It really messes with me that it’s completely physically possible to have a child at 15. You’d be 30 when your own child is 15. You could have another kid then, and if your kid has a kid then you’ve got a child and a grandchild the same age.
A. Age: 46
B. Biggest fear: losing people I love, disappointing people. And deep water.
C. Current time: 6:30 CST
D. Drink you last had: some red wine with dinner
E. Every day starts with: wanting to go back to sleep
F. Favorite song: still Till Death Do Us Part by Apocalyptica
G. Ghosts, are they real? I don’t know. Maybe
H. Hometown: Albuquerque. I was born in Seattle, but grew up in NM.
I. In love with: Chris, James, Julian
J. Jealous of: practically everyone. It’s a problem
K. Killed someone: no!
L. Last time you cried: yesterday.
M. Middle name: Marie
N. Number of siblings: just one
O. One wish: to be closer to James so I can see him more often without leaving Chris behind
P. Person last texted: James
Q. Questions you’re always asked: I’m a teacher… My life is questions. So many questions!
R. Reasons to smile: so many things to smile about. I love and I’m loved. Pets. Good food. Trees.
S. Song last sang: ummm I was singing along with Boston earlier today
T. Time you woke up: 7ish
U. Unwear color: purple
V. Vacation destination: anywhere
W. Worst habit: taking this personally/too seriously
X. X-rays you’ve had: just my collarbone when I was a kid. And teeth, for the dentist
Y. There’s no y??
Z. Zodiac sign: Gemini/Taurus cusp
A-Age: 15 B-Biggest fear: Spiders and abandonment C-Current time: 2:30 pm D-Drink you last had: Water E-Everyday starts with: Internal screaming F-Favorite song: I can’t choose because there are too many G-Ghosts, are they real: Yeah I think so, but not like the scary movie ones H-Hometown: Naaaaahhhh m8 people don’t need to know that I-In love with: Cats dogs and plants tbh J-Jealous of: A lot of people K-Killed someone: Nothing you can prove L-Last time you cried: I don’t remember M-Middle name: Haven’t decided yet N-Number of siblings: 5 step siblings and 0 biological siblings O-One wish: To be happy. Also, to be an isolated sheep herder in scotland or a writer who lives by a brook P-Person you last called/texted: My friend Zusteller Q-Question you’re always asked: I don’t even know R-Reasons to smile: Cats and dogs and plants S-Song last sang: Great Big White World by Marilyn Manson, and a few things I wrote too T-Time you woke up: about 6 in the morning U-Underwear color: Black V-Vacation destination: Anywhere but here W-Worst habbit: So many, and they’re all bad for me X-X-rays you’ve had: My arm and teeth, and an ultrasound on my stomach Y-Your favorite food: Chocolate cheesecake probably Z-Zodiac sign: Gemini
Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.