I wanted to tell them that I’d never had a friend, not ever, not a real one. Until Dante. I wanted to tell them that I never knew that people like Dante existed in the world, people who looked at the stars, and knew the mysteries of water, and knew enough to know that birds belonged to the heavens and weren’t meant to be shot down from their graceful flights by mean and stupid boys. I wanted to tell them that he had changed my life and that I would never be the same, not ever. And that somehow it felt like it was Dante who had saved my life and not the other way around. I wanted to tell them that he was the first human being aside from my mother who had ever made me want to talk about the things that scared me. I wanted to tell them so many things and yet I didn’t have the words. So I just stupidly repeated myself. “Dante’s my friend.”
For all the fights that I have fought and all the tears that I have shed,
Ive never given up on myself.
There were days where I thought it was the end but god continued waking me up morning after morning to show me how much strength I still had in me.
So the skies I face, the world I will too, because i know it wont be over anytime soon.
I will continue fighting and I will continue facing because there are many words that I need to spread.
Change, I currently do not see but worthy for later it will be.
Because I will be someone and thus I will be free.
Proud I am of me and proud of the change that will happen because of me.
“I was by myself for a pretty long time. I needed to do that. I think everyone that I know has wanted to do hat or needed to do that at some point. I think when you spend enough time when it’s quiet around you and you don’t open your mouth for three or four days, there’s part of your brain that can kind of rest. I think when we’re out in the world and we have to talk to people, we edit ourselves. You know, we have to like, act a little bit. As honest as we may be as humans, when we’re out of here, we’re all kind of wearing mirrors on our faces. You know, constantly reacting to how people react around you. And I think when you’re alone for a long enough time, you can feel a lot more at peace.” –Justin Vernon