cries because this is the production i saw

diamondsparkle42  asked:

Congrats on so many followers! I would like to request the RFA + V and Saeran reacting to a YouTuber!MC and them joining her for a video. What would the video be about and what would they do? Thanks and congrats again! (I saw someone do a boyfriend tag hc, but I don't remember who it was so if it was you, please feel free to ignore this.)

I would never ignore you <3


He is like a stick and doesn´t move at all.

-“Jumin relax”

-“What if my father sees this or one of my workers”

-“I´m almost sure that no one of them is a subscriber of my channel, plus I will blur your face on the thumbnail”

- “The what?”

- “Just trust me!”

- “Alright…”

Ok, know he is a little bit looser.

And OMFG the camera loves him and since is one of those challenges of asking questions and have to tell the other respond like the other person would

Well, Jumin totally nailed that challenge. (He knows you as well as the palm of his hand)

And you didn´t do pretty well but you reward Jumin´s effort off camera

The video went Viral!!!

-“Son! Keep doing those challenges with your girlfriend they are really good publicity!”

And the dad of Jumin like it (+1 subscriber)


You said to him that he will do a “My boyfriend does my voiceover”

-“But Mc! No one will see my face”

-“That´s for another Video!”

- “Tsk ok…”

Zen new all the products and technics

And with that Sexy voice of him, Well…all your subscribers we going crazy and only ask for a face reveal of your boyfriend

Zen was Very happy


You did the “Try to not cry with boyfriend”

At first, seven was like “No pobremo! I´m the man of steal”

But when the sad video started to play, You were the first that cried and then Seven almost cried because you cried.

The first sad video ended and Seven said “And this one” he click on the second sad video that was about two Brothers and an alcoholic mother.

When you saw what was about you pause the video to see Seven crying (A lot).

You took his hand and drag him to the bedroom of Saeran

You two huge Saeran crying

-“WTF Get off of me!”

-“Sorry, brother…”Seven said

-“Jesus! You two are crazy”

Saeran could move for like 1 hour because Seven and you were glued to Him.


Same as Zen “My boyfriend does my voiceover”

Put he was very bad

-“So now I will be putting this creamy thing that looks like a milkshake and oooh no I´m bending it” He yells “That´s How is called MC?”

- “Yes,But don´t get distracted”

- “Oh sorry…Ohhhh!!! now Mc is usin- I mean I´m using aaaa…I know how this is call…Let me think …A SPONGE BOB Ssomething- no that´s not how it´s call”

Total mess



Since the first video was released you two were the most famous couple in the world.

A lot of People came to your coffee just to see you two.

Jaehee didn´t like it at first but now she loves it.

And that made jaehee make her own Chanel and she make tutorials of how to make different coffees

And she reviews differents types of coffee.





Two hours later

-“Ok guys today I will be doing the try not to laugh challenge with my boyfriend! Say Hi Saeran”

-“Yeah Hi”

Saeran didn´t laugh or smile at almost all the video and you were trying so hard

But then a video of a baby hitting himself make Saeran smirk

You didn´t saw it and you laugh after he smirks.

-“Did you laugh?” you question saeran


-“Well, I think I lose…you didn´t smile or smirk?”


-“Well I have to do my punishment of eating wasabi with cinnamon”

And when you were editing YOU SAW IT he smirk before you.

-“S-A-E-R-A-N you little liar”


So sweet and charismatic

You two were telling story about each other

And It was one of the cutest videos every

Almost too sweet for my taste

But it was pretty normal

(I wanted to put you made one of those videos of “Pranking my boyfriend with a positive test” but then I was like: DON´T DO THAT TO BABY V YOU EVIL WITCH)

Special Agent 606, Out.If you want to request here are the rules: HERE/Masterlist: Here

anonymous asked:

7, 21, 37

Which artists/bands would you love to see live?

