crush of my life

anonymous asked:

I'm so jealous that y'all have a crush like i've never had one in my whole life

oh my gosh aw babe. trust me, in my life having a crush sucks because they never like you back and one after the other seems to send you worse mixed signals smh

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

I’ve never had a first kiss.

I’ve never had someone hold me and not want to let go.

I’ve never been pursued, never been chased.

I’ve never been the object of someone’s fascination.

I’ve never been wanted.

And because I’ve never truly been anything for anyone…

How could I possibly ever be worth loving?

—  Never