cs au. ‘there’s something about breaking an engagement and leaving the man you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with and finding yourself roommate-ing with the man who’s loved you through years and boyfriends and breakups and uncertainties that makes a person a little weepy, a little off balance, a little unsure.’
(i’ve been working on this for at least six weeks, and it’s finally, finally finished, and i’m something like pleased with it. (thanks to swallowedsong for looking over it and helping me and stuff.) so, enjoy whatever this is. (really long, among other things. just a head’s up.)
Packs up her share of the apartment instead of going to work, keeps Henry home from school so he can help. Wraps picture frames in scarves and sweaters, shoves books and DVDs into boxes, throws pots and pans and casserole dishes into the back seat. One trip to unload these small bits, another for Henry’s bed and dresser and nightstand.
It takes just over 6 hours to remove every trace of them from this apartment that was supposed to be theirs and is now just his, but she doesn’t cry as she sweeps through one last time. As she takes her key off the chain, locking the door behind her and slipping it underneath. She doesn’t feel broken or empty. Isn’t sure what it is pulsing through her, something that tastes like regret or maybe failure.
“Sorry, kid,” she says, eyes still dry, once they reach the car. He just shrugs. Smiles a small, sad thing.
it’s great that “our” hook is with “our” emma and they’re happy living their life. but there is still a hook out there that had a child with some other woman. the concept of CS being meant to be in every realm/universe is false. remember that’s forever ruined. the point of soulmates is no matter what version of hook exists he’s still meant to be with a version of emma. and the writers made sure to take that away from us.
Why is this even IN the interview. His answer is three words. But, for some reason, interviewer, Cecilie Harris added it in anyway.
So, the question is why, what did she think having this in the article would do?.
I just love talking about feelings, It’s a passion of mine.
We haven’t BEEN talking about feelings, though, unless we have, unless we are approaching silence and masculinity and meditation as feelings.
That’s an interesting take, and I did say that earlier, that maybe CS sees masculinity as an emotion rather than an identity.
This says a lot about CS and how he was cast. I said from day one that CS didn’t audition, he was told he was in the show. And after reading this, I believe that. RAS pitched the concept with CS already attached to the project. He was smart. He knew what fanbase he wanted the show to have and thought who would be best to pull it off. This isn’t about a show, this is about creating a fanbase. That’s why they spend so much time and energy on promoting Scamhart. It’s almost like he wrote two shows, a reality TV series and a scripted series, it was a brilliant move, no matter how absolutely evil it is.
Now, you may be asking how I get all that from this answer. CS asked to try out for Jughead, he wasn’t asked to. It implies CS has the upper hand or at least, he did. This means they were THAT desperate for CS to be in the project.
Just another piece of insight into this fucked up show.
This says more about CS than anything.
I was the cringiest kid in school, Jughead, to me, is the very image of a millennial teenager that many people fear, and that’s what I love about his character. I had interpreted Jughead as tremendously pretentious, and it’s very funny to me that when people watch ‘Riverdale’ now, he has become this sort of heartthrob figure. Anyone who thinks they can write about their own town as a teenager, to me, that’s a really pretentious move. Striving to be unique and non-conformist, I really resonated with that.
Remember CS talking about his teen years earlier in this interview? He said he hated himself between the ages of 13 and 20. If he hated himself, and he says he was Jughead, doesn’t that mean he hates Jughead too?
But we also know he hated who he became because of the industry and the undue power he was given.
What if Jughead was CS’ way of getting to relive his teen years the right way. As the person he wished he had been, and THAT’S what drew him to the character?
CS knows Jughead is cringy and emo and awful, but he’s human and he’s a teenager, and that’s what teenagers do.
I think I get how CS is able to support Lice so much. They are not good for each other, but he likes that. It shows real life, it shows a real fucked up relationship like most teenagers go through and look back on as adults and say “wow, what the fuck was I thinking?”
He wanted people to hat Jughead, to fear his pretentiousness and instead, Jughead became a heartthrob and Lice became the relationship to strive for and that just doesn’t make sense.
He wanted Riverdale to start conversations. I mean, in Glamour he said this season was about politics without talking about politics and he wanted it to spark a gun and violence debate among the teenagers watching, he thinks that’s what RAS wants too. And that hasn’t happened, cause all anyone will focus on is the girl with the ponytail and the heartthrob with raven hair.
