cries in to the sunset

I write poems about flowers but can’t manage to keep any alive. I spent a whole summer when I was fifteen not going to bed until the sun was up because I thought the dark was trying to eat me. Even now, when I bleed, I expect demons to seep out. My days are arranged by color; my brightest moments are always shimmering in pink. I’ve cried at too many sunsets and not enough sunrises. I don’t live anywhere near the water and can’t swim so I’m always falling in love with boys on the west coast. I collect song lyrics instead of stamps. I won’t be content with my body until it’s covered in ink and I don’t mind looking at it in a mirror. Home still feels like just another empty word I don’t fit into. I’ve never broken a bone and I guess that’s my consolation price for a jumbled mind. At twenty-one I’m still too small for most roller coasters, but can still fit on most swing sets. These days I sleep with lavender and blueberry incense on my pillow to try and keep the nightmares away. My heart is always straining against my rib cage, and I think one of these days it might liquefy and spill right through the cracks.
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My Honest Poem, Angelea Lowes

(After Rudy Francisco)

Panic! at the Inbox: Pretty. Odd. Edition

We’re So Starving: What was the last thing you ate?

Nine In The Afternoon: When do you usually sleep/wake up?

She’s A Handsome Woman: What famous person do you find the most aesthetically pleasing?

Do You Know What I’m Seeing?: Describe the weather where you are right now.

That Green Gentleman [Things Have Changed]: How are you different from how you were 2 years ago?

I Have Friends In Holy Spaces: Have you met any famous people? Who?

Northern Downpour: When was the last time you cried?

When The Day Met The Night: Do you prefer sunset or sunrise?

Pas De Cheval: If you could have any animal for a pet, what would you pick?

The Piano Knows Something I Don’t Know: Do you play any instruments?

Behind The Sea: What was your last dream?

Folkin’ Around: Would you say you have a regional accent? If so, what kind?

She Had The World: If you could go anywhere in the world during any period of time, where would you go?

From A Mountain In The Middle Of The Cabins: Ever been camping? Did you like it?

Mad As Rabbits: What does “reinvent love” mean to you?

noonfter  asked:

ALRIGHT CONSIDER OK so my friend had a midnight OH SHIT moment and thought of gai/zabuza because holy shit. Gai seeing zabuza as a "what if" version of Kakashi Bc the whole //I'm a tool I exist only to be used by the village// thing and the fact he's shunned for his demonic chakra and bloodthirsty nature and Kakashi is shunned for his father !!! Imagine gai being like yes ok ur my second eternal rival and determined to help zabuza out of the darkness like he did with Kakashi AND IMAGINE (1/2)

THEIR KIDS??? tenten being ecstatic because swordsman!! And pestering him for lessons and neji and haku!!! Them sparring and neji determined to find a way I beat his ice mirror jutsu and just imagine zabuza taking one look at Lee and being like oh god not a mini ok kid get over here and I’m gonna teach u how to use a sword it’s for the greater good and haku just is so amused and happy Bc gai is a ray I sunshine and it’s good ok

Um. Oops?


Zabuza is honestly still waiting for the other sandal to drop.

“And this one!” the admirably bloodthirsty little girl breathes with clear reverence, lifting a sword off the wall and turning to offer it to him.

Feeling mostly bemused, Zabuza takes it, judging the balance, and feels his eyebrows climb involuntarily. “Well now,” he says, checks the forger’s stamp on the hilt, and whistles. “Where’d a brat like you get a Toye blade?”

Rather than taking offense, Tenten beams. “I took it off a samurai in northern Ame,” she says cheerfully. “He had no idea how to use a sword. I was doing the world a favor.”

Zabuza chuckles, because this brat he can connect with. He flips the sword up, catches it, and tries a couple of thrusts, and it’s not Kubikiribōchō, but it still moves like a dream, folded steel glimmering blue like ripples of water.

Tenten watches him like a proud parent showing off her children, hands clasped in front of her as she bounces on her toes. Almost reminds him of Mei, really, though she likes sharp things more than lava. Likes sharp thing a lot, seeing as the walls of her apartment are pretty much floor-to-ceiling weapon racks, and that’s not even counting the scrolls full of more standard weapons piled high on a shelf.

If only the rest of her team were like her, honestly.

From the kitchen, there’s a loud cry of victory in two voices, and Zabuza swears he can feel his eye twitch. Tenten doesn’t even seem to notice as she takes the Toye blade from him and carefully sets it back in its stand, but Zabuza supposes it would take a lot more than a bit of noise to shake her if she’s really been on the lunatic’s team for a whole year already.

