Oh look another modern royalty AU, which seems to be a theme with me lately. Although this is just a one shot that came to me when I was stuck on a plane for a few hours. Hope you guys like it!
Summary: Princess Emma needs to get out of Misthaven. Really she needs to stop being a Princess. She’s always wanted to be normal, so for now she’s running away. She’s running away from a lot of things.
This wasn’t the first time Emma ran away; not even close to the first time actually. It’s not that she hates her home or even her parents. She loves them dearly. They just hold such high expectations for her, expectations she’s not sure she can live up to. All she wants is a normal life and she can’t have that when she lives in a palace with guards. She can’t live in a apartment that overlooks the river and have friends over. So she’s running away not forever just for a couple months to clear her head get her priorities straight. She’s running away to get over him. She’s running away for a lot of reasons.
I think the best piece of advice I have got
ever was in my third year of CS, in an algorithms and complexity class. I remember when we went up to the blackboard and someone was stuck in some part of a problem, the professor always told us to take a step back. Literally. So I remember people took a step back (even, sometimes some people returned to their seats to see the whole blackboard) and it seemed, they magically got the answer. In those times I questioned that. How someone who has been stuck in the same problem for a long time, take a step back and then see what’s the problem?
Then, one day, I was in the blackboard and was stuck somewhere, the professor gave me that advice. One step back and I saw the blackboard in a different way. I was able to keep on writing a solution for the problem.
After that, I found it doesn’t need to be a literal step back. It can be going for a walk, drink or eat something, whatever. You know that, if you ever feel stressed and you can keep going on, relax, but you seldom do that. At least, I don’t.
So, today, I was programming something, but it didn’t work. I was 100% sure, I understood what I needed to code, but it wasn’t still working. I decided to brush my teeth and drink water; meanwhile I was summing up what I had done. I rethought the whole problem for a moment, and I got it! I was focused in the details, instead of the whole picture.
When we met it was just one thing that mattered to me: getting my revenge. And you did something that no one else ever could: you showed me that a heart full of love is the most precious treasure of all. And one that I don't intend to lose. They say that a captain's heart belongs to his ship. And with this ring, it now belongs to you.
Killian. I spent so much of my life on my own. And then Henry found me and brought me to Storybrooke and helped me find the rest of my family. But just because you learn that you come from true love doesn’t mean you believe that you will ever find it. But thanks to you, now I have.
E m m a, when we met, there was just one thing that mattered to me: getting my revenge. And you did something that no one else ever could. You showed me that a heart full of love was the most precious treasure of all. One that I don’t intend to lose. They say that a captain’s heart belongs to his ship. With this ring, it now belongs to you.
K i l l i a n, I spent so much of my life on my own. And then Henry found me and brought me to Storybrooke and helped me find the rest of my family. But just because you learn that you come from true love doesn’t mean you believe that you will ever find it. But thanks to you, now I have.
Eu sei que não sou nada perfeita. Tenho meus traumas, meus dramas, minha confusão, meu caos. Eu já sofri muito por achar que eu teria que mudar para que as pessoas gostassem de mim, eu achava que o problema era eu, mas agora eu me aceito do jeito que eu sou e espero que você entenda e aceite também. Eu sou isso que você está vendo. Todas as minha cartas estão na mesa. Eu estou transparente pra você. Você tem que saber que sou cheia de cicatrizes profundas, carrego em minhas bagagens todas as decepções que vivi, todos os amores que amei e todos os sonhos que sonhei. Sou cheia de surpresas e as vezes necessito de carinho todos os minutos do dia. Eu sou uma completa bagunça, tenho mil defeitos e as vezes não consigo entender porque não sou o bastante para alguém. Depois de várias decepções, criei ao meu redor diversas armaduras para manter as pessoas a uma distância segura para que não ultrapassem e se encontrem muito próximas a minha alma, mas vou confessar que só preciso de alguém que realmente demonstre que se importa. Tudo em mim é demais. Saiba que essa que vê é tudo que sou, vezes uma flor colorida, vezes fechada e vezes murcha e sem cor, mas levo quem amo sempre em meu coração, os guardo e os motivo a seguir em frente. Se confio me dou por inteiro e nunca me arrependo do que digo ou faço. Eu sempre protejo quem amo, e as vezes sou dura demais com minha sinceridade, mas essa é minha forma de cuidar. Perdoo com facilidade e sempre me entrego com alma e vigor para entender o coração dos outros, pois sei como é bom se sentir confortável na companhia de alguém. Se você ainda quiser ficar ao meu lado e misturar seu caos e sua bagunça com a minha, te amarei e cuidarei do nosso amor para que seja puro e sincero. Mecha as minhas cartas e as arrume, balance meu corpo e derrube todas as minhas armaduras, seja meu conforto e minha paz e eu serei sua. E agora? você ainda quer ficar?