Please be gentle and patient. I will be shy at first and slowly come out of my shell. I have broken and damaged and glued back together but I still have cracks. I have trust issues but I’ll trust you with my life and I hope you don’t break me more. We’ll argue over what movie to watch but I’ll let you pick because I just want to be with you and have lots of cuddles. You’ll get to find a movie I haven’t watched but I’ll just pick one cause I’ve seen a lot of movies. Please don’t be offended when I say I want alone time. I just need my time to think sometimes and I like to be alone, but it’ll only be for an hour or two. We’ll laugh and have fun, and I’ll always be smiling when I’m with you. You’ll get annoyed and say I spend too much time on my phone, and I’ll smile and put it down. You’ll make fun of me for the things I get excited about. I hope you like road trips because I love them and we’ll go on lots. I’ll show you places I feel safe. Mostly the beach because it is my favourite place. I’m fascinated by the ocean and space. I listen to too much music. I like to wear make up. It makes me feel good about myself and I feel more confident with it. Please don’t tell me I’m wearing too much. It is an art to me. I’m a dreamer and far too often get distracted by my thoughts about mystical things. I’ll ask you thousands of times to take me to the zoo or the museums or aquariums, because I love to stare at beautiful things and creatures. I’ll stare at you because you’ll amaze me. I’ll get moody and annoyed but please be patient, I don’t mean to get moody. I’ll fall In love you faster than I should. Im waiting for you, whoever you are. But I don’t know how much longer I can wait.
Please get here soon.
Love the Child of the cosmos,
Your future girl
Can we please talk about Carmilla “fuck the universe” Karnstein’s nihilistic monologue, that basically had the same message as Root’s “the universe is cold and there has never been a plan” speech, immediately segueing into Carm telling Laura not to give up, because someone has to do something? This comfort and encouragement coming from the woman who once told Laura “You’re a child, and you understand nothing” and literally tried to convince Laura to say fuck it to the entire situation and run away with her in S2. Can we talk about how this nihilistic “absurdist at best” asshole doesn’t want Laura to give up trying to do something good?
Can we talk about Carmilla’s moral developments over this entire series please I want it recognized that this asshole does care.
——I just recently hit a new milestone and honestly; I think it’s a good opportunity to do something a little more memorable than just putting out a bias list of everyone who’s been here and by my side <3 I will still do a list though I’d also like to do something else and here’s where you guys come into play!
I’ve made a poll over on strawpoll where I have a few options for you guys to pick from– and would appreciate your input on what I could do to well; thank you guys in a way and make this a little more of a creative memory! The poll will be open for about two weeks (give or take a few more days due to work) so everyone has a chance to put their vote in. Plus I kinda need to set up a few things for a video if that wins and money if people do want me to dye my hair lol
So please let me know what you’d like to see! Thank you guys so much and I’ll make a proper thank you + bias list when we figure out this other business for a milestone :)