How to Battle Dissociation

Hi my friend had a spiritual awakening which was followed by pretty server depression and suicidal thoughts, she explains this due to being her loosing her connection. Have you got any information on similar experiences or any advice? Thank you

— olivias-universe

Dissociation is very common during Awakening because it is the ripping away of the old shell of the psyche. This is actually something i’ve been writing about in the book because it’s a rough topic that many experience and struggle with during their awakening experience. 

The two huge symptoms that go with Dissociation are the Dark night of the soul and the identity crisis. We must think of it as if you are straddling two different worlds or conflicting realities at once. In a normal human who isn’t awakened this can lead to insanity which is often misunderstood however during Kundalini awakening we must find the connection between the two worlds, merging them together as one. Here is a written summary of what I’ve written for my book: 

Feeling Lost/Confused/having an Identity Crisis - This is not only just a feeling of loneliness, it is a feeling of confusion about what is truth and what is real. It becomes not only hard to relate to others but there is a deep sadness when everyone around you no longer understands you. It is as if you are speaking chinese when everyone around you is speaking English. An isolation builds where you can no longer understand yourself, who you are, what is your path or reality itself. It is the essence of Dissociation, where you feel completely disconnected from reality and those around you. It also may even bring up the thought that your entire life is not real or that the entirety of existence is a fabrication. There becomes a deep fear that you cannot deal with material reality as everyone around you is still in illusion. A dark time that is positive in form, this is where the Ego starts losing it’s bearings over your consciousness 

Dark Night of the soul - This connects into the above, Identity Crisis. The Dark night of the Soul is a natural part of awakening, it is the shedding away of our old skin. It’s the ripping apart of the old soul to be reborn into the New evolved consciousness. There appears to be more chaos that enters into your life as the old you encounters the resistance of Letting go. A desire to hold onto the old you, building a resistance of Letting go which causes more and more entropy within your daily life. A Dark night of the soul creates an isolation with those around us, everything begins to rip apart within our reality, our friends, our family, and those we love most we feel we can’t connect anymore. We feel an inability to connect because the universe is asking us to look more inward and question ourselves,our reality and what is our purpose here. It is usually triggered by a dark event surrounding Loss such as death, a bad breakup, loss of a job, loss of a house, rape, illness, etc. A cataclysm that triggers the destruction of the Ego as our subconscious breaks through. It gives us a look behind our own face into our worst fears and insecurities. It is about facing our dark night of the soul to get to the infinite light of our being.“

The good news is this will pass in time, for some it can take years to come to grips with this connection while for others it can take only months. An Awakening is different for every person, although many symptoms are similar the subjective experience it is different as each soul has a different path to take. I’ve went through my own period of dissocation when i first awakening, it took a lot of time and conscious effort to really help me. Honestly psychedelics probably helped the most, no lie but what it really came down to was seeing that no one is left behind in this experience. It Is the connection of the ALL. We are all one, some may be asleep, others may be drifting and some are sunbathing on the sand already completely awakened to the point of encountering ascension and understanding the holy guardian angel of the higher self. It is the connection. We may think we’re alone in this journey but we aren’t, we are anything but alone, heck even when we want to be alone on this journey we’re not lol. Your guides, angels, star family, your friends, even your parents  are all pieces of the puzzle that helped form and shape you into your own Awakening experience. It is all connected because there is an intricate design formulated around our reality that is woven within an intellectual mathematical design. Everything has a purpose. 

The only way to really battle dissociation is by realizing when you are looking into the eyes of your friend, your child or your lover you are seeing the connection of the reflection of your mirror relationship within yourself. Just as you are their mirror in return, everyone’s mirrors lives within eachother in an infinite web of creation that is fueled by the collective consciousness of humanity. In this way, no matter how awakened you are, you are still connected eternally to the people around you whether in life or after death, we are still eternally alive and connected through the energy. 

It is this connection that keeps us alive and this connection that lives within everyone. Think about it who would you be if it wasn’t for the people around you? Without your friends, you probably wouldn’t of developed your quirks and the influence of your personality, without animals or children or kindness of others,you wouldn’t be able to see empathy nor compassion of individuals, without your parents you wouldn’t even exist at all. So it goes to show you it really is about finding the connection again. Sometimes the universe wants us to unplug to find ourselves but we cannot do this alone, we must do this together. It is the only way to truly find salvation, because what is salvation if you cannot share the love with another? 

It is everything. 

Namaste <3

Symptoms of Spiritual Awakening

Here’s a reminder of the Symptoms since these energies are so dynamic, i guess it’s time for a repost. First symptom is the restlessness of sleep, coincidence? ;)

 Symptoms Of Spiritual Awakening

Sunfell’s NoteIn my own spiritual transition to the Awakened state, I suffered and endured many of these changes. Annarita has thoroughly documented many of the symptoms and changes inherent in both the Awakening and the transition into the Octarine stage of Indigo life. Your mileage may vary. And if you find yourself really feeling out of whack, go see your doctor. It is better that you find you’re basically OK than to permit a possible major disease like diabetes or heart disease to develop under your nose. As always, common sense, good grounding and a good sense of humor are your best tools for coping. See you on the Other Side!

