spent”. Stop groaning.
I’ve never really touched on something I noticed about Dahmer’s life—it’s a cycle. I don’t just mean repeated actions, the same mistakes, same crimes, but a more thematic, fundamental aspect.
In a reblog from a while back, someone placed two prayers side by side, one from Dahmer’s childhood (his first prayer, actually) and one taken from Dark Journey Deep Grace. The words change, but the ideas are the same. As I commented, it came “full circle”.
Thus, I tried to follow that “rediscover his earliest self” bit from Shrine by way of recapturing some of the feel of the last two entries, especially the first. For example, in Part 1 there was “Cat’s in the Cradle”, which was about a father and son who don’t really connect. Here I have “Old Man”, another song from around the same time, with a similar tone and subject matter—but different. “Old Man” contains the thesis of A Father’s Story—“Old man, take a look at my life; I’m a lot like you.” Where there was no connection before, now there is a connection.
The same works with repeated artists; Alice Cooper, Oingo Boingo, Killing Joke, and Pink Floyd return here to explore the same matters further. Likewise, there are new artists with new themes, but in the same genre as the old. Part 1 was all about stalling the inevitable; Part 2 was a slow descent into an abyss. Now Part 3 is a rapid, unceasing ascension, one that you cannot stop and don’t particularly want to. I’m also predicting it will be the least popular of them for that very same reason. You guys love to revel in misery.
“Jeffrey Dahmer took a shower while there were two dead bodies in the bathtub, and he was sane. He drilled holes in the heads of living people to make them his unresisting companions, and he was sane. He ate a bicep which he had fried in a skillet, tenderised and sprinkled with salt, and he was sane. For hours he lay with corpses, hugging them, cherishing them, and he was sane. He kept eleven assorted heads and skulls and two complete skeletons for eventual use in a home-made temple, and he was sane.
The trouble was, in addition to all this, he was polite, diffident, deferential, obliging, just the sort of young man one could imagine weeding his grandmother’s garden.”
“Come on Jeff, tell us, you’ve been eating these guys, haven’t you?”
Dahmer pulled back in his chair and a look of terror came over him. He studied my face intensely as if he were a child waiting to be reprimanded. I deliberately tried to keep an air of acceptance and calm as I spoke.
“Jeff, it’s okay, we know. It’s going to be all right. Just be honest with us and tell the truth, that’s all we ask.”
Dahmer leaned forward in his chair, dropped his smoke to the floor and crushed it with his foot. With his head still lowered, he let out a barely audible response.
Murphy didn’t move and was still in Dahmer’s space.
“Jeff, what did you say? You’ve been eating them haven’t you?”
Dahmer again leaned back.
“Yes, I have, well, I mean, not all of them, just a few.”
“It was an incessant, never-ending desire to have someone at whatever cost. Someone nice looking, really nice looking. And it just filled my thoughts all day long. It doesn’t provide any long-lasting enjoyment.”
“One night he dreamt of an old man in a dark cape who came floating up from the pond at the house in Bath, Ohio, accusing him of stealing plywood which he was sawing. He put the saw down and left. Was this the grim reaper? Or Jeff Dahmer’s conscience? Or merely a troubled and turbulent mind?”
Only a lad/You really can’t blame him/Society made him/He’s our responsibility/Only a lad/He really couldn’t help it/He didn’t want to do it!/He’s underprivileged and abused/Perhaps a little bit confused?
“Lionel and Shari Dahmer sat stony-faced in their usual seats at the back. Immediately following the last verdict, they left. Lionel came to me one minute later, a shaken man. ‘It just doesn’t make sense,’ he mumbled. ‘It just doesn’t make sense.’ The sense that the verdicts implied was that Dr. Dahmer had sired a monster.”
“Odd as it seems to me now, as I sat in court and listened to all this— the terrible evidence both of my son’s insanity and the crimes that had flowed from it—I could see nothing but their grotesqueness and perversity. Certainly, I could not have begun to realize that these same needs and impulses had lived a shadowy half-life in me. But they had. They had been in me almost from the beginning of my life.”
“Five days before Jeffrey Dahmer was killed, he met with Roy Ratcliff, the minister who was his only visitor at the Columbia Correctional Institution, for their weekly Bible study session.
They were working their way through Revelation, the last book of the New Testament, because Dahmer, who confessed to murdering 17 young men and boys, was interested in Judgment Day. And within the chapters they read Wednesday is a verse that now seems particularly apt.
