confused !!!

Why can’t I?

Because I’m a girl?
Because I’m small?
Because I’m a boy?
Because I’m transgender?
Because I’m questioning?
Because I’m gay?
Because I’m “confused”?
Because I’m smart?
Because I’m an orphan?
Because I’m a virgin?
Because I’m not corrupted?
Because I’m not with this generation’s state of mind?
Because I’m black?
Because I’m white?
Because I’m not your race?
Because I’m bilingual?
Because I’m multicultural?
Because I’m weird?
Because I’m different?
Because I’m not you?
Because I’m existing?
Because I’m human?
Because I’m me?

Oh, you don’t like it?

Well… too bad,
And just for that I’m going to keep doing it.

You know what I just realized? I really don’t get allosexuals.
*Example*
I’m hanging out with friends. Two of them are together. One of them looks at the other and says, “I’m thirsty”.
Now I know there are two definitions for thirsty. But I have no idea which definition they’re using.
I mean, they were kind of looking at each other sexually? *Side note: allo body language is strange too.*
So I start looking for something else to do in case they start making out. I mean, I guess I COULD try to carry on the conversation with them, but that seems a little rude.
They notice.
They start going over the top with sexual language, exaggerated voices, blah, blah.

Allos who know I’m ace tend to do this around me. I don’t know why. Is it normal allo behavior? Is it because I look uncomfortable? Is it because my life is actually a sitcom, and it gets a laugh from the audience? These are questions that will continue to be asked, but never answered.

Anyway, they leave. I now assume the orginal statement was sexual, and they left to go to their place to fuck.

They come back 15 minutes later, having gone to Walmart for Cokes. I state my confusion, they point out my mistake, laugh, and call me a prude.

HOW was I supposed to know?!

Is there some kind of secret allo code? Are they telepathic?

So if someone could explain this to me, that would be great.

Also, when I look away from people kissing/making out, I get the same, “Don’t be a prude” reaction.

…?

I can only look at you or away from you? I was trying to be polite by giving you space? Seriously, do allos just watch their friends kiss/make out?

I am so confused.

Send help.

I was holding someone else but I longed for you to be the one in my arms.
—  E.G. Why am I like this? Why do I still miss you..?
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Sterek AU: After the death of Claudia magic becomes a taboo in the Stilinski house hold. Everytime Stiles wants to show his dad his magic, to help his dad with his magic John lashes out. Not knowing what to do with the gift that he got from his mother, Stiles represses his magic - doing nearly unrepairable damage to himself.

Years later Derek returns to Beacon Hills to find that the Alpha that killed his sister is far from the most dangerous thing in town.

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