control over life

deep, rooted fear

Aries: powerlessness, losing a sense of their own self, never achieving their goal, losing their  flame, being seen/described as incapable and being underestimated, life being dull, plain and grey - and they are a part of it

Taurus: losing what is most important to them (materialistic/security/loved ones), never being able to expand themselves and being stuck on something they don’t want/think they don’t deserve, not reaching a higher level and worries A LOT about the future and how it might look like 

Gemini: being ‘caged’ in their own mind, being seen as stupid or of unsound mind, having no real connection to anything and anyone, being scattered and all over the place (internal), being judged for their words/intellect

Cancer: the future, never forgetting past trauma/overcoming sadness, not being able to let go, being used, showing their soft side, showing their real selves and coming out of their shell, having no home

Leo: being exposed to every flaw and insecurety they have, never being able to shine and show their true self, being lost, having no energy/optimism to go on, trusting the wrong ones too easily, not having the life they always wanted/admired

Virgo: being a failure to themselves and anyone else, losing control over their life, not being able to go on anymore, paranoia of everything that could go wrong, exposing themselves too early/easily

Libra: never finding the one, feeling no fulfillment deep within, feeling like a ghost/having no real face, not being satisfied themselves,giving too much, being hurt/forgotten, being completely alone

Scorpio: being hurt/exposed, letting the wrong ones in, (past) trauma, never healing scars, love (loving oneself and being loved), opening up, becoming the demon and the demons of the world/life, losing

Sagittarius: being trapped and caged, never being able to feel life, being exposed to their feelings and showing their caring/loving side, never being able to win (due to running away from their problems), never being truly content

Capricorn: being stuck on lower grounds, always losing, never winning, their hard built up reputation being shattered, losing what’s most important for them, inner conflicts and hidden emotions - not being able to express them and compensate for it, 

Aquarius: being the madman and not the genius they wish to be, being lost in the world, an inner standstill, having no one by their side, being alone, being judged for what they are inside, not knowing the answer/being completely hopeless

Pisces: never being able to truly love/be loved, being lost in their own mind/trauma, afraid of being hurt and used, an inner trance that they can not escape, a martyrer that is shamelessly sacrificed and will never be recognized, no understanding for their view/opinions

The Venus signs’; Positives and Negatives

Aries Venus Positives: You put yourself out there and most of the time you are not afraid to fall flat on your face because what strangers think of you is really unimportant to your life. You love love, in fact you cherish love and any romantic connection that you have you hold near and dear. 

Aries Venus Negatives: When it comes to feelings you can become rash and impulsive. You may find yourself jumping in love relationships without full consideration and you do not consider your own feelings enough nor do you value yourself over the other person.

Taurus Venus Positives: Your true self really comes out best when you are in love. You have a commitment level which every one else aspires to have, You are loyal and reliable and you don’t run away when things get tough. Others also find you very comforting and collected. 

Taurus Venus Negatives:  Your mouth can work quicker than you brain and paired with your inborn sense of curiosity you can often attract unwanted drama. You deal negatively for confrontations and will often freeze up when it is time to redeem your behaviour. 

Gemini Venus Positives: Your charm and wit are above the rest and others will often end up in stitches from laughter after spending time with you. you are also undeniably a lot of fun and you spread excitement and energy out to everyone around you. 

Gemini Venus Negatives: It is arguable to say that change comes fair too easily to you. Commitment is not natural or easy for you and you constantly struggle to stay in one place in your life. You aren’t very sentimental and that is something you should aim to be 

Cancer Venus Positives: You do have high standards when it comes to love, which is a good thing because its not like you to rush into anything without consideration and confirmation is is the right thing to do. You are also very good at reading people and know what that want out of a relationship. 

Cancer Venus Negatives: You know that your emotions can often get the best of you. You expect things from people and sometimes instead of letting them know what you want you get down and upset that they don’t naturally want to do that for you. 

Leo Venus Positives: You are not afraid to fall in love. You are not afraid to to be affectionate and adoring in public. You are very well spoken and talented with your words and the way you word things, You are sensitive to others’ feelings and you are very accepting ad understanding. 