I’ve seen pretty much every band I’ve had on my list but I would looooooove to have seen Queen. Like I cried at panic! because bohemian rhapsody was such an Experience can you imagine seeing freddie himself in all his glory

Which concert that you’ve been to has had the best stage setup/production?

uhhh Im trying to think it was probably? when I saw paramore in london in 2010 but actually emilie autumn has the most interesting stage production I’ve ever seen, it’s more like a play than a concert I think she’s amazing 

Did you start listening to an opening act after you saw them in concert?

yes! I stayed a fan of new politics, milk teeth, robyn g shiels, basement, decade, patent pending, the homeless gospel choir and a bunch of others after seeing them as support acts

send me concert asks! 



I understand this is an advertisement. I understand Lean Cuisine is sold as a weight loss tool and product. But please, it is so important that such a big name is taking a stand for what (I believe) the fitblr and bopo communities on Tumblr stand for.

I just saw this as an ad before a YouTube video and I cried. Cried because finally something so mainstream was taking a stand that weight does not define someone, and that we are so much more than our weight. 

anonymous asked:

How are the RFA (including V and Baeran) when they pick up how self conscious you are of acne and that you pick at your skin?? <3

  • a/n. hi! shoutout for a friend! check out her page! everyone please send love to my pretty friend ( lyssa ) for me okay?? she’s one of the few people who inspires me to write!! without her encouragements i may not be where i am now~ here’s your request anon! please enjoy reading!

RFA + V and Saeran with an MC who has acne/picks on her skin


  • he was so confused at first when you two went grocery shopping one day
  • you were buying hella lots of FACIAL CLEANSERS when i say lots it’s /hella lots/
  • from those charcoal masks from etude house to the white heads remover ones sold at skinfood inc.
  • because your face looks pretty and fine for him why do u need to use those stuffs??
  • when you two got home you immediately locked yourself up in your bathroom and never came out till 2 hours later you missed dinner
  • he got so hella worried he marched up to your bathroom door and knocked frantically
  • “MC? Hey? Are you alright there? You missed your dinner too!” poor worried bby he didnt eat he was waiting for you
  • “Y- yeah! I’m fine! I’m coming out later!” but your voice was faltering badly and he eventually forced himself in he forgot he had a spare key
  • “I’m coming in, okay?!” and when he saw you crying yourself while hiding your face behind your hair he rushed to you
  • “W- What happened?! Oh god, MC!” he’s so teary-eyed now because he hates seeing you suffer & he’s with you but he couldn’t do anything about it
  • and he’s not used to see you looking so broken
  • he roamed his eyes and saw the messed beauty products on the floor; some were opened and the others not
  • “Hey… Look at me.” he tipped your face up towards him, caressing each scars visible “You’re beautiful for me. You’re more than enough even with these scars. I’m lucky to have you in my life, sweetie.”
  • “But… look at my face… I’m ugly! I’m a mess!“ you cried into his touch as he gently pulled you to a tight hug
  • “I love every inch of you, even the imperfections… Because it’s a part of who you are, okay?” you felt yourself calm down a bit at this because he is being such a romantic ball of sunshine
  • since he got so worried that this might bring your spirits down, he tried to look for some alternative safe facial cleansers you can use that is safe for your skin
  • he called zen numerous times but he won’t pick up so he resorted to calling luciel
  • the next day he asked seven what would be the perfect medicine for acne and scars on the face and seven told him to buy a certain cleanser and a tablet and mix it together, an ointment and a herbal soap ( he said he used it once when he got pimples & acne when he stayed up 5 nights straight because of a mission in a harsh environment and it miraculously healed his face )
  • when you got home that night, you were so surprised to see him sleeping on the couch; you went to wake him up by kissing him lightly on his lips & you were so surprised when you saw what he was cradling in his arms
  • he was carrying a mixture in a bottle, a sort of ointment and a soap you can use for your face tied together with a green ribbon and a note in it,
  • “Seven said this works like a miracle! I know I told you you’re beautiful the way you are but I don’t want you upset and less confident about yourself. Use this so you’ll feel better! But I still love you even if you look like an unshaven gorilla!” uHM yoosung that’s not entirely a compliment but he was still successful to cheer you up
  • he was so surprised to see u snuggling next to him the next day and you are both in your living room’s sofa
  • he was happy to see you finally have a smile on your face after the fresh events of yesterday he may or may not have stolen a kiss from you then