“Second rival!” said lunatic cries, skidding around the corner to present him with a beaming smile and two thumbs up. “We have successfully created a meal that will nourish your flames of Youth! Come, my friend! It is ready!”

Zabuza has encountered more exclamation points in the last two days than he had in his entire life before this, and he isn’t quite sure what to think of it. He eyes Gai for a moment, then glances past him at Haku, who is splattered liberally with what is probably batter and is frazzled but trying not to look it. The Hyuuga kid seems entirely resigned to his fate as he carefully wrings out his long hair over the sink, and Zabuza can’t see the clone thing but he can hear crashing off to the side.

How the hell were they beaten by these ridiculous people, Zabuza thinks, and resists the urge to drag his hands over his face.

“We’re not friends,” he tells Gai. “You tied me up and dragged me to this shitty village and I am going to kick your ass for it.”

Gai’s grin, if anything, grows wider. “Yosh, you are clearly full of Youthful Vigor! It warms my heart to see such spirit in my second eternal rival! Shall we have a rematch? Our intense man to man battle starts now!” He drops into one of the fighting poses Zabuza had originally mocked, but by now Zabuza knows better. This guy is terrifying. And not just because of the spandex.

“Not in my apartment, Gai-sensei,” Tenten says almost absently, like this is so common it’s become rote. “And careful where you say that. If Hatake hears he has a rival for your affections, he’ll get jealous.”

Zabuza blinks, then turns to look at Gai again. Just how popular is this bastard?

“You got dipping sauce on your jumpsuit,” Neji says blandly, on his way past with a tray of bowls.

“Ah!” Gai wails, and his hand immediately goes to the zipper of his outfit. “If I don’t get it out immediately, the stain will set!”

There’s a clatter from the kitchen, and the mini-clone skids around the corner exactly like Gai did. “Gai-sensei! I have filled the sink! I will defeat this stain and it will no longer mar the green of our Youthful and manly outfits!”

“Lee! You are going to grow into a great man! One of the Flames of Youth lighting Konoha!” Gai cries, and—Zabuza is pretty sure he’s crying. Those are tears. Backlit by a sunset.

He has no idea what’s going on here.

“You’ll get used to it,” Neji tells him, over the cries of Lee! and Gai-sensei! filling the air.

“Or go mad,” Tenten adds, more cheerfully than is really warranted, on her way past.

Haku edges out of the kitchen, takes one look at the scene, and then clearly decides that Neji is the only safe territory and beats a hasty retreat to practically hide behind him.

Zabuza snorts, though he definitely doesn’t disagree, and turns from staring judgmentally at his apprentice to glace disbelievingly at Gai. He’s just in time to see green spandex go flying, and—

Oh.

Oh.

Zabuza’s hardly a slouch in the muscles department—Kubikiribōchō is an iron sword as tall as he is, and it takes a hell of a lot of strength and a good bit of chakra to use it well. But Gai makes him look like a reedy little genin, and Zabuza already got his ass kicked thoroughly, knows that Gai very well could crush his head like a melon. He hadn’t seen the muscles, though, and that horrible bodysuit hides a hell of a lot.

Zabuza carefully checks that he’s not drooling, tears his eyes away from the way those boxers hug Gai’s truly awe-inspiring ass, and grabs Tenten by the arm as she passes.

The girl’s cunning enough to trip up Haku; she’s definitely his best bet here.

“Who’s this Hatake asshole?” he demands. “A boyfriend?”

Tenten blinks at him for a moment, then tilts her head thoughtfully. “His first eternal rival,” she says, studying him. “They’ve been friends since they were kids.”

Zabuza has a lot of work to do, then. He grits his teeth, then meets Tenten’s eyes. “How much would I have to pay you to run interference?”

Tenten beams, bouncing on her toes. “Swordsmanship lessons,” she says blissfully. “And three new weapons.”

He strangles a groan, but casts a look over her collection anyway. He’s going to have to try really fucking hard to find some she doesn’t already have—her hoard is impressive, especially for a genin. But—

He takes another look at Gai, who’s currently flexing for no apparent reason except fuck that is a pretty picture, Zabuza has not wanted someone to fuck him this badly ever—and then back at Tenten, who’s managing to toe the line between innocent and devilish with all the best qualities of both.

