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Thanks everyone. Unfortunately, i’ve been told i still have to go to the prison tomorrow because there’s no-one to cover my shift (lol ok) but they’re taking the run off of me for good after that, and thank god. 

Usually it’s honestly not so bad? It’s the SO wing, yes, but I’ve met a couple of the guys and despite what they’ve done, which is fucking disgusting, they’ve been polite and chatty and tell some of the other inmates who jeered at us to fuck off. They’re pretty respectful of what we’re there to do, which is look after a paralyzed prisoner. In these situations you can’t let personal feelings cloud your judgement? you just gotta be professional, 

Like some of them are utter cunts, shouting really obscene stuff from the top levels & there was a carer once who was walking by the wing outside under the windows & someone poured piss onto her (fucking cunts, like i said) but the few prisoners i’ve spoken to are amiable. they weren’t involved, so that’s good. 

We just like… were finishing up? It gets quiet around this time, the prisoners are out doing their thing nd we were taking the meds to the med box, and like 3 of them followed us? they were just talking shit but they had us in a corner and wouldn’t move when we asked and it was VERY uncomfortable, knowing what they’d done. 

the guards must have noticed because they came over nearly right away but

i’ve never felt so trapped before?? it was an experience i never want to repeat, ever. 

anonymous asked:

"The fact that you used both the terms nuthuggers (in your tags) and bihet proves that you’re the type of person this post is about." This just shows how much bisexual women believe in their own victim narrative. They think lesbian want to "save them" from shitty men when they get called out on their lesbophobia and have them be with us instead *shudders*. Then they'll just cry that it biphobia not to want to date them because bisexual are inherently pure and innocent :).

they cover all bases lol. you have to validate both their attraction to men by never saying anything “heterophobic” (or even hetero-critical) about it and by never trying to promote any pride in being homosexual and not a bihet and you have to validate their attraction to women by being constantly open to intimacy with them (with or without a boyfriend/husband of theirs present) and never wanting anything to be lesbian specific (not even your own sexuality).

if you are not a constant validation source for both components of their orientation and you have your own interests and issues that you focus on without taking into account how it affects your oppressors, then you are “biphobic” (literally any argument they make that declares “biphobia” how a lesbian might think negatively about their attraction to men and their hetero relationships can be made by hetero women as well and be seen as “heterophobia” lol) and misogynistic (being critical of the ways and reasons manloving women are privileged over you and oppress you is misogyny now). 

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.