Zen *trigger warning: light face imperfection shaming

  • for zen, having skin imperfections is almost considered a sin of the well-being ( he’s pretty oozy when you talk about skincare and since he’s an actor who walks up to stage and shows his face off to many people, it’s a must that you know how to take care properly of your skin )
  • but he overlook the fact that you had some on your face, he loved you for who you are, acne-filled face or not because he loves you as a whole with all of your imperfections and assured you countless of times that it’s alright and he loves you no matter what and you’re still very beautiful to his eyes
  • so when one day, you were receiving letters from your mails, you have read a fan mail that was not enclosed in an envelope
  • ‘She will ruin your career! She is super ugly! Someone as beautiful as you deserves someone equally the same! Blahs blahs’
  • you couldn’t finish reading the fan mail since your eyes started prickling with tears
  • so you thought you’d take the matter in your own hands
  • you went out that day and bought hella lots of facial cleansers from all of the famous brands you know of ( you’ve seen some that zen are using )
  • and when you got home you tried some and you cried when your face started to become itchy and reddish, the acne seemed to have gotten worst
  • you locked yourself up in your bathroom and cried
  • when zen got home from a rehearsal, he was so surprised to not see you anywhere inside the house
  • “MC! I’m home!” silence “Huh… She’s not here…” he laid down the groceries he bought along the way when he noticed a really looooong receipt laid on the kitchen counter
  • when he read what it contained, he was so surprised to see that everything was for facial cleansing
  • his eyes caught a pile of letters and an opened one he swore he saw only red that time when he read the content
  • he immediately rushed to the only place he knew you’d be at: the bathroom
  • and he was right, you were there, muffling your soft cries
  • he hesitated to knock at first but then just proceeded to do so
  • “MC? I know you’re there… What happened? Are you crying?”
  • “H- huh? N- nothing! S- something just pricked my eyes! I- I’ll be going out in a sec!”
  • but no, he did not wait for you, he slowly unlocked the door ya boi zen used a spare key and let himself in
  • he was kneeling before you before you can even compose yourself
  • “Tell me… is it that fan mail? I saw that you’ve read it…”
  • “W- what? No! Of course not!” you frantically shook your head without letting him see your face
  • “Why are you not looking at me?” his voice was full of concern and as soft as a coo
  • you hesitantly raised your head as you watched what his expression would be but no, he was not fazed by your reddening acne
  • “I- I’m too ugly for you, Zen…” you said sadly and you felt fresh batch of tears running down your cheeks
  • he touched every reddening part of your face as he, himself reflected a sad look towards you
  • he only hugged you so tight as you cried gently into his arms
  • “I’m sorry… I feel like this is all my fault… I might have failed to show you how much I love you no matter what at some point.”
  • you shook your head as you hugged him back tightly “No… it’s my fault. They were right… I will just destroy your image…”
  • “Please don’t say that. What they say don’t matter to me. I am your lover, not them, alright? You only listen to what I say… and I say that you’re beautiful. Too beautiful for my own good…” you gently laughed as he kissed your forehead and then your nose and then gently on your lips
  • “Don’t worry, tomorrow, I’ll hold a press conference and tell my immature fans that if they kept on bothering you, I’ll resign as an actor.”
  • “What?! No! You can’t do that! They’ll go crazy!”
  • “You’re more important to me, okay? Your welfare always comes first. If they started to disrespect you just like that, then I won’t have any assurance that it won’t happen again in the future. I can’t operate on such a harsh fan base.”
  • and the next day, you were so surprised by the amount of apology and gifts you received you even got a 10,000KRW worth gift card from etude house holY CHERITSU
  • zen holds such tremendous destructive power