Symptoms of Spiritual Awakening

by Annarita

  1. Changing sleep patterns: restlessness, hot feet, waking up two or three times a night. Feeling tired after you wake up and sleepy off and on during the day. There is something called the Triad Sleep Pattern that occurs for many: you sleep for about 2-3 hours, wake up, go back to sleep for another couple of hours, wake again, and go back to sleep again. For others, the sleep requirements have changed. You can get by on less sleep. Lately I have been experiencing huge waves of energy running into my body from the crown. It feels good, but it keeps me awake for a long time, then subsides. Advice: Get used to it. Make peace with it and don’t worry about getting enough sleep (which often causes more insomnia). You will be able to make it through the day if you hold thoughts of getting just what you need. You can also request your Higher Power to give you a break now and then and give you a good, deep night’s sleep. If you can’t go back to sleep right away, use the waking moments to meditate, read poetry, write in your journal or look at the moon. Your body will adjust to the new pattern.
  2. Activity at the crown of the head: Tingling, itching, prickly, crawling sensations along the scalp and/or down the spine. A sense of energy vibrating on top of the head, as if energy is erupting from the head in a shower. Also the sensation of energy pouring in through the crown, described as “sprinkles”. This may also be experienced as pressure on the crown, as if someone is pushing his/her finger into the center of your head. As I mentioned in #1, I have been experiencing huge downloads of energy through the crown. In the past, I have felt more generalized pressure, as if my head is in a gentle vise. One man related that his hair stood on end and his body was covered with goosebumps. Advice: This is nothing to be alarmed about. What you are experiencing is an opening of the crown chakra. The sensations mean that you are opening up to receive divine energy.
  3. Sudden waves of emotion. Crying at the drop of a hat. Feeling suddenly angry or sad with little provocation. Or inexplicably depressed. Then very happy. Emotional roller coaster. There is often a pressure or sense of emotions congested in the heart chakra (the middle of the chest). This is not to be confused with the heart, which is located to the left of the heart chakra. Advice: Accept your feelings as they come up and let them go. Go directly to your heart chakra and feel the emotion. Expand it outward to your all your fields and breathe deeply from the belly all the way up to your upper chest. Just feel the feeling and let it evaporate on its own. Don’t direct the emotions at anyone. You are cleaning out your past. If you want some help with this, say out loud that you intend to release all these old issues and ask your Higher Power to help you. You can also ask Grace Elohim to help you release with ease and gentleness. Be grateful that your body is releasing these emotions and not holding onto them inside where they can do harm. One source suggests that depression is linked to letting go of relationships to people, work, etc. that no longer match us and our frequencies. When we feel guilty about letting go of these relationships, depression helps us medicate that pain.
  4. Old “stuff” seems to be coming up, as described above, and the people with whom you need to work it out (or their clones) appear in your life. Completion issues. Or perhaps you need to work through issues of self-worth, abundance, creativity, addictions, etc. The resources or people you need to help you move through these issues start to appear. Advice: Same as #3. Additionally, don’t get too involved in analyzing these issues. Examining them too much will simply cycle you back through them over and over again at deeper and deeper levels. Get professional help if you need to and walk through it. Do not try to avoid them or disassociate yourself from them. Embrace whatever comes up and thank it for helping you move ahead. Thank your Higher Power for giving you the opportunity to release these issues. Remember, you don’t want these issues to stay stuck in your body.
  5. Changes in weight. The weight gain in the US population is phenomenal. Other people may be losing weight. We often gain weight because many fears we have suppressed are now coming up to the surface to be healed. We react by building up a defense. We also attempt to ground ourselves or provide bulk against increasing frequencies in our bodies. Advice: Don’t freak out, but just accept it as a symptom of where you are right now. You will release/gain the weight when all your fears have been integrated. Release your anxiety about this. Then you might find it easier to lose/gain the weight eventually. Exercise. Before eating, try this: Sit at the table with an attractive place setting. Light a candle. Enjoy how the food looks. Place your dominant hand over your heart and bless the food. Tell your body that you are going to use the food to richly nourish it, but that you are not going to use the food to fulfill your emotional hungers. Then pass your hand from left to right over the food and bless it. You may notice that the food feels warm to your hand even if the food is cold– I like to think that the food is good for me when it feels warm and nourishing to my hand. I have also noticed that when I practice blessing the food, I don’t eat as much. It is important not to let yourself off the hook when you forget to bless the food before you eat. If I’ve forgotten and I’ve nearly finished eating, I bless the food anyway. That way I don’t slip out of the habit. Another thing you can do is to stay present while eating – don’t watch TV or read. Heartily enjoy what blessings are before you.
  6. Changes in eating habits: Strange cravings and odd food choices. Some find they are not as hungry as they used to be. Or hungrier. Advice: Don’t deny what your body tells you it needs. If you are not sure, you might try muscle-testing before you chose a food to see if it’s what your body wants. Also try blessing the food as described in #5.
  7. Food intolerances, allergies you never had before: As you grow more spiritual, you are more sensitive to everything around you. Your body will tell you what it can no longer tolerate, as if it, too, is sloughing off what doesn’t serve it anymore. You might be cleansing yourself of toxins. Some people find they often have a white residue in their mouth, much like that of runners at the end of a race. Advice: An acupuncturist told me that this film can be removed by sloshing 2 tablespoons of cold-pressed olive oil in your mouth for 10-15 minutes (don’t swallow, whatever you do), then spitting it out into the toilet – not the sink, for you just removed toxins from your body and don’t want them in the sink. Brush your teeth and do the same. Then clean your brush. (Sorry this is yukky, but it works.)
  8. Amplification of the senses. Increased sensitivity. 8a. Sight: Blurry vision, shimmering objects, seeing glittery particles, auras around people, plants, animals, and objects. Some report seeing formerly opaque objects as transparent. When you close your eyes, you no longer see darkness, but redness. You may also see geometric shapes or brilliant colors and pictures when eyes are closed. Colors appear more vivid – the sky might look teal or the grass an amazing green. Often I see grids running across the ground. As you become more sensitive, you may see shapes or outlines in the air, especially when the room is almost dark. When your eyes are open or closed, you may see white shapes in your peripheral vision (these are your guides). Advice: Your vision is changing in many ways – you are experiencing new ways of seeing. Be patient. Whatever you do, do not be afraid. Hazy vision maybe relieved by yawning. 8b. Hearing: Increased or decreased hearing. I once thought I would have to pull off the road because of the painfully amplified sound of my tires on the freeway. Other symptoms are hearing white noise in the head, beeps, tones, music or electronic patterns. Some hear water rushing, bees buzzing, whooshing, roaring or ringing. Others have what is called audio dyslexia– you can’t always make out what people are saying, as if you can no longer translate your own language. Some hear strange voices in their dreams, as if someone is hovering near them. You can either ask the presence(s) to leave or ask Archangel Michael to take care of the situation. Again, there is nothing to fear. Advice: Surrender to it. Let it come through. Listen. Your ears are adjusting to new frequencies. 8c. Enhanced senses of smell, touch, and/or taste. I notice I can now smell and taste chemical additives in some foods in a rather unpleasant manner. Other food may taste absolutely wonderful. For some people, these enhancements are both delightful and distracting. You might even smell the fragrance of flowers now and then. Many of the mystics did. Enjoy it.