I want THIS Jughead. I wish people would focus on the fear Jughead causes them to feel rather than what he looks like shirtless. Good to know CS would too.
This starts off with CS trying to talk about himself as a man, and then he just abandons it, cause, he can’t relate to Jughead on this level. vulnerability for CS seems to be directly connected to gender and sexuality.
For Jughead, his vulnerability comes from connection and emotion. It’s not just the fear of losing people, but the fear of showing fear, the fear of not being masculine enough.
Just a product of men being told they can’t be weak. That’s how I grounded it; in the inability to be vulnerable in that kind of physiology
In the previous answer, CS says,
Your ability to get into character comes from the resonation you have empathetically with the role itself
Cole doesn’t have the vulnerability because of emotion, he has it because of masculinity, so, to play an empathetic character, he had to draw from that, draw from his experience with the masculinity complex.
I’d also just like to point out, THIS is an interview. You ask follow up questions that other interviewers at other media outlets wouldn’t ask, you focus on the things the interviewee has tried to say but has never been given a chance. As a journalist, these interview questions just make me happy.
I love how I give a thought and then he ends up saying what I JUST said in the next answer.
I am now, or at least, I’m more comfortable
I think this is really important.
We act like CS is perfect and totally comfortable with who he is and doesn’t make mistakes and lives on this high and mighty pedestal, and, he doesn’t. He’s still learning and growing and making mistakes just like anyone else. He’s not fully healed from all the trauma caused by his previous career.
He’s still scared. People ask me all the time why he’s not out, cause he’s honest about everything and would never lie to his fans. Um…excuse me? Yes, he would, he has to accept himself fully first before thinking about fans doing it. He’s said it before, in this interview even, that as awful as it is, he does seek fan validation.
I think that has a lot to do with vulnerability and his comfort level with vulnerability. This also goes back to social media. We now live in a world where, to be a successful actor or musician or anything in entertainment, you have to bare your soul. No one is going to pay attention to you if you don’t scream who you are from the rooftops.
For the longest time, there was no vulnerability in entertainment. PR agents would, and still do, create stories that entertainers followed that would get them the most success. This is still being done, ie, Scamhart, but a lot less people are falling for it.
But there was a reason for this, besides that fans ate it up like candy that their faves were dating or pregnant or fighting, I mean we are the society of reality TV, we live for drama, it’s hard.
Being vulnerable and bearing ones soul is hard as hell, and fans just expect these people who barely know themselves yet to be good at it.
CS is still discovering himself and that’s so important to remember.
I’m a firm believer that the history of human survival is essentially a history of triumph over their vulnerabilities
To be human we have to grow and accept ourselves for who we are. We live in a society where we equate embarrassment with vulnerability. CS, believe that vulnerability is a thing of strength rather than a thing of embarrassment or with a negative connotation.
All I can say to that
And then I embraced vulnerability when I got older, my own personal insecurities, femininity and all other concepts I have within me - I had the confidence to walk around and truly feel like I mastered a space that was otherwise foreign to me
Say what you want. Call this whatever you want. I’m going to call this a genderfluid kid coming out, but if you don’t want to…well, that’s a you problem.
CS equates femininity with insecurity and vulnerability. Notice how he doesn’t have “emotional” anywhere in that. This isn’t how other people look at women and saying women are weaker, it’s about his own femininity and how expressing it makes him insecure and vulnerable. (I’m so close to writing “their” and “them”)
It’s hard enough for most cis men to be vulnerable and not have a masculinity complex, but for someone like CS, where femininity comes so easy, it’s even harder. I really want to hear him talk about wearing women’s clothes, cause we know he’s done it. What it feels like. If he feels closer to his feminine identity or if it’s more an emotional thing.
The other thing he does during this answer, he brings up puberty. Which…if he was cis is…weird. Why would puberty make these vulnerabilities and insecurities worse? DOES his body match how he perceives himself? Or is it more like Rain Dove’s views on herself.
He also brings up sexuality here. I don’t know if he’s just talking about the Kinsey Scale. I think he may be talking about sexual attraction in general. The sexual to asexual spectrum.