  • you were in jaehee’s office ( aka jumin’s lair lolol ) when this happened
  • her co-workers saw you and they started gossiping
  • “Is she Ms. Kang’s lover? She looks like swiss cheese!” i’ll fucking punch these girls is2g giggle gossip giggle gossip
  • you pretended you didn’t hear what they said when you saw jaehee coming to you with arms open
  • you beamed at her as you hugged her back
  • but when your eyes spotted those same girls who laughed at you earlier who was still laughing at you, you couldn’t help yourself tear up
  • “U- uhm… I need to go to the toilet first. I have- uhm, business there! I- I’ll see you around!” and you ran your way towards the nearest restroom
  • “MC! Wait!” jaehee shouted after you ran off but no, you’re too embarrassed to face her
  • you washed and rubbed your face using water and ur handkerchief, you kept on rubbing and rubbing until your face turned red
  • and your tears mixed with the water you kept on splashing, hoping these pimples and acne would just disappear
  • you heard a soft knock on the bathroom door and since you locked it, the person couldn’t enter
  • “…MC?” you heard jaehee on the other side, tone laced with concern “I know you’re there. I… checked the CCTVs.” UHM WHAT
  • “W- wait a minute! I’ll be done!” but your tone was quivering and jaehee noticed this one
  • “Are you… possibly crying?” she asked, her knocks now getting louder “Let me in, please.
  • you got guilty when she basically begged for you to let her in and you did as told
  • when you opened the door, she immediately hugged you, caressing your hair in the process as she rested her face on the crook of your neck you both are of the same height
  • “What are you doing to yourself? You’ve… been acting a bit strange.” she whispered as she slowly let you go
  • “T- those girls… They… said I looked like swiss cheese.” you blushed because you sounded like a child telling on her mother
  • “Who?” her face scrunched up, confused
  • “Where did you see them?”
  • you looked away and spoke in a small voice, “U- uhm… those girls in the receiving area. I think they’re working here.”
  • and her face lit up in realization
  • she enclosed your hands with hers and said with a gentle smile, “You’re beautiful no matter what. They’re very blind if they can’t see the beauty standing in front of me.”
  • you looked like a ripe cherry in season because jaehee stop making my heart beat fast omg
  • “Please wait for me at my office. I shall… take care of some things.” she tugged you as she held your hand and gently dragged you back to the office
  • and you were so surprised to see those two girls who were laughing at you to be madly apologizing and even giving you some tips of how to get rid of acne
  • ??
  • you looked over to the side and you saw jaehee smile proudly on her own while giving you a thumbs up
  • the power of a chief executive assistant is scary in a corporate aspect


