I finished my midwife baby blanket Sunday on the way back from the beach (thought it deserved it’s own post though). I played around with a few borders but Stuart wasn’t liking them and I wasn’t sure so I’ve left it at a row of hdc all around. I’m pretty happy with it like this, there’s a lot going on so the border should be simple but if I change my mind I have plenty of wool left. And if not, I can easily see a matching hat or something to go along with it. :))

Just coming up to (or possibly in) cycle 10′s TWW. With everything that’s been going on the past month or so, I’m just making sure we’re trying every 2-3 days and my tracking/obsessing is kept to a minimum. I won’t be able to test until we’ve moved so I’ve packed everything away and it’s been a really nice distraction.. that and picking out my next 10 crochet projects :P


Packers themed baby blanket progress. I’m using “I Love This Yarn” in the team spirit green and gold. I chained 120, and I’m using back loops only on this pattern, flipping my work after each row to give it that nice texture. I love how unique the blanket looks. It’s super soft and super warm. When I’m done, there should be around 60+ rows. This blanket will be good from 0-5 years old. :)

anonymous asked:

Hi, so I was wondering if I can get a head cannon of MC and rfa losing a baby and then maybe finally having one eventually? I lost my baby when I was a lil over 5 months and it crushed me. I've come to peace with it, but I'd love something to read and emotionally connect with. You're an amazing writer so I'm excited to see what you can do(:

Oh my goodness anonny you’re an amazing and such a strong person to have gone through that! I sincerely wish you happiness and love, I’m so happy to hear that this game has helped you overcome such a tough time! Thank you so much for your patience, I wanted to take my time and give you a well-thought out response plus I kind of got carried away when writing these! I truly hope that you enjoy, if you need me to change anything please don’t hesitate to ask!! :)

Side Note/Warning: I decided to get rid of the under the cut thingie since I had a few people message me about it not working plus it wasn’t working on my mobile. So this is a warning. this headcanon talks about pre-mature child deaths and I know that this cane make some people uncomfortable so please skip this one if you feel this way. Anyways, there’s my warning and I hope that the rest of you enjoy!! ^^


  • You and Yoosung were elated to see that your pregnancy test came back positive
  • The two of you had been trying for a while now to become pregnant and now that you finally were, Yoosung couldn’t stop tears of joy from flowing
  • You and Yoosung moved out of his small apartment and into a larger family home, immediately preparing for the baby’s arrival
  • The two of you even crocheted a tiny baby blanket together, Yoosung said happily that you both sewed it with love
  • Everything seemed to be going fine with the pregnancy until one morning you woke up and shrieked as you saw blood between your thighs and a sharp pain in your lower abdomen
  • Yoosung jumped out of bed and drove you as fast as he could to the doctors, trying to calm you down but deep down he knew what the truth was
  • When the doctor told the two of you that the you had a miscarriage, you sobbed into Yoosung’s shoulder as silent tears slid down his cheeks
  • Yoosung helped calm you down enough to take you back home but your crying started again when you walked past the nursery
  • Every night you and Yoosung would lay your crochet blanket in between the two of you, whispering ‘Good night’s’ and ‘I love you’s’ to your unborn daughter
  • It took a while, but after enough time of mourning for your daughter, you and Yoosung decided to try for another child
  • And when you became pregnant again, the two of you cried tears of happiness for two hours straight
  • This time, Yoosung studied regular medicine along side his usual veterinarian medicine to ensure that this child would be born happy and healthy
  • When it came time for the delivery, Yoosung was extremely nervous that something would happen to either you or your child but the birth went without any flaws
  • Yoosung held his newborn son close to his chest, kissing his tiny head as tears littered all three of your faces
  • You and Yoosung would constantly be with your son, giving him all of the love and attention that he deserved
  • The little Kim even inherited his older sister’s crochet blanket and when he would cry at night, Yoosung would wrap his son in the blanket which would immediately stop his crying
  • Yoosung would rock his son back and forth, telling his son how much you, himself, and his unborn older sister loved him and how she would always watch over the three of you


  • After establishing a relationship of love and trust, you and Zen decided that you both wanted children
  • So when your pregnancy test came back positive, you and Zen couldn’t be happier as he peppered your face with kisses and twirled you around
  • Preparing for the baby’s arrival would be a fun yet challenging time for the two of you
  • Zen became increasingly nervous about being a father but after much reassurance from you, he started to believe that he could be an amazing dad for his child
  • He even told his family about the pregnancy and while they still didn’t accept Zen back, his mother gave him a pair of his old booties for his child to wear
  • As your due date approached, Zen couldn’t help but notice how you didn’t seem like your tummy was growing big enough to support s baby, but he didn’t want to worry you so he kept his mouth shut
  • It wasn’t until one day at rehearsals that Zen received an emergency phone call from an ambulance driver that you were in the hospital that Zen felt true panic within himself
  • Zen rushed to the hospital to find you lying in bed, crying your eyes out as the doctor explained that your baby didn’t survive
  • To Zen, it felt like his entire world was coming crashing down but he knew that he didn’t have time to wallow in his own self-pity, he needed to take care of you no matter what
  • Every night Zen would have to calm you down from waking up with nightmares, you’d have to cling onto your husband’s old booties that were meant to be given to your son as Zen would softly sing or hum until you fell back asleep
  • Only when he knew for sure that you were asleep did Zen allow himself to cry for the death of his unborn son, not realizing that this process would be so painful
  • With time, both you and Zen healed and when the time was right, you both mutually agreed to try for another child
  • Zen broke down into a crying mess when you told him that you were pregnant, vowing that o matter what he would see his child be born
  • He was there with you every step of the way during this pregnancy, especially when you squeezed the life out of his hand during your perfect delivery
  • Zen looked down to be greeted with a pair of crimson irises as tears filled his own eyes as he looked at his son
  • He became extremely protective of his new son but still very loving and caring over him, especially when he wore his unborn older brother’s booties which he would always become a happy baby when he wore them
  • When your son outgrew the tiny booties, you, Zen, and your son would visit your eldest son’s grave and placed them onto of the grave as they talked to him
  • As Zen held his second son in his arms, he’d silently tell his first son how much he and you love him and how Zen knows that he’ll always watch over the three of them


