creating positive results

[Trans] Chanyeol's full epilogue 160405

*Note: SJW = Shim Jae Won, CY = Chanyeol

SJW: Exo’luxion had 44 shows right?

CY: sigh

SJW: You had concerts throughout the course of a year and now the tour has just ended. I want to ask, what are your impressions/thoughts?

CY: Firstly, we actually did the tour in exactly 1 year. Started in Korea and also ended in Korea. I thought “Are tours usually this long?” but even though we did the same concert 44 times it seems like each time we did it with a new feeling. And I personally like Exo’luxion’s format very much. It’s unforgettable. I like it, really like it.

Actually I want to do the same concert next time but it’s going to be even better.

SJW: What should I say, I have actually kept close tabs on/watched over everything in this one year. While watching I felt really good whenever I saw how chanyeol was always working hard to stay focused on the tour. I remember that he was always well prepared. He adjusted his condition in his own way and because they did the first concert he talked about his problems first too. He said “hyung I think my condition is not good enough” and started exercising. He has become much manlier. I thought he was still a boy but he became a man. Right?

CY: I’m getting old.

SJW: Ya if you are getting old then what should hyung do?

CY: Hyung is young looking (younger than real age)

SJW: While doing Exo’luxion, were there any stages that you thought it can only be done and seen in Exo’luxion?

CY: For me it’s undoubtedly the electronic EDM section. I’ve seen other sunbaenims’ concerts and other singers’ concerts but I think I’ve never seen this kind of stage.

SJW: You’re right.

CY: I feel a great responsibility towards that section and because it’s the stage that I personally like very much. Everything was fun from the beginning to the end but I kept looking forward to that stage while performing.

SJW: Personally that’s what Chanyeol-ssi could only see, from the highest place in the middle.

CY: That’s right.

SJW: You felt great right?

CY: Yes I felt really good.

SJW: I was actually very envious when I created that stage, that’s something only he could feel. I couldn’t think of it but I should have asked you to take a pic with your phone

CY: Right I should have taken a picture.

SJW: So how were the fans’ expressions when you watched from above? We only saw from below (the stage).

CY: Actually I couldn’t really see their faces since it was too far but there’s that thing, when we said “Jump jump jump” I actually thought they wouldn’t jump. But… to be honest they didn’t jump much last year, but during this year’s encore concert we could see that everyone enjoyed the concert and jumped hard. Waa I’m really proud and I was really happy since it’s like we shared something mutual.

SJW: In the case of the EDM section we were talking about just now, he was the first person who talked when I had worries. Because, like I said before he is the one who had the most access to this stage and worked hard to understand the stage. He knew well that his responsibility is heavy. That’s why when I told him that during this section he had to be the most excited person, more than anything, the energy had to come out of his facial expression, his eyes and gestures he told me “Hyung I’m confident.”

CY: Ayuu, yes. But in the case of this time’s encore concert we did it 3 days in a row. So I was planning to adjust. If I had used 100% in the first concert I wanted to distribute 30, 40% (to this stage) but it was 100, 100, 100. It was too much fun when I stood there. My throat still hurts. I’m not lying it still hurts.

SJW: He always sent me texts after concerts “Hyung my throat”

CY: “My throat….” like this.

SJW: Anyways I felt good when I saw him jump and have fun like a living fish

CY: Thank you for making me (who I am now)

SJW: No you made it

SJW: You did overseas tour too? If there were 44 shows. There must be a show that remains in your memory.

CY: Actually what remains the most in my memory during the tour is when we went to the airport to fly to another country and they would cheer for us wherever we went, that’s something that touched my heart the most. This time during our NA tour I went around with Sehun and Suho hyung, we went to the place where J.F. Kennedy was assassinated and went shopping, visited here and there. Actually we went to the U.S. for SMTOWN concert as well but we had no memory so I think it was fun this time because we could experience American culture a little.

SJW: You finally went to the place J.F. Kennedy was assassinated and experienced american culture, was it fun?

CY: Yes. I like it.

SJW: I personally like there’s the private thing we did. Do you remember? We went to Japan together

CY: Ah Sharingan

SJW: Sharingan. That’s something only the two of us know. During japan tour Chanyeol and I went there first 2 days ahead

CY: To Tokyo.

SJW: We went on a date. Are you envious?

CY: We went to many places and did a lot of shopping too, played the drums and took sticker pics too.