  9. Skin eruptions: Rashes, bumps, acne, hives, and shingles. Anger produces outbreaks around the mouth and chin. I had a dermatitis on my extremities for several months that accompanied healing an episode from my past. When I had worked through most of the issue, the condition was released. Advice: You may be sloughing off toxins and bringing emotions to the surface. When there is an issue to be released and you are trying to repress it, your skin will express the issue for you until you process the emotions. Work through your “stuff”.
  10. Episodes of intense energy which make you want to leap out of bed and into action. Followed by periods of lethargy and fatigue. The fatigue usually follows great shifts. This is a time of integration, so give into it. Advice: Roll with the nature of the energy. Don’t fight it. Be gentle with yourself. Take naps if you are tired. Write your novel if you are too energized to sleep. Take advantage of the type of energy.
  11. Changes in prayer or meditation. Not feeling the same sensations as before. Not having the same experience of being in contact with Spirit. Difficulty in focusing. Advice: You may be in more instant and constant communion with Spirit now and the sensation may therefore be altered. You will adapt to this new feeling. You are actually thinking and acting in partnership with Spirit most of the time now. You may find your meditation periods shorter.
  12. Power surges: All of a sudden you are heated from head to toe. It is a momentary sensation, but uncomfortable. In contrast, some people have felt inexplicably cold. I have experienced both. More recently I experience waves or currents of energy rolling through me. Sometimes the energy seems so intense when it first comes into my body that I feel a little nauseated. But if I think of the energy as divine and let go of fear, I feel wonderful and enjoy the sensation. If you are an energy worker, you may have noticed that the heat running through your hands has increased tremendously. This is good. Advice: If you are uncomfortable, ask your Higher Power, that if it be for your best and highest good, to turn down/up the temperature a bit.
  13. A range of physical manifestations: Headaches, backaches, neck pains, flu-like symptoms (this is called vibrational flu), digestive problems, muscular spasms or cramps, racing heartbeat, chest pains, changes in sexual desire, numbness or pain in the limbs, and involuntary vocalizations or bodily movements. Some of us have even had old conditions from childhood reappear briefly for healing. Advice: Remember what I said about seeking medical help if you need it! If you have determined that this is not a medical condition, relax in the realization that it is only temporary.
  14. Looking younger. Yippee! As you clear emotional issues and release limiting beliefs and heavy baggage from the past, you are actually lighter. Your frequency is higher. You love yourself and life more. You begin to resemble the perfect you that you really are.
  15. Vivid dreams. Sometimes the dreams are so real that you wake up confused. You may even have lucid dreams in which you are in control. Many dreams may be mystical or carry messages for you. And in some dreams, you just know that you are not “dreaming” – that what is happening is somehow real. Advice: You will remember what is important for you to remember. Don’t force anything. Above all, stay out of fear.
  16. Events that completely alter your life: death, divorce, change in job status, loss of home, illness, and/or other catastrophes – sometimes several at once! Forces that cause you to slow down, simplify, change, re-examine who you are and what your life means to you. Forces that you cannot ignore. Forces that cause you release your attachments. Forces that awaken your sense of love and compassion for all.
  17. A desire to break free from restrictive patterns, life-draining jobs consumptive lifestyles, and toxic people or situations. You feel a compelling need to “find yourself” and your life purpose – now! You want to be creative and free to be who you really are. You might find yourself drawn to the arts and nature. You want to unclutter yourself from things and people that no longer serve you. Advice: Do it!
  18. Emotional and mental confusion: A feeling that you need to get your life straightened out–it feels like a mess. But at the same time you feel chaotic and unable to focus. See #45. Advice: Put your ear to your heart and your own discernment will follow.
  19. Introspection, solitude and loss of interest in more extroverted activities: This stage has come as a surprise to many extraverts who formerly saw themselves as outgoing and involved. They say, “I don’t know why, but I don’t like to go out as much as before.”
  20. Creativity bursts: Receiving images, ideas, music, and other creative inspirations at an often overwhelming rate. Advice: At least record these inspirations, for Spirit is speaking to you about how you might fulfill your purpose and contribute to the healing of the planet.
  21. A perception that time is accelerating. It seems that way because you have had so many changes introduced into your life at an unprecedented rate. The number of changes seems to be growing. Advice: Breaking your day up into appointments and time segments increases the sense of acceleration .You can slow time down by relaxing into the present moment and paying attention to what’s at hand, not anticipating what’s ahead. Slow down and tell yourself that you have plenty of time. Ask your Higher Power to help you. Keep your focus on the present. Try to flow from one activity to the next. Stay tuned to your inner guidance. You can also warp time by asking for it. Next time you feel rushed, say, “Time warp, please. I need some more time to —–.” Then relax.
  22. A sense of impendingness. There is a feeling that something is about to happen. This can create anxiety. Advice: There is nothing to worry about. Things are definitely happening, but anxiety only creates more problems for you. All your thoughts – positive or negative– are prayers. There is nothing to fear.
  23. Impatience. You know better, but sometimes you can’t help it. You want to get on with what seems to be coming your way. Uncertainty is not comfortable. Advice: Learn to live with the uncertainty, knowing that nothing comes to you until you are ready. Impatience is really a lack of trust, especially trust in your Higher Power. When you focus on the present, you will experience miracles – yes, even in traffic.
  24. A deep yearning for meaning, purpose, spiritual connection, and revelation. Perhaps an interest in the spiritual for the first time in your life. “Constant craving”, as k.d. lang says. The material world cannot fulfill this longing. Advice: Follow your heart and the way will open up for you.
  25. A feeling that you are somehow different. A disquieting sense that everything in your life feels new and altered, that you have left your old self behind. You have. You are much greater than you can possibly imagine. There is more to come.
  26. “Teachers” appear everywhere with perfect timing to help you on your spiritual journey: people, books, movies, events, Mother Nature, etc. Teachers may appear to be negative or positive when you are trapped in polarity thinking, but, from a transcendent perspective, they are always perfect. Just what you need to learn from and move on. By the way, we never get more than we are ready to master. Each challenge presents us with an opportunity to show our mastery in passing through it.
  27. You find a spiritual track that makes sense to you and “speaks to you” at the most profound levels. Suddenly you are gaining a perspective that you would never have considered before. You hunger to know more. You read, share with others, ask questions, and go inside to discover more about who you are and why you are here
  28. You are moving through learning and personal issues at a rapid pace. You sense that you are “getting it” quite readily. Advice: Keep remembering that things will come to you when they are ready to be healed. Not sooner. Deal with whatever comes up with courage and you will move through the issues rapidly.
  29. Invisible presences. Here is the woo-woo stuff. Some people report feeling surrounded by beings at night or having the sensation of being touched or talked to. Often they will wake with a start. Some also feel their body orbed vibrate. The vibrations are caused by energetic changes after emotional clearing has taken place. Advice: This is a sensitive topic, but you may feel better blessing your bed and space around it before you sleep. I rest assured that I am surrounded only by the most magnificent spiritual entities and am always safe in God’s care. Sometimes, however, the fear gets to me, and I call in Archangel Michael and/or Archangel Uriel. I don’t beat myself up for being afraid sometimes. I forgive myself for not always sovereign at 3:00 a.m.
