cries to herself

before: 1990

She’s only been there two months when they do the medical screening. She doesn’t remember, until she does. 

It comes to her in the night, in flashes, in fits and spurts and fear and cigarette smoke. What they did. What they wanted her to forget. 

 They took her eggs. There are cuts near her hip bones they tried to explain away. 

 She wants a second opinion. She goes to Planned Parenthood under a false name. She pretends she’s hiding from an abusive ex. That’s what it feels like. They tell her. They question more but she brushes them off and runs out before they can figure anything else out, before they can report the young woman with scars on her hips and nails bitten down to the quick. 

 She cries herself to sleep in her dorm. Those bastards, she thinks, and it only makes her feel marginally better. 

 She questions one of them, later. What did you do to me? 

We took your eggs. We need them. We’re sorry we couldn’t tell you, but it’s for the greater good. You’ll see. 

Why me? she asks. 

 No one answers

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That’s actually how they first meet/the first time they start talking and Angie always brings this up during arguments to shut Peggy up (insp)

why do women in dress pattern illustrations look like they’re about five seconds away from DRAMATICALLY DECLARING THEIR LOVE?

#here we see masha- young and untutored in the ways of love#‘o katya!’ she cries 'my very soul aches when you are not by my side! i tell you i could not breathe if you were to leave me!’#katya kisses her just once. very gently.#and then leaves chelyabinsk. never to return#(two years later masha marries a local boy and never lets herself think of what might have been)

drunkardonjunkyard  asked:

When Logan found out that the farmhouse was invaded. He saw his clone kidnapped Laura. But he decided to rush upstairs and called out for Charles. He chose Charles over Laura.

It’s just a split second, but god what a terrible, HORRIBLE moment that must have been for him? I mean, to have to make a decision, to go after his daughter who is being dragged away by something wearing his face, or to go after Charles who is (up until Laura) really the only thing left in the world that he cares about…I can’t even imagine that there’s ever been a harder one he’s had to make??? (Maybe at the end of X3, with Jean and the Dark Phoenix?) 

Logan’s life is so full of loss and tragedy and impossible choices…it makes my heart hurt just thinking about it AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

“Was it worth it?” He asked

She was in so much pain. Her heart was beating so hard she felt like her ears were ringing with the sound. She had cried herself to sleep for so many nights, the impression her nails made on the pillow would never leave, the muffled sounds of her sobs would forever remain embedded in her memory; but the thought of not having done it made her sick to her very core. She took a deep breath and truth flowed out of her like the waves of pain she often experienced. “Yeah” she croaked “Even if it were more painful than it already is, I would always choose leaving the man who could never truly love me, at least not in the way I needed him to. I’m sorry if it hurt you too.”

He smiled. The answer that he was dreading had finally been given, and surprisingly, it didn’t hurt as much. He pulled up his walls as high as he could, hid his emotions with perfect accuracy and said “Then it’s okay. I’m happy you’re happy.”

Afterall, they were both broken by the same society, the one which so desperately tried to convince them that love would fix everything.

—  Needless to say, it didn’t.
She felt lonely. Like nobody cared. She cried and cried. Nobody was there.
She kept on sobbing, until her eyes were red. Just wanting to be able to go to bed.
She overthought and cried herself to sleep.
All night long, all she did was weep.
—  A small poem.
~Me
Nightmares

Cinder wakes up in a cold sweat, her head filled with visions of Levana and a fiery nursery

Scarlet shrieks in her sleep, she is back on Luna and is still being tortured by that awful lunar child

Cress cries herself awake, drowning in a sea of sand and a laughing Sybil nearby

Winter hides under her sheets away from thuamaturges that stalk her sleep, covered in blood

BUT THEN

Kai rolls over and pulls Cinder to him, tucking her head under his chin, murmuring sweet nothings into her ear until she dozes off

Wolf’s wakes up and says pulls Scarlet in his lap and lets her sob on his shoulder until she calms down

Thorne picks cress up bridal style to a window where they watch earth swirl beneath them

Jacin crawls under the covers with snacks and a flashlight, and keeps Winter laughing until she can’t stay awake

AND EVERYTHING IS OKAY

DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT MR. AND MRS. INCREDIBLE BEING OVER THE MOON WHEN THEY FIND OUT THAT THEY ARE HAVING A CHILD FOR THE FIRST TIME LIKE SO EXCITED BC THEYVE BEEN TRYING FOREVER TO CONCEIVE BUT IT WASNT WORKING AND THEN 6 MONTHS IN THEY VISIT THE DOCTORS FOR A CHECK UP AND EVERYTHING IS ALL CHILL UNTIL SUDDENLY no baby. AND THEY JUST ALL GO STILL FOR A SECOND AND THE DOCTOR LOOKS AT THE monitor is complete and utter shock and sadness bc he’s really grown to love this couple and he has to tell them that he’s really sorry but she’s had a miscarriage and that these things are common and they’re both just absolutely heartbroken and MRS. Incredible cries herself to sleep that night and MR. incredible just holds her not knowing what else he could possibly do to help her and then a month goes past and they’re still really shaken up about it but she still has all the symptoms of a pregnancy and she goes in denial and is all like “no. I am having this baby. Don’t lie to me this is not real. I am pregnant. ” and so she stays on her pre natal vitamins and all of that stuff but her doctor keeps telling her that she’s having a hysterical pregnancy and that she isn’t having a child but then two months goes past and she goes into labour bc turns out the baby was just invisible the whole time lol

