I love you. And you love me too but not as much as mine. But let me tell you something about love, others motivated me to do what hearts say. And my heart asking you to turn around when you don’t see me, like taking your hand when I’m crossing the street, like telling you my biggest fear which is mean you would know that I fear a lot rejection. But my courage vanished by your every taking breath next to me, as I glance you a little bit more and a little bit longer I realize that I’ve been loving you in a subtle way than others woud. Without actually saying, I let myself become your ears when nobody listens, I let you borrow my jacket because I want your scent last here and there so that when you’re taking care and pampering someone else. I can picture your appearance through the shade of moonlight and sound of citylight. I let myself to help your assignments so that I can look up to you more often without someone has to caught me and tell others that there’s firework in my eyes when I see your face. An ocean waves that captured through the smile in my face. A “Love” that I’ve shouted out loud in the core of my mind. A story of a girl and a guy who live in the same world with different views. I love your silence and all the words that rolled out of your throat. But not when you have storms within, an anger and cold looks. I don’t love you in the moments when you hate yourself much than you hate others. I find it difficult when you can’t love your own self. Even more when you think you shouldn’t have existed in this generation. I don’t love you during those moments because it means I have to love you more without you love me a tiny bit so I struggle with it. Because I love you the way your laughter shaken my knees, the way you feeling determined to chase your dreams, the way you wake up feeling homesick, the way you begin to sleep and feeling safe. I love you and I choose to stay in your though days or happiness. I love you more because you love me a bit, as you can always say when you want to end our conversation; “I love you. You’re my bestfriend!”.