d: tops

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

Don’t stop walking…★


No matter what I attempt, even if it’s the most simple of tasks, it always ends in failure. Unfortunately, I find that my life is one big regret after another. Yet, after all these years, I still don’t know when to give up. Is it my fault to keep trying when the results are always the same? Is it impossible for me to make things right? Even if I’d try to give up, I don’t think I could. It’s not in my nature to submit in the face of disappointment. In the end, I guess I’m just a glutton for punishment. I really am an idiot.

Shouseins top 20 favorites anime characters:  Pris top 10. #01 - Allen Walker (D Gray Man)

New In Town

The Fey Bar is a new blog dedicated to helping members of the LGBTA+ community find Online Table top game groups without having to worry too much about Homophobia, Sexism or Racism.

If your looking for a group, or to start a game Just Submit your request, I’ll post it, and my hopes are, people will find it and want to play. 

Also for any people who are new to the whole Table top Game thing, I’ll be willing to run One off Adventures for people to help teach them how to play certain systems, and help spread the fun of Table top adventures.

I know it’s somewhat impossible to completely keep people who are sexist, homophobic or racist, from people invading the space, to the fact that being LGBTA+ doesn’t make you a saint.  But I will try to block those I get complaints about

Also if you have any questions I do have a Q&A on the blog.

All in all, I really want to help create a place safe from people who spew horrible hate filled language, and think rape jokes are acceptable.  Just a place where the LGBTA+ community can relax and play table top rpgs together

Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.