“To me, we have a culture that is surpassed by no other civilization, but we don’t know anything about it…My job is to somehow make [the black youth] curious enough or persuade them by hook or crook to get more aware of themselves and where they came from and what they are into and what is already there and just to bring it out. This is what compels me to compel them, and I will do it by any means necessary.” -Nina Simone, c. 1969
Do you like the person you’ve become? Are you gonna age with grace? Can you fill the silence? How am I gonna get myself back home? How am I gonna be an optimist? Can you feel it? If you had your gun, would you shoot at the sky? Do you understand we’ll never be the same again? What Would You Do? How were we to know? Won’t you let it dry? Under the weight of living? What will you have left? Are you drifting way beyond what’s normal? Bad news like a sucker punch, what do you say? What’s gonna be left of the world, if you’re not in it? How can you think your serious? Do you even know what year it is? Can you think of any better way to choke? And did you ever feel like they were ringing true? Or am I, am I tricking myself nice? Won’t you lay your healing hands on my chest? Be the power to compel me? Won’t you exorcise my mind? Do I relive it, I relive it all? Do you wanna be free of this? I don’t know Dan, you figure it out.
Whatever else you might want to say about STAR WARS fandom, I have SO MUCH AFFECTION for it, there are so many people writing really good stories and drawing really beautiful art and coming up with really great scenarios and especially in PT fandom there’s a group of people that I never have to apologize for being a fan of the prequels. I don’t have to feel like I’m expected to preface everything with qualifiers, instead I can just whole-heartedly embrace what I love and that it’s good for me, that I honestly enjoy it genuinely, that this part of fandom absolutely embraces the good and loves these characters and this world/galaxy with me.
Every time I sink into a really good fic, when I come out of it, I remember, yes, I am so glad to be here, I’m so glad there are others who are filled with just as much genuine love for these characters as I am. So here’s another list of fics that give me that happy, fizzy feeling of being in a fandom I love. (Fic recs every Wednesday.)
STAR WARS FIC RECS: ✦ Soldier, Poet, King by Glare, obi-wan/anakin & qui-gon & mace & dooku & palpatine & cast, sith!obi-wan, 91.9k wip Second chances are very rarely given, but the Force smiles upon two of its favorite children and returns them to a time before their actions have met their consequences. Anakin Skywalker, also known as Darth Vader, seeks redemption while Obi-Wan “Ben” Kenobi, disillusioned with the Jedi Order and its Code, falls to the Darkness. ✦ Capture and Release by Rocket_Sith, obi-wan/anakin, some bondage, 13.9k wip Anakin’s past comes back to haunt him unexpectedly during a mission. What starts as Obi-Wan’s attempt to help him face his fears takes on a life of its own and evolves into so much more. ✦ wicked thing by imaginarykat, obi-wan/anakin & ahsoka & cast, nsfw, sith!obi-wan, 97.3k wip In which Anakin recognises the Council has made a decision, but given that it’s a stupid ass decision, he elects to ignore it. ✦ untitled by writegowrite, obi-wan/anakin, modern au, ~1k prompt: 40. exes meeting again after not speaking for years au ✦ Time To Go by light_mantled_albatross, obi-wan & anakin & ahsoka, 19.7k A version of the “Anakin doesn’t find Ventress at the end of season 5, with the result that Ahsoka gets Dramatically Sentenced To Death” plotline. ✦ untitled Supreme Chancellor Obi-Wan fic by stonefreeak, obi-wan & anakin, 4.4k ask: do Anakin and Obi-Wan FINALLY talk after Anakin’s panic attack? Even a little?? ✦ Echoes of Mortis by wreckageofstars, obi-wan & anakin/padme & ahsoka, 67.3k Post-Mortis Arc AU. In a universe where the Father failed to take away Anakin’s vision of the future, the Hero With No Fear struggles with the knowledge of what he will become and the knowledge of who, exactly, is responsible. Drastic steps are taken and in the process things go a little bit…sideways. ✦ Conspiracy Theorist Obi-Wan Kenobi by tcf-dendral, obi-wan & cast, 1.1k His hindsight, Obi-Wan thinks, was not twenty-twenty in this instance, and he wishes he had thought ahead to the possible consequences of what seemed like an inconsequential action at the time. Mostly, he would do better in the future to remember how information, true or not, tends to spread like wildfire across the HoloNet. ✦ untitled by phosphorescent-naidheachd, padme & cast, ~1k Picture Padmé – not a Sith, not particularly Force sensitive, but Palpatine’s protégé and confidant nonetheless. ✦ Do Not Compel Me So by Mithrigil, anakin & cast, 1k Anakin has always had an easy time getting what he wants. (He never means to do it.) ✦ untitled by cadesama, anakin & aphra, 1k windona asked: Prompt: Pre-ESB, Vader has a chance to send a message to Luke without Luke knowing it’s Vader. ✦ untitled by stonefreeak, obi-wan & palpatine, 1.4k prompt: Obi-Wan gets a bit grumpy with a droid. He shouldn’t. He knows he shouldn’t - Jedi ways and all that. But it’s private and he has too much to deal with without an analysis droid rating his performance as Chancellor ✦ Let your heart be light by imaginedestiel, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, 5.1k Obi-Wan does his best to keep Anakin warm while they celebrate a little time off together. ✦ hold the harmony (breathe) by engmaresh, obi-wan/anakin/padme, 1.7k Of course their ship crashed. Of course there’s a blizzard, with no hope for immediate help. But they’ve got blankets, food, and well, each other. In which Anakin and Padme invite Obi-Wan into their bed blanket fort. ✦ Death’s Shade by Susan Zell, obi-wan & anakin & cast, 30.9k A devious plot by the enemy is initiated that could wipe out the Jedi without firing a weapon, leaving Obi-wan Kenobi fighting for his last breath as Anakin races to save him.
A/N: Hi guys! This is my first ever fanfiction drabble, and since I was bored and had time, I decided to write about my favorite Marvel boyfriend, the lovely James Buchanan Barnes :) Please bear with me as it is my first post of this nature. I hope you enjoy it!
Pairing: Bucky x Reader
Content: Light humor, major fluff :)
Summary: On your weekly date night, Bucky decides to watch the DVD Peter Parker loaned him! It being a horror movie, you definitely have your apprehensions but fret not, for Bucky’s there to comfort you.
“I told you I didn’t want to why would you tell everyone I would
play?” You hissed at him.
“(Y/N) I have heard you play many times and you have a
wonderful talent…” He started but you shook your head and cut him off.
“No Elijah I can’t even make it through one song and I’ve
never played in front of anyone, there’s a difference between you hearing it
because you were in the house and me playing for you.” You sighed and hurried
off, pushing past Rebekah who hurried after you.
Warnings: yelling, embarrassment, compulsion, a little angst
Word count: 2417
Authors note: ( y/f/n = your/friend’s/name ), this was supposed to be based off of request but it took a different turn, i am proud of it though. This was only 13 pages on paper and it became 16 on the computer ( i added stuff ;) ). i choose Greece because i love the show “Xena warrior princess”. i was thinking about choosing Russia because I’ve been watching “Arrow” and i love his Russian friend from the island he’s funny. (p.s send in requests please)
Summary: Rebekah wants to know who your crush is but you lie and say no one but then Kol walks in and you cant lie to him son you shut up , later Kol wants to know to when you dein him he has to take drastic measures that he ends up regretting.
“No, Rebekah stop asking please.” I begged
“Come on y/n, just admit to me who you like and I won’t have to ask. To think we have been friends for hundreds of centuries and you won’t tell me”.
I plopped myself down on the couch and looked at her. “ I want to Rebekah but, problem is I don’t like anymore-”.
“What did I miss” Kol said sitting down next to me, wrapping his arm around my shoulders. Which maybe my cheeks turn red, I could feel it.
Rebekah glared at Kol for interrupting me. “Y/n was just about to explain why-”
“About to explain why I can’t stay for movie night” I cut her off.
Kol looked at me shocked that I would miss a movie night with him and Bekah. While Bekah was looking at me skeptically, looking at my cheeks and kol and me.
“And why not” she asked crossing her arms across her chest, giving me a smug look.
“I-I” I looked at her and looking at her and I knew she figured it out. I hate the fact that she knows, because now she’s gonna want to talk to me about it.
“You have to stay! You can’t miss out on this, we have been doing it since movies came out on film rolls!” Kol said
I turned to Kol I couldn’t lie to Kol. Even if I wanted to.
I love him, not just did I like someone I loved someone and that was Kol Mikaelson. I have since Klaus un-daggered him A century after I met Rebekah, Klaus, and Elijah.
I turned my head to look at Kol and he looked between disappointed, sad, and shocked.
