could he have saved lives?

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And here I present yet another scenario in which Zack rightfully lives damn it

Seriously, if he’d just- just dragged Genesis along, I swear-! ಠ_ಠ

On an artist-related note, I’m so relieved to have this done… I started way back in October and have been fighting artist block tooth and nail to finish the flipping thing. 

Hope you all enjoy this brief ‘what if?’ moment.

/sob

I think it would be in Steven’s nature to save both Zircons if he could. Imagine them having to live together. They wouldn’t just be the Odd Couple or the Lapidot Couple, they’d be the Hate Couple.

Yellow Zircon: keep your files about your theories as to why Rose Quartz is now a human boy out of my side of the room!

Blue Zircon: you’re wearing my monocle again!

So, this one is kind of philosophical compared to my other pieces.

This is something I think about every now and then. Bones is a doctor; a very dedicated one, in my opinion. To me, he seems like he would be a man who would find the taking of lives abhorrent (which makes the death of his father even harder for him to handle).

Yet, we often see him fighting in the films, harming others and quite possibly taking their lives. Yes, this is a survival instinct. He wants to live and he wants to protect those he loves. It’s all in the heat of the moment, where he doesn’t have time to think.

But what about afterward? When everything is over and it’s time to clean up? When life slows down and he has the chance to think about what had happened, and what he was just involved in? When he realises just how much blood is on his hands and how what he did goes against what he believes in?

I would think that, initially, McCoy would be incredibly guilt-ridden. Thinking about the lives he could have saved (even if it would have been impossible to do so) and the lives he took. Then he tries to reason with himself:

‘I had to protect the crew.’

‘Someone else would have died.’

‘I had no choice.’

This makes you wonder just how many deaths weigh heavy on his mind.

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Why Apollo has always been my favorite of Riordan’s incarnations of the Greek Gods, and why Trials of Apollo only reinforces that:

Apollo is the god of prophecy, right? He sees everything before and as it is happening. All of the wonderful, amazing things - people fighting for each other, scientific breakthroughs, discovery, enlightenment, peace, compassion. But he also sees the bad. He sees war, and genocide, and brothers slaughtering each other. All of this, all happening at once. It would drive any one mad. 

But Apollo isn’t just the god of prophecy; he is the god of Healing. And as divinely powerful as he is, he is powerless to stop all of the bad in the world. How many times has he had to turn a blind eye to pain and suffering and tell himself that it is for the greater good? How many lives could he have saved, but had to let go because it would interfere with the future? How many were hurt because he misinterpreted a vision? 

In his own eyes, Apollo is a failure. He cannot do the one thing he is meant to do, the one thing people desperately plead to him for. He hates himself for what he views as his shortcomings, and because of this he doesn’t believe anyone else could ever love him either. He doesn’t feel he deserves to be loved. But even still, it is something he needs. All people , godly or mortal, need that deep connection. We need to be loved, to feel needed. So if he cannot have their friendship, he’ll suffice for their shallow praise and adoration. It is the closest he has to that.

To people like me, people who suffer daily with their own lack of self-esteem, who feel worthless because they view themselves as a disappointment to they love … Who feel lost … Apollo is a character we can connect with. We see our own flaws mirrored in him. But we can see the good in him too - his ridiculous sense of humor, his compassion, his willingness to sacrifice himself for the people he cares about when the time comes for it. Through Apollo, and characters like him, we learn to accept ourselves. To realize that we, too, have good sides, and that somehow, people will see that good in us, too. He reminds us that we are worth more than we think, and that we are capable of love, and I don’t know, that’s just really important to me.

(I had a conclusion for this, but I forgot what it was, so… yeah.)

anonymous asked:

i'm sitting here thinking about how easy it would have been just to avoid that ending. ben could have not faded after saving her. he could have lived. he could have passed out but been alive. the force ghosts at the end could have coalesced or something and then boom, ben's there. i just, how do you arrive at something so pointless?

It’s made even worse by the fact that Ben’s struggle between the light and dark is one of the biggest thematic stakes across all three films with members of the OT lamenting his loss and wanting him back because he’s their family. He’s the big will they won’t they. And to have him just…die… and then get even less of a fanfare funeral than Anakin with Rey not noticeably mourning his loss. It just fucking hurts

Sinking Down Into My Thoughts : Poe Dameron x Reader

Pairing: Poe Dameron x Reader

Word Count: 1.9k

Excerpt: “He couldn’t take the ghosts in his lungs and the skeletons in his closet. He couldn’t stand the taste of war anymore, so permanent on his tongue. The battles stitched across the skin of his back. All of the times he had failed.”

Warnings: Uhhh this one is sad af. Suicidal thoughts, mentions of death and loss. Sad.

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At first it had been easy.

Poe was familiar with loss. He had been so young when he experienced it for the first time — with his parents, when they had so valiantly risked their lives to hopefully better his. Years he would never get back. Time. Time that was cut even shorter when Death had come for his mother. He had been only eight. Just a small boy, a boy too young to understand what had been taken, ripped right out from under him. Too young to understand why daddy was crying, and why mommy wasn’t there to tuck him in at night, to stop his own tears from flowing down red cheeks.

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I really enjoyed season 8, the only problem I had was how they showed us Lotor was dead. (I’m gonna insert the picture, just a warning).

