crawl-in-a-hole

okay guys I have kind of a crazy request.

Here’s the reader’s digest version of my story: 

I have an ancient mattress (and no, that’s not even an exaggeration, the thing is over 15 years old) that is sagging really badly in the middle and causing me pain in my hips and back. I haven’t slept all the way through a night in a long time. The old soldier has followed me through three different moves and it’s high time it was retired with honors.  

I am trying to save up for a new mattress. New mattresses are expensive, moreso because my bed is a full, which is a step down from a queen. 

Today’s amazon deal is precisely the kind of mattress I need for about 300 dollars less than it normally is. 

So yes, I’m asking you for money. I try not to do this often (and I have done it before, to help pay for rent and groceries.) This is a link to my so called ‘tip jar’- my donate page, which is hidden because I know that a lot of people on tumblr are anxious about money and about other people asking for it and I don’t like making my followers feel pressured. 

I would really like to be able to sleep all night and wake up without pain. It would in general make my quality of life better. 

I’m not demanding that you donate because if anyone understands not having money it’s me; signal boosts are appreciated, too. And maybe I won’t get this particular mattress and you know what that’s okay. I just need a headstart on getting something that will keep my health at a reasonable level.

I saw myself for the first time today
noticing all the dirt
beneath my fingernails
from every hole
I have crawled out of

my skin had split in several places
I lay the pieces
on a bed of alcohol, hoping
the pain would stop; all it did was
spread me further apart
I am not me. I am not whole.

anonymous asked:

I haven't noticed this much hate for sophiam until elounor broke up. I guess now with Liam being the only one with a gf, the ziam stans have crawled out of their dark holes, or just gf haters in general. I think most are just jealous and pissed because everyone knows Liam is head over heels for Sophia. They can't stand it. I'm just glad Liam doesn't give the haters the time of day anymore.

they were always there bb. none of the girlfriends can catch a break in this fandom, it’s ridiculous.