concert backstage

Special Words

Swaying on the heels of my feet, I listen to my boyfriend’s band perform their concert from backstage. I’m here to surprise Chen for the first time in a while. The only member who knew I was coming is Baekhyun since he is a good friend of mine. It wouldn’t be unusual for Baekhyun to spill the news to Chen, but surprisingly he hasn’t. It’s been months since I’d last seen Chen and I’ve missed him so much. Ever since he left for tour, we’ve talked on the phone whenever he had free time. Actually before his concert he messaged me telling me he needed a good luck kiss and he was disappointed I wasn’t there to give him one. What he didn’t know was that I was staying at the hotel across the sheet from the stadium where the concert was being held. A plushie rests in my hands, something I had stopped and bought on the way over. I know how much Chen loves plushies and anything he can cuddle. I thought it’d be a good gift from me to him while he finished up his tour. The roaring of the thousands of fans inform me that the last song has ended and the boys will be coming off stage soon after they say a final goodnight. I’m attentive to all the boy’s little speeches about how thankful they are for their fans and people that have supported them with their careers. I pay attention more when I hear a familiar voice speak my name. “Thank you everyone for coming to our concert and I hope we didn’t fail to please each and everyone of you. I have a special thank you for someone if you don’t mind.” Chen announces, his voice booming through the microphone he holds to his lips. The fans scream and cheer in anticipation, urging him to continue. I can’t help but peek around the curtain backstage to watch him. Sweat droplets are coated on Chen’s face and he dabs his forehead with a towel before speaking again. “I’d like to thank my girlfriend, Y/N.” The crowds busts into even louder cheers. So loud the other members have to shush them so Chen’s next words can be heard. “Y/N, I wish you were here with me while I’m on tour. We could be seeing the world together. I know how much you love to travel and I’m aware that on your bucket list it says to travel the world with me. I want you to know, that one day, when my career slows down, I’m going to take you anywhere you’d like to go. You say the name of a country and we’ll be there. I apologize that I’m not home often and getting to talk to you is so rare, but that doesn’t lessen my love for you. I’m always one call away if you need me, no matter the time difference or the miles between us. I’ll always be one call away.” My mouth falls agape at his words. Never have I heard him talk about me like this, at least not in front of thousands of his fans. Random people pat me on the back as I stare at Chen trying his best to compose himself. His other members form a circle around him, bringing him into a group hug which makes me smile softly. A few visible tears can be seen rolling down Chen’s flushed face. I’m honesty too in shock to be emotional. I’d never think he’d cry because of missing me. My heart is thumping loudly in my chest and it’s tough for me to contain myself. Suddenly, Baekhyun smacks into my form hiding behind the curtain. Almost knocking me over, he grabs hold of my arms, keeping me from falling on my tailbone. “I have a feeling Chen is going to be thrilled to see you.” Baekhyun smiles, patting my shoulder. I hold the plushie closer to my chest, my cheeks heating up at the thought of seeing Chen in mere seconds. My eyes begin to fill with delayed tears and I fan my eyes, trying to dry them before anyone thinks I’m upset because at the moment I am nothing but ecstatic. All Chen’s fellow members stroll past me, their eyes widening in shock when they notice me waiting. Clapping hands over their mouths, they sneakily glance behind them at Chen who’s slowly lagging behind. When he rounds the corner, I make sure to hold out the plushie to him, a toothy smile on my face. The emotions are leaking through my chest now. My cheeks quickly become stained with tears, my lips struggling to form a smile since all I want to do is break into sobs. In a split second, I’m lifted off the ground, packaged in Chen’s arms. Wrapping my arms around his neck, I whisper soft words in his ear. “You don’t have to be one call away anymore.”

Originally posted by sjabe

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.
You claim to love her, inside and out, but the only time you call her beautiful is when it’s 3 in the morning and I’ve already turned you down.
—  girls tell each other everything, c.j.n.
We throw around the word never likes its nothing but a small rose petal. The word never is a doubled edged sword. On one side it says ‘I will never leave you’ and on the other it says ‘I will never love you.’
—  The Word Never