couldn't be bothered to wait

anonymous asked:

Excuse me, SM, but exactly what part of "I have a doctor's app. at 2:15 on December 4th" did you take to mean that I could work 12-6?? If I said my appointment was in the afternoon, why did you think it was a good idea to schedule me ALL afternoon? I know you are completely incompetent when it comes to scheduling, but still. I've been waiting on this appointment for a while, and I'm not about to put myself on another waiting list just because you couldn't be bothered to schedule someone else.

Heaven Can't Wait 9.06
So, I’ve been rewatching Heaven Can’t Wait (because I don’t care, I LOVED that episode), and a few things have been standing out to me. The spoken stuff between Dean & Cas wasn’t necessarily overt I LOVE YOU WITHOUT SAYING I LOVE YOU type stuff, but their love and care for each other as well as the tension was there in bucket loads, and not always just in the way Jensen & Misha played it, but also with some of the camera shots. So here goes, a very brief look at the ep to show that this WAS a very Destiel heavy one since I still see some people reading this as a real no homo episode, which I think couldn’t be further from the truth. I’ll start by saying that this is about two people who really do want each other, don’t know the feeling is reciprocated, and are for varying reasons (mainly Dean kicking Cas out) feeling very awkward and unsure around each other.

First off there’s the scene before Dean goes in, when he’s on the phone with Sam. And what is he doing? Just watching Cas. He’s not sitting in the car like he normally would, finishing off the phone call. He’s also taken the time to get changed, cleaned up a bit after seeing the vaporised body. And the music! It’s not exactly the same as S8 when Sam was looking through the window at Amelia, but it’s pretty damn close. It certainly gives the same feel, and that feel is decidedly romantic. Imagine a movie where former lovers are meeting again for the first time in a while - you’ll have a scene almost exactly like this, music and all. It’s been done a hundred times before. Dean just likes watching Cas, seeing what he’s been up to. He needs to psych himself up for this - this is not a situation in which he can just walk in and have it be like it always was. We’ll skip straight to Dean finding out about the date with Nora. Here is what Cas has to say about it:

“Nora … she’s a very nice woman. I’m pretty sure she’s not a reaper intent on killing me. And she’s asked me out. Going on dates. That’s something humans do, right?”

He’s going on the date because he wants to be human. He knows that what your average human does. And remember, he had no idea Dean was going to find him when he accepted the date. Even if he had, would it have made a difference given how hurt & pissed off he was? Probably not. He’s also keeping himself very busy with his work, showing Dean that he doesn’t need him, that he’s making a good go at being human all by himself. Because remember - he still hasn’t exactly forgiven Dean yet. He’s not angry anymore, but anyone who has been dumped will know the feeling of wanting to show the other person how much you don’t need them, even if you do. And it’s all very impersonal - the closest he gets to a real compliment is “She’s a very nice woman”. Not exactly sweep her off her feet type language. He doesn’t seem to really know her at all, but this is what being human is, and he likes her well enough, so why not give it a go? But then Dean gets the phone call after their little conversation, and Cas can’t help but watch:

Even after that, his focus is still on what Dean is doing. They talk, Dean convinces Cas to go with him (and it was a slightly less desperate version of Purgatory’s I’m-not-going-to-take-no-for-an-answer thing). Cas still is showing Dean that he has his own life with responsibilities & he isn’t going to just drop everything to go running when Dean calls. He does still say yes though.

At the scene, Cas is scared, and Dean sees this. It is here, I think, that Dean realises just how much things have changed for Cas. It’s here that he decides that maybe yeah, Cas is better off without him.

I mean, look at his face. That is Dean’s “I’m heartbroken but gotta keep it together, stay strong” face. He is miserable. It hadn’t really occurred to him just how hurt Cas was, and how different everything was. He finally understands what Cas meant back at the Gas-n-Sip when he said “I had nothing”. And he says to Cas to that he’ll take care of it, that Cas doesn’t need to worry. And instead of being relieved, this is Cas’s reaction:

Yes he’s scared, but Dean has also stopped trying to convince him to come along. It’s almost as though he was hoping that Dean would give him the speech again, try everything out to get him to come, but he doesn’t, and so Cas goes along with it because he doesn’t know how to ask.

Fast forward to the next day. Remember, this is after the fight with Ephraim, after Dean has found out what is going on with Cas. Cas has chosen the human life, but he is in serious pain. He is distraught, and isn’t sure how to cope. And this is also after the unexplained night. This is the dreaded adios. Dean tells Cas to go live a normal life, that it isn’t his problem anymore. And Cas is resigned to it. He takes Dean at face value, that because he is scared & has no powers that he can’t really be of any use. And this is his face:

But Dean? He’s not happy about it. He even allows that to show while Cas has his back turned.

And then, as Dean says later, it’s adios. Always the adios. And this is the adios of two people who desperately do not want to be saying it (and indeed, actually don’t say anything at all), but feel they have no choice. They each seem to think that by being apart they are doing the other a favour, when it is clear just by looking that the opposite is exactly the case:

Cas even lingers, as though he’s waiting for Dean to change his mind, hoping that there will be one more “Cas, I can’t let you do this”. But it doesn’t come, and so he turns away, and Dean’s face falls once more, and you can almost feel that dull ache of loss right in his centre.

