• Aries:When I first saw you, I knew you were the most beautiful being I would ever lay eyes on. Your laugh is contagious and I can't help but feel like I'm flying when I'm with you. Never change.
  • Taurus:You are a rock for me to stand on when I can't do it on my own. You are the most patient person I have ever known, and more forgiving than I thought possible. Growing up under your care was a blessing.
  • Gemini:I trusted you, and you ruined me. One day you will think of me and regret every time you pushed me down. One day you will see that I am more than you ever expected me to be, and my life will have more meaning than you gave me.
  • Cancer:Your voice was like music and you touched me with a gentle hand and soft words. I thought you were my cure, the medicine that would make me feel alive again; but with your poison running through my veins I can tell you now that I have never felt so much pain. It's been 3 years but I still wince at the sound of your name.
  • Leo:You showed me what love looks like and I will never forget the kindness with which you treated me. Sometimes I can still taste you on my lips and I wish you knew that I still think of you.
  • Virgo:I have yet to meet a Virgo who will have an impact on my life.
  • Libra:My feelings toward you are those of envy, I admit that I resent you. You had the approval that I have sought for 18 years and I fail to understand why you are good enough, while I am not.
  • Scorpio:It's been a while, but I still think about how we used to be. Although I have been stung by your words, I remember the laughter we shared and the all the times you were there when I needed someone.
  • Sagittarius:You save me daily and for that I can never show enough gratitude. My heart swells when you say my name, and you say it so beautifully. When I look at you, everything feels alright, and I know I'm safe. You are the most gentle person to have ever touched my skin; I hope you never let me go.
  • Capricorn:You came into my life at a time where I needed you the most. We all needed you, and suddenly you were there. It was unexpected but welcomed, and you continue to make life bearable for me. When you're around, thoughts tumble from my lips; thoughts I didn't even realise were relevant to me. Your support means the world to me, so thank you.
  • Aquarius:You are one of the strongest people I have had the privilege to know. You pulled yourself up from a dark place, and I admire you so much for that, and I wish I shared your strength. We are not often sincere with each other - it's easy to joke about our pain when you don't want to feel it. But I remember when we drank our sorrows and laid under the stars in the middle of the road, and you gave me guidance and hope. I may not say it, but you are so incredibly important to me.
  • Pisces:You took on responsibilities that should have never been asked of you, and you never complained in the slightest. When you're hurting, you put on a mask, so carefully constructed; but you can't cover the way your voice shakes, and I know you too well. You deserve the wonders of the universe, and one day you will have your own galaxy, I promise you

On April 19th 2014, i came out of the closet to my dad. At first he tried to convince me to go to therapy cause he thought that being gay was something that could be “fixed”. I refused to go, after years of sadness spent hating myself for being different i finally learnt to love the person i was and still am and i didn’t want to let go of that.

I went back to college and me and him haven’t spoken ever since. I called him multiple times but he never answered. My mom told me he didn’t want to hear from me and that he needed time. I was hurt but i understood. We spent my birthday, his birthday and even christmas apart. Still not a word from him.

So after a year of pretty much not speaking to each other on April 21th 2015 I returned home like many other times, but this time my dad came at the airport by himself to pick me up. I saw him and he ran to me and hugged me. I started crying and so did he. He told me he was sorry and that he was the one who needed to be fixed. He gave me a diary in which he wrote for a year all the things he wanted to say to me but didn’t have the courage to. 

We got in the car and i was thinking we would go home. He looked at me, smiled and said “We’re going on a road trip, just me and you, you can talk to me about anything, school, friends… boys, i just want to tell you that I love You and i’ve never been more proud of you”.  I’ve never been happier, i love you dad.

A conversation in the car between my dad and our cousin.
  • (Roughly translated from Spanish)
  • Dad:I'm thinking about bringing the woman here
  • Cousin:you're married?
  • Dad:yeah, for three years man
  • Cousin:how many kids do you have?
  • dad:three
  • Cousin:are you bringing them?
  • Dad:naw, it's better if they stay
  • Cousin:so just the wife?
  • Dad:yeah, but I don't want her staying too long
  • Cousin:why not?
  • Dad:you know... they get ruined here, back in Guatemala they're fine just cooking and cleaning and taking care of the kids
  • Cousin:but here they're ruined
  • Dad:yeah, exactly
  • Me:ruined? In what way?
  • Dad:you know, they don't wanna do nothing
  • Me:you mean they want to be an individual?
  • Dad:yeah!
  • Me:and that's a bad thing?