We have no good reason to believe that CS identifies as an entirely sexual human being, and honestly, with everything he’s been through and everything he says in this article, I’m leaning towards he doesn’t. Maybe the Jughead representation and lack-there-of was actually really personal. I’m not making any assumptions. He hasn’t said enough for me to feel comfortable doing that, but…it’s a thought.
Silver lining. Emma and Killian are safe from all this. And their child was conceived consensually.
True about conception but not giving CS fans more than that AND giving more of a bedroom scene to Fake Hook was giving the finger to CS fans.
But as for being safe. I’ll believe it when I see it. Something tells me they didn’t introduce a pregnancy to leave it at that and while we might not get CS I would be very surprised if we don’t get the CS child. The FTL is 21 Year’s in the future so I can totally see them having the CS child being one of the witches in HH. OR my hope is that we see the CS child in the finale - preferably w/ all his family but if alone then as the Guardian to the power because he’s the most powerful child of all.
hey! im teaching myself how to code, mostly C# stuff and using Unity. Do you have any tips/advice for learning all this stuff? its a bit overwhelming rn lol.
Hey man that’s awesome! I’m happy to hear you’ve decided to learn to program, and are doing so with a medium that helps with games too! That’s awesome!
I haven’t really worked with Unity or C#, since I went the more traditional way with school - but what problems are you having?
Right now I’m trying to learn Python, as well as practice my fundamentals, and I’ve found out that a combination of the website HackerRank and TutorialsPoint is working well for me. HackerRank has a whole bunch of practice problems that range from language specific to general data structures / CS concepts. TutorialsPoint is a massive resource that basically gets you going with each specific language’s syntax / how to do certain things with the language - as well as tutorials for fundamentals / data structures and so much more.
To be honest for your first language outside of C#, I would choose maybe Java or Python, and learn your fundamentals in those languages. I learned of C++, which is a good one too - but I feel like the other two are more beginning friendly.
The cool thing with language specific challenges in HackerRank is that they go relatively slow. How to print, how to store data, how to do math, how to access arrays / lists, etc. Kind of goes hand in hand. Right now with Python I’m going over some sections of the TutorialsPoint Python page, then doing some challenges that goes hand in hand with what I just learned.
Also Stackoverflow and the language’s Official Documents are your best friend ( more so the latter ).
So it’s true that trust was always a significant concept for CS, but somehow I have this feeling that we are yet to understand the true meaning behind Emma’s words in 5x03.
She spoke of trust so many time there (so many that it even made me roll my eyes that she was going on and on about trust, while she was tricking him at the same time). But I have this feeling that at the end of this arc we gonna understand what she truly meant there. That she was maybe tricking him, but he could have really trusted her there, because although it didn’t seem at the moment, it was all part of a much bigger plan that we (Killian and us) can’t know of just yet.
Remember, Emma in 5x03 has memories of the events of 5x04. She has a knowledge of how trusting Hook with her burden of seeing HologRumple helped her make the demon go away, if only for a little while. She knows how powerful having trust between them can be. And I think we are about to discover, in what’s still a head, why it was so important for her to have his trust at that moment.
I requested fluff prompts to combat the winter finale angst and a Nonnie sent this.
“It’s my turn to open up the cafe today and you were sleeping under one of the tables when i came in and i don’t know what to say so i’m just sweeping awkwardly around you AU CS.”
I changed the cafe to a library and used this as a chance to play with the idea of a Cursed!Killian in S1. Sadly it’s not terribly fluffy or Christmas-y but there is a big possibility this might become part of a larger fic at some point so I hope you enjoy! 1.2k | Rated T
First thing in the morning the library felt almost like a shrine; quiet, somber, and full of mystery. The sun pouring through the high windows onto the meticulously organized shelves and the books just waiting to share the infinite knowledge and worlds between their covers. Each morning James would descend from his apartment over the library into the peacefulness, run his hands over their spines and breathe in the smell of the paper and glue. Sometimes he would pick one at random and take it with him to read over breakfast at Granny’s.
