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Back in 2010, when Tex was beating the living hell out of the Reds and Blues in RVB season 8, I fell in love.

I was like, “I want to do that”

Granted, it would be awesome to be a badass and kick everyone’s butt– what I looked at was the animation. 

This is when I fell in love with Roosterteeth.

I eventually found Monty, and he was added to one of my top favorites guys. I honestly liked him in the beginning because I love his sense of fashion. Like honestly, he was totally cool!!

After a year of watching Roosterteeth, I grew fonder and fonder of him. He became an inspiration for me, especially with his hard work. That in itself, is something I highly respect: Hard Work and Never Giving Up.

Senior year is here for me, and as of last year I decided that my goal in life was to try my hardest to nail a job at Roosterteeth as an artist/animator. I do little animations here and there of Achievement Hunter, but nothing too big yet. I’m still learning what I can by myself.

My dream was to work under Monty. I wanted to learn from him and be even better than I could ever be because I love art with all my passion. All the passion my heart can emit. I wanted a job where I can live my passion to it’s fullest..

I was utterly destroyed yesterday. I’ve lost family and friends before, but yesterday was the first time I questioned reality and if it was all a dream. It was such a horrible feeling to realize that no, it wasn’t a dream. My inspiration was gone. I cried for hours and hours, I’m sure everyone did. I wanted to give up because god damn it, Monty Oum was gone.

But, Monty wouldn’t want that. No, he would probably be upset with the time wasted crying, haha.

Friends, it’s going to be rough. It’s going to be very hard, especially for those at Roosterteeth, to move on without this great guy. But for Monty’s sake– I think we shouldn’t give up on our dreams. We should push ourselves EVEN HARDER THAN BEFORE! We should Keep Moving Forward and make every second count. For Monty. He would want us to achieve our goals, and once we’ve done that– KEEP GOING!! ALWAYS ALWAYS GOING!!

I know, I’m not going to give up on trying to get a job at Roosterteeth, in fact I’m going to try even harder and harder! (Beware, I’m very stubborn and persistent) I know it’s a long-shot, I know I need WAAAAYY more practice and experience with art and animation. And I’m going to do just that.

We should all work harder and do our very best in life to achieve whatever goal it is we want. For Monty Oum. Let’s show him what we can do and make him proud.

Inspired by the Outro: Love is Not Over. Enjoy! P.S. the picture speaks different from what I had written.lol - Admin Sun 


I think I ruined things between us. I think I messed up. No, we didn’t break up or anything. I just think I made a deeper cut in our relationship. Maybe I was too harsh. Was I? Probably. I was just so angry! I didn’t mean to make her storm out and leave me with tears falling. I didn’t even had the intention to make her cry! But I did. I messed up. What do I even do? This is my first time upsetting her to this extent. Other times, it would be arguments and yelling, but no tears and we would make up about ten minutes later.

But this time, I made her cry.

Dammit, Jungkook. Why can’t you watch what you say? I sighed as I ran my hand through my hair. When she stormed out, I called after her, but she ignored me. I would ignore me too for what I said. It just came out. The words I thought but knew not to say just came out than what I actually planned to say. She then closed her mouth and looked at me as tears fell and she shook her head, leaving without a word. I knew right then and there, I said something so wrong and I broke her. Maybe not completely, but I formed a crack on her heart. I formed a crack on a fragile heart she trusted me with.

Love is so complicated. I hate how people think it’s so easy where one thinks all they have to do is just be happy and do everything together and to not get into arguments. But no. That’s not how it works. To achieve happiness, you have to do whatever it takes to make that other person happy. There’s no such thing as a “perfect relationship”. My hyungs told me arguments are what strengthens a relationship. Arguments show the other person that you care about them. Arguments happen and they aren’t pretty. But, they do show you how to forgive someone and open up this whole new part of your heart that allows you to use words you never knew you had a knowledge of just to apologize and see her smile.

I don’t get how people think love is an easy game to play. What’s so easy about it? It’s more complex than Namjoon hyung’s brain in all honesty. There are times I understand her and there are times I don’t. There are times I know what to say and there are times when I don’t. There are times when we don’t talk and there are times where we do, but barely anything is said. There are times when things are dark and other times when things are light. It’s a constant battle to please her and to make sure I don’t make her ever think of ending everything because I am in love with her to the point I can’t think of her leaving me.

I stared out the window, seeing a bright day ahead of me, but our mood spoke otherwise. She’s probably at home crying alone or talking to a friend while I’m here wasting time and trying to think of what I can do to make this up. A simple apology won’t make up for it. I mean, what I said would make me want to kick myself in the face. So, what can I do? I dug my phone out of my pocket and decided to call Jin hyung since I trusted him. I mean, he’s the oldest so he has to know something about love, right?

“Hello?”

“Hyung! I…I need help,” I said as I decided to go outside to talk.

