When Jack found them, during a hunt for something to help with his headache, he had been surprised. He lifted the prescription bottle, reading the name Joseph Graham Sugg, and the amount while he stepped backwards, sitting down on the edge of the bathtub.
The bottle rested loosely in his hand, the black print glaring up at him, and for a moment, Jack felt guilty.
How had he not noticed? Was Joe in that bad of a place? Why wouldn’t he tell him?
The questions swirled around in his head, and he reached over, placing the bottle on the counter, frowning at it as he remained sat there.
Obviously he wasn’t mean to find it, it had been strategically placed behind other various bottles and random items, hidden away from anyone who just looked in the bathroom cupboard quickly. But he had found it, and now Jack wasn’t sure what to do with this new found information.
Should he mention it to Joe?
But the older man had clearly kept it hidden for a reason. And Jack didn’t want him to think he was snooping, because he wasn’t, he just wanted a pill to get rid of this headache. Instead he had found his boyfriends anti depressants.
Jack kept his discovery hidden for a few more days, choosing instead to observe Joe a little more closely, trying to spot any signs that would show him why his boyfriend would need them. He wasn’t even sure when Joe had started to take them, whether it was years ago, back when they were just friends, or — and this thought terrified Jack — only since they started dating.
Realizing that Joe wasn’t planning on coming clean any time soon, and the bottle remained hidden away in its little spot, Jack decided that he had to admit to knowing, perhaps than Joe would be more willing to open up about it.
“Did you take your pill today?” He asked casually one evening as they cleaned up from dinner.
“Huh?” Joe paused, dishes midway into the sink, his face showing his confusion as he looked over at Jack.
The younger man placed his own dishes down onto the counter, reaching into his pocket for the bottle he had been carrying around since before dinner, placing it on the counter, the words on the label facing Joe.
“Did you take your pill today?”
The dishes slipped in Joe’s hands slightly, but he quickly placed them into the sink, eyes darting between the prescription bottle and Jack’s calm face.
“Where did you find those?”
“Hidden behind the other stuff.”
“You went snooping?!” He knew Joe wasn’t actually mad, it was just a defence mechanism, trying to distract Jack, but it wouldn’t work.
“No, I was grabbing something for a headache. Now, answer the question, did you take your pill today?”
“Yes.” Joe snapped, grabbing the bottle off of the counter, “Anything else you want to ask?”
“Why didn’t you tell me?” Jack leaned against the counter, crossing his arms as he stared over at Joe, who was fidgeting with the bottle.
“Because its embarrassing! Okay?!”
“You think taking anti depressants is embarrassing?”
“Yes. No. I don’t know!” Joe slammed the bottle back onto the counter, turning the water on forcefully, “Can we stop talking about it?”
“No.” Jack reached over, flicking the water off, “Because this is something that we need to talk about if we’re going to date.”
“You’re going to break up with me because I’m taking pills?”
“Gods, no!” Jack shook his head, tugging Joe against him, “I just want you to know that I don’t care if you take them, and that you didn’t have to hide them from me.”
“No one knows,” Joe mumbled into Jack’s shoulder, burying his face there as his arms wrap around the younger man. “I didn’t want anyone to find out.”
“It’s really not embarrassing, its fairly normal. Conor takes them.”
“He does?” Joe pulled his head back to look at Jack, who nodded, kissing him quickly.
“For his depression.”
“Oh,” Joe’s eyes fall to look over Jack’s shoulder, “I, uhm, I take it for my anxiety.”
“I didn’t know you had anxiety,” Jack frowned, “Why are you keeping stuff from me?”
“Because its embarrassing!” Joe repeated, trying to step back, but Jack kept his own arms around him tightly, “Jack, let me go!”
“No. Because you need to stop thinking this shit is embarrassing, when it’s not! There is nothing wrong with having depression or anxiety! And you shouldn’t be ashamed for taking something to help you with it!” Joe froze at Jack’s small outburst, staring up at him in shock.
“You’re in the public eye, a lot. You put your entire life out there for everyone. I’d be surprised if you didn’t have anxiety. And clearly it runs in your family, look at your sister. But Joe, you don’t have to hide this shit from me. I’m here for you to talk to, to help you. I want you to feel safe in telling me this.” Jack finished, staring into Joe’s eyes, “You are safe with me. You can tell me anything.”
“I have anxiety. And I take anti depressants to help control it.” Joe replied softly, his grip tightening on Jack’s shirt as he spoke the words.
“Good.” Jack leaned in to kiss him again, “Want dessert?”
“That’s all you have to say back?”
“Do you want me to say anything else?” Jack raised an eyebrow at Joe, who shook his head a little. “Exactly, because I don’t need to say anything else. You already know I don’t care if you take them. I want you to be happy and healthy, Joe, and if that means taking anti depressants, than fine.”
Request: Do you think you could write some Josh fluff?? I can totally picture him getting in a serious relationship before the other guys and I think it would be funny if they made the others a bit jealous. Josh always having someone to cook for him or help him with videos or have a date for premiers. Maybe some snuggles.
😂😂😂i was wondering if someone would catch that…. i know he plays the piano, so i just kinda assumed he knows how to play other instruments as well. like my friend knows how to play guitar so when she learned the piano it was easy because she already knew how to play a different instrument. i don’t know tbh.
Maybe “fixing” is probably too extreme of a word, but something should be done.
Women’s bantamweight is the shallowest division in the UFC. According to Wiki, there’s only 25 fighters in the division.