Worth it, he decides without even hesitating.

“Deal,” he says.

Tenten wiggles gleefully. “Weapons!” she says, and practically floats away to keep Lee from destroying her kitchen in his enthusiasm. Zabuza watches her go, then turns at the feel of eyes on him and looks straight into Haku’s slightly horrified and wholly judging stare.

It’s probably a bad sign that Zabuza doesn’t even feel an ounce of shame. He just shrugs helplessly, waving a hand at Gai—still flexing, still glorious—in illustration, and Haku groans and buries his face in his hands.

Zabuza chuckles. Maybe getting dragged all the way from Wave to Konoha won’t turn out to be such torture after all.

anonymous asked:

*slides 10¢ and a stick of gum to you* Shance/ Langst headcanons? (Happy ending preferable but not needed) ( ◠‿◠ )

*pops gum into mouth and pockets the change* lol sure my dude!!!!

Langst-

-Lance is homesick, we know this, but he often pushes that aside in favor of making the others feel less shitty about leaving Earth. He comforts Hunk and Pidge with shitty memes and jokes and helps out by cooking food or helping Pidge with leads on her family, sometimes talks to Keith about what life was like in the desert, catches Shiro up on all the latest news since he’d been gone, little things really. But nobody ever asks Lance how he’s taking it, how HE feels about leaving Earth. He suffers in silence.

-Blue is probably the only one he tells about his fears and homesickness, since she’s always a good source of comfort and reminds him of home. Since she was on Earth for 10,000 years, she has images and videos of all kinds downloaded from the internet. It’s basically an astral plane type of thing, and Lance will sit and watch the videos of some old Vines and jokes on the good days, but when the homesickness hits him hard enough, she’ll pull out the videos of Varadero Beach and the oceans and forests and landmarks of Earth, and rumble soothingly as he cries watching the sunset.

-At one point she shows him an old video his Mama made, a family reunion back in Cuba, and he sobs his heart out but is so grateful because honestly his family memories had started to fade.

-Blue will often sing to him, though it’s more of a current of emotions than words, sounds of the ocean and the rain and whales, always deep and booming but soft and interspersed with the sounds of dolphins and seagulls. Lance wonders if the other Lions do this for their Paladins, but refrains from asking.

-Contrary to most tropes, Lance hates getting injured. But he has pretty bad luck, so it always ends up with him in the healing pods. Sometimes he’ll berate himself for being dumb enough to get hurt.

-Lance, at one point, stops talking as much and nobody knows why until Hunk checks a calendar and nearly screams. It’s Lance’s mother’s birthday today. And Lance was supposed to lead the song this year. Pidge is the one to hug Lance first, followed by Hunk who drags Keith and Shiro into it too, and Lance kinda just breaks down crying and everyone realizes exactly just how badly Lance misses home, misses Earth.

-After all, none of them have super big families like Lance does. Keith barely remembers his dad, Pidge only has her Mum, Dad and brother, Hunk has a sibling and two parents, and Shiro only has his mom and his grandparents. But Lance has so many siblings and cousins and aunts and uncles that he has a whole lot of people to love and lose back on Earth, which must be terrifying to know if the Galra ever do reach Earth, they might get hurt or worse.

-so they soothe and reassure Lance that Earth will be safe and after he’s calmed down they all make it their personal mission to help him as much as he’s helped them with their homesickness.

Shance-🖤💙🖤💙

-PINING BOYS, PINING BOYS EVERYWHERE!!!!

-Shiro has a surprisingly dirty mind, I’m not getting into details, but Lance’s l e g s. Step on him please-

-The first time Shiro hears Lance sing in the showers he is 100% positive he’s heard God himself.

-Likewise for Lance, he was pretty sure that hearing Shiro sing in Japanese was the hottest thing since the man’s pecs!

-Keith is 90% of Shiro’s impulse control (spicy Shiro has spicy ideas and Keith is Done™), but he also wants to punch the man in the face because “For fucks sake Shiro just ask him out already, because if I hear one more fucking sigh out of you I’m stabbing you in the dick you thirsty hoe-”

-Pidge finds out and uses it as blackmail to get out of chores until they get together.

-Thank Alfor the walls are soundproof, Lance is v e r y loud and Shiro is blessed ;3

-Hunk does N O T need to hear how Shiro does THAT like THAT, thank you Lance, please spare his innocence, tmi dude TMI-

-Pidge cannot stop her smug little smirk around Shiro after the first night he and Lance get spicy, because she was the one to threaten the Black Paladin into confessing after she tricked Shiro into practicing how he was going to tell Lance he liked him by recording the practice confession and telling him she’d expose him if he didn’t do it first.