Leo Venus Negatives: You are not exactly a friend to change and development, Once you are happy any differences make you feel uncomfortable and out of place. you are not good when you are alone for too long. Usually you try to be in a love relationship at all times because that’s where you are comfortable. 

Virgo Venus Positives: You are definitely a person of little things, In love and friendships you are the one who will leave little notes and text “good morning” and will stay up until midnight just to be the first to wish you happy birthday. You are also very practical when it comes to love and you don’t rush. 

Virgo Venus Negatives: You are far too careful when it does to relationships, love and friendship. You don’t want to get hurt so you lack the ability to put yourself out their. This often results in quite anti social behaviour and sometimes a development of insecurity about yourself. 

Libra Venus Positives: Being sociable is you key and best trait which others will often envy about you. You have a way with people and making friends comes so naturally to you. Simply you are a true romantic, flowers, chocolates and walks on the beach are often your go to. 

Libra Venus Negatives: When it comes to love your head can often be stuck in a fairy tale idea of love and you are often very idealistic and it takes time for you to actual confront relationship problems that you are experiencing due to fear of losing all the positive stuff. 

Scorpio Venus Positives: As a friend and as a partner you are undoubtedly loyal. You are very understanding to the feelings of the other person involved. You are incredibly attentive with strong commitment, when you are with someone they have all of you. 

Scorpio Venus negatives: You often lack trust. Not everyone is out to get you, not every talks behind your back, not everyone is the same. You like to jump to conclusions, its not even that you just do jump to conclusions but you actually choose to because you want an answer quickly and someone to blame. 

Sagittarius Venus positives: Open describes you perfectly. you are open to anything, including anyone’s view and any new idea you haven’t know before. You are very optimistic and joyful. You are outgoing and adventurous with yourself and with love and relationships too.

Sagittarius Venus negatives: You find yourself getting overwhelmed to quickly and easily when it comes to people and especially when it comes to commitment, Clingy is something that repels you like bug spray because you live in fear that you can’t keep up pleasing people all the time. 

Capricorn Venus positives: You are charming and good at making people feel good about them selves. You are sensible and responsible when it comes to your feelings and the feelings of others. You are calm, cool and collected which is a very attractive feature to many.

Capricorn Venus Negatives: you crave control over your life, anything that seems a little too spontaneous is unwelcome in your path. You struggle to let people in and you enjoy alone time a little too much sometimes. You are afraid of change and you do not welcome the unknown. 

Aquarius Venus positives: You are open minded and you are not afraid of what is coming, in fact you often welcome the future with open arms. You are very social because you often put yourself out their to meet new people and spend time with your friends. 

Aquarius Venus negatives: You often get thrown off by the smallest of limitation of problem that arises in your life. You are known to let emotions and the opinions of other get to and overwhelm you quite a bit. You often find yourself falling in love a little too easily. 

Pisces Venus Positives: You are a timeless romantic. you want to ensure the people that you love loves you equally and that they know that they means o much to you. You treat people well and go by the motto “treat others as you want to be treated”

Pisces Venus negatives: You often let people walk over you because you values their feelings miles above yours, You often find yourself changing for people to please them and going against who you actually are. Sometimes you are also too quick to forgive. 

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Reasons why my altar is so important to me;

🔮 It’s the one thing I have complete control over in my life, I can change it, add things, take things away, destroy it and build it back up again- I can do whatever the hell I want with my altar and no one can say anything.

🔮 It’s sacred, I come here when I’m stressed or upset, I come here when I’m happy or sleepy, I come to my altar when I need advice or I want to draw and write. I can come here whenever I want and release all my negativity. It makes me happy knowing I have something that’s mine, I love waking up in the morning and thinking damn that’s all mine. I made that, I created this space for me to go and do witchcraft or divination.

🔮 It radiates positivity, all those crystals and incense aren’t just there to look good (although lets be honest they do) they give off strength, positivity, creativity, happiness and they help with everything in my life.

🔮I lost control of everything in my life and this corner of magical tools is my way of dealing with that. I love coming home and having to rearrange my entire altar because I picked up something that I wanted to add to it, I love changing it all around for events and seasons. I love having altar themes and colour coordinating everything.