  30. Portents, visions, “illusions”, numbers, and symbols: Seeing things that have spiritual importance for you. Noticing how numbers appear synchronistically in your awareness. Everything has a message if you take the time to look. I enjoy the experience of “getting the messages.” What fun!
  31. Increased integrity: You realize that it is time for you to seek and speak your truth. It suddenly seems important for you to become more authentic, more yourself. You may have to say “no” to people whom you have tried to please in the past. You may find it intolerable to stay in a marriage or job or place that doesn’t support who you are. You may also find there is nowhere to hide, no secrets to keep anymore. Honesty becomes important in all your relationships. Advice: Listen to your heart. If your guidance tells you not to do something, speak up and take action. Say “no”. Likewise, you must also say “yes” to that which compels you. You must risk displeasing others without guilt in order to attain spiritual sovereignty.
  32. Harmony with seasons and cycles: You are becoming more tuned to the seasons, the phases of the moon and natural cycles. More awareness of your place in the natural world. A stronger connection to the earth.
  1. Electrical and mechanical malfunctions: When you are around, lightbulbs flicker, the computer locks up, or the radio goes haywire. Advice: Call on your angels, guides, or Grace Elohim to fix it or put up a field of protection of light around the machine. Surround your car with bluelight. Laugh.
  2. Increased synchronicity and many small miracles. Look for more of these. Advice: Synchronistic events tell you if you are heading in the right direction or making the correct choices. Honor these clues and you cannot go astray. Spirit uses synchronicity to communicate to you. That’s when you begin to experience daily miracles. See #30.
  1. Increased intuitive abilities and altered states of consciousness: Thinking of someone and immediately hearing from them. More synchronicities. Having sudden insights about patterns or events from the past. Clairvoyance, out-of-body experiences, and other psychic phenomena. Intensified sensitivity and knowing. Awareness of one’s essence and that of others. Channeling angelic and Christ-consciousness energies.
  2. Communication with Spirit. Contact with angels, spirit guides, and other divine entities. Channeling. More and more people seem to be given this opportunity. Feeling inspiration and downloading information that takes form as writing, painting, ideas, communications, dance, etc.
  3. A sense of Oneness with all. A direct experience of this Wholeness. Transcendent awareness. Being flooded with compassion and love for all life. Compassionate detachment or unconditional love for all is what lifts us up to higher levels of consciousness and joy.
  4. Moments of joy and bliss. A deep abiding sense of peace and knowing that you are never alone.
  5. Integration: You become emotionally, psychologically, physically, and spiritually stronger and clearer. You feel as if you are in alignment with your Higher Self.
  6. Living your purpose: You know you are finally doing what you came to earth for. New skills and gifts are emerging, especially healing ones. Your life/work experiences are now converging and starting to make sense. You are finally going to use them all. Advice: Listen to your heart. Your passion leads you to where you must go. Go within and ask your Higher Power, “What is it you would have me do?” Watch for synchronicities. Listen.
  7. Feeling closer to animals and plants. To some people, animals now seem to be more “human” in their behavior. Wild animals are less afraid. Plants respond to your love and attention more than ever. Some may even have messages for you.
  8. Seeing beings of other dimensions. The veil between dimensions is thinner, so it is not surprising. Just stay in your sovereignty. You are more powerful than you can ever imagine, so do not entertain fear. Ask your guides for help if you slip into fear.
  9. Seeing a person’s true form or seeing loved ones with a different face – past life or parallel life.
  10. Physically manifesting thoughts and desires more quickly and efficiently. Advice: Monitor your thoughts. All thoughts are prayers. Be careful what you ask for.
  11. Left -brain fogginess. Your psychic abilities, your intuitive knowing, your feeling and compassion, your ability to experience your body, your visioning, your expressiveness all emanate from the right brain. In order for this side of the brain to develop more fully, the left brain must shut down a little bit. Normally the left-hemisphere’s capacity for order, organization, structure, linear sequencing, analysis, evaluation, precision, focus, problem-solving, and mathematics dominate our often less-valued right brain. What results are memory lapses, placing words in the wrong sequence, inability or no desire to read for very long, inability to focus; forgetting what you are just about to say; impatience with linear forms of communication (audio or written formats); a feeling of spaciness, being scattered; losing interesting research or complex information; feeling bombarded with words and talk and information; and a reluctance to write. Sometimes you feel dull and have no interest in analysis, lively intellectual discussion, or investigation. On the other hand, you might find yourself drawn to the sensate: videos, magazines with photos, beautiful artwork, movies, music, sculpting, painting, being with people, dancing, gardening, walking, and other kinesthetic forms of expression. You may search for spiritual content, even science fiction. Advice: You may discover that if you allow your heart and your right brain to lead you, the left will then be activated appropriately to support you. And someday we will be well-balanced, using both hemispheres with mastery.
  12. Dizziness. This occurs when you are ungrounded. Perhaps you have just cleared a big emotional issue and your body is adjusting to your “lighter” state. Advice: Ground yourself by eating protein. Sometimes “comfort food” feels right. Don’t make any food right or wrong for you. Use your guidance to know what you need at any given moment. Take your shoes off and put your feet in the grass for a couple of minutes.
  13. Falling, having accidents, breaking bones. Your body is not grounded or perhaps your life is out of balance. Or your body may be telling you to slow down, examine certain aspects of your life, or heal certain issues. There is always a message. When I recently broke my ankle, I understand that my ankle was taking on what I myself refused to deal with. And that was all of the above. Advice: Stay grounded by taking your shoes off and putting your feet in the grass; even better, lie down on the grass without a blanket under you. Feel the earth beneath you. Get out in nature. Slow down and pay attention. Be mindful about what you are doing. Feel your feelings when they come up. Stay in the present. Surround yourself with blue light when you are feeling shaky.
  14. Heart palpitations. A racing heart usually accompanies a heart opening. It only lasts for a few moments and means that the heart is re-balancing itself after an emotional release. I had one episode that terrified me: I woke up in the middle of the night, my heart pounding. I thought it was going to come right out of my chest. It only happened once and was, I understand, a huge heart-chakra opening. But I did check it out. There is nothing wrong with my heart. Advice: Remember what I said about getting medical attention when needed. Consult your doctor about any conditions you are not comfortable with.
  15. Faster hair and nail growth. More protein is being used in the body. Too bad we can’t tell the body where to grow the hair and where not to grow it. (Or can we? Hmmm.)
  16. A desire to find your soulmate or twin flame. More than ever before, the idea that we can have a relationship that matches who we are seems more desirable. Advice: The truth is, we have to be the kind of person we want to attract. We have to love ourselves and where we are right now before we can attract a more “perfect” mate. The work begins at home. Here is how I think it works: Hold the desire for this person in your heart, but without attachment. Expect that someday you will meet someone who is more suited to you, but let go of any expectations as to who this will be and how it will happen. Focus instead on cleaning up your own life and being the kind of person you want to be. Be happy now. Enjoy your life. Then you may see…..
  17. Memories surface. Body memories, suppressed memories, images of past lives and/or parallel lives. We are healing and integrating all our “selves”, so expect to have some of these experiences. Advice. Keep in mind that it is best to recall what only what comes to mind, leave the rest alone, don’t analyze everything to death (because you will be stuck in the tape loop of infinite issues to process), and feel your feelings as they come up. Ask for help from your guides.