“Please, darling” he said. While stroking my hair.
“You know what, it’s nothing I can’t do tomorrow”
Kol’s face lit up. His arm was starting to get a little warm around my shoulders, I had to get up or I would start to get extra comfortable.
“Well then, now that that’s settled. Who’s gonna make popcorn-” Kol started to say but I cut him off, this was my chance.
“I-I will. I mean, I should go make the popcorn, uh yeah.” I got up quickly and headed to the kitchen.
After the first movie I volunteered to make more popcorn and get more drinks, although as I got up Kol linked our hands and started to drag me out of the room.
“I’m gonna help you, come on” he said cutting me off. I looked back at Bekah, she just shrugged clueless as me as to his behavior.
As Kol dragged me into the kitchen and looked at me.
“Ok look I know when you lie I can hear your undead heartbeat skip. You didn’t have anything to do instead of this, that was a lie. I want to know why you were so nervous before I walked in darling”
I pulled my hand from his. I can’t tell him, if I tell him it will ruin everything. Plus how can he like or even love me the same way. I can’t let him know, then the last 800 years of friendship would be for nothing.
“I don’t know what your talking about, come on let’s just make more popcorn “ I said turning around to get more popcorn out of the cabinet.
“Sweetheart don’t make me have to compel it out of you” he said grabbing both my wrist, turning me around. “Please … darling don’t make me.”
“Kol nothing was said, even if something was said Kol it would be between me and Rebekah. I know this is hard for you to understand but not everything is your business.” I said trying to turn around.
“Fine darling you give me no choice.” He grabbed my chin and looked me in the eyes “what were you and my sister talking about before I walked in?”
We were talking about crushes. She wanted to know who I liked” I said almost like robot.
“And what did you tell her?” He compelled me again. I have a feeling he’s gonna do that a lot in the next few minutes.
“I told her that I didn’t like anyone”
“Is that the truth?” He asked.
“No” I swallowed hoping he won’t ask what I think he will.
“Then tell me darling, who do you like so much that you were gonna skip out on movie night for? Hmm”
“You. The person I like, love and have a crush on is you. I stopped talking so you wouldn’t ask. I can’t lie to you, that’s why I go around avoiding saying who I like.” As I finished my last statement I didn’t know how to feel angry that he actually compelled me, shocked about it to. But I was for certain embarrassed to hell and back. I can’t believe he did that, that he knows how much I like him, that he knows at all.
“Y/n-” he started but I cut him off I pulled my wrist out of his grip. I jerked my chin out of his grip to.
“I-I have to go.” I said in a hurry to get out of the kitchen. I walked over into the room we set up the movies in. I grabbed my jacket, and started to put it on.
“Where are you going, I thought you were gonna stay?” Bekah asked.
“I have to go, I’m sorry Bekah” I said walking out of the room and Rebekah following me.
“Y/n, you don’t have to go …” Kol said he looked sad when he saw I had I had put my jacket on.
“I’ll see you guys later, I’m-m s-sorry” I stuttered, and with that I left.
“Ok Kol what did you do to make her leave?!” Rebekah yelled.
“I-I compelled her to tell me what you guys were talking about before I walked in. I … made her tell me who her crush was, who she liked.” I said still in shock.
“Who, come on Kol tell me, who?!” Rebekah yelled excitedly.
“Me. She likes me, has a crush on me.” We looked at each other I couldn’t believe it.
%%%%%%%%( 2 hours later )%%%%%%%%
I sat in my room holding my head in my hands. “She likes me. She has a crush on me. How could I not see it. How could I not for 800 years see it! I didn’t think that would be her answer, or that her and Rebekah were talking about that. I would have been disappointed if it wasn’t me, to be honest. I have had a crush on her since Klaus has un-daggered me, since the first time I met her. The only reason I was so shocked and just stood there after she said it was me because I didn’t think she would ever like me back. Let alone love me back. I thought ya know if she said someones elses name (besides mine) I could tease her about it and then kill the guy later. But the fact that she said my name shocked me so much that I was to shocked to stop her from leaving. Now she’s gone.” I was brought out of my rant to myself, when Rebekah knocked on my my door entering.
“Come on Kol, it can’t be that much of a shock. You two have always been super close and flirty, did you really think that there weren’t any real feelings behind it at all.” she said more as a statement then a question.
“That’s the thing, to me it was never just just playful flirting … I have liked, no loved her since the moment we met. I just never said anything because of Klaus and he daggers. I couldn’t put her in that situation.” I told her.