No you don’t need to have a big altar or loads of witchy things and tools to be a witch - you do you, your altar needs to be special to you, no one else. If it makes you happy, that’s all you need.

And now I’m gonna make you all feel bad for not trusting Shiro

And explain why new ugly hair Shiro is the Shiro we know and love.

First of all:

If this Shiro is a clone, operation “Kuron” would be fucking dumb.

Like real dumb.

And here’s why.

So like lets say they captured Shiro after the Zarkon fight and made a Shiro “clone” or whatever who’s goal is to infiltrate Voltron or something.

Atleast that’s what it seems like the goal is because this dude says 

when Shiro escapes and they shoot his ship. So like it seems like they let him escape on purpose.

Thing is…

Shiro nearly dies like 50 fucking times before he reaches Voltron (BY FUCKING MIRACLE)!!

I mean just think of ALL the coincidences that had to happen for Shiro to get to Voltron.

I dunno if he’s like the least lucky person in the universe or the most lucky, because of how he’s ALWAYS almost dying in some way and ALWAYS escapes death against all odds.

But that was one heck of an incredible journey there!

But seriously, if Keith wasn’t looking for Shiro non stop and Shiro didn’t connect to black in that very second, the Galra’s “clone” would have died. Their project “Kuron” would fucking FAIL. 

I think if that really was the Galra’s goal to make a clone that would reach Voltron they would have made it a tiiiiny bit easier for him to survive somehow.

Just a tiiny bit. 

They dun have to go THAT FAR to convince him he actually escaped and they didn’t just let him go. Just you kno, give him a bit of a push there when he’s starving in space or something (assuming they somehow keep track of him). 

They dun have to go that far also for the viewers to fool em that Shiro escaped so him being a Clone would be a surprise later. I mean they just changed his hair a bit and no one in the fandom trusts him anymore haha.

So unless that ice planet and the universe is like filled with dead Shiro clones bodies who were eaten by monsters or froze to death or died of hunger or whatever, because of all times the clones didn’t make it, and the Galra were just waiting for that one special one that finally would, then I’m guessing that maybe something else is going on.

Because there’s no way that they’d just let him go like that and trust what? FATE to bring him to Voltron unharmed SOMEHOW???

Like that’s a dumb fucking plan.

So I dunno, unless the Galra know that no matter what happens Shiro and Keith always find eachother again and again like a pair of destined lovers.

I’m gonna say…

Complete bullshit. I dun buy it.

OK, Now how long has it actually been? Like how much time passed from their battle with Zarkon till they meet with Lotor? How much time passes until Haggar even summons Lotor?

What if it’s actually been longer than you thought? 

What if it’s been like… I dunno, a year?

Thing is that when we go back to Team Voltron in season 3, they seems to think Shiro is gone, dead, like they act like they all moved on and Keith is the only one who’s still stuck there.

I doubt you get to that point after a day or two, or a week, or months even… (They love Shiro, I dun think they’d give up on looking for him after such a short time or get over his death this easily..)

It’s at a point where they all like “Ok Keith, that’s enough time to mourn, we all accepted it and you have to move on too”

I know they all look the same, and there’s not alot of indication of how much time exactly it’s been.

But it does seem like they’ve been doing what they were doing (freeing planets, Pidge looking for her brother) for AWHILE.

This would explain Shiro’s long hair. It simply been long enough for it to grow that long since he disappeared.

(btw there’s a genetic thing that makes your hair grow really fast that also makes a flock of your hair white in the front, Shiro could totally have that

Also the fact he can’t walk at first can be explained with him just not doing that for awhile.

Now when Shiro is finally free he SOMEHOW makes it to that Gas planet they were fighting Lotor at the first time.

Voltron is leaving the scene and Shiro appears and chases it here

I actually looked to see if we can see him but we don’t.

(I also didn’t realize it my first watch, and now every time I’ll see the 3rd episode I’ll be like “NoooOOOOOOOOOOOO you fools wait for hiiim!!!!”)

Shiro sees Voltron leaving him behind.

Besides the fact that he knows this is probably the end for him now, it also shows him two things:

They moved on.

And they are doing well without him.