anonymous asked:

I am having ALL these can I figure out what I am (lost human, star traveler, star seed, indigo, crystal)

you’re just awakening to the divine truth that lies inside of you. There are many places you can go to discover and research but you are always a starseed technically ;)

Feel free to check out my links page or do your own exploring.  is a great place to start

You have many wonders to discover my dear



Losing connections to friends and family

I am having a really hard time finding your normal ask page, sorry!
I just was wondering if I could get some insight or advice. Since the beginning of my spiritual awakening somewhere between 4-6 years ago, I have slowly lost connections to friends and family, especially in the last 2-3 years. I have a boyfriend and other than that all my other close relationships have dissolved, and I have found it incredibly hard to really connect with people… all the while its even more frustrating because I crave SOUL connection more than ever. Is this normal? Does it go away? Any advice? Thank you …. <3

This is actually more common than you think, part of the ascension process is about breaking away our old shell. When we start to break out of the old paradigm of the 3rd dimensional consciousness we go through a point of rebirth where we are able to go through a chrysalis or a cocoon state. This is the state where the universe desires for us to look more inward rather than outward into reality. The more we uncover within, the more our external reality starts to transform and change shape.

 In laymans terms this means that what no longer serves us starts to disappear and fade from our current reality. Old relationships, drama, lower vibrational people, old friendships, old habits, old places, 3d thinking/feeling, things we used to enjoy suddenly we no longer find enjoyable. it could also be the equivalent of emphasizing that your soul is literally maturing. Your consciousness is changing and so your reality automatically changes with it. Everything that you were recycling within your personal karmic bonds are breaking so that you and higher vibrational people, places, habits and things can take their place. It is a process but it doesn’t last forever. What we attract is what we are, so if our soul is going through an intense abrupt change, what we begin to attract also starts changing within our personal reality. 

When it is hard to connect with these old relationships, there creates a dissociation and sometimes it can be hard to move past this phase. However you aren’t going to stop loving your parents and friends just because you yourself are changing, you just are looking at things from a different perspective. If you feel alone on this journey, try connecting with like-minds in other places such as fb groups featuring indigo children, ascension, awakening, crystal children, starseeds,net, etc. there are so many of us out there who are willing to listen and relate to you. Don’t even think you are alone on this journey. 

I hope this helps
love <3

The Ascension Process

The Mechanics of the Shift

Let us review the meaning of “Ascension” and why we, as humans, will experience physical, emotional and mental symptoms and changes.

Currently we are in a phase transition of expansion into the realms of experiencing higher consciousness as “multidimensional” human beings living on this planet. During this phase of the Ascension cycle, we as human beings will experience many varied physical symptoms as we shift our cells into higher frequency patterns.

Ascension is about the bringing of layers of light, the force existing within the levels of our spiritual bodies (our Multidimensional God Selves) by descending these layers into matter and anchoring them into the physical plane of reality. Simultaneously, Ascension is a shift in energetic frequency patterns held in a dimensional space which, when absorbed and activated into the layers of the planetary and human bio-energetic field, activates its DNA template instruction set.