“Then go tell her how you feel. She ran out of here in pure embarrassment. You shouldn’t have compelled her!” she yelled the last part.
“I know, I know … it was wrong I just had to know. I hate that I compelled her I shouldn’t have done it” I said shaking my head and burying it in between my knees.
Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder I looked up to my side at Rebekah.
“Then go talk to her before it’s too late.” she said with sympathy.
“Bekah-” I started.
She cut me off “Try! … at least try” she said the last part softer.
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I started to pack clothes into my duffel bag as soon as I got back. I spent almost an hour crying and walking around the square.
Y/F/N:Hey, I booked your flight.
Y/N: thxks for buying the ticket.
Y/F/N: Tell me again why you transferred money to my account to buy you a plane ticket?
Y/N: Because I need to get out of here for awhile and if I bought it then the Mikaelsons would be able to track where I went and that would defeat the purpose of being alone.
Y/F/N: Ok, I understand that. But why what happened exactly?
Y/N: Kol compelled me to tell him who I ike. He found out it was him and well you know he doesn’t like me that way so he just stood there, I left and now I need to get away for awhile.
Y/F/N: He could like you the same maybe he was just in shock. But I agree you need a little VK and he had no right to do what he did.
Y/N: thank you again for doing this.
Y/F/N: No problem
I put my phone in my pocket, grabbed my bag and turned off the lights with that I locked the door and left.
As I got in the cab I said “Airport please” looking out the window at the night sky.
I know some people would consider this running from my problems. But I’m not, I just need sometime to recover from being so embarrassed and possibly just lose one of the best friendships I’ve ever had. I just need to cool down from everything.
So Greece here I come …
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Once I got to her place I noticed the lights were off in her place, and I didn’t hear anything so I went around to the side and jumped up to the balcony and wedged open the window. I walked into the kitchen then the living room, I noticed that her closer was left open and half her clothes were gone and some jewelry is gone to.
Great she left to god knows where I’m too late.
“Did you talk to her?” Rebekah asked.
“No, I didn’t. Because she wasn’t there, she’s gone I didn’t know where … but she’s gone”
“All her stuff-”
“No … not all of it” I said
“Well she probably needs space. Just give her time and space she’ll come back” she said, then left to her room for the night.
I nodded, god I missed up.
%%%%%( 2 weeks later )%%%%%
“She’s back you know” Rebekah said leaning against the door frame to my room.
I looked up at her “I have to go talk to her” I said, as I grabbed my jacket and left.
“ you better come back with her as your girlfriend!” Rebekah yelled as I headed out of the compound.
I was unpacking from my 2 weeks in Greece. It was nice getting away for awhile. I suddenly heard a knock on my door. When I opened it I was shocked to see Kol.I mean I knew he would come over but I didn’t think this soon.
“Ummm, hi” I said shyly.
“Hi … can I come in, I know that’s asking a lot but I want to explain everything” he said in one breath.
I nodded, and opened the door more and moved to the side.
“Sooo … where’d you go?” he asked
“Greece. I needed space for a bit.” I answered.
“You always liked it there. I checked your bank account it didn’t say anything about a plane ticket being bought.”
“ yeah i had y/f/n but it so you couldn’t track me. I have known you for a very long time Kol, I know how you think.” I said with a smirk.
He smiled “ yeah you do … better than anyone.”
After some time awkward silence you decided to break it “ you said you wanted to explain” I stated.
“Ah yes, look I imagine that you left to take some time because of what you said and what I did. The reason I didn’t stop you from leaving the kitchen is because I was shocked, darling-”
“I could tell” you interrupted
“I was shocked you could like me, love me like I love you.” he rushed out.
I looked at him shocked. He has liked even loved me back!.
“You love me back? Why did you not say anything to stop me from leaving the compound?!” I wanted to yell at him louder but I do have neighbors.
“I was scared darling. Happy I was scared” he said
“I love you Kol.” I said walking up to him and cupping his cheeks “and that, is never going to change.”
“I’m all in darling. All in, be mine let’s spend the rest of eternity together” he said smiling.
“Absobloodylutely” I said smirking.
“Good cause I have wanted you to be mine since we met … and Bekah told me not to come back unless I make you my girlfriend.” we both laughed.
After that me and Kol never kept anything from each other again and Rebekah was happy to say the least when we came back to the compound together.