  • there was this dinner party you and jumin attended together
  • but you were too nervous to attend jUST BECAUSE YOUR FACE IS FILLED WITH ACNE
  • though jumin didn’t seem to mind about it but he never actually said anything about it either
  • at the back of your mind, you thought that maybe he was trying to ignore the fact that you look like a fucking cheese grater
  • but he told you he loves you countless of times and even made you feel it
  • but it didn’t seem enough for you lately you were being a bit needy for his emotions
  • and when he started mingling with other guests, both respectable business men and gorgeous bachelorettes, you felt incredibly insecure
  • because they are so dazzling and every lady inside these halls perfectly suited jumin more than you
  • he didn’t even accompany you tonight!
  • you were left alone sitting and eating your dessert on the table when you noticed the other girls on the next table giggling your way while looking at your face
  • you couldn’t take it longer so you stood up and went for the powder room
  • when he couldn’t see you anymore inside the halls, he grew frantic
  • “If you may excuse me for a while, I have something to tend to.” and he immediately went looking for you
  • he was about to give up when he couldn’t find you and just decided to visit the CCTV room to look for you there
  • but he heard you mumbling angrily inside the powder room
  • two women just went out from there while giggling badly, he knitted his eyebrows as he softly pushed the doors of the women’s powder room
  • “MC?” you jumped in surprise when you heard his deep voice and dropped your foundation that caused it to break apart and spill all over the floor
  • you stared at it as you felt your eyes getting watery at the current predicament
  • “Are you alright? What fell?” he asked in curiosity as he finally took a step forward
  • “No! Stop right there. Don’t come near me!” you spat angrily as you tried to gather the broken pieces together, hoping to get it back together
  • he was taken aback by your sudden hostility that he couldn’t help but ask in concern, “What’s happening to you? Did I do something wrong? If it’s your make-up, we can always buy another–”
  • “You don’t understand!” you lifted your gaze up as you glared at him with tear-filled eyes and tear-stained cheeks but he just stares at you confused
  • “What? I won’t understand if you won’t tell me. Why are you crying?” oh gr8 he just throws sarcastic remarks at you
  • “No! Leave me be! I have some business to take care of!” and you went inside an empty stall, banging the door on his face
  • “…Nobody has business to do inside an empty stall.” he flat out says, making your anger boil more
  • “Get out! I will poop!”
  • “Then, I’ll wait here.”
  • “No! This is the girl’s restroom! I’ll call the security!”
  • “My men are currently the ones who are guarding the hall.”
  • “Just… Go! Get out! I don’t want to see you!” your voice hitched because of your tears god why is jumin sometimes so infuriating!!
  • you heard him sigh exasperatedly as he said out of frustration, “You are being absolutely childish.”
  • “Whatever! I won’t leave if you stay here! Go back there, they might be looking for you!”
  • “…fine.” and when you heard him step out of the room, you let out a frustrated sigh
  • just as you moved to open the stall, you were so surprised when you saw him leaning against the door with a dark look upon his features
  • “Have you calmed down?“ he asked without any evident emotions on his voice but you can tell he’s a bit irritated “If you have, you are coming with me.” and with that, he dragged you out of the powder room and back into the party hall & you were so confused because he just went directly to the center isle and checked if the mic was on
  • your eyes widened at his next movements
  • “I hope everyone is having a good evening. Well then… Let me begin. If any of you insult my very beautiful wife here, you will pay. This is because I love her so much.” he breathed and turned to kiss you passionately
  • “Insulting her means insulting me as well. So you better watch what you say from now on.”
  • he smiled softly at you as he tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear, “Come, my love. Let’s leave. Have you been doubting what I feel for you? Is it the reason why you’ve felt so insecure? Then tonight, I will make sure you never question my love again.”
  • did he realize he’s announcing that on public? omg