Bc I think about that a lot

“Leave me,” she managed to tell.
“It’s okay, I don’t need you at times like this. I don’t want you here. I don’t want you seeing me like this so please just go. Go the hell wherever you want,” she exclaimed without her voice breaking.

He looked into her eyes directly and he felt a pang of pain. He took a few steps back, shook his head and walked away from her. It was terrifying—to open yourself up to someone, especially if that person loves you; especially if that person will still love you no matter what. It will only make you think like you are so worthy of love but you are not.

She is nothing but darkness and she knows he has always been afraid of the dark. She cried silently, she could hear the destruction of her heart loudly. She was right; he was like everybody else. She cried herself to sleep that night and hoped to God she won’t wake up the next morning. But she did. She woke up with a dizzy feeling. Her head feeling so light it feels like a balloon being flown to the sky, her heart feeling so drenched like a plant that’s being left in the desert. When she opened the door, she saw him there, looking soulfully at her.

“What are you doing here?”
“You’re probably thinking I was flighty last night and that I left you alone. For starters, yes I did leave you alone because you asked me to. I know you can’t handle that thing that’s going in your head but I still want you to know I don’t want to save you. Because if I save you, I will be your new source of dark days. That is why I let you be on your own last night. I want you to realize how important am I to you so I made you think that I am just like everybody else because I want you to know that I am not. I am here, goddammit,” he paused. He made a deep sigh.

“I am here and I am not going anywhere. You want to know why? I simply love you. No, it’s not simple, it is pretty much complicated in the best way but I want you to know that I am staying. I don’t care what happened in your past, I don’t care about your flaws, when will you ever see that? I love you—in ways you cannot think I can. I know you’re scared and that’s okay. Just please, choose to be scared with me. I am scared too so let’s be scared together.”

—  s.a., of terrified hearts and calloused hands

The girl found herself lying on the beach, her body bruised and alone. When she cried her tears flashed… Many years later when she was reading an old book of spells, she discovered that the tears of stars are the only ones that shine.

highkey wish more people acknowledged the trauma Allura went through and the fact that she’s probably plagued with nightmares because she was basically forced to kill her father and had to see him die again and she lives with this knowledge every day while trying her best to encourage the paladins and help them grow and smile for them and laugh while she cries herself to sleep every night but she knows she has to stay strong because protecting the universe is SO important to her an— just, Acknowledge Allura and her struggles. Please

Oh Lord...

I am now officially in love with Blue Diamond….

I mean, LOOK AT THIS 

Originally posted by gifsbuster

I can just picture her leaned over a ledge, tears pouring from her eyes as she bats them back. Shushing herself and insisting it’s fine to try and lull the pain. Eventually, she begins to rock back and forth to try and trap herself in a false sense of security. The tears, they continue to fall. Her eyes are now burning and veined, nearly bloodshot. 

Her hands, their lovely nails and soft, tender skin, have rubbed her eyelids raw and dark. 

She has become sore, and pale. 

She has literally cried herself sick for 1,000 years.

I wish I was her pearl, so I could climb on her shoulder and say softly to her as she lies back, pressed against a wall as the tears stain the fabric in her lap. 

“Shhh…I know you’re in pain, I know it hurts, My Diamond. But you mustn’t cry for so long,”. 

Try not to think about Emma alone in their bed, thinking he’s not coming home.

Don’t think about her being unable to sleep, so she takes one of his shirts and crawls back into bed, breathing him in.

Don’t think about the fact that being alone in the dark is going to send her right back to her childhood assumption that Everyone Leaves Her.

Don’t think about Emma Swan panicking that she’s alone again after letting herself love deeper than ever until she cries herself to sleep.

She is damaged, she cries herself to sleep night after night but she walks through life with a smile on her face and her head held high.
—  t.i // She is brave, she is courageous.

Jazz was guilted by her own conscience to break Freakshow out of jail. It took months of painstaking, secretive planning, but she came up with a solid design. When she DID break into the prison and was on her final step, she found out he was deceased. (The Guys In White’s doing). She cried herself to sleep that night, but little did she know, a certain circus-themed villain just became her unwilling guardian ghost right at that moment.

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