SJW: Two men.

CY: That night my back hurt a lot because we walked too much.

SJW: That’s how it ended?

CY: Yes? Though I enjoyed it a lot

SJW: We went to the arcade together. Usually when men go there they play soccer game or boxing game but this kid played drums. He is indeed really good at it. I even have a video

CY: Aigoo

(Fans: Please upload)

SJW: I’m sorry

SJW: “The performance that members found difficult?“ Ahh, they talked about this. The most difficult performance was the EDM performance.

CY: Not for me. For me, El Dorado was the most difficult. Something I liked about EDM when we practiced for this performance in our practice room was that I sat in the corner or lied down and watched members practice because I have no dance moves (in the performance). I was very happy when we practiced EDM.

SJW: The reason why it was difficult is because it wasn’t a performance that they were used to/usually do and the most important point of the Exo’luxion concert was to engage the audience and they had to maximize that. It was actually hard to make them understand this but after the first and second concert they understood. And I suppose it became a good picture because our Chanyeol cooperated well in the middle.

SJW: Does Chanyeol have any plans to do a stage like the Baby Don’t Cry water performance?

CY: It’s my desire/greed and I don’t know when our next concert is but in the next concert I want to do something more impressive than a water performance - like a fire performance. But actually…

SJW: There’s something like lava show. Volcano show!

CY: Volcano? Have you tried volcano (TN: chicken that EXO is advertising)? It’s delicious even though I can’t eat spicy food well. But I have already talked with Jaewon hyung about that. When we were preparing for encore concert he told me “Chanyeol-ah you too let’s dance in the next concert”. That’s why, from long time ago, I had that desire, yes I will stop here . I’m a person with a lot of desire so I will stop here (joking). If you look forward to….No please don’t look forward to it, just stay at ease. Because when you don’t expect anything it will be better right? Fighting!

SJW: “Tell us Chanyeol’s unexpected side that fans haven’t seen or known yet” uh uh…

CY: Uh, there’s none?

SJW: No no, I’m thinking. There is, I was thinking about how I should explain it…

First, this friend is a positivity ball

CY: What ball?


CY: Ah I thought you said muscle ball and wondered why suddenly.

SJW: We have good chemistry and we talk a lot. He is usually bright but when we talk about music he is more serious than anyone else and he thinks every day how to express his passion for music. When we meet we don’t start the conversation with “How are you doing?” we start it with “How’s your composing process?“ and a friend that asks ”How can I make this good?“ a lot. It seems like he still thinks it’s a little bit early/premature to slowly show his works with his passion but I’m one of the people who is looking forward to the day he can show you guys his great works and I hope that he shares his worries about how to express the good work. I think I answered it well.

CY: Almost wow

SJW: This is the truth and we exchange messages. Our messages start with ㅋㅋㅋ (kekeke) and end with ㅋㅋㅋ (kekeke). That’s how we make efforts to maintain our conversation even in bad situations; positively when we meet. He is someone who shows himself that "positive thinking creates good result”

We talked a lot during our trip to Japan together and I came to realize that this kid has a great desire to live as someone who expresses himself through music, that I can look forward with ease to the time that he will make a great work and show it one day

SJW: I have something called sharingan and a picture of it that I want to show you guys…

CY: the moment you show it I….

SJW: Actually I lost it and found it not long ago

CY: I lost it at the airport, I kept it in my passport but it was gone after immigration’s process. I thought “That’s it I won’t be able to promote smoothly from now on”

SJW: We took a funny picture of it not a cute one so we can’t show you. I think we can show you other things

CY: “The reason why you chose white tiger costume?” Actually I wanted a giraffe costume but they didn’t have one.

SJW: Giraffe fits you

CY: Right? White tiger, first white tiger is cool

Fans: It’s cute

CY: I was about to say that. It was cool and also cute. I didn’t say that I’m cute because the costume is cute. And somehow when I saw it I thought it would suit me best that’s why I chose it. Does it suit me?

Fans: Yes

CY: Right? There’s no way it doesn’t suit me. There were many fun sections, apart from the Peter Pan section we had many different cute sections and I thought “Waa I want to keep looking cute, it would be nice if we could do something cute” and at that moment Jaewon hyung suggested that we do wear sleeping onesies. I liked the idea but it was really hot.