  • he was so confused when he saw you surfing for the most effective brands that will remove acne from your face
  • because your face looked perfect for him and it is part of what he loved about you??
  • he can’t help but notice that you’ve been feeling under the weather lately just by observing your bodily actions
  • “Honeyy~~! Do you want to play Immortal Combat with me? Come on, I’ll let you win this time!”
  • and when you straight up ignored him, he was so surprised that he got extremely worried because you were not being yourself at all
  • one day, when you got home with a bag full of cosmetics and facial cleansers, he asked you, “Ah!! Welcome back, my baby! Ohh!! That’s a lot! What are you gonna do with those?”
  • “U- uhm, nothing!” and then you immediately rushed to your room, locking the door
  • oh god help the tomato head he’s getting extra worried coz you have not been talking to him properly for 2 straight days
  • he gently knocked on your door after 30 minutes of waiting for you to come out but you didn’t
  • “MC? What are you doing?” when he gently pressed his ear against the door, he couldn’t help but hear you cry softly “MC?!”
  • he panicked so bad he immediately went looking for his spare key
  • when he opened the door with his heart beating madly against this chest, he rushed to you and when he saw you lying down the floor with a bottle of opened facial cleanser and blood on your finger tips, he had already thought of the worst
  • “What happened?! Dammit!” he gently picked you up as you struggled to get away from his grip
  • “No! Get away from me! I’m hideous!” you cried but he didn’t let you go
  • “Stop! Stop this, MC! Ow!” he cried in pain when you accidentally hit him on his cheeks and on his jaw
  • you immediately calmed down when you saw how he bit his lower lip to prevent himself from feeling the pain
  • “Luciel…?” you got worried because you accidentally hit him and when he lifted his gaze up on you, it broke your heart so much; he looked so broken
  • he closed his eyes as he inhaled sharply then he dipped his head on yours and kissed you
  • “Please… don’t scare me like this again.” he said, pain evident on his quiet voice “Oh god. You don’t know how scared I was! I saw… blood on your fingers.”
  • “Luciel…” you bit your lower lip but you couldn’t prevent your voice from faltering “I’m sorry…”
  • “No matter what, you’ll always be my beautiful MC! Ahh… I hope you realize that soon…” he smiled again as he gently caressed your reddening cheeks, touching gently every scar he can see
  • “Without this, it isn’t you. Then you’ll no longer be my MC…” you slowly smiled at his attempt of cheering you up because it was hella sweet
  • when he saw this he smiled fully as he pulled you into a deep hug “Don’t ever do this again, alright? Promise me…”
  • “Alright, I- I promise… uhm, I love you, Luciel.”
  • “Me too. I love you. Always will.”


  • he had not been used by your sudden change of behavior
  • he woke up to you one day not even finishing the breakfast he prepared for you nor even the lunch he made that day
  • you went out without telling him anything that’s why he got worried
  • but he decided to wait for you at home
  • when he saw you carrying shopping bags filled with nothing but FACIAL CLEANSERS he became concerned
  • “Hm? What are you going to do with those, MC?” he asked as he gently touched the bag but you immediately pulled it out of his reach
  • “Nothing! I- I’m going to head to bed soon, okay?” he was so surprised because this was the first time you became incredibly snappy at him and it was still afternoon and you’re heading to bed already??
  • he sighed because he decided to let you calm down first and that he should not deal with you when you’re still this heated
  • but when he found some stashed photographs on the dining table, and it was all pictures he took of you, he became confused
  • and then he realized what you were going to do with those cleansers you bought
  • he headed to the common bathroom connected with your bedroom and he was right
  • he saw you there, rubbing cotton madly at your reddening face
  • he immediately grabbed your arm to try and stop you from frantically destroying your face
  • “MC! Stop! What do you think you’re doing? That will irritate your face more!” but you did not listen
  • you cried as you continued rubbing the cotton and when he finally grabbed your hand and grasped it tightly with his is when you finally stopped
  • “Please… stop doing this to yourself…” he pleaded, pulling you into a hug
  • “J- Jihyun ??” you were so surprised because you felt tears falling down your shoulders coming from him
  • “Stop… destroying the face of the one I love…” he continued to plead and soon you felt yourself cry more
  • “I’m sorry… It’s just that… I’m not pretty. I make your photographs ugly. I’m sorry…”
  • “Ssh… don’t say that. To me, you are the most beautiful work of art.”
  • and he ended up teaching you how to gently apply it to your face since he doesn’t want to see you so depressed with your current problem