This morning the shrine is desecrated. The quiet pierced by a soft snore that sounds almost like a sigh. The organization of the town history section demolished with it’s entire contents scattered upon a table. He pauses and stares at the scene with a soft smile. Emma Swan’s face is curtained by her golden hair and planted in a large brown ledger–the town charter if he had to guess. He can’t see her face but last night dark circles ringed her green eyes and her mouth had been in a permanent frown. He had offered to help her search but she had waved him off.
“Thanks but it’s official police business.” She had stuck her hands on her hips shifting so her badge was visible. James had thought that over the past months he and Emma had grown closer, maybe even become friends but everything about her stance and face had screamed that she wanted to be left alone. So he had pushed up his glasses and nodded.
“Right. Of course. I’ll just be at the desk if you need anything."
She hadn’t needed anything or at least she hadn’t asked for anything and he had left her alone until he was about to close. The mess of books on the table had made him wince; it would take hours to re-shelve everything. When clearing his throat failed to get her attention he had touched her shoulder and she had jumped a mile.
so i was thinking abt my explaining some of the tags that i add on when i reblog concepts / cs things??? so maybe i’ll start with #she had wrung out her girlhood like death.
mostly it refers to the transition between ‘charles’ raven’ and ‘mystique’, primarily starting post-cuba onwards. but it’s also a tag about transformation and willful transformation, which is raven’s niche on several levels???
things tht are So Important to me abt raven’s character arc / development etc is the question of autonomy??? bodily autonomy and personal autonomy and ??? so much of her life – hell, even her abilities – cater to what Someone Else/Everyone Else wants or needs, often at the sacrifice of her own feelings or desires,,, and being financially dependent on charles means that ‘decisions’ she made to hide as much as she did or conform weren’t always entirely her own
the first real choice she makes for herself, the first selfish choices, start at the end of xm//fc. she chooses not to take the serum, she chooses to go with erik. you should go with him – it’s what you want. and it’s so important to me that i keep that going. that her choices are her own??? so, there’s a massive change in her post-cuba but it’s not time or circumstance or erik or anything else that changed her – she changed herself.
Hi! I came across your blog when I was googling some things about programmers. I'm really interested in it and might be starting classes this fall, but it all seems really overwhelming! Is it okay if I ask how your education went and how your classes were? You can answer privately if you'd like. Thank you!
Beginning to program can be incredibly overwhelming, but that’s okay! It can seem like there is so much you don’t know and so much much you need to learn, but remember that everyone started where you are now. At first Bill Gates knew nothing about computers. Steve Wozniak didn’t always know how to program. Everyone starts from the same point.
Another thing to remember is that there is so many aspects to Computer Science and you - along with every other programmer - will never know them all. There is web development, software development, game design, mathematical computing, and so so much more. No one knows everything.
I’m not sure exactly what you’re curious abut so I’ll just tell you about my experience with learning to program so far. I started programming in high school, so I’ve been programming for about 7 years now. A lot of my friends started programming in university, some started programming in middle school, and i know people who started programming when they were 30 for jobs. There’s no right time to start.
Classes in high school and university are both geared towards people who have no programming experience. In university, I started with 4 years of programming experience and my best friend Daniel had never programmed before. It was easier for me, but he and the rest of the beginners got through just fine. I’m not sure if you’re taking classes is a university setting, but classes in high school are even more geared towards beginners and so are many classes outside of a strict year uni setting - like coding camps, community colleges, etc.
Programming is a very unique skill to learn - it teaches you to problem solve and think in a way you never have before. But, it’s like learning any other skill set, it just takes time and effort. One great thing I’ve found with computer science is that there is a plethora of online resources that can help you - much more than math or physics. There are hundreds of threads on online forums dedicated to one very specific problem. There are so many videos and articles and blogs where concepts are explained. There is example code everywhere.
Also, programmers are incredibly passionate. Ask for help and almost anyone will be willing to sit down with you an explain a concept or help you find a bug in your code. They can talk for hours about programming with out taking a breath. I love learning new CS concepts and I love helping other people learn new CS concepts. And i think this is the view most programmers have.
My classes so far have been amazing. Classes can vary widely from professor to professor, but I’ve been fortunate to have professors which i really connect with. Not every CS topic will necessarily be your cup of tea. I LOVED web development, but I HATED application security classes, so don’t let one class or one professor turn you away from the whole field.
