confidence couple

In the past couple of months I’ve learned a lesson that is odd to say the least. I have learned that it is okay to feel great about yourself and feel entirely insecure all in the same day. Earlier today, trying on new gym clothes, I felt great and confident in myself. Now, after the gym and after seeing people who look better than me, or feeling like I’m not good enough, I am insecure all over again. This had happened to me constantly for the last couple of months and I have learned that it’s okay. Just because I feel great about myself for a while, then feel bad about myself all within a couple of hours does not mean anything. All it means is that I am human and I feel emotions. It had taken me months to realize that feeling this way does not make me crazy. This is all about the process of loving myself. Feeling confident for a couple of hours is progress from the self hatred that used to occupy all of my thoughts.

I know it’s hard for you to talk to anyone right now, but how much do I wish I could tell you this: love isn’t everything. You don’t always have to live on the feeling of being in love. You are not a half of a whole seeking for your perfect other half; you are whole. You could be capable of creating masterpieces if you tried to reach for the sky. So please don’t get stuck in your hopeless circle, waiting for love - you are so much more than that person you said you are.
You are addicted to the drugs, they give you a false reality. I am addicted to the thought of you loving me for the same reason. I guess we’re both in love with our high.
—  I can’t give you that high you crave.
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MERLEX || Meredith x Alex || GREY’S ANATOMY || S13E07 || “She talks sooooo much.”

the words of my father

pairing: riley matthews & lucas friar (technically) 
word count: 1,530 
prompt: day seven: family OR fix-it - two options here for the last official day of the week. you could go for the family angle, whether that means the matthews or the kids of our kids is up to you!! on the other hand, if there was something mj and co. did that really pushed your buttons, this is your chance to fix it!!
written for: rucas fanfic week 2017
summary: sometimes we fear that we’ll never live up to our parents, and sometimes we fear that we’ll become that, lucas friar falls into the latter category. 
notes: hi friends!! i want to apologize for how long this has taken to get up, i got distracted yesterday and then i had to work today so i didn’t get a chance to finish before now. i promise that i’ll get a day eight fic up sometime later this week because i do have an idea for it!! this is technically a rucas fic, but actually is a conversation between lucas and cory (hence the gif), but i hope you still enjoy despite the lack of riley and lucas interaction. :) 

There are a lot of moments throughout Riley’s pregnancy where Lucas is hit with the gravity of being a father.

It happens when him and Riley are standing in the department store, telling the salesperson that they need two of everything. It happens when he’s up late at night, buying Riley her favorite kind of ice cream, not because she asked but just because he knows she’ll want it when she wakes up at 4am. It happens when they’re sitting in the room they’ve deemed the nursery, having abandoned their efforts to assemble furniture and are instead playfully arguing about baby names.

But none of those moments prepare him for what he’s going to feel when he’s standing in the hospital, and the babies that have been a mere thought in his mind are suddenly real. They exist, and Lucas would be lying if he said he’s not a little bit terrified.

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