SJW: At first they decided to keep wearing it but took it off in the middle

CY: Right.

SJW: So after the first day I had to tell them to endure it even if it was hot, Chanyeol was the one who got the most upset, he said “Hyung hyung you should try it”

CY: Because I hate hot and cold. Normal is the best.

SJW: I was watching them wear those outfits and giving ments and I was happy because the picture was pretty. Fans drew a lot of animations for us too so I thought I did well (suggesting that idea)

CY: That’s right. It was nice. I hope we could do it again in Exo'luxion this July.

(Fans went crazy at Chanyeol revealing the concert date, Chanyeol then realised his mistake, feeling embarrassed he cutely tried to punch the banner behind him but there was no wall where the banner was placed so he fell off stage, Shortly after, he appeared again with a V sign.)

SJW: Let’s go back in time

CY: Hello, I’m exo’s voice Chanyeol. What was I talking about? It could be in august or september or next year. That was just my wish. Because I want to do it soon, I always tell him “Hyung let’s do in in July” till now. I just fell off stage and it felt like I was falling to hell

SJW: That just shows how comfortably we are talking right now. We don’t know anything x2. even…ah what I’m talking about. Next question

CY: The weather has become so nice right?

 SJW: “I want to try one of the performances that members did?”

CY: Me?

(Fans: BDC’s water performance!)

CY: But I..tbh I can’t think of anything right now whether I said concert or not. I want to try everything. Everything. I want to play the piano and sing I want to try everything..

(Fans: BDC’s water performance!! Abs!!)

CY: What did you say? Ah you are telling me to strip?

SJW: Something like BDC’s water performance

Cy: BDC? (Fans: Abs!!!!)

I, I, I…

SJW: The atmosphere is heating up!!

CY (Jokingly because he wants to avoid stripping at all costs): I said it so many times but because I want to show our young audience who come to our concert only good things and give them dream and hope.

(Fans: But that’s a good thing!!)

CY: Ah It’s a good thing? That could be good thing to you guys but could also be a shock to others.

CY: I will choose one question that hyung is curious about…. I’m really not lying I can’t see anything right now

SJW: Then let’s stop talking about that now. You are curious how he is doing these days right? Because today is the last day.

CY: These days other members are filming, Sehun is also filming. Because everyone is very busy I’m not busy. So I go exercise when I wake up or visit dermatology clinic and I compose. I spend every day like that

It’s always like that but when I had too many schedules I couldn’t compose even when I really wanted to. Now It’s like a fish meeting water, every day. Even yesterday I worked till 6. I enjoy creating new things every day. 

SJW: He is a model student, right?

(Fans: Please do V-app!)

CY: V-app? V-app, I want to do it soon, soon… but they told me I did too much and not to do it. They kept telling me to go out and do it, told me every day to shut myself in and do it or go out and show something new.

(Fans: who (said that)?)

SJW: Don’t get angry (joking)

SJW: You did Exo’luxion till the final Exo’luxion Dot concert during that one year. How was it? Any regrets?

CY: Like I said just now it was really long. It was so much fun too. Regrets.. I think I have many regrets towards myself. From our debut till now the thing I think of most was why I didn’t practice when I was a trainee.

SJW: I bullied him a lot

CY: Why didn’t I work hard

SJW: Chanyeol-ie I talked about it nicely just now but *sigh*

CY: I admit that

SJW: He is a dongsaeng that received a lot of attention from me

CY: Not in a good way

SJW: A dongsaeng who received a lot of attention, someone who had many skills and musical talents, it was true he wasn’t serious but our kid has changed since debut. He came to me first and asked “How should I do this?"x2"I want to do more but how should I do it?” I thought you have finally matured. Anyways, something I have always believed in is this kid’s potential that I always talk about. You have to try to show a better self and your great work.

CY: That’s right.

SJW:  Dance more too

CY: I have to dance too

(Fans: You dance well you dance well)

CY: I know. But there’s still the other side to when I watch and think “not bad”

(Fan: No you dance well)

SJW: Everyone (is saying this) with a mother’s heart right?

CY: I thought my mom came. I too, when I monitored myself, there are many times I would think “Wa really this is not right”

SJW: But that’s something you can reverse. Dilemma or slump is actually a good thing

(Fans: CY fighting)

CY: Fighting

SJW: Fighting! One two three!