1. Befriend your professors and TAs. More so than in other classes CS professors are very helpful to work with outside of class. Sometimes you really need someone to explain a topic again or to help you with code, and already knowing your professor will make everything easier and more enjoyable. Also, CS professors are awesome and have very cool experience and stories to share. You can learn so much from them outside of the classroom and they are great contacts to have for recommendations, future jobs, etc. My uni does a “take your prof to lunch week” to encourage students to better know their profs. I went to lunch with my first CS professor freshman year. It was awesome to get to know him and I felt much more comfortable asking for help and even in a class of 150 it felt like he knew me.
2. Make friends in your class. Sometimes I have bugs in my code that I still can’t find after 3 hours. My roommate will look at my code and will find it in 5 minutes. Another set of eyes or someone to bounce ideas off of is important.
3. Never be afraid to try knew things. I’ve taken a ton of CS classes I wasn’t sure if I would like and I’ve loved. I’ve also gone to a lot of CS club meetings or events even as a complete novice, and they have been amazing experiences.
I have absolutely no idea if that was helpful or at all what you were asking! I can tell you so much more about my academic experience, so ask away. I’m happy to help with anything i can! Good luck with classes!
THE UNBEATABLE SQUIRREL GIRL #11
RYAN NORTH (W) • ERICA HENDERSON (A/C)
• This special one-off issue promises two amazing things: SUPER HEROICS and COMPUTER SCIENCE.
• Yes! By the end of this issue, you will know both how Squirrel Girl can take down COUNT NEFARIA and also a few really fundamental concepts in computer science!
• Have we found a way to express CS concepts through the medium of super hero fights? YOU’LL HAVE TO ORDER THE ISSUE TO FIND OUT!
• But yeah, we totally did.
• Featuring all the greatest Squirrel Girl tropes you love! Including fights, jokes and COLD, HARD LOGIC.
32 PGS./Rated T …$3.99
What’s this? A SNEAK PEEK AT THE UNBEATABLE SQUIRREL GIRL #11?? Or rather, THE UNBEATABLE SQUIRREL GIRL #001011?? YEP. But what’s going on? Isn’t Venom (kinda) in space? Isn’t Doctor Octopus (kinda) DEAD?? How come computer science stuff keep coming up???
Here’s the solicit!
This special one-off issue promises two amazing things: SUPER HEROICS and COMPUTER SCIENCE.
Yes! By the end of this issue, you will know both how Squirrel Girl
can take down COUNT NEFARIA and also a few really fundamental concepts
in computer science!
Have we found a way to express CS concepts through the medium of
super hero fights? YOU’LL HAVE TO ORDER THE ISSUE TO FIND OUT!
But yeah, we totally did
Featuring all the greatest Squirrel Girl tropes you love! Including fights, jokes and COLD, HARD LOGIC.
Words by me, colours by Rico Renzi, and this month with SPECIAL GUEST ARTIST JACOB CHABOT!! Erica did the cover, and can buy the product of all of us working together next Wednesday, August 24th!
some things never sleep (blood is running deep) (3/4)
summary: The only times she had heard from Killian had been when Kristoff would bring a package with a letter from him for Henry on his birthday. Emma had never asked him how Killian managed to get them in time or how he contacted him. She was better not knowing, anyway.
He hadn’t missed one of Henry’s birthdays since the day he left.
Oh, and the divorce papers. That had been the only correspondence she and Killian had shared in the past three years.
notes: started out for cs au week because i love me some divorced!au angst and i know a lot of you do too. so why not. right.
So I was searching for gifs for my recent tumblr activity and I ran into the folder of these gifs. I think it’s one of the gifsets that I was more proud of after making it. I really wanted to do this affect of an old movie (to emphasize the concept of “CS the movie”, which is what we all call season 3 finale), but honestly I didn’t think I could actually do what I saw within my head. And then I could and it turn out exactly as I was picturing it :)
So since someone asked me yesterday if I have any gifs from season 3, I thought it could be nice to bring this gifset back again. Really one of my favorites.
Do you think that since Hook will be a changed man in 5B, we'll get a confession from him about what a selfish and abusive bf he was to Emma? I feel like this issue really needs to be addressed, because the show has been making it look like it's romantic to persue a woman until she gives in, lie to her, endanger her child, make jokes about getting women drunk to sleep with them etc. And that's a very dangerous and twisted message to send to the young kids who follow the show...
