Ok, I know you said raising him is your job and all! But at least have some fun with the job! And kinda do things that caters would do with their sons but still work related? Sorry if this makes no sense! But basically just have fun with the job! And make sure cs-1 is ok! And having fun at the same time! If there's anything I've learned is that when you make work fun you really enjoy it and are sad when it's over!! So yeah! Hopefully this helps and makes sense!