“In those days shall men seek death, and shall not find it; and shall desire to die,” according to Revelation 9:6. “And death shall flee from them.”
Dahmer had told his minister and his attorney that he wanted to die, and when he finally caught up with death in a prison bathroom Monday morning, perhaps the greatest surprise was that it had eluded him so long.”
‘Da Funk’. It’s like watching a bustling Parisian morning in instrumental form. Believe me.
‘Around the World’. I specifically do mean the full 7+ minute version in Homework - the short edit (which is what the video is set to) is okay, but the full version has the most impact. It’s exactly what it says on the tin in the most amazing way.Around the world!
‘Phoenix’. Elated and very lighthearted, good to listen on a walk.
Honourable mention: ‘Revolution 909′, for its rebellious streak specifically targeted towards the French police. The police force at the time actively suppressed people at raves - it was that kind of scene DP first began their work in, so it’s a rare bit of social commentary by them.
‘Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger’. This is the single most memetic thing they put out imo. Need I say more?
‘Aerodynamic’. Pulse-pounding without being overly aggressive or otherwise ‘hard’. Watch in Interstella 5555 for extra effect.
‘Veridis Quo’. If you like a slower, more mesmerizing sound than everything above, this might be more your thing. I personally like it because of the montage sequence it goes with in Interstella 5555, but as it says in the title - it’s a straightforward light disco. They went back to a sound kind of like this in RAM.
‘Robot Rock’. Reviews for this, when it first came out, were not that promising or positive. But if nothing else, this is incredibly danceable and ties in well with the titular song ‘Human After All’ (which I did not include on here, because DP explored the themes of that even better with Electroma).
‘Steam Machine’. Excellent workout music. Aggressive and heavy but without feeling like Thomas is beating you over the head repeatedly, if that makes sense? Because some songs in this album really do sound like that. It might even be kind of sensual if you like whispery vocals.
‘Technologic’. Written very quickly but catchy as hell, and in a way I think it’s a song that synthesizes DP’s state(s) of mind when they made this album with their robot personas even better than ‘Human After All’ does. Look at the lyrics - save for a couple, does any of the ‘do x to it’ suggestions sound like what you could do to a human being? It also takes place fairly late in the album, too. It’s a maybe-prideful and maybe-depressing conclusion to the human-robot divide: technology and the essence of humanity cannot be made equal. Good song, this one.
Honourable mention: ‘Make Love’. HAA is a very Thomas-heavy album. ‘Make Love’ is almost definitely Guy’s contribution, though, and it stands out as a very soft, tentative song amidst what is a very difficult album. Almost worried. It’s a nice change from the pace of the others.
Random Access Memories
‘Instant Crush’. I love this one purely for writing potential. So many fics could be based around this. Beautiful song, this one.
‘Doin’ It Right’. Catchy as hell. You won’t be able to get this one out of your head. Also see honourable mention below.
‘Touch’. I said above that I’m not a fan of DP love songs, and this is generally true. (’The Game of Love’ is unintentionally hilarious to me instead of conveying any gravitas, for example.) But this is a love song done right, I think, though it might stretch the definition of ‘love’ a little. It’s theatrical and very powerful, give this a listen.
Honourable mention: ‘Giorgio by Moroder’. This probably won’t sit well with some people because it’s for most part a very long song consisting of a constant disco beat and with some dude rambling in the background. Thing is that this dude is not just any old dude, and that there is a method to this apparent, maddening ostinato - I wrote about this song a few months ago, and described it as a perfect biography in music form. I stand by it. As for what ‘Doin’ It Right’ has got to do with this, the exact clicks that Giorgio Moroder speaks of in the narration of this later become the backbone of that song!
Tron: Legacy Soundtrack
‘Disc Wars’. Slow-rising, kind of grim and perfectly suited for the ritual the Disc Wars have become by the time of Tron: Legacy. It’s beautiful.
‘Rinzler’. If you didn’t think Rinzler was terrifying before, you sure will when you hear this one. It’s only a short piece but it ends in such a booming, threatening way that you really get the sense that Rinzler is dangerous as fuck. ‘Derezzed’ is the expected conflict/evildoer theme in this soundtrack, maybe, but I prefer something that is more slowly and steadily intimidating like this one.
‘End of Line’. Remember ‘Veridis Quo’? Kind of like that but 10x better. Lethargically sensual in a kind of bad guy way.