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Like it’s gruesome. I stumbled upon this Friday morning before school and it shocked and hurt me. I didn’t really process it until hours later as I was walking from my last class. I found the screenshot again when I was in my GSA meeting and I still couldn’t process the thought that he was dead. But when I saw him standing by Zarkon in the last episode, I knew I had to come to terms that he was truly dead. That’s when I broke down.

I had the horrible thought of, “what if Lotor could have been saved? Like if the paladins got him he may have lived. He was probably alive when they left and he died all alone, and scared. Thinking that the one he loved hated him.”

i gotta really give props to freddie on his roleplaying in this ep. 

it’s subtle, given everything else going on, but it’s really cool to see glenn pretty much unravelling after the confrontation with the o-dads.

like, this is glenn fucking close we’re talking about. our consummately chill, laid back stoner dad. i can’t remember a time in this entire year’s worth of story where we’ve truly heard him with his feathers ruffled. 

but look at him in this episode. he shoots at barry with the intent to kill or seriously maim, gets into an argument with henry about it (seriously, when have we ever heard glenn yelling?), gives nick a knife before he goes to bed, and don’t even get me started on his antics in the dream. 

dude is completely flying off the handle. that conversation with morgan broke something open in him that he’s trying desperately to block off with uncharacteristic aggression and extremely characteristic denial. 

even after henry confirms that the person he was talking to really was barry, glenn refuses to accept it. because if he accepts that the dads are the real deal, he has to accept that their powers are real. if he accepts that the dads are the real deal, he has to accept that they could have saved morgan. and he can’t live with that, so he gets mad and stubborn and points a gun at a hawk and does a bunch of frankly fucked up stuff in his dream because that’s the only way he can handle what just happened. 

he’s shaken to his fucking core right now, and freddie is doing a fantastic job of playing that in a way that is both subtle and incredibly believable for the character at the same time, and just like. 

fucking hell this show and its creators never fail to impress. 

Hi!  ♥  This was such an interesting and insightful message to get, thank you for such a thought provoking comment!!  I would argue that Luke was not, in any way, responsible for the creation of Kylo. Even accepting a moment of weakness where he thought about killing Kylo because of the darkness in him, if Ben hadn’t been capable of that already, his reaction wouldn’t have been to attack and go murder a bunch of Jedi and then join up with an organization that was pretty much murdering entire worlds, eventually kill their leader and take his place.

If Ben had just said, “How could you??” and walked away?  I could see a case for some fault being on Luke (setting aside that they’re psychic space wizards and it’s not like Luke wasn’t seeing WHAT WAS ACTUALLY THERE, HE WASN’T WRONG), but that’s not what happened.  Ben Solo was the only one responsible for Kylo Ren’s creations and actions.

One moment of weakness is not an excuse to go, “Look what you made me do!” in the midst of a pile of dead bodies.

But I mean I agree with you!  TLJ didn’t go for the straight parallels, because it is different.  Obi-Wan believed in Anakin until the very last possible second.  He believed in Anakin even after he murdered other Jedi and the Jedi children.  He waited on the ship, desperately hoping that Padme could bring out the good still left in Anakin.  It wasn’t until Anakin started physically attacking her that Obi-Wan stepped out.  And EVEN THEN he held back and held back and held back in that fight, Nick Gillard talks all about how he choreographed that fight so that Obi-Wan was on the defensive because he’s still hoping Anakin will calm down and they won’t have to do this.

Even the moment that “creates” the Vader we know is one where Obi-Wan says DON’T DO IT, he warns Anakin and desperately hopes this won’t come to pass.

I think this is partly why I’m slowly making peace with the idea of Luke having a moment of thinking about killing Ben before it all starts–he knows how this story can go.  On paper, from a cold logic point of view, someone could argue that Obi-Wan could have saved the galaxy a lot of grief if he’d cut down Anakin before the Jedi Purge.  He could have saved a whole lot of lives.

In the coldest of hard logic, taking into account that Luke is not responsible for Kylo’s actions (he was locked and loaded and ready to fuckin’ go if all it took was one moment of bad thoughts from Luke), Luke would have saved the galaxy a whole lot of suffering if he’d gone through with it.

I can see that eating at a person, the feeling of how “maybe I should have done it…”, knowing that your failure to do so did technically allow all this grief to happen, warring against how it’s not the right thing to do, it would have been a horrible thing to do, and Luke is not horrible, he never would have gone through with it.

Like, okay, the whole point of a good chunk of the OT was Luke resisting the darkness in himself, of turning to the dark.  He struggled with that, it was possible that he could have done down the dark path, that was the whole point of facing the cave on Dagobah and how, if he hadn’t faced Vader the way he did, he might have been a very different person.  Luke’s moments of struggling with the dark are something we all face and one moment of that does not negate that his life was devoted to continuing to protect the balance in the galaxy, as all Jedi have always done.

I think I object more to the idea that Luke ran away than that Luke had a moment of weakness.  I can see the justification for it and a lot to salvage from it (he had no living support system of people that could truly understand what the loss of those Jedi did to him) but I think Luke has always been a character that was inherently good and that that doesn’t mean it always comes effortlessly to him, that sometimes he has to struggle to get there, and it was a tragedy that one moment of struggling was the worst possible timing and brought everything down again.