Anyway, 7 days later, Shiro is dying, thinks of his Voltron days and connects to the Black lion in the last minute.

And Keith (who hasn’t stopped searching for him, now with black lion)

finally finds him.

Now besides the headache, I actually dun particularly see anything really strange about Shiro’s behavior when he goes back.

Watching it again I just got the feeling he just has a really hard time accepting what happened with Black.

I dun see a reason to not believe what Keith suggests there, that Zarkon teleported him to captivity using the Black lion.

Shiro seems upset about it because 

What does it tells Shiro? 

That his bond with black was still not strong enough.

Like, he had so much fighting spirit when he escaped before, and suddenly when he finally reaches Voltron he’s depressed in bed and seems like he doesn’t want to see anyone?

What happened???

Like yeah he wanted Keith to lead Voltron, but I think maybe then seeing the team actually function without him and forming Voltron and fighting the Galra, and considering how much Voltron means to him and his struggle with his PTSD and how Voltron literally been the only thing on his mind when he was dying. 

I think it’s a bit hard for him to accept what he sees when he comes back..

He sounds fake here

Because he’s not being honest. 

Deep inside it hurts him to see they did fine without him.

When Keith goes “They need you”, he lies.

He’s the only one that needs him. The team has moved on. Maybe he says it because he can’t say “I” or feels like he’s not enough, maybe he’s trying to encourage Shiro, because he understands how Shiro feels, without Shiro needing to say anything. He always did. From the very beginning.

So maybe it’s like “Hey Shiro, I know how much this means to you and you’re still a valuable part of this team

Shiro obviously doesn’t want to go back on his word and be all “Ok Keith, so give me back my lion now!”

But Keith does it for him, and I think you can see Shiro is very happy about it.

Only the lion won’t accept him anymore.

And before this you also have that scene with Lance doing math that I think connects the two

Shiro feels like Lance, he feels like he has no place on the team anymore.

But he doesn’t deal with it in the open, honest and good way Lance does. (which is the reason Black won’t accept him anymore, he’s not thinking of the team)

That’s why he butts heads with Keith over leadership in this episode, and we can see even in the season 4 trailer that it goes on.

I think his position as a paladin and leader of Voltron gave him control over his life back after what he’s been through. In a way that was how he coped with his captivity and his PTSD.

He’s obviously proud of Keith, but I think he’s also jealous and hurt. 

I dun think he’s ready to accept he’s no longer leader or a part of Voltron.

(Like he’s proud of Keith, but he still puts him down saying “You’ll get there someday”)

And I think Keith understand where it’s coming from and he doesn’t buy it.

He puts himself down and says he can’t do this because he wants Shiro to feel needed and important.

And Shiro is doing what ya’ll Shiro stans have been doing for months haha, crying about him not being the black paladin anymore and how all his work on his bond with black was meaningless now that Keith is in it.

Shiro’s bond with his lion meant the most, he was the one who had to put the most effort into it. And suddenly, it gives him up. I think Shiro feels betrayed even.

And he’s not ready to do what Lance did with his lion yet and give it up for the sake of the team (maybe some Lance and Shiro bonding in the future??)

That’s why it seems like they are heading for a leadership conflict there. That Shiro would try to make Keith feel like he’s not ready for this. Unintentionally. 

And Keith would continue to play along with it, (though being the more fitting person for the position of leader) because maybe that’s what he’s been doing all along from episode one. Trying to gently give Shiro the power and the control he lost when he was captured by the Galra, back. (Without directly confronting Shiro about his PTSD.) (would explain their odd dynamics)

Thing is Shiro is just not as good as Keith with leading Voltron. And I think he’s gonna mess up AGAIN.

It’s like we are back in square one, where Keith is the one that has the right idea in mind and no one listens and they all listen to Shiro who makes BAD decisions.

( Shiro WTF 1 Shiro WTF 2 Shiro WTF 3 Shiro WTF 4,)

This is leading to them finding their balance as leaders and co leaders.

Now Shiro’s leadership is centered around teamwork and protecting his team. 

Keith is the better decision maker (and I have a long rant about Keith coming, because I dun think people understand why Keith is the perfect person for black still.)