This catalyzes a chain of events that creates a complete transformation and transmutation of various patterns and programs held in the energetic templates of the Human Soul’s journey within a cycle of evolutionary time. When activated, these patterns begin to shift, re-emerge and clear from the layers of experiences coded into every cell and memory pattern held as an energetic vibration within the bodies.

The Ascension process is about moving the consciousness from one reality to another and the awareness of possible multiple realities existing simultaneously. Since a “reality” is a dimension, what we are undertaking is, in essence, a complete dimensional shift. A dimensional reality is held in place by a complex layer of coded energetic grids to create the illusion of time and space for the consciousness to perceive and to participate in its own experience within the broadband widths of that particular range of frequency.

As the dimensional grids shift its frequency and its magnetic attributes change, all things existing within that “broadband” reality will also shift and change in a myriad of ways. The “natural” laws governing that time and space as we know them will change. This also means the perception of our spatial awareness, our relationship to time and space will also change rather dramatically.

Thus, to go through this shift one must prepare and adjust one’s way of thinking and being to that which is in alignment with the soul purpose and true divine essence. “Surrender” and “Acceptance” are two main characteristics we will need to allow to permeate through us to facilitate an easier time. In order to shift the old behaviors and thought patterns not serving the soul purpose, we will become aware of the beliefs and behaviors that exist as imbalances within us and we must take the appropriate steps to integrate or clear them. This process will bring our deepest fears, beliefs of limitation and old pain patterns to the surface through events that trigger them into our awareness so that we can consciously acknowledge, resolve and heal them.

Some of these issues are ancestral or inherited in their nature and may feel rather odd yet familiar when they are is brought to your awareness. It is important to remember that we are not only clearing our own individual “mind” grid, but also the karmic mind implications and collective (un)consciousness implications on this planet from the last evolutionary cycle. This way you can reframe the circumstance in your mind to be that which is impersonal and detached from identifying with the specific issue that has risen to the surface to be cleared within your bodies. Appreciate and acknowledge your light being for accepting the assignment for this clearing rather than claiming it as belonging to “you”.

By doing this repeatedly, we clear our emotional and energy bodies of the long held traumas, beliefs and fears that have impeded our ability to experience our true “being” and bring more joy into our lives. Once the emotional body is resolved and cleared of an old pain or trauma, the physical body then is enabled to clear its equivalent of that block.

All of this happens simultaneously within all of the layers of the bio-energetic field when each healing is cleared. In effect, it is a full clearing and release of these painful events held as patterns in the bodies from the soul’s record and cellular memory. And that is pretty awe inspiring when you realize how this will impact the human experience as we move forward!

Also, as these painful patterns are removed from the soul record, the clearing recodes our DNA so it can hold more light, thus sustaining our new frequency and a state of increasing higher consciousness and multidimensionality. As we hold this greater light and advanced genetic package in our bio-energy field, it enables others, through the principle of resonance, to vibrate at the increased frequency rate and activate their own inner potential and divine inheritance towards Ascension.

Emotional clearing is the main process we will experience and be acutely aware of as we shift through the Ascension. Since emotional pain and imbalances are responsible for our states of “dis-ease” many of us will experience illness or physical releases of pain clearing from our bodies. Some of this clearing is for your karmic, genetic or ancestral soul lineage. Some of us, as lightworkers, have chosen to clear states of imbalances for the collective or for a specific group and will feel this movement of energy transmute through us, as our energetic being is acting as a “cosmic filtration system” for the greater whole.

The goal of this series is to inform you of these dynamics that we are currently experiencing, and as the energies accelerate to prepare you even further by clearly discussing the various possible physical symptoms from a position of having a “neutral” association. Utilizing what works for you personally by cultivating intuitive discernment with an informed awareness is the intended support of this discussion.

This is to not alarm you, but is used as a tool to keep you informed in order to be self accountable and self sovereign in all of your upcoming choices. We will not be given anything we cannot handle. Much of this can be avoided by being self-aware and taking the time to heal through emotional clearing and listening to your body when it requests other healing techniques. Spirit has given us many tools for our Ascension toolkit to assist and support our evolution in the easiest possible way. Ask for assistance and it will be given!

Transmutational Symptoms

Owing to some of the extreme transmutational symptoms that are rampant at this time I want to be specific and this may be more lengthy than required. I get clients, family and friends that feel that something is very wrong in what is happening to them because of the extreme transmutational and transformational symptoms that they are feeling. Many of them are vague to describe and inexpressible in linear thought and language.

When they go to doctors, they are being told to take drugs or they are being instructed to seek professional psychological help. Of course I am not professing to be giving any medical advice. It may be beneficial for some of us to seek out medical or psychological treatment during our process. We must follow our own inner guidance on how to proceed with what is occurring within our physical and energy body systems at this unprecedented time of acceleration.

Certain symptoms are now becoming more apparent and when we know this as a “process” and that many others are feeling the same things, a certain serenity can be brought into the mind. Many can rest in the knowledge that they are being transformed in ways that may feel extremely hard on the physical body.

Some of the symptoms reported include:

  • cranial pressure and headaches

  • extreme fatigue

  • heating up of the physical body

  • nausea

  • dizziness

  • forgetfulness

  • irritability

  • sleeplessness

  • joint pain

  • body aches

  • muscle cramps in legs and calves and shoulders

  • flu-like symptoms

  • kundalini experiences

  • diarrhea

  • feeling out of sorts

  • muscle pains

  • skin rashes

  • tingling in body parts

  • having specific awareness of a internal organ or body part unlike the past

  • diminution of spatial awareness

  • clumsiness

  • feverish feeling

  • feelings of being there and not being here

  • loss of visual acuity

  • memory loss

  • changes with body and head hair

  • lack of the ability to concentrate

  • feelings of standing up or moving too quickly that create “vertigo”

  • the feeling that you cannot accomplish anything because there is not enough time

  • anxiety attacks that happen suddenly and disappear just as suddenly

Also, our bodies often experience a rush of heat and energy bursts that are not comfortable. Our bodies are being shifted in thermodynamic ways and with so much light entering the fields of the body, some of the “symptoms” we experience are actually preventing our physical vehicles from bursting with the intensity of light. We may experience a “triad” sleep pattern (waking up every 3 hours) or interrupted sleep as we are being recalibrated and worked on energetically at night. This adds to our being restless and tired in the morning.