But it’s the camera work right at the very end of their interaction that really does it for me. Normally, in a romantic movie, when the person is leaving, the one they are truly supposed to be with watches them, and the camera shifts focus to show us this since the one leaving can’t see this. That didn’t happen with Nora, because she was never the one for Cas. Dean though? We do get that. Just briefly, but it is there and it is noticeable.

All of that to me made this one of the most romantic episodes of the season so far, even if it was the separation “I’m doing this for your own good” stage of the relationship, the part that breaks our collective hearts. It was heartwrenching in the extreme, but it is what is going to make the payoff all the more rewarding when they come through it on the other side.

I always kept the door open for you, y'know? Sometimes, I’d even thought I heard you walk by…

I waited for you to show up but weeks turned into months and I just– 

You stupid– my stupid vampire!

You’re really never coming back, are you?


RIP Drawing

Why the signs nails are ruined
  • Aries: uses their hands too much
  • Taurus: checks if they're dry when they're not
  • Gemini: tried to use their phone
  • Cancer: simply couldn't be bothered to wait for them to dry
  • Leo: changed their outfit
  • Virgo: went to eat food
  • Libra: scraped the paint off when wet by accident
  • Scorpio: washes their hands
  • Sagittarius: played with their hair
  • Capricorn: couldn't sit still
  • Aquarius: tried to make them more complicated
  • Pisces: couldn't paint them properly from the start

anonymous asked:

I hate to compare ships, but let's put it this way. Emma is going to the Underworld to save Killian even thought he died, but she won't live without him. Robin couldn't be bothered to wait a few weeks to see if Regina found a way for them to safely cross the town line and come back to SB. So I can totally see why some OQ shippers are disappointed and think he doesn't deserve Regina. Compared to other TL couples who fought like hell to be together, he was practically sitting on his hands.

Emma is going to the Underworld to save Killian even though she has no actual way to do that (she can’t have her heart taken, and even if she can, what’s she gonna put half of it in? Killian’s body is in Storybrooke). She is putting her family at incredible risk to do so.

And the only reason she has to do it is because she first completely disregarded his feelings and made him the Dark One because she could not let him die the way he pleaded for her to. She completely ignored what he wanted, made him into something he despises, did something he begged her not to. 

And now, he’s given up his life to get rid of the darkness, and to keep her family from being sucked into the Underworld, and she’s not letting him have that either. She’s bringing her family to the Underworld anyway. She’s undoing his sacrifice by fighting to bring him back anyway.

That’s not a healthy relationship, and it’s sure as hell not what I want OQ to emulate. I would not want to see Robin repeatedly ignoring what Regina says she wants for herself, taking away her choice to sacrifice herself for others, just because he cannot live without her.

Not being able to live without someone is not healthy.

Not being able to live without someone is not admirable.

I love that Robin and Regina can live without each other – it means they are whole, supported, strong people, who can endure through terrible pain and unfairness and continue to move on, for the sake of their children, those they love, and themselves. 

Robin had no reason to think Regina was back in Storybrooke trying to find some way for them to be together – and if I recall, she wasn’t. And Regina knew exactly where he was, and yet when she found a way for him to come back across the town line she didn’t make any attempts to contact him and let him know there was a way they could be together. Not until he was in danger. 

They made a choice, that he would go with Marian, and that would be his life now, and yes, it was painful, and yes, she hoped she’d hear from him, but they didn’t leave with any hope that this was something that would be worked out. They left with the understanding that they’d probably never see each other again. 

And if you’re gonna side-eye Robin for not fighting hard enough for them, you absolutely must do the same to Regina – because she is the only one of them who could have actually found a way to remove the barrier keeping them apart. They were separated due to magic – something Robin, out in the real world on his own with his family, had no way to overcome. He had no way to find her, no way to return to her unless she somehow found a way to solve the problem of the town line and Marian’s illness, and reached out to him to tell him those things. 

You cannot look at Robin and say “you without any resources or magical knowledge did not fight hard enough for this relationship so you do not deserve her” unless you’re willing to also turn to Regina and say “and you don’t deserve him either, you with your vault, and your books, and your magical scroll that allows people to cross the town line that you make no attempts to tell Robin about even though you knew exactly where he was.”

I refuse to blame Robin for not waiting for something that he had no reason to think he should be waiting for.

And on the topic of “True Love couples” – on the show, we have seen TLKs between romantic partners (the only actual proof of True Love status) ONCE – twice if you count the Rumbelle kiss in Skin Deep. The only romantic couple we HAVE seen be proven a “true love” couple is Snowing. You can call OQ and CS “true love” couples all you want, and I know that the show has referred to them as each other’s true loves, but frankly they’ve not been proven to have some sort of higher caliber of love than anyone else does, they should not be held to some sort of Higher Standard of Romantic Perfection. That is a fandom construct, not a canon fact. 

It’s irrelevant to how long Robin should wait around hurting his wife in the hope that his girlfriend might, might, maybe be working to find a way that they can be together.