  • “Hey, Saeran… what is beauty to you?”
  • you had asked him once when you two were on the way home from eating out
  • he turned to look at you with a deadpanned face while letting out a small sigh
  • “What kind of question is that?”
  • “Ehh! Just answer me!” you remembered yourself whining because of his answer
  • “Jeez… alright, alright. Stop being so pushy. Beauty is something only few can appreciate and are lucky to have.”
  • he pouted his lips as he whispered ( you almost didn’t hear it ) “…and I’m lucky to have you.”
  • you looked at him quizically as he just shrugged and continued to sip on the fruit shake you two had for a take out
  • that conversation has been playing on your mind like a broken mp3 player since you noticed your facial problem have returned
  • you have a cotton ball on your hand and a few bottles of opened facial cleansers while you were looking at the mirror on your bathroom— you had gone frantic since your acnes began to show up once more
  • when you dabbed gently on it, you were so surprised to see that your cheeks only reddened further as you felt a burning sensation on your face
  • what you did has made your face irritable and urged for the acnes to swell more
  • “Oh god…” you choked back a sob because wtf it has gotten worst than earlier!! goddammit!
  • what face are you gonna show him now?? you looked horrendous! your face is red with swollen pimples!
  • when saeran got home, he was surprised to see your disorganized shoes on the foyer and the kitchen was messy
  • the worst of the worst has come circling inside his mind and he immediately yelled for your name, his tone shaking
  • when he finally arrived at the bathroom door, he was surprised to hear your sobs you didn’t notice him enter the house and you thought you’re still alone
  • he came knocking heavily on the door that you jumped from surprise and you hit your hands on the sink’s surface, making you yelp in extreme pain
  • when the door suddenly slammed open, revealing a saeran with heavy beads of sweats on his forehead, disheveled hair and panting madly
  • “What happened?! Goddammit! MC?! Fuck!”
  • he rushed to your side, immediately tending to you since you were crying from the pain of hitting your hand and the pain of being not beautiful enough for him
  • when he saw the scattered cleansers and make-up supplies, he immediately realize the situation that happened he’s p much knowledgeable with this stuff trust him on this one
  • “No.. please, don’t touch me!” you cried further and this has certainly took saeran aback like he couldn’t believe what you were saying “I look horrible! Oh god… I’m sorry… I’m not good enough for you…” you choked back a sob
  • “What are you talking about?” his tone was quiet yet with conviction “Since when has physical appearance became a hindrance to us?”
  • there he is again with his quizzical remarks!
  • ”…I have been a monster. I believed I cannot be saved after everything came crashing down. But you… you accepted me. Despite everything… despite my own ugly past… and you got the guts to call yourself horrible?!”
  • you lifted your eyes to him when you heard how his tone hitched then quivered, he looked broken and sad and you can’t help but feel a lot sadder
  • “Beauty is something only few can appreciate and are lucky to have.” you heard him repeat what he answered to your question before. you steadied your gaze on him as he stared at you intently
  • “I love you. Isn’t that enough? You’re beautiful for me. What more do you want? I’m lucky to have you in my life. Are you still looking for more?”
  • he was blushing hard while saying this and is not looking directly at you ( you got up and tackle-hugged him because wow you didn’t know he was this romantic?? and what he said really lifted your spirits )
  • you laughed with glee as you urged him to repeat what he said
  • “…NO.” and he went outside without any second glances he was so embarassed excuse him for a moment
  • awe shucks you do know he does love you to bits

Maybe you lost someone you never expected you would lose. Maybe you lost yourself. That’s even worse. When you have bad days that just won’t let up, I just hope that you will look in the mirror and remind yourself of what you are and what you are not.

You are not your mistakes.
You are not damaged goods or money from your failed explorations.
You are not the opinion of someone who doesn’t know you.

You are a product of the lessons that you’ve learned.
You are wiser because you went through something terrible.
And you are the person who survived a bunch of rainstorms and kept walking.

I now believe that pain makes you stronger. And now I believe that walking through a lot of rainstorms gets you… Clean.

