crying because we won't have this today

*WARNING. WE ARE ABOUT TO GET DEEP*
  • <p> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b>So, my brother asked me today if I ever regretted getting into bands as much as I have. When I asked what he met, he replied with "you cry more then you used to, you spend all day on your phone, and your room looks like 2005 threw up all over it. You just seem sadder then you used to be." Now, I won't lie to you guys, I had no idea how to react or what to say, because he was right, but for all the wrong reasons. Because, while I do miss not being out casted for my music tastes, or not having to deal with the pain in my chest when Brendon dose something cute, or not having to cry when I realize I may never meet fall out boy, or most of all, not wasting my 11:11 wish, wishing for MCR to get back together when i know they wont. What I DONT miss is the feeling of being alone in a room full of people, I don't miss feeling like no one understood me, I don't miss not being able to find a song to help with my emotions, and I defiantly don't miss pretending to like the top 40 worse songs. Furthermore, I love that, without knowing me, bands like p!atd, tøp, fob, and mcr understand me. I love it when Brendon sing me to sleep, and when Petes quotes make a bad day ok, and when Gerard gives me the strength to carry on. So I told my brother, "I may cry more now, but there not all sad tears. I may spend more time on my phone, but at least I'm not on drugs, and so what if 2005 threw up on my room? 2005 was awesome! I don't regret my bands, because with out them, without their music, my life just wasn't all it could be"<p/><b></b> Idk, I just felt the need to share that with you guys.<p/></p><p/></p><p/></p>