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so what if Alec’s all anxious and stressed, heart thudding in his chest like war drums. and he doesn’t want to talk, he really doesn’t, feels like if he opens his mouth and lets the stream loose his words will never stop spilling, but jace is still gone and he can’t be there anymore, where every turn reminds him of something that’s gone, that he has no idea when or how or IF he’s going to get back. so he goes to the only other place he can think about, the place where he feels safe. he gets there and he doesn’t hear or see Magnus - and so he heads out to the balcony, looks up at the stars, tries to let his lungs cleanse with the cool night air. he leans against the railing, head pounding, breaths shuddering, and he’s in pieces, he’s in fucking pieces. and then Magnus shows up, places his hand on top of alec’s so gently. Alec isn’t breathing. new life pumps through him and yet he can’t breathe, feels like he can never breathe again. “Alexander,” Magnus begins, soft and kind, and Alec looks at him with so much longing and grief and care and despair and shakes his head slightly. “Magnus. No.” Magnus’ brow furrows, but he stays quiet. he stays quiet, with his hand on top of Alec’s, in the starry night, and he doesn’t move. if Alec wants to talk, he’ll talk. if not - the touch of his hand is still more than enough. he doesn’t move until Alec leans down and kisses him, full of desire and desperation and sorrow and yet so achingly soft, and if that’s what it takes for Alec to breathe than Magnus is more than willing to hand over all his oxygen.
(they don’t talk any more that night.)

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⚡️ “Howl to the moon, to the stars, when the weight of the world… Is just too much for you.” ⚡️

mY SATURDAY WAS SPENT DRAWING OUT SOME DETAILS OF A H ORRIFYING OBSESSION
ALL BECAUSE MY LOVELY AMAZING WONDERFUL TALENTED KIND FRIEND @immaplatypus sHOWED ME “HOWL” BY THE FAMILY CREST
BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT IT WAS SOMETHING HEMLOCK “SCUM OF THE EARTH” CRUENTO WOULD SAY TO LYRA
AND I THOUGH T SHE WAS SO SO SO RIGHT AND THEN THIS HAPPENED!!!!!!
@welcome-to-abnesia iT TOOK FOREV E R BUT IT IS D ONE OMG G G G G G G