So I feel at times, left out of this fandom. Why you ask?
Because Supernatural did not save my life.

Let me share a bit. In 2005 I saw commercial for this new show on WB, Supernatural. Cute boys, ghosts, monsters, what’s not to love. I watched the first episode and thought it was a cute show. Kept watching, but it switched nights and now was on the same night as another show I watched, also pre-DVR. So it fell to the wayside, unfortunately.

Skip to 2010. I had been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease 1 year prior, which had me hospitalized 4 times within 12 months. Sept 20th, I had a decision to make. Either quit my job or be fired due to attendance. So I go into work, clear out my desk and head home. I’m ill, and bummed of course, but optimistic. Turn on TV and TNT has restarted airing Supernatural. For the next 18 months, I was unemployed and able to catch up on SPN and then some.

I get back to work, health improving and still watching and loving SPN. So about 2 years ago I started a fan IG account just for myself. But lately as I search through social media I see more and more fans trading anxiety stories, cutting marks, etc. Crying over how their lives were saved. Calling out non-depressive fans as not real fans; ‘you shouldn’t be in this fandom’. Who’s lives were saved more or first.

It made me feel truely unwanted or out of place. I LOVE this show, the actors and cast. I LOVE what Jared, Misha and Jensen have done to help out those with mental issues. I LOVE that Jared has spoken out about his own battles.

I also LOVE that Jared has stated that he has not saved anyones life. He has been a catalyst, but personally has not saved anyone.

In 241 days I’ll be attending my first con, and am at a loss what to say to Jared. I won’t sob or wail in his arms. I won’t thank him for what he’s done. I won’t ask him to pose in a pseudo boyfriend pose.

While, yes I suffered through depression in my 20s, and have anxiety, as most adults do, this show is a form of entertainment and escape from my hectic job (in hospice). Yes, the show found me at a time I needed a distraction, no it did not save my life.

Please realize, this isn’t to take away from those who it has helped improve or make positive changes in their lives. I do believe there are people who fake their conditions to fit in and that’s a shame. It takes away those who truly suffer.

Please also note, just because you have battled mental issues, does not make you an advocate. While posting about it brings attention to a much needed cause, posting pics of your cutting or scars may do more damage.

In the end, Jared, Misha and Jensen are actors on a tv show. They are amazing humans who help others and through their campaigns, but they are not therapists or counselors. Listening to depressing or anxiety stories can be very harmful or toxic to someone not in the right head space.

Be cautious.

Originally posted by sooper-dee-dooper-natural

BTS at the BBMAS
  • (Sitting next to Justin Bieber)
  • Jin: hi, I'm jin. You know anneyonghassayo?
  • Justin: yeah
  • Suga: dis..(points at Justin's necklace) dis 3 dollar chain?
  • Justin: what! No it's expensive
  • J-hope: (goes a bit too close and whispers) I hate snakeu
  • Justin: ...okay
  • Jungkook: (mouths I love you @ JB)
  • Justin: ....
  • Justin: (looking at Jimin)
  • Justin: you seem like the normal one here lol, what's your name man?
  • Jimin, with the cutest smile on his face: hi ^^
  • Justin: ...(triggered bc Jimin is really cute)
  • Rap monster: I apologize for all this, we're really nervous that's why
  • Justin, not paying attention to RM, still looking at Jimin: ..I'm gay
  • Justin: ...I MEANT IT's okay...

Pink Pooka is done for my portfolio. Now to finish Merrilee Boopkins!

The Pink Pooka Prince lives on a small peaceful world filled with teatime and monsters (nice monsters) While the quiet and calm suits their shy nature they also look to the sky and wonder what other worlds and dimensions lie out in the reaches of the cosmos. Good thing they have a good friend who just happens to be able to open portals to all sorts of wondrous and terrifying places.

Pink Pooka Prince ©merrimonster, thefairygodmonster (June VanOtterdyk)


I’m excited to upload a new, cute monster today because I’ll be DMing in about an hour so here we go!  It’s a Spectator by the amazing @thegorgonist.  Spectators are a type of beholderkin that date all the way back to the first Monster Manual II (well, really before that in a module and I really feel like I might own it somewhere).  They specifically have four eyestalks and are known to create friendships with other creatures, making it unique among beholderkin.  

As always, please feel welcome to use our cute monsters in your campaign if you’ve been searching for that cutest of portraits.  If you do use them, we’d love to hear about it or see pictures!

Please do not repost.  For personal use only.


I saw a pic with Mishima in his full gym clothes and he was so cute this monster happened

anyway I feel like someone as tiny as Mishima playing sports would be so cute to watch? I like to think he’s pretty decent at it since he was in a sports club (I assume to stand out, but well things didn’t work out.… .)

i also like to think of Ryuji as the Tired Best Friend who knows Akira has a crush on Mishima but has to watch Mishima unknowingly side-step all the damn time (gdi ryuji, blocking me at the school fest too)

Last pic is kinda a sad thought :’)