crying for you

if i had a nickle for everytime some asked me “why watch someone else when you could just play the game yourself?” id have enough money to afford to buy a console, a computer, and all the games id ever wanna play

I believed you when you said no matter what happens you’re staying. Yet when I told you how hard it would be you just wished me luck and said you’ll stay away for good. I couldn’t possibly describe how I felt. No where near. I just felt like I was drowning and you were watching me. I was mourning for the love of my life. I felt like it was the end for me. You went without saying “okay this is it, I’m going and you’re messages will never come through and I will never come back.” That’s how it sounded. You made out like I was wrong. You didn’t fight or try to fight me. You just walked away like it’s just so easy to block someone. I cried for hours. If you didn’t come back, I’d literally be dead. I love you that much. If this doesn’t speak my love for you through words, I don’t know what would.
—  Kyle, this is for you.

anonymous asked:

(Bee what did u eat anon) I ate bad freezer pizza once and I was sick for a week with a fever and dizziness and everything and that's like the ideal situation for hurt comfort for me. Like Sid ate something because he loved it even if it was bad for him (looking at you mozzarella sticks) and he ends up with a fever and chills and a lil dehydrated and he thinks Geno dumped him bc he isn't here, why isn't he here?? They must have broken up! (In reality, Geno isn't there because he doesn't (1/?))

(He doesn’t know that anythings wrong. He and Sid don’t live together yet, so he has no idea that Sid’s crazy sick, today was an off day and he and Sid planned to spend it doing their own things, because they both have their own commitments.) Eventually, Sid’s basically delirious and crying sadly on his bathroom floor, fevered mind coming up with worse and worse scenarios for what happened with him and Geno, dreams mixing with reality until he’s convinced he heard Geno saying the sorts (2/?)

(He doesn’t know that anythings wrong. He and Sid don’t live together yet, so he has no idea that Sid’s crazy sick, today was an off day and he and Sid planned to spend it doing their own things, because they both have their own commitments.) Eventually, Sid’s basically delirious and crying sadly on his bathroom floor, fevered mind coming up with worse and worse scenarios for what happened with him and Geno, dreams mixing with reality until he’s convinced he heard Geno saying the sorts (2/?)

His brain tells him to call Flower, who he’s sure doesn’t hate him that much. He doesn’t want to be a burden on anybody else, but he figures he can lean on Flower, like he does on the plane. Flower answers his call cheerfully enough, but quickly becomes concerned because 1) Sid’s crying, 2) he’s not making any sense, and 3) Flower can’t do anything about it, like drop everything and go straight to Sid’s house, because he’s in Vegas (💔) which Sid doesn’t seem to remember. Instead, he (4/?)

He asks Sid to keep talking to him, and starts frantically texting Geno. “Sid, what’s wrong? Why are you crying?” He asks, trying to keep his voice sounding calm and light, even as he frantically texts Geno (Where the fuck are you? Something’s wrong with Sid. G!! Answer your phone). Eventually, Flower gets Sid to say that he’s at home, and a response from G that essentially boils down to “WHAT WRONG WITH SID, HE AT HOME? I GO NOW, KEEP TALK TO HIM, NOT LET HIM HANG UP”. Flower has Sid (5/?)

Calmed to the point of no longer sobbing into the phone by the time Geno gets there. He just gets Sid to explain that “’m really sick, and Geno doesn’t love me anymore and I want him to be here, Flower,” before Geno bursts in, and quickly gets the situation under control. Cue more tears (from both sides, and Flower maybe cries a little after he hangs up), lots of hugging, about thirty bottles of Gatorade, a very careful shared bath and soft hair washing, and sick exhausted cuddling (6/6)

ALSO do you think about how important her identity is to Eshonai (she thinks often about how different forms change people, and made a point not to use the forms as an “excuse,” notably mateform; she recognizes what her position as the Listeners’ only Shardbearer means and upholds it) and then along came stormform and hahahAAAAA

if only white wlw caused this much of an uproar when moc were being sidelined and wlwoc were being treated like shit. when poussey was killed in the most brutal way. when no tomorrow was canceled, a show that featured an interracial wlw ship between a desi and a latinx woman. when james was being sidelined. when bellamy was being treated like shit. the list goes on and on.