Confession: Alistair is so pure. Like he picks up a rose and carries it for weeks most likely because it reminds him of the girl he thinks is beautiful. Like it’s so extra but so good too. I just really love Alistair.
“I thought I’d love Hearthfire, but the way it ruins interesting NPCs by making them all the same makes me cringe; I wish they would let the characters have some of their past lives back. Let Vilkas return to the companions every now and then. Make their dialogues more personal. If it doesn’t suit you, then marry someone else. Hearthfire is like a very good mod - but not an expansion.“
Companions: I love all of the DA2 companions, but most of the dialogue between my favorites is so hateful. My babies can’t stand each other and it hurts my soul. I feel bad forcing them to interact with each other, but I want them all with me!
One companion I really connected with was Blackwall. After first
thinking he was a badass Grey Warden I really made sure that I had a
great friendship with him. After learning of his past in the most
Shakespearean way, I kept him in the Inquisition because my heart broke
so much for him and I couldn’t just abandon him. He will always be my
favorite companion to have and my favorite companion overall in the DA
“I don’t get all the hate for the Companions. I have 5 different characters and each one has completed the Companions quest line because it’s one of my favourite guild quest lines, seconded only to the Dark Brotherhood. I love the characters within Jorrvaskr, and I love having Farkas as my follower. I honestly cried when I saw Kodlak in Sovngarde, and I was glad that I’d helped him get there.”
<b><p></b> <b>Me:</b> *thinking of starting some drama today*<p/><b>Me:</b> C'mon, you can do this.<p/><b>Me:</b> *takes a deep breath*<p/><b>Me:</b> So.... I highkey kinkshame people who romance Paladin Danse. <p/><b></b> There. I said it.<p/></p><p/></p>
Confession: DA:I changed my life in a lot of ways, which sounds silly because it’s a game, but more than anything else the romance with Solas made me realize how shitty my real relationship was. It was dull and also dysfunctional, just a total “safety net” situation. There was no emotional or intellectual stimulation, no common interests, no passion… Only codependency. Solas had such a unique way of looking at the world and demanded nothing of my Lavellan… it really made me think.
It got to the point where my ex even noticed I had a difference in attitude (he didn’t know it was because of the Dread Egg). I was no longer clingy, afraid, unsure… I learned to stand on my own two feet and in the end it made him leave. At first it devastated me. Then on top of that, SOLAS left me. I was so angry. I was the angriest Lavellan around. But then as I continued the game without Solas and as I completed Jaws Of Hakkon without him in my party - it dawned on me. I was my own person. I love Solas and I wish it could have ended differently, and I did choose to redeem him… but I did NOT need him.
At first I decided to “harden my heart to a cutting edge” but then, no. I am strong and independent but my heart is open, loving, and forgiving. I’m who I’m supposed to be.