Honourable mention: ‘Adagio for TRON’. I actually like it because it is sad and grand. It’s orchestral for most part, but listen out for when the electronic bass comes in. It’s great. The solo violin really hammers in the tragedy.
‘Touch It/Technologic’. fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it
‘Around the World/Harder Better Faster Stronger’. Oh look two of my absolute favourites mashed into one. This is beautifully done, and if you don’t mind me saying so, I think this is a mashup that perfectly synthesizes Thomas and Guy’s styles. Peak Daft Punk, this one.
‘Da Funk/Daftendirekt’. Listen out for when ‘Daftendirekt’ comes in and everyone starts cheering.
Honourable mention: ‘The Prime Time of Your Life/The Brainwasher/Rollin’ & Scratchin’/Alive’. Daft Punk’s most aggressive and brutal songs all mixed into one - I hope you like the heavy stuff!
‘Spinal Scratch’/’Spinal Beats’. Not so much a song as it is one full record, with two songs that segue effortlessly together. But you really ought to listen to both. I prefer the former, but this is a lot of fun, I promise.
‘Club Soda’. It will actually make you thirsty. Also great casino music.
‘Ventura’. After three or so minutes some familiar samples begin to come in and the song becomes quite something else. If you like ‘Phoenix’ you’ll like this one.
Honourable mention: ‘Roulé-Boulé’. Not actually a favourite of mine, but by virtue of its complete and utter whimsy alone it might be worth listening to this…
‘Holiday on Ice’. Absolute favourite from Crydamoure. It’s so beautiful. Kind of ethereal, but without ever losing that ever-danceable vibe. It sounds so clean.
‘Nymphae Song’. I remember this one quite fondly because it’s the first Crydamoure anything I listened to. But listen to the one that was issued on its own, not the Waves II release - that one’s been sped up. Sweet and playful, I’ve based multiple characters off this song.
‘Spaced Out’. Play Paul’s contribution. It is really good, a lot more energetic and less actively sensual than a lot of Crydamoure releases, but it’s a song where you can… hear the wonder, if that makes sense? That’s very alive in ‘Spaced Out’ and its multiple continuations.
Honourable mention: ‘Doggystyle’. It sounds exactly like what it would feel like doing said act, without ever being in the slightest bit porny or whatever. Also kind of hilarious because of the sampled lyrics, though I’m not sure how much of that’s me and how much of that was intentional.
After a quick shower, Thomas suited up as if it was something for business, getting his robot gear on. Mainly cause he was going out in public and didn’t always want pictures of what lies under the mask around. Zipping up his black leather jacket, pulling on his signature gloves and the French male headed out of his hotel with his phone in hand.
Still getting used to Oakland as he’d normally go to LA. While on his way to the Oakland Zoo, he did stop by a graffiti wall and take his first twitter picture, posting that with the caption of the graffiti art. As soon as he made it to the zoo, he spotted the slight taller brown haired male at the entrance through his visor. Shaking off a few nerves, Thomas walked up to Jared, “I’ll unmask after this. Just got all dressed up in case fans are around. This is better then a scarf over my mouth and shades on.”
Kids On The Battlefield → legacies, new kids on the block, and alternate universes, a mix for the next generation of super heroes
1. Teenagers - My Chemical Romance 2. Scared, But Not That Scared - 1, 2, 33. Downtown - Kids of 88 4. My Turn - Basement Jaxx 5. Saturday Night - Noisettes6. Sunglasses N Vodka - Avicii7. Exodus - M.I.A.8. If I Was God - Natalia Kills 9. Let It Out - Miho Fukuhara10. In Spirit Golden - I Blame Coco11. Be Still - The Killers 12. We All Try - Frank Ocean13. The Prime Time Of Your Life - Daft Punk14. Supreme - Angel Haze15. Youth Speed Trouble Cigarettes - Cassius16. Airbending - Le1f17. Own It - Black Eyed Peas18. Pumped Up Kicks - Foster the People 19. Not Giving In - Rudimental20. Dearly Beloved (Radiant Remix) - Yoko Shimomura21. Fear - OneRepublic22. I Was Here - Beyonce23. It’s On Again - Alicia Keys 24. Go Big or Go Extinct - Ramin Djawadi 25. The Kids From Yesterday - My Chemical Romance
Women, I’ve had a billion gins, so I’m going to give you all the advice you need for 2014:
1) Only hang out with people who make you feel comfortable and happy.
2) Get a bra you can dance in. I highly recommend the Marie-jo from Rigby & Peller. Spendy, but a life-time sex-dance investment.
