You are the one I want in my bed with me at 2 am even though cuddling isn’t my favorite. You are the one I think of when I stare at the ocean or when I see posts about making out with someone. You’re the one I want to adventure with, watch the sunsets with, watch the stars and talk about space with, push against the wall. Even though I refrain from doing so, you’re the one I want to tell about my day. Even more so it is your day I want to hear about even if you think it’s boring, I want to beg you to tell me the thoughts going through your head, good and bad. I know for all the happiness you emulate there is sadness in there too. I want to know about your family dynamic and your favorite time of year and your favorite place to go when you’ve had a long day. I want to be the person you can call crying at 4 am because life doesn’t make sense, or at 2 am cause you just got home and youre high as hell. I want to be the one you want to hug, hold hands with, hear the voice of. I want to be the person you turn to when your day is extremely good or just as bad. I want to be the one you drunkingly call at 2:45 am on your way home because you know I want to know you’re safe, and you want to hear my voice even them. I want to be the one you think about not just when you’re bored but when you’re busy with life. I want your little heart to be so obsessed with me. But that’s just it, pity party aside, the reality of the situation is life has led me to believe that anyone worth my time would never want this; would never want me enough to want all of this with me. I do not require constant reassurance, but sometimes I need your voice in my ear telling me you want me just as bad as I want you because the scars from everyone I’ve ever loved are telling me you don’t.
Aries: Taking pictures with the highest aesthetic level in the
world or they’re baking the cutest mini cookies, each with a special theme, to
give to all of their friends on special occasions.
Taurus: Living their second life that no one knows about or
excelling, at like, 100 sports at the same time because they’re just THAT good.
Gemini: Not in the mood for anyone when they’d rather be
screaming song lyrics at the top of their lungs or they’re busy making sushi.
Cancer: Ignoring you because you left them on read so their feelings are hurt (very badly). They’re trying to give you a taste of your
own medicine (usually fails at this) or they’re busy crying because life has
hit them hard.
Leo: Either sleeping till 2 in the afternoon or just scrolling
on Tumblr without any self control to stop.
Virgo: Busy cuddling with their thousands of pets and would
rather nap with all of them than deal with the stress of life or they’re out
travelling the world.
Libra: They’ll always reply to your texts within a matter
of minutes because they’re never seen without their cellular device.
Scorpio: Making plans to fight a b**ch or going out to
party till the cows come home!
Sagittarius: They’re carrying too much food and too busy
eating it or they just want to be alone (and eat) than do anything else.
Capricorn: Living that no wifi life at home and there’s no
way they’d waste their data on messages, it needs to be saved to look up memes
or they’re just gone ??? no one knows where they go ???
Aquarius: Sleeping, sleeping and some more sleeping. Also
Pisces: Out on an extravagant date
with their significant other or watching videos that make no sense but it drags
them into an endless spiral.
And I get it. I get why you were so scared of us now. Because – shit. Because you lost Wallace and it gutted you and I thought I figured out why and that felt like metal in my throat, and I realised I couldn’t drop you if I wanted to, ‘cause you were saying you didn’t even know what love feels like and I was just thinking,
What your doctor doesn’t tell you when you’re diagnosed with diabetes:
1. There’ll be nights when you stay up crying because you can’t get your blood sugar down.
2. There’ll be nights when you wake up so disoriented you don’t know where you are because your blood sugar dropped that low.
3. Trying to not let it interfere with your school and work life is impossible.
4. There’ll be times when you’re so frustrated you’ll just want to tear everything related to the disease off your body and throw it as far away as you can.
5. You’ll always be scared.