I’m just gonna say Keith is definitely the leader they need in they ever want to beat Lotor. 

This all seems like buildup to Shiro finally opening up about his PTSD, and him piloting blue (the team work lion) which I talked about before also. I’m guessing he and Allura will be sharing it, Because someone needs to pilot the castle once in awhile.

This is a very natural arc for Shiro, so I doubt they’ll let a clone go though it.

And back to the clone thing:

The flashbacks Shiro sees when he escapes, seem to me like his regular PTSD flashbacks. There’s something in his memories Shiro is terrified of.

Obviously the clone IS a thing, because we see two Shiro’s. And obviously the Galra has some sort of plan for it.

But the clone is the one we saw in the bed, this is Kuron:

The Shiro that they got back is the real Shiro, or atleast the same Shiro from season 1-2. (who is the Shiro that arrived on Earth, but maybe not the Shiro that went to Kerberos btw)

And the Galra didn’t let him go, they just assumed they shot him down and he died. So they could start doing whatever they had planned to do with his clone.

They just have no idea real Shiro survived and is gonna fuck up their plans.

I’m guessing the headaches are connected to that somehow.

And this part

I’m gonna have to say maybe this isn’t just connected to Keith actually physically saving Shiro all the time. 

But also to Shiro’s ongoing probably life long battle with his PTSD, Keith is always there to kinda always remind him like “Your’e still valuable, your life is valuable, don’t give up.”

Now go embrace your even uglier hair Shiro and tell him you’re sorry for not trusting him.

There’s an interesting juxtaposition between Kylo and Finn in The Last Jedi. Because they both end up killing their abusers in TLJ and in doing so “claiming” their identities. 

But where Finn’s action sets him free of the First Order and the Dark Side when he proudly pronounce himself ‘rebel scum’ to Phasma, embracing that he is the flaw in their system and everything she hates, and is very proud of being just that Kylo goes in the opposite direction. After killing Snoke he does not turn his back on the First Order or the Dark Side despite being offered the chance to do so and having a direct ticket out of there.

Snoke may have influenced Kylo before then, just as Phasma had control over Finn’s life until very recently, but now they’re both gone and both men are free to choose as they wish.

And their respective choices are clear.

Finn embraces the rebels, freedom and the Light Side. Kylo chooses to stay with the First Order, choosing power and the oppression of the Dark Side instead.

“well don’t let it traumatize you” well damn why didn’t i remember before that we all have perfect control over our life experience and how it affects us, that must be why we call it trauma, because it’s our personal choice what kind of terror and pain will or wont cause damage to us! honestly if you’re gonna imply in any way that us being traumatized is our fault go and live thru it yourself, go on, I’ll be here, watching how you “don’t let it traumatize you”.

Nature, Time, and Dreams

Playing through Life is Strange and Before the Storm, we can be ones to guess where Max’s powers came from. She had dominion over time, and without good reason. She was forced into such a power, and as such she used it for what she assumed was good. 

Rachel Amber, she is often referred to as a force of nature, a storm winding in the distance. She whirls into Chloe’s life like a storm, and like a burning wildfire she sucks Chloe into her beauty. At the end of the first episode of Before the Storm, when Rachel screams at the fire she started we can see wind blow in the direction that she’s screaming. The wind blows the fire, adding more oxygen into it, and resulting in the disastrous fire that is overtaking the woods in Arcadia Bay. In Polarized, Chloe presumes that the storm hitting Arcadia Bay is Rachel. Rachel’s revenge. Whatever happened, she’s taking Chloe back. Even if it means obliterating the entire town.

Finally, we have Chloe Price. Chloe seems to be at the epicenter of the storm, for both Max and Rachel. Rachel sees the carelessness in Chloe, and what we assume is beginning to manipulate Chloe. Max’s powers hang on the balance of saving Chloe, otherwise the town will be destroyed by “Rachel’s Revenge.” The sacrifice of losing Chloe or the town is left up to Max, while we can assume Rachel is enacting her final will over Chloe Price, life or death. Be mine or be hers. Join me in death, or join Max in life.

