So I’m a pretty easy going person, happy enough cracking on with my life with no real issues to speak of. Iv not been on the receiving end of ‘hate’ and 'bullying’ for quite a number of years. I did in high school but now I’m not the kind of person you would really do that to. However, this past week my entire job seems to be falling down around me. Why? Well I found out there is being a real serious effort to bully me out the company. People badmouthing me behind my back, having certain privileges taken away from me ect. And all this with no explanation. A couple of people to their credit who I don’t even really know have contacted me to make me aware of what is going on, as they find the behavior of many of my colleagues disgusting and shocking. Now I have nobody in senior management to turn to about this due to them being involved. I thought I knew these people and considered some as friends, but it has taught me to be careful who I trust, as Iv never had to worry about trust until this point. Now I did not expect it to effect me on the emotional level it has done. I spent yesterday in bed and didn’t move till around 8pm. I was feeling shit, defeated and just really unhappy. But then I’m not sure how but something clicked in me and all of a sudden I wasn’t standing for that shit. How dare they, nobody makes me feel this way I’m fighting back. So now I have managed to slap myself and bring back the alpha. I’m sure a lot of you won’t really give a shit, but there are other people out there who will be struggling with being bullied and feel the same way I was doing. This has only been brought to my attention this past week but in this week it’s hurt me a lot. So it won’t be as easy for people who have been battling for months and years, but to those people, chin up guys. You are amazing people and we all have a fighter deep inside us to stand up and say, 'I’m not dealing with this shit anymore’. It will be harder for some people to find than others but trust me that little bastard is in there. I actually have a line from one of my favorite quotes tattooed on my arm from a previous hard time in my life and it is I feel so relevant..
'Sometimes life is going to hit you in the head with a brick, don’t loose faith’
Keep fighting you beautiful people. Peace.