I’ve been reading a book Adam referenced, the Uses of Enchantment, and it talks about the importance of a fairy tale not directly pointing issues out, but to guide. A fairy tale doesn’t judge, it doesn’t tell but it shows. That’s where its power comes from. The book is specifically about children, but I think it holds up even more for adults. We don’t like to be told what to do and what to think directly. A lot of Regina’s redemption has been implied, it was shown, not told. Much the same with what is wrong with Hook and Emma’s relationship, while it was clearly shown on screen. People have chosen to reject both of those as they saw fit, doesn’t mean they weren’t there.
I think the show has always shown him to be abusive and selfish, with some better moments thrown in, because otherwise how would we have noticed? Don’t we get our information from the show as well? I find the real issue lies with the PR, which doesn’t stay neutral at all and in that way really takes away from the power the story by itself has. Then there has been a part of the CS fandom that seems very invested in forcing their reading on everyone. So we get a very warped experience here. A lot of what you see on the show and what you’re ready for, are truths you are ready for in real life. Alternatively, you have no need for some of them, so you reject them or see them differently. That includes Emma and Hook’s relationship, by the way, it may just be what people need at this point in their lives and since we can’t look into anyone’s mind, we don’t know what they take away from it and what they dismiss. We don’t know what parts appeal, what the projection is about. While I share your concern about the messages it sends, I’m also concerned about policing other women’s fantasies. The ‘no means yes’ trope is one that tells women someone else knows what they want better than they do themselves, yet telling other women which fantasies are okay and which ones are not, does the same thing. Compare it to the love for Regina, if we met a real life mass murderer and rapist, I’m pretty sure we’d consider them nonredeemable. Of course, we use our personal experiences - the knowledge that women generally internalize or act out emotionally, so the evil queen can be seen as a metaphor for example - to frame that character and relate to her. We make her redemption arc make sense. People reject some of her actions. We’re not just uncritically taking in the material, so we shouldn’t automatically assume other people don’t also reject parts of the story - even if I think we both agree there is far more to reject in some cases. (And I’m only highlighting part of the issue, because it is this contradiction that seems to cause a disconnect in communication within the fandom. Or well, it’s a part of the complex cocktail I personally haven’t seen highlighted. I don’t want to reduce it, but I think most of the other concerns I share have been talked about already.)
Of course, that is not what you said, what you said points the finger exactly at the only people we should hold responsible, the people who write the show. While I suspect they are going to turn things around completely and show us that the underlying dynamic was… complicated to say the least, but undeniably selfish, I’m still not entirely sure if it completely justifies the execution. That being said, if the rest of the show is an indication, I’d say they’ll continue to show us and not outright tell us in a confession, because I think it’s part of their concept.
Hi :) What's the best programming language for someone to start with? I only know some HTML and want to learn a programming language, which one would you suggest?
Hello! :D The first language you learn is the hardest one. After that, it’ll be easy to learn other languages. So I think Python. Python is one of the easiest languages, and the most popular to start with. I learnt to code with C/C++, and based on my own experience it’s a big mistake, though it’s an useful language (and my favourite), but not the very best to start to learn with.
If you want to know more you can see this, it explains about the differences between some programming languages.
Hope this helps! Good luck! :)
@insideabasketcase: Java is a pretty good one to learn, it’s got great libraries and is a good way to get into OOP
@kitten-choir: I agree! Python is great to start with. I have to learn Java now which is much easier to understand & learn because it’s a bit more complex.
I think java or C# are better options. With python, there’s such a conglomeration of paradigms that switching to another language from python is difficult. I’ve seen people drop out of college because they started with python and the when it was time to take the training wheels away, they couldn’t handle the conversion.
Python definitely has the best conventions for learning programming. It has the least overhead for learning CS concepts if taught in an imperative way. The problem with Java and C# is that there is a large amount of information that needs to be learned about OOP before simple concepts can even be taught. What’s a static method? What’s a class? What is this String args thing? With Python, you can teach loops, recursion, data structures, etc with little to no prior knowledge about languages