(Everyone: Fighting)

CY: Aigoo, I will work hard. So the next con…it could be next performance/ concert whatever it is I don’t know but July is summer. And I like summer. And I want to go to the beach in summer. I want to go skiing too but the snow has melted so I can’t go skiiing. So our next performance could be a concert or a stage Idk which one but I will try to show better stage, I don’t know whether It will be in July, in August or September but until then I will keep working hard like now to communicate with you guys whether through my works or something else. Thank you!

6 Strong Sign It’s Time To Let Go

1.  Someone constantly expects you to be someone you’re not.

A great relationship is about two things: First, appreciating the similarities, and second, respecting the differences.  So be cordial, but don’t completely change who you are for someone else simply because it’s what THEY want, or because it’s what THEY think is best for you.

If someone expects you to be someone you’re not, take a step back.  It’s wiser to lose relationships over being who you are, than to keep them intact by pretending to be someone else.  It’s easier to nurse a little heartache and meet someone new, than it is to piece together your own shattered identity.  It’s easier to fill an empty space in your life where somebody else used to be, than it is to fill the empty space within yourself where YOU used to be.

2.  A person’s actions don’t match their words.

Be wary of people who only tell you what you want to hear.  It’s so easy to believe someone when they’re telling you exactly what you want to hear, but you have to watch what they do too.  Actions speak louder than words – actions speak the whole truth.

Honestly, everybody deserves somebody who helps them look forward to tomorrow.  If someone has the opposite effect on you, because they are consistently inconsistent, and their actions never match up with their words, it might be time to let them go.  It’s always better to be alone than to be in bad company.  In the end, true friendship is a promise made in the heart – silent, unwritten, unbreakable by distance, and unchangeable by time.  So don’t just listen to what your “friends” say; watch what they do over the long-term.  Your true friends will slowly reveal themselves.

3.  You have a habit of moping and feeling sorry for yourself.

If you don’t like something, change it.  If you can’t change it, change the way you think about it.  Being hurt is something you can’t stop from happening, but being miserable is always your choice.  No matter how bad things are, you can always make things worse.  Negative thinking creates negative results.  Positive thinking creates positive results.  Period.  The only limits to the possibilities in your life tomorrow are the “buts” you use today.  Things always turn out best for people who make the best out of the way things turn out.

Eventually you will realize that happiness is not the absence of problems, but simply the ability to deal well with them.  Imagine all the wondrous things your mind might embrace if it weren’t wrapped so tightly around your struggles.  Always look at what you have, instead of what you have lost.  Because it’s not what the world takes away from you that counts; it’s what you do with what you have left.

4.  You’re clutching tight to an easy-street mentality.

Great accomplishments aren’t easy; they’re worth it!  So forget how you feel and remember what you deserve.  Right NOW is always the best time to break out of your shell.  Chances must be taken, mistakes must be made, and lessons must be learned.

Someday you will look back on your life and realize that everything worthwhile you’ve ever accomplished initially challenged you.  And that is as it should be, because big challenges often prepare ordinary people for extraordinary success.  Every struggle arises for a reason – either for experience or as a lesson.  A great journey is never easy, and no dose of adversity along the way is ever a waste of time if you learn and grow from it.

Remember, an arrow can only be shot by pulling it backwards, and such is life.  When life is pulling you back with difficulties, it means it’s going to eventually launch you forward in a positive direction.  So keep focusing, and keep aiming!

5.  You truly dislike your current situation.

In life, it’s always better to be at the bottom of the ladder you want to climb, rather than the top of the one you don’t.  So don’t let people who gave up on their goals talk you out of going after yours.  The best thing you can do in most situations is to follow your intuition.  Take risks.  Don’t just make the safe and easy choices because you’re afraid of what might happen.  If you do, nothing good will ever happen.

In addition, realize that it’s not always about trying to fix something that’s broken either.  Sometimes it’s about starting over and creating something brand new.  Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.  Sometimes growing stronger means growing apart from old habits, relationships, and circumstances, and finding something different that truly moves you – something that gets you so excited you can’t wait to get out of bed in the morning.  That’s what LIVING is all about.  Don’t just settle for the default settings in life, when you can customize absolutely everything.