“What’s up?” he asked.

“I got into a big fight with ______ and I said some things I didn’t mean to say and well…she cried and left,” I said, closing my eyes to hear scolding. But all I heard was a sigh.

“Jungkook, what did you exactly say?”

“I said, ‘I wish you would just give me some space for once and to let me breathe without you constantly bothering me’,” I quoted. He let out another sigh and I covered my face in embarrassment and stupidity.

“Jungkook, what do you mean by 'space and constantly bothering me?’” he wondered.

“I don’t know…I mean, I guess I was being dumb. Lately, she’s been clinging on to me more than usual and I…I’m not quite sure why. And she constantly checks up on me multiple times and sends me many messages and gets mad when I don’t reply within an hour,” I answered.

“Could she just be worried about you because you’ve been pretty busy lately with your work and such? I mean, you haven’t seen her personally in weeks until today, right?”

“I guess…she could’ve just told me she was worried. I also don’t see why she had to cry…” I mumbled.

“You know it’s not easy for her to say that. She doesn’t want to say it directly, so she probably showed it through her actions. Also, she cried because you really hurt her and probably didn’t understand how much she cared for you,” he explained. There was a pause of silence before I spoke.

“That does sound like her. Hyung, how should I apologize to her?” I wondered, walking back and forth slowly on the sidewalk.

“Well Jungkook, it all depends on you and your heart. Your apology will be very sincere if you mean it. Just use your words and you’ll be fine,” he said.

“Hyung!! That’s so vague!!” I whined, hearing him laugh at me.

“Well love isn’t meant to be easy. Go apologize now.”

“How?”

“Just apologize from your heart.”

“How?”

“Explain your feelings to her.”

“How?”

“Jungkook, I’m going to go over there and beat you with my shoe if you say 'how’ one more time.”

“…How?”

“JEON JUNGKOOK-”

“Hyung! You know I’m not good with words!!” I said, staring into the sky and knowing time is ticking by.

“You just apologize from your heart. Tell her how you really feel and let her know you are actually sorry,” he said. I nodded.

“Fine. Thank you, hyung.”

“Mhmm. Good luck.”

I hung up and placed my phone into my pocket. Use my words? I feel like the only words I have right now would cause more pain. I took a deep breath and just decided to risk it all. If I don’t say anything now, I’m scared she’ll say goodbye and walk out of my life. I dug my hands into my pocket and walked in the direction of her house. The sun felt nice along my skin and the calming spring air soothed my nerves a bit. If a day like this is beautiful, could my apology be as meaningful and sincere like today? Hopefully.

Arriving at her home, she sat out on the porch of her home, reading a book as she swung back and forth. Her eyes then looked up and saw me. She still looks upset and closed her book.

“What do you want?” she asked, her tone biting into my skin. I bit my lower lip as I walked up the steps and to the porch swing where I sat besides her. I turned to her and could see her eyes cloud behind tears.

“Please don’t cry. I’m an idiot for saying those words. I didn’t mean it, but…you could’ve told me you were just very worried about me. I would’ve understand,” I said.

“No you wouldn’t, Jungkook. This happened before and you just didn’t understand. But this time, it’s different because you lashed out on me and hurt me,” she said.

“Then I’ll try!” I stated, her eyes widening slightly, “I’ll try to understand you better and I’ll try to fix the mess I caused. I’m sorry for making you cry, ______. I didn’t mean to. I was just angry and the words I said weren’t supposed to come out, but it did. When you walked out, I was worrying if I truly ruined things between us. I don’t know if you know this, but I actually really, really, really like you. I like you so much, I can’t even imagine myself without you. So if you were to just leave me, I would be the one who’s going to suffer more than you.”

I then took a deep breath as I grabbed her hand and held it in mine as I looked at her.

“Love isn’t easy, but yet…I will always love you.”

Her lips then slightly curved before she broke into a beautiful smile, a tear falling out. I caught it and wiped it away before it could fall down her cheeks. No words weren’t said, but I knew she forgave me and she still loved me.

And I still loved her.

~End~

anonymous asked:

What's this? Arthur had seen his friend, Lewis, crying with his face in his hands. He wasted no time running up to him and wrapping his arms around Lewis. "Why are you crying big guy?" He asked in a concerned voice. (I'm borrowing your ghost Artie for this. My tumblr is forgetful-mechanic.)

Lewis shakes his head but moves to wrap his arms around Arthur to hug him back - but stops - his hands trembling in mid air. Oh he couldn’t touch his back…n-never again. Not with his left arm… to many memories and he couldn’t use his right…

What if the demon was still in him? A small little piece that was gathering strength to take his other arm.

“I-I’m fine Artie….m-my shoulder is just b-bugging me?”

Oh how stupid are you, complaining about your shoulder when Arthur was…. he was…