—  Taylor Swift, 1989 World Tour

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So this is the first post I’ve made about this milestone, I didn’t make some big grand special post because I literally couldn’t think of one and I didn’t want to force one out of me. All morning I’ve been trying to get my thoughts together about this milestone and just about Sean in general I guess and I feel like now after I watched some fan videos celebrating this milestone and this vlog that I have something to say that’s worth while now. I’ve decided to completely and genuinely speak from the heart as much as I can. :) So I apologize if this post becomes extremely long or goes all over the place because I’m speaking from from my heart and also for only speaking for myself and talking about myself in this and not the community because that’s what these milestones should be about is celebrating the community. So please remember to pat yourselves on the back everyone because we’re in an amazing community together and we deserve to celebrate that. :)

Anyway getting to what I want to say about Sean.

There’s a certain moment from Sean that I always remember, he said this in a live stream he did a little while ago.

The reason I’m bringing this up is because I always remember this and also because it perfectly describes how Sean has made me feel in this whole time I’ve know that he’s existed. He helped me make my life worth living every single day too. :’) That probably sounds like a complete over exaggeration and it probably sounds awful to say that because that’s a huge thing to say about just one person. But it seriously is the truth. If I never discovered Sean I wouldn’t be who I am now, I wouldn’t be me. I’d still be this negative and sad person who wouldn’t let herself enjoy anything because she was so angry at herself for being scared of her future and feeling like failure before she even had the chance to try because she was always comparing her lack of accomplishments to other people’s. I was drowning in an endless sea of negativity and just felt like I’d never get out of this hole I’d dug myself in for like 2 years at the time. During that time I completely shut down, I lost so much of who I am in those years and just treated myself like absolute shit. I treated myself like I never ever deserved to have happiness and no one should live or feel like that. :(

But thanks to Sean and him just being who he genuinely is and making me smile and laugh. His contagious positivity got through to me in a time where literally nothing was. I was finally laughing and enjoying myself again, I started to try new things, I was being a lot more positive and optimistic and I even emotionally cried for time in years. I finally changed like I needed to after years of just forcing myself to stay the same. Plus because I was making posts about Sean everyday it gave me something to do with all the free time I had that actually made me feel productive. I saw so many of the things I loved about myself in Sean and somehow by him just helping me smile and laugh it helped me connect back to myself and the parts of myself I thought I had lost in those years. I found who I was again and I realized that I’m not bad person for being scared or not knowing what to do with my life and that I don’t hate this person I’ve become. I realized that I loved myself and that I didn’t hate who I am. There’s no words I could ever say that could ever describe how much all of this has meant to me. Sean has taught me so much and given so much then he could ever possibly know just being who he genuinely is. I mean don’t get me wrong I’m not trying to make it sound like Sean saved my life or anything like that or to make him sound 10x greater then how he actually is. It’s just that his positivity inspired me to change my own life.That’s why I say that he has helped me make my life worth living too. He may have started the engine for my changes but I’m the one that’s keeping all of that going. :)
But still, there’s no way I could ever describe what all of that has meant to me. :’)

Sean if you actually end of seeing and reading this post, the first thing I want to say to you is you’re welcome to all the thank yous you’ve said in this video. xD But also speaking just for myself anyway and not the community as a whole, you don’t need to repay me for anything that I’ve ever given to you. You don’t owe me anything just like how I don’t own you anything. That feeling of gratitude and appreciation is equal and mutual. :) Everything you’ve given me or inspired me to do for myself is enough and worth so much more then you even realize it does.  I mean it’s absolutely fantastic that you want to improve yourself and your content to make us all happy but honestly all you need and all I’d ever ask you to be at the end of the day is who you are. I mean you’ve helped me become and better and stronger person just by being the person who you genuinely are. My friend, I know and believe with all my heart that you are going to bring so much more happiness into people’s lives and get even more amazing opportunities for yourself and for the channel. You have such a amazing, unique and beautiful spark and light to you that brings so much positivity to the world. I know that you’re going to continue to work hard and throw your all into the things I know you’re are the most passionate about in your life. ^_^

I believe in you Sean and you always have and always will do me proud. :)

Originally posted by soramon

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