6.  You catch yourself obsessing over, and living in, the past.

Holding on to what’s no longer there holds too many of us back.  Some of us spend the vast majority of our lives recounting the past and letting it steer the course of the present.  Don’t waste your time trying to live in another time and place.  Let it GO!  You must accept the end of something in order to build something new.  So close some old doors today.  Not because of pride, inability or egotism, but simply because you’ve entered each one of them in the past and realize that they lead to nowhere.

Even after the toughest times, eventually you will overcome the heartache, and forget the reasons you cried, and who caused the pain.  You will realize that the secret to happiness and freedom is not about control or revenge, but in letting things unfold naturally, and learning from your experiences over the course of time.  After all, what matters most is not the first, but the final chapter of your life, which unveils the details of how well you wrote your story.  So let go of the past, set yourself free, and open your mind to the possibility of a new beginning.

Your turn…

If you feel like you need to let something go, but you simply haven’t been able to do so, know that you’re not alone.  Accepting what is, letting go, and moving on are skills that all of us must learn when facing the realities of life, but these are also skills that take time to master.  And today we challenge you to put in a little time…

Sit quietly with yourself, and ask, “What’s the #1 thing I need to let go of right now?”  Once you have it figured out, leave us a comment below and let us know what you’re going to start letting go of.

You are not your flaws.

You are not your mistakes.

You have good qualities. 

The good things about you are not trivial or inadequate.

Your good attributes are worthy of attention. They should not be ignored because you have problems.

The bad things about you do not mean you should be ignored or used or discarded.

You are not an apple ready to be throw away because it has damaged and bruised places.

If you must compare yourself to an object, you should think of yourself as kintisugi, a bowl that has been dropped and cracked, and now your cracks are being filled in with gold, making you more interesting and more valuable than before.

You are living in a sick society that uses sarcasm and criticism and verbal abuse in an attempt to create positive results; a society that has not learned throwing negative attention and punishment at a problem does not make it go away; a society that has not learned that good qualities need to be appreciated and nurtured to grow, not simply taken for granted or to be taken advantage of.

As moderator of this Tumblr blog:

I will repeat these statements as often as necessary.

I will repeat them patiently as many times as you need to read them.

I will do this because you live in a society where stigmatizing statements are repeated endlessly by other people.

It is my desire to undo some of the damage done to vulnerable people who hear this stigmatizing statements and believe them.

There are no “throwaway people” in my vision of the world.

I want you to remember that no matter how many times media and advertising and other people tells you that you have to be a certain type of person to be important - that there is still a appreciation for real people in others that allows them to love and care about people who are massively imperfect. It might even be a complete surprise to them who they fall in love with. This love for what is real doesn’t mean that they are wrong to love you. It doesn’t mean they are making a big mistake caring about you. It means you are worthy of being loved.

Pray for Iraq.

ISIL terrorists have taken over Mosul. May God send all these foreign terrorists to the deepest pits of Hell. Ya Allah please protect my homeland and its people. What kind of country gets bombed every single day by these psychopaths who claim to be “Muslim” when their very actions are the furthest thing away from every principle of Islam. And to the fellow Iraqis, please please please do not fall for the same old cycle of sectarian thought and blame the other side for what happens on a daily basis. It’s too easy to fall into that way of thinking, believe me I’ve fallen for it myself, but remind yourselves that it isn’t benefiting our homeland or our people. These terrorists thrive off civil unrest. The only way we will ever get our country back is to unite against these foreign terrorists. We have to want for other Iraqis what we want for ourselves. That means the cities to the north and west pray for the cities to the east and south, and the cities to the east and south pray for the cities in the north and west. We’ve seen what alternative ways of thinking has led this country into. There are those who point the finger here and there, but other than just creating more noise what positive results does that ever yield? We have to stand together. I don’t care how much we may disagree on religion, politics, and everything in between, because at the end of the day we are all human. Before we are Shi'as and Sunnis and Kurds and Christians, we are Iraqis, and before that we are human beings. And at the end of the day all human beings want the same things: a peace and secure land, the opportunity to provide for their families, and to secure a better future for their children than they had for themselves. I’ve lived in four countries across two continents and met people from all walks of life all claiming completely different beliefs, but at the end of the day they were all more alike than they ever thought. It may be too late for the old generation in Iraq, and soon it will be too late for us. But before we can stop terrorist groups from taking over our country and foreign nations from interfering with our affairs we have to realize that when we point a finger at others there are three fingers pointing back at us. Before we rebuild our country, we have to rebuild ourselves.