3) Find what you would do for free, and try and find a way to get paid for it as your job. Everything good in the world comes from love.
4) Drink shit-tons of gin and listen to Daft Punk, Lorde, MIA, Kanye West and prime Bowie. All your revolutionary needs will be met.
5) Read as many books as you can - every book you read means you absorb another life. It’s the most pleasurable power-up ever.
6) You don’t need mascara if you’re wearing eye-liner. Spend your spare fiver on tights.
7) Never complain, never explain. No-one is paying you for either. Shine on you crazy diamond. Carry on your mission.
8) Ghostbusters is the greatest film ever because the main protagonists never fall out with each other. There is a lesson here.
9) Hair looks its best two days after washing, pumped with dry shampoo, and back-combed. YOU DON’T NEED A HAIRDRESSER.
10) A wobbly belly is the sexy birthright of all women.
12) (is it 12? I’m pissed) Always presume everyone you are dealing with has recently received bad news. Be gentle & forgiving.
13) There has never been a party better than eating a baked potato on the sofa watching “Cheers.”
14) The best eye-liner is Rimmel.
15) The best deodorant is 24-Hour Sure. Spray-ons don’t work. If you’re very sweaty, buy under-arm pads.
19) (literally lost count) full a pot with sunflower oil, salt & essential oil for the world’s cheapest shower exfoliant/moisturiser.
20) Become sweatily exhilarant at least three times a week - dancing, swimming, listening to music, walking. Exercise your body like a dog.
21) Feel fat? a) FUCK THE PATRIARCHY b) princess-line. This is the dress-shape that makes everything better.
53) When in doubt, listen to “Heroes” by David Bowie. You will always know what to do afterwards.
23) All concepts of Hell are simply the idea of you suffering for being unkind.
24) Sailors fighting in the dance-hall. Oh man, look at those cave-men go.
473) “And in the end, the love you make, is equal to the love you take.”
1974) If you don’t feel “normal”, your mission is to make your abnormal “normal”. I refer you, again, to David Bowie.
183636) Similarly, freaks, when people say, “That is not what we do,” you reply, “That is not what we do - YET.”
And then you smoke a cigarette whilst “Let’s Dance” plays.
bong) give me your hands, because you’re wonderful
48373) tights, boots, shorts, t-shirt, revolution.
HOT TRAMP I LOVE YOU SO. Mum says I have to get off the internet now.
*expansive arm gesture* PEOPLE ON STREETS *is put into bed*
“I want to do great things, as men do.”
you know the ending of ‘The Prime Time of Your Life’
it’s possibly a fairly accurate representation of your heart rate when it’s suffering cardiogenic shock, where the heart beats faster and faster in a desperate attempt to pump blood that’s going nowhere this condition is largely irreversible and will almost certainly lead to death
just wanted to tell you in case you didn’t want to sleep tonight
what are some good creepy/weirdy/disturbing videos that you would recommend? im bored as all hell and need a good scare.
Well there friend I’ll try to keep the list relatively short but uh yeah okay here we go
Pencil Face is unbelievably unsettling (in a hilarious sort of way)
Prison Sex by Tool has a really cool/creepy music video
Whispered Faith is an incredible series focusing on the well known monster The Rake. Video Diary #4 and Video Diary #5 have been the most popular video’s so far, but believe me the whole series is unbelievably well done and certainly worth the watch
I’m not going to get to far into Marble Hornets because damn I could go on all day about that series, but if you’re looking for a long, complex, incredibly well done horror series Marble Hornets is the series to go for. The scariest non-spoilery(ish) entries i can show are Entry #62,Entry ######, and Entry #19 (The series is full of suspense and fear but i cant really show anything else without spoiling anything, just wait until you see #65)
There are manyotherfantasticslenderseries that i would love to go into detail about but i’ll leave that for another day. Considering this was mainly supposed to focus on short videos.
These arnt really the kind of one shot jump scare kinda videos if thats what you were looking for, but they still manage to freak me right out.
As far as concepts go, “prime time of your life” by daft punk and “time” by pink floyd are very similar. They both bring on this sense of existential dread, but Prime Time is absolutely harrowing, especially with that music video. Daft Punk got their message across in nine words and some audio effects and it chills me to the bone (pun unintended) every time. Time is my favorite of the two, but Prime Time punches so much harder, and better…and faster and stronger (I also did not intend to do that it kind of just happened)