courtney is emotional

If it's love, it is rough

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Summary: In truth, you can’t let go of something that you never had. And he lets go of you because in truth, he always liked the pain.

Pairing: Reader x Captain Boomerang

“So, you think I’m broken? Then fix me.”

“See, ‘s where yer wrong, luv.”  Boomerang started, a cigarette hanging from his forefinger. He’s leant against an abandoned brick wall. A dust of smoke dances across his features in the street lit shadows. The city is burned to ashes; much like the two of you. “None of us can be fixed.”

“Instead you’re just going to wait for us to self-destruct?” You asked; the question falls loosely from your tongue. “Nothing can beat Flag’s version of Hollywood Squares unless it’s us actively deciding to kill ourselves first, right?”

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anonymous asked:

How to know if my parents are toxic?


I am so sorry to hear that your parents may be toxic towards you and I hope I can help you in identifying what their behaviour is that could make them toxic.

These are some of the things a parent will do if they are toxic..

  1. They humiliate you, put you down, or make fun of you in front of other people.
  2. They regularly demean or disregard your opinions, ideas, suggestions, or needs.
  3. They use sarcasm or “teasing” to put you down or make you feel bad about yourself.
  4. They accuse you of being “too sensitive” in order to deflect their abusive remarks.
  5. They try to control you and treat you like a child.
  6. They correct or chastise you for your behavior.
  7. You feel like you need permission to make decisions or go out somewhere.
  8. They try to control the finances and how you spend money.
  9. They belittle and trivialize you, your accomplishments, or your hopes and dreams.
  10. They try to make you feel as though they are always right, and you are wrong.
  11. They give you disapproving or contemptuous looks or body language.
  12. They regularly point out your flaws, mistakes, or shortcomings.
  13. They accuse or blame you of things you know aren’t true.
  14. They have an inability to laugh at themselves and can’t tolerate others laughing at them.
  15. They are intolerant of any seeming lack of respect.
  16. They make excuses for their behavior, try to blame others, and have difficulty apologizing.
  17. The repeatedly cross your boundaries and ignore your requests.
  18. They blame you for their problems, life difficulties, or unhappiness.
  19. They call you names, give you unpleasant labels, or make cutting remarks under their breath.
  20. They are emotionally distant or emotionally unavailable most of the time..
  21. They resort to pouting or withdrawal to get attention or attain what they want.
  22. They don’t show you empathy or compassion.
  23. They play the victim and try to deflect blame to you rather than taking personal responsibility.
  24. They disengage or use neglect or abandonment to punish or frighten you.
  25. They don’t seem to notice or care about your feelings.
  26. They view you as an extension of themselves rather than as an individual.
  27. They withhold sex as a way to manipulate and control.
  28. They share personal information about you with others.
  29. They invalidate or deny their emotionally abusive behavior when confronted.
  30. They make subtle threats or negative remarks with the intent to frighten or control you.


If you need any further advice then please feel free to send in another ask and we can advise you more on the situation you are experiencing. 


if anyone ever says that meg white was a bad drummer and was holding the white stripes back or that kurt cobain wrote all of courtney’s songs for her or that yoko ono killed the beatles then you are permitted to destroy them


I thoroughly enjoyed Montage of Heck, from start to finish.

It’s an impeccably edited and assembled documentary that deserves all the acclaim it’s been receiving.

I’m a huge Nirvana fan and have been since I was about 15 years old,  did I learn anything new in terms of the band? No.  Yet I learned a whole lot more about Kurt Cobain.    If you’re after new Nirvana tracks or treasures you won’t see anything new here, but if you’re after a deeper insight to Kurt you’ll get amazing home video footage of him as a child growing up and some eye opening stuff with him and Courtney.  

It’s definitely an emotional documentary but also pretty shocking at times.  We all knew Kurt was pretty fucked up, his troubles are well documented as is his heroin addiction but seeing it with your very eyes is incredibly harrowing.    The scenes with him and Courtney are incredibly adorable, when they’re not high that is.   We see footage of them basically living in squalor, high as a kite whilst pregnant and generally strung out.

It’s incredibly sad. I knew it happened but seeing it happen is even worse.

These scenes intercut with diary entries and song lyrics really help give a picture of Kurt’s mind set at the time better than any expose, book or documentary on the subject that I’ve seen before.   You really see how his troubled upbringing affected him in the long term.

The direction is top notch throughout,  I admit I wasn’t sure on the animation scenes I saw in the trailer but they work so damn well in the finished film.  They help bring to life audio recordings, his diary and generally help to add visuals where visuals don’t exist.   The animation itself is incredibly well done, the assembled montage segments are inter cut with incredible precision flowing with the beat of the music. 

There’s always going to be that argument surrounding his death, for me this documentary just further highlights the fact that he was a man on the edge who’d had enough. Withdrawn, addicted and tired he decided to do what he had to do to be free of it all.

The film doesn’t go in to detail of his death or the aftermath but then again we’ve heard it all before. Yet I do feel it would have helped close the documentary better as an all-round complete look at his life,  also the absence of Dave Grohl is noticed.   Grohl apparently filmed interview segments but they weren’t done in time to meet the edit deadline and therefore didn’t make the cut,  I definitely thought this would have added an extra element. I would have also been interesting to hear from Chad Channing or Jason Everman to make this the complete Cobain doc but alas they’re absent here.  

If you’re a fan of Nirvana and Kurt you will love this documentary,  I thought I knew pretty much all there was to know but there is so much in here I never knew and it was enlightening.  It’s so well directed and edited,  the whole thing is put together amazingly and was well worth the wait.

If you’re looking for a deeply intimate portrait of the man he was (the good and the bad)  Cobain: Montage of Heck is it!