Chloe seems relatively normal enough, assuming that Rachel does have dominion over the weather in the same way Max has control over time. What does Chloe have? Dreams. Chloe’s dreams allow her to navigate the difficulty of her life, without her father, William. One of the most telling scenes is in Brave New World. William, sitting in front of the blazing fire of his car, speaks to his daughter and warns her of the duality of darkness and beauty. He warns her that the beauty of the oncoming fire is what she needs to be cautious. The fire comes in, sucking Chloe into her beautiful vortex. Rachel makes Chloe feel like she matters in some way. So Chloe clings onto her since she no longer has a home or school in her mind.

Chloe’s dreams in Episodes 1 and 2 of Before the Storm are a testament to that. I do believe that these dreams are more than just dreams. They are similar to the nightmare that Max has at the end of Polarized, but dreams are Chloe’s domain. She dreams of a better life somewhere. She dreams of being with her father. She dreams of having Max back in her life. These dreams are not total nightmares to Chloe, unlike they are in Polarized, which was a living nightmare for Max. 

Life is Strange borders on the strangeness of life, and gives the three main females of the story dominion over certain aspects of life. Humanity only fights against nature, a force that cannot be defeated. It can only be defended against. Humans fear time. Because we all fear the day our time runs out, and Max abuses that power to make things work out the best she can. And we escape by our dreams. Life can be terrible. It can be hard. But when we fall asleep, we can enter a world of dreams where anything is possible. Including your deceased father giving you advice you would not be able to have on your own. 

Life is Strange, at least from what I gather, is the story of three forces of nature intermingling. And ultimately, the destruction that arises from their fight. The horrors of time and nature fighting for the girl who dreams of a better life somewhere.

Whatever difficulty you face today, cry out to God. Pour out your heart to Him in prayer and lay all of your pain at God’s feet. Be honest with and let Him take all control over your life. He will guide you through it.

I’m 100% sure all of us have thought at least once about Dean and Cas doing something adorable and we love it even if we know they wouldn’t do that thing in a millon years. For example, imagine Dean and Cas arguing to see who loves the other more.

“ I love you, Cas”

“I love you too”

“ Okay, but I love you more”

“ No Dean, I love you more”

“ Okay, okay I get it guys you love each other a lot. Can we get back to research now?”

the symbolic significance of victor doing the lifts and yuuri doing the dips in the ice dance –

  • victor literally lifting yuuri up, raising him higher. he’s the center of awe and attention, where he deserves to be - but also raised, supported, elevated to places he didn’t know he could reach before.
  • yuuri holding onto victor as victor surrenders control, putting his weight in yuuri’s arms, trusting yuuri to keep holding him, to keep him from falling. victor, who always felt that he could only move forward alone, kept a lonely tight control over his own life for years, giving it now with full trust into the arms of someone else
Quotes from College
  • “porn is a theme”  “idk i think its more of a hobby”
  • “I don’t like sex because thats what dishwashers are for”
  • “yes, i stab every baby. I stabbed you as a baby, and I will stab your babies and then your babies’ babies.”
  • “Are you eating easy mac with chopsticks?” “yeah” “why” “because i’ve lost the small amount of control i had over my life”
  • “Have you jumped a horse since may?” “No, but my death wish is pretty intense today.” “Okay” *jumps fence that is definitely too high while trainer nods in solidarity*
  • “I’m trying to decide if I should get up and eat a trisket” “just one?” “yeah.”
  • “I’d fight a clown. I’d fight 10 clowns!”
  • “…and then {the dean} said to just fucking get over it” “wait, did she actually say that?” “bro, would I lie about this?”
  • “This…is…Howard!” *bio professor whips out chameleon from god only knows where*
  • “These are the Yale-ies. They are capuchins, there are 9 of them, all of them are named after James Bond characters and all of them are assholes.” 
  • “This is where we keep the leopard geckos and the turtles. the geckos like to be pet. the turtles do not. I know its tempting, but dont touch the turtles” *later that day, newbie comes in with bandaged fingers* “WHAT THE FUCK DID I SAY!”
  • “Hey, professor, we named one of our plants after you!” “Ah, is this a good thing?” “Depends. We may kill it.”
  • “So you work with the monkeys?” “Yep.” “What do you do with them?”  “Oh, you know. Monkey business.”