Looking at the list only further ruins things. Cyborg isn’t a real bantamweight. Alexis Davis is pregnant and probably gone for a year. Jessica Eye and Jessamyn have lost three fights out of the 4 ‘official’ ones they have had which would normally be grounds for being cut (though it doesn’t look like they will). Larrisa Pacheco hasn’t panned out going 0-2, while getting finished twice. Plus her being matched up with Germaine de Randamie shows how little faith Shelby seems to have in her. Rin Nakai is nowhere to be seen.At the same time, the athletic ceiling is real clear on fighters like Smith, Dudieva, and Moras. Carmouche seems to be regressing as a fighter. Marion Reneau is 38 and we’ve seen how far she could go. Sara McMann has hit a serious mental wall in her progression and at 35 it isn’t likely she’ll overcome. So taking out the very top of the division (Rousey, Tate, and Zingano), that leaves the likes of Amanda Nunes and Juliana Pena to carry the division.
Where are the 135lb woman prospects? Well, it seems the UFC is positioning 115lbs to be the marquee women’s division after Ronda goes full Hollywood in the not too far off future. They’ve invested a lot of time/money into collecting talent and pushing new stars like Joanna Champion, Paige Vanzant, Michelle Waterson, Karolina Kowalkiewicz, Tecia Torres, Thug Rose, etc.
Not really surprising all things considered. Women’s 135lbs has been treated as a conveyor belt of contenders for Rousey to demolish. There’s even talk of the UFC just up and abandoning the division when Rousey leaves (Not gonna happen if Cat Zingano and Miesha Tate are still around). Still, if the UFC even wants to give the illusion that they are trying to build WBW it comes down to better fight booking and signing new talent.
So here’s some new talent the UFC should consider signing (not including Invicta talent) to add some life into the division:
1. Valentina Shevchenko (9-1)
With her only loss coming to Liz Carmouche back in 2010, Valentina Shevchenko is a no-brainer to sign. Shevchenko is arguably the best female muay thai fighter on the planet having won multiple world titles. She’s even beaten strawweight champion Joanna Jedrzejczyk 3 times in Muay Thai fights. Originally from Kyrgyzstan, Shevchenko is now based in Peru where she’s grown a strong fan-base. Currently competing part time in both MMA and Muay Thai, most of her MMA fights nowadays are happening under the Legacy FC banner. She has to be on the UFC’s radar, as she has been pictured at a Legacy event speaking with Dana White. Also worth noting that Shevchenko’s striking background would be a unique addition to a division that is strongly ruled by grapple heavy fighters (Rousey, Tate, Zingano, Davis, McMann, Pena, Carmouche, etc).
2. Agnieszka Niedzwiedz (7-0)
With Joanna Jedrzejczyk and Karolina Kowalkiewicz opening the door for female Polish fighters at 115lbs, it’d be pretty hard to imagine Shelby and the UFC aren’t aware of 20 year old Agnieszka Niedzwiedz. Undefeated in her short career, she’s a Cage Warriors veteran that has fought relatively lax competition up to this point. She’s had to sit out for the entirety of 2015 because she was pregnant but she’s given birth already and has already begun training for a return in 2016. She’s not an overly explosive athlete but she’s got a pretty strong base in Judo and is training with a lot of experienced fighters.
3. Lina Akhtar Lansberg (4-1)
Another accomplished striker, Lina Akhtar Lansberg has a wealth of combat sports experience behind her (setting her apart from many other fighters at 135lbs). She’s competed in Muay Thai fights all over the world, capturing a few titles in the process. And it seems to be translating to MMA as she’s managed to finish 3 of her previous four opponents. Her last win was over Alexandra Buch (8-4), a fighter with a lot more MMA experience than Lansberg has. While I’m not sure if she’ll be able to climb the ladder at 135lbs at 33 years old, she could be an exciting action fighter that gets people excited about fights in the division that don’t include Rousey.
4. Ji Yeon Kim (4-0-2)
Of all the women on this list, South Korea’s Ji Yeon Kim probably has the 3 most validating performances (and two of them were draws). In her first two pro fights, Kim fought Japan’s top two women’s bantamweights. She fought to a draw against former DEEP Jewels Japan and former Strikeforce/Invicta FC contender Takayo Hashi and a much less heralded, though more experienced Shizuka Sugiyama. Since then she was able to win four straight, including a win over Takayo Hashi for the DEEP Jewels title. At 26 years old, she’s got time to mature into a real force in the division. Really disappointed she isn’t on the upcoming Seoul card.
5. Anna Elmose (3-0)
Here’s where we get into the unknown a bit. Anna Elmose fights out of Denmark and hasn’t really beaten any of note to date. Her best win comes over an Italian fighter that hasn’t beaten anyone either but had 7 fights under her belt. She’s also beaten Sinead Kavanagh, the daughter of John Kavanagh (Conor McGregor’s coach). She does fight out of the same gym as former Cage Warriors champions Nicolas Dalby and Pannie Kianzad though. Why should the UFC sign her, you ask? Because she can throw heat. She’s a little powerhouse that can leverage a lot of weight into her punches and can actually put woman out if given the chance. If the UFC gave her the right fights, her career could definitely go places. At this point, her physical tools should be good enough to compete with the bottom of the division.
Extra: Elina Kallionidou (4-0)
Pretty obvious reason why Elina Kallionidou isn’t making the UFC anytime soon. She’s only 16. That’s why she’s also worth knowing though. She’s won four fights against adults. She competed in a one night tournament back in July beating two women with more experience than she had. The 19 year old she beat in the finals, Foteini Kromida, isn’t a half bad prospect either.