-Lance finds out, but merely high fives the girl instead because he has zero regrets now and Pidge is the best wingwoman he could possibly have backing him up. (TBH Pidge was sick of the pining and decided to cut down the pine trees herself)

-Black approves, Blue is a bit wary but warms up to the Black Paladin and entrusts her cub to him, Black does the same with Lance.

-After-nightmare cuddles. Poor beeb needs to be held ;-; (especially after ones where he loses Lance to the Galra and the Druids ;^;)

-Meme Team™💙🖤 they will joke about memes for hours, Hunk always has to stop Keith from stabbing one of them. “ONE MORE DAT BOI REFERENCE AND I SWEAR-” “Keith please calm down-” “HERE COMES DAT RED BOI-” “*UNHOLY ANGRY SCREECHING*” “oh fuck, Lance run-” “AAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!” “*Pidge laughing as she records the entire thing*”

Last night I cried because the days were speeding up –
When did the space between sunrise and sunset
become shorter than a breath?
-
Just yesterday I was thirteen, pasting black liner around my eyes
and emphasizing the exclamation mark between panic and the disco;
each month felt like a decade, each new year a miracle.
-
Today my girlfriend’s two-year visa runs out;
I remember when she got it, wrapped in shiny silver packaging,
just yesterday.
When we went out to celebrate, I held my breath as I surrendered a fake ID.
Today I don’t even get carded.
-
I type this on an old laptop with a cracked and bleeding screen,
which was once a “coming soon” fantasy on the Apple website.
-
Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if the days got better as they sped up,
but I’ve started to measure time by the rocks in my stomach,
the weights on my shoulders,
and the laugh lines around my mouth, which are now just lines.
They are the only thing that change.
-
Already, a week has passed since I started to write this poem
on the back of an old bookstore receipt.
The receipt is dated from six months ago,
although I bought that book
just yesterday.
—  Just Yesterday, When We Were Young
Taurus & Scorpio

1. Made the first move: Taurus
2. The big spoon: Taurus
3. The little spoon: Scorpio
4. The cuddler: Taurus
5. Cries during movies: Scorpio
6. More affectionate: Scorpio
7. Their favorite non-sexual activity: Sunset walks on the beach
8. More nervous to meet the parents: Scorpio
9. More protective/jealous: Both
10. Sneaks into the shower with the other in the mornings: Taurus
11. Initiates sexy times the most: Scorpio
12. Fuck or make love: Fuck
13. Behind the wheel more often during road trips: Taurus
14. Gives the silent treatment when they’re mad at each other: Scorpio
15. Reaches for the other’s hand first: Taurus
16. Whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear at inappropriate times:
       Taurus
17. Comes up with cheesy pick-up lines: Taurus

[As Requested By @jockerb, @laxfemmexfatale, @akemiiai, @blondemermaidprincesss]

Camp Camp episode idea where a new female camper arrives at camp who there for exploring camp and loves nature and dirt and all that fun stuff. Of course, Nikki latches onto her immediately and boys are like ‘Okay but Nikki has REALLY BAD TASTE in female friends, given her track record with Ered and the Flower Scouts. We have to protect her.’ and throughout the episode, they slowly grow more and more suspicious of this girl just because Nikki likes her.

But then it turns out they were just being assholes (like, it’s made very clear that they’re in the wrong) and the girl is really super nice and they need to get over themselves. People can have other friends, you assholes! Though plot twist, the girl actually wanted to be Nikki’s girlfriend and Nikki’s eyes go wide and she’s like ‘WAIT WE CAN DO THAT?! I WANNA DO THAT, LET’S BE GIRLFRIENDS!’

The boys feel bad and apologize for being little shits, and tell Nikki that they support her and they hope the two of them are happy. But of course the episode has to end with the girl being sent away for some unexplained reason just so things can go back to normal the very next episode (Maybe it turns out her parents sent her to the wrong camp) but she promises to write Nikki and also send her pine cones and samples of animal fur that she finds at her new camp. Nikki cries and the boys comfort her as the bus drives off into the sunset.

(Maybe the camp is like…just across the lake so they can write to each other pretty easily. And Explorer Girlfriend likes to sneak away and row across the lake just to see her).

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