Remember to be gentle with your hearts and being and only allow others within your boundaries of inner sanctum that treat you the same. This can be an extremely vulnerable time emotionally. We need to release the fear of asking for help and investing in ourselves to feel balanced and healthy. Massage, Bodywork, Energy Work, Spiritual Counsel and just plain laughter and FUN are extremely important during this time. Allow yourself!

If I could impart anything to our readers it would be to emphasize how humans are so deeply loved and appreciated by SpiritThe HierarchiesThe Planet, from all those of whom we serve as One. The impact of our collective work during this evolutionary time cycle is beyond comprehension! Thank you with deep gratitude for all of your amazing work!

Stay in the luminosity of your heart and soul path! We are here as ONE!

Soul Groups and Spirit Guides

Hello!! How can I learn more about soul families/groups, and on communicating with our spirit guides? ^_^

A really long time ago i posted about soul groups and families, i have no idea where that link is though…Regardless i have come to learn and respect everyone we meet on our journey is technically part of our soul family as a teacher, a friend, a lover, a shaman or healer. The people we feel most attracted to as we awaken are most definitely part of our soul family especially our most personal relationships. My friend Eva calls them our “soul tribe”. We could get into technicalities and say “this soul was pre-destined” to align with another through their soul contract and sacred bond they have with one another. I think in many ways that is also how we unite with  our divine counterpart or twin flame. 

In reality a lot of this could be simplified to say the people we attract during our awakening experience and who continuously show up in our lives off and on, both near or far these are the people who are part of your soul tribe. It doesn’t mean they are blood related but we are spiritually connected to these people. Everyone we meet on our journey is here to show us a lesson and reflection we need to see within ourselves so it’s very sacred in a way. The mind meeting another mind through the connection of awakening. We recognize their energy as a soul speaking to another soul. I’ve always theorized perhaps these meetings are not chance but people we have encountered or had relationships with in our past lives merging into our present experience.

How to Communicate with your Guide

Communicating with our Spirit Guides is truthfully so simple we often over look the obvious. It a communicate with your higher self or the superconscious aspect of yourself. The superconscious is very peculiar because it is the future self, the self removed from time in non-locality. If we were to think of the superconscious as an apparition of ourselves removed from time, this is the epitome of what the spirit guide actually is, the higher self in ethereal form. 

Communicating with our guide is as similar as talking to a friend, you are talking to the universal source through yourself. It sounds crazy but I’ve come to accept there really isn’t any insanity here, only different perspectives. We can talk to our guides directly any time, any day or night just by asking a question. You will notice a response in many ways: 

  • A direct thought following the question
  • A symbol within your current surroundings, such as a word, a feather, an image, a commercial, song, an animal, etc.
  • A person who comes into your awareness via a conversation, disguised Angel or in general appearance
  • Synchronicity such as master numbers, deja vu occurrences

When we begin to acknowledge this conversation with our Spirit guide the stronger the connection and the belief becomes. It is a direct link with our intuition and learning to empower our intuitive awareness. Spirit Guides are good friends to help us in sticky situations, relieve anxiety, or just help us when we feel a bit lost. We can always turn to them because they are a part of us and we are a part of them. We can also have other guides too such as angels, starpeople, animal totems[personal favorite of mine] or many other archetypes such as Gods/Goddesses that help us on our journey. The imagination is VASTLY useful and we often take this simple concept for granted. The power of our intuition will help guide us and even transform us through our own personal journeys. 

Hope this helps you!
Sorry for the delayed response <3

Ascension Symptoms Returning?

Has anyone else been feeling intense headaches from the energy changes? I’ve been having intense pain in my temples for four days in a row. It feels like my head is in a vice. 
I know I clench my jaw in my sleep, but I don’t feel as though I have any more than normal lately. It feels like what I experienced at the beginning of my awakening. Head pain, vivid dreams, ringing ears…
Another transition phase, perhaps?

— ashlee-awakened

Most definitely another transition phase, i’ve been noticing they seem to be coming up stronger more and more, the universe doesn’t seem to be giving us much of a break lately lol. It’s reminiscent of 2011-2012 energy to me big huge shifting currents of energy. I want to say this probably started around the summer solistice? That’s when it seems like we went through a big transition gateway mark. I’m right there with you a lot of the old ascension symptoms are returning. 