  • It had always been your dream to have children and you couldn’t have though of a better partner to have a family with then Jaehee
  • She always had a motherly aura to her so when you brought up the idea of having children with her, she agreed
  • After much consideration, you and Jaehee had decided to go with a sperm donor from one of your close male friends
  • As your tummy grew bigger and bigger, yours and Jaehee’s excitement grew as well when the doctors told you that you would be having a daughter
  • Jaehee showed a newfound love of crafting and with your help, made a tiny pink floral headband for your daughter
  • All seemed to be going well with the pregnancy until you felt a sharp pain in your tummy so unbearable that you couldn’t even stand straight
  • Jaehee rushed you to the hospital only to hear the worst news imaginable, that you baby girl no longer had a heartbeat and had to be removed
  • Tears poured down your cheeks as Jaehee gripped your hand tightly letting her own tears fall
  • When the two of you got home, you clutched the small headband that you and Jaehee made for your daughter to your chest, with fresh tears falling
  • It hurt Jaehee seeing you this upset, so she wiped her own tears away and became your shoulder to cry on
  • After a while, you shakily asked Jaehee if she wanted to try for a child again, telling her that this is your dream and you know that she’d make an amazing mother
  • She immediately agreed so the two of you went to a different sperm donor, a friend of Jaehee’s
  • In a couple of months, you became pregnant again, much to both of your happiness and this time, Jaehee constantly reminded you to take your vitamins and to let her know if you feel any pain
  • Jaehee was there with you every step of the way, giving you lots of encouragement as you gave birth to a healthy baby girl
  • Your little girl was bombarded with love from you and Jaehee, even dressing her up with his unborn older sister’s headband which always seemed to make her smile
  • Jaehee would hold her daughter at night and would tell her how much her mommy’s plus her unborn older sister loved her, the little girl would grow up knowing that her family loved her and would always watch over her


  • After the two of you got married, Jumin was eager to finally start a family with you
  • Once you came out of the bathroom with a positive pregnancy test and happy tears, Jumin felt his heart sing with joy as he tightly embraced you
  • The two of you had so much fun decorating the baby’s room, often having debates on the color of the wall, what the baby should wear Jumin wanted cat onesies and what kind of toys the little one would have
  • While the two of you did disagree on most things, you and Jumin bought a little cat stuffed animal for your child, one thing you both agreed they needed
  • As your tummy grew, you started to feel more and more pain, one day it became too much and had Driver Kim take you to the hospital
  • Once Jumin was notified, he stormed out of his office and rushed to your side only to find you sobbing that your baby boy’s umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck
  • Jumin was stunned, begging the doctors to do something, anything to save his child but he knew deep down that his son was no longer here
  • You would cry every time you walked past the nursery with Jumin gently holding your shoulder as you sat in the rocking chair, holding the cat plushie as you told your unborn son how much you loved him
  • After a while, you and Jumin decided that you both wanted to try for a child again
  • This pregnancy went as smoothly as any pregnancy could go since Jumin hired the best doctors, chefs, and caretakers
  • Jumin couldn’t stop his smiling when he saw you deliver a healthy baby girl into the world, holding her close to his chest as he fell to his knees from happiness
  • Your daughter inherited her unborn older brother’s cat stuffed animal, always seeming to laugh and smile when she held it
  • Jumin would hold his tiny daughter at night, softly singing to her and telling her that her unborn older brother would always watch over them and that he’d always protect her


  • Seven had always dreamed of having a large family with you
  • So when you excitedly showed him your positive pregnancy test, Seven fell to the floor holding your still flat tummy, thanking you repeatedly as he kissed your tummy
  • He tighten his security system, especially in his baby’s room and went to building so many robo cats
  • But Seven wanted to give your child something that the two of you made with love together so you both agreed and created a space and cat themed mobile for the top of their crib
  • Life seemed to be going so well for Seven until one night when the two of you were watching a movie
  • You suddenly gripped his arm as he saw blood trickled between your thighs as you said that you were in a lot of pain
  • Seven raced you to the hospital, praying that everything was okay, but they were far from it
  • The doctor informed you and Seven that your baby was no longer alive, with you immediately bursting into tears and Seven feeling a crushing weight in his chest
  • When the two of you got back home, Seven laid you down in bed, gently hushing you until you fell asleep in his arms
  • That was when Seven let himself cry, asking God why he hated him so much to take his son away from him
  • The two of you got through the mourning process together and eventually, you and Seven were ready to try for a child again
  • As if God was listening to Seven’s prayers, your pregnancy went flawlessly, the only thing was Seven needed to have his hand checked out by the doctor since you squeezed it so hard
  • Seven held his son close to him, gently putting his ear to his son’s heart, hearing the beats made him cry tears of joy
  • The little Choi had his unborn older brother’s mobile and would always seem to stare at it in wonder when it slowly spun
  • Seven would hold his son at night, gently telling him that even though he would never meet his older brother in this world, someday you, Seven, the little boy, and his unborn older brother would meet and become a true family

Except for blocking this baby blanket is done.

Big thank you to everyone that responded with help and thoughts on how to make the white squares work with the very detailed plaid squares.

I wasn’t sure it was working until I added the ruffle. It brought it all together.

Made with @redheartyarns heart baby soft steps in tickle and red heart soft in white