Lost and found
[Post 5x23 spec fic]
This is me processing the last few minutes of that finale because it’s the only way I’m making it until October. Enjoy!!
Just in case…. Just in case… Just in case…
He couldn’t tear his eyes away from the destruction ripping apart the island, the island that seemed to never stop taking from him, as her voice echoed in his head. That innate protectiveness that drove him was screaming at him to move, to save them— somehow save them, no matter how irrational it seemed that there was a chance they were still alive, but it was like all the oxygen had left his body when Chase pulled that trigger. His body felt heavy, his feet glued to the spot as he clung to his son. The one part of him he knew for certain he hadn’t lost and couldn’t bear to let go of for even a second.
“Oliver…” William croaked, “Dad?”
The sound of his shaking voice unfroze him and he dropped to his knees to look him in the eye. He couldn’t find the capacity to form words yet, shock still numbing his brain as explosions continued to echo through the air, so he just squeezed his shoulder reassuringly. Like he had done so many times with Felicity when words failed him.
He tried not to think about the words he should have said to her before he let her walk away. Words he might have forever lost his chance to say.
William’s eyes drifted over his shoulder to the fire blazing on the shore, “My mom… is she…”
“I don’t know.” He wouldn’t give him false hope, wouldn’t placate him with, “she’s going to be okay,” wouldn’t assure anything else that he couldn’t be certain of. He had already made that mistake. Pain, the kind he never wanted his son to feel and would give anything to spare him from, flickered in his eyes as his small hand grasped his arm tightly.
Just in case…
The coms. He was afraid to try, afraid to be met with silence. Closing his eyes, he tapped that spot over his heart.