  • Ringing ears - due to the change in frequency like the feeling of pressure within your ears when you go up a mountain, getting “downloads” of new energy 
  • Central forehead pain/ intense headaches - pineal/pituitary gland activity opening and releasing, sinus pain usually comes out a lot too as the pineal gland connects to our sinuses 
  • vivid dreams - our consciousness is shifting between dimensional states which is impacting our subconscious dream state, the waking reality/material reality are intertwining a lot more 
  • nausea/feeling ungrounded/dizziness - shifting of the root, ground being swept off your feet, feeling out of balance  
  • seeing/feeling energy - tingling, vibrating from head to toe, orbs of light, flashes of light, swirling energy in the sky, tracers, etc.
  • Feeling lost/confused/having identity crisis - I get many questions lately about feeling alone, confused about their life path and not connecting/not able to deal with material reality, all part of the Ego losing it’s bearings over your consciousness 
  • Emotional upheaval - the bipolar rollercoaster of your emotions, euphoria to depression and everywhere in between. one minute you will be in crazy spiritual high the next you will be sad and deeply emotional, crying at everything 
  • Increase in intuition/psychic abilities - knowing what others are thinking before they say it, synchronicity, listening to your intuition, always having that gut instinct be right, aura reading, empathy, inner sensing, inner knowing, the list goes on 
  • Extreme sensitivity to crowds/loud environments - you’re unconsciously *Feeling* others energies bodies which can either leave you discomforted, drained or just flat out claustrophobic
  •  Foggy Memory/spaciness  - having a hard time remembering what you were saying, as if your brain is shifting between left-right perception or you’re just more inner, thinking/feeling rather than projecting out, memory loss
  • Body Temperature changes - feeling a rapid energy surge go through you were you change from being really cold to really hot in the blink of an eye. usually due to the change in energy from the body. 
  • Panic attacks/anxiety - brain moving faster than the body, your perception is changing and with that comes a desire to fall into the cycle of past/future thinking
  • Heart Palpitations - nothing is wrong with you but you suddenly feel your heart beating faster or the opposite a heavy dense energy in the heart. This is the Heart opening and recentering itself as it opens up to more new energy. can be scary and cause the above(panic attacks) try to stay calm and know you are safe. 
  • backpain/body aches - vibrational flu, that kundalini is more than just energy, it likes to open alll those chakras and it sometimes manifests as body aches as your spine adjusts. not very pleasant…
  • Change in diet - just listen to your body, truly.
  • Change in sleep patterns - most common 3am 
  • The rapid increase of synchroncity in your life - 11:11 111, 555, 666, 777, numbers everywhere, experiencing deja vu, dreams taking form, certain achetypal symbols appearing in your life, etc. 

These are only some of them, but it really seems like a lot of them are returning which is interesting because it means we are in a huge galactic shift! The mind opening into the heart center to direct the divine will of action. Mind-heart-body

Looks like it make be time to repost some Ascension symptom articles. 

Thanks for this <3

hope you feel better soon!




Happy New Year everyone! we had a bit of a trippy night, Adam and I took some very very light tryptamine called 4-ho-mipt which was purely beautiful to ring in the new year. It helped me become more centered,healed and cleansed. Some huge things that really stood out to me all day yesterday is the interconnected-ness we experience daily. Everything truly happens for a reason. We are constantly surrounded with symbolism, archetypes, triggerpoints to unlocking the subconscious mind it is all about the Will.  As i’ve come into mother hood my life is insane, it’s like it got flipped upside down sometimes, dealing with my Mom trying to control me and help with the baby at home, dealing with being a staying at home mom and dealing with breastfeeding, which is very challenging especially those late night sleepless feedings.

Anyway what i’ve come to realize is people don’t relax enough. We are constantly thrown into this world of stress, anxiety, work, stressful situations, challenges, various people with different vibrations than us, trying to survive in a world full of all this crazy bouncing energy but it’s like most people never come up for air. 

This is where you have to learn to declutter your mind and relax. I realize my life is entirely busy and im at home all day how can that happen? Because my mind is busy the entire day and i’m sure there are many people out there who feel the same. For instance i won’t name names for privacy reasons but a follower wrote to me about her being a Hospice Nurse who was having trouble with feeling depleted of her energy because of the work she does. Now that is beautifully challenging work right there, inner healer ;) See we are all encountering that ego mind daily but the trick of balancing it completely, is not by external means, it’s by relaxing your mind. 

I know many of us felt that Ascension was just a silly idea in all of our heads but I think we were looking at it from the wrong perspective. I believe Ascension is a door, that we merely have to walk through, it’s not going to take us to la la land but it will be challenging, It shows us our fears, what we need to work on within our energy currents, what we need to resolve from the past and most importantly what we need to work on within ourselves. However it is a journey ultimately, it is a process. YOU are the divine vehicle and you always will be. You are the one in control. You ARE your mind, you ARE your ego and you ARE your soul. IT is all up to you. That is where many people slip up i think and why there are so many of us out there that FEEL this hopeless, mortal, fragile, egotistical material existence is all there is, it is the mind clutter. Tell me don’t you always feel a thousand times better after you clean your room or just in general clean part of the house? That’s because YOU are cleaning your mind, you are focusing your mind and cleansing it. 

Cars are merely vessels. Think about it. You are driving your consciousness around all the timeeee. Why do you think people drink and drive then get hurt, they’re out of control. You ARE the one you’ve been looking for, Don’t wait for jesus or the aliens to come take you ‘home’. You ARE home, you ARE free. You can easily have free reign as long as you take control of your life. It is all about the power of your thoughts. The power is ultimately in the mind and it always will be. The Universe is playful what i have come to experience was this beautiful, warm light energy, it felt like melting into eachother and realizing you are the Macrocosm inside the microcosm, you ARE the bridge of both works. Your heart, your merkabah is the driver. What we feel is what we are and always will be, eternal timeless beings of divine light and will. That is the SECRET of SECRETS that the emerald tablets talks about, you are the one. All of you. 

The gateway is open for those who are ready to walk through it by the power of their mind and energy. It is about linking your solar plexus energy into the heart to connect to the mind which creates the Tree of Life. This is the universal Truth. Love is all there is and so we will it to be. 


most of the time when i check time it appears like 09:09 or 12:12 or 07:07 or 10:10 etc.What is it actually .why does this happen?


As all numerology works it’s a lesson and a teacher towards ourselves. It’s a symbolic trigger, archetypes that unlock our dna strands and awaken our subconscious memories of ourselves.This is known within Jungian psychology.  A lot of these number sequences are common, they are messengers that tell us about ourselves. Watch your thoughts during them and you will see the patterns growing in awareness. Usually they are connected to what we are thinking at a given moment in time. 

12:12 = 33 The master teacher of duality
1010 = 11 The vision
99 = Endings

The Master Numbers
1010 - reality is a biogenetic experiment created from numbers
911 - 9=Endings. 11=DNA. 911=ending code of our DNA program in this reality.
111 - the vision, illumination, channel to the subconscious, insight without rational thought, the gateway
222 Duality - Polarity - Reality is created by an electromagnetic energy grid. 2+2=2=6=Flower of Life
333 represents a higher octave of 9 = closure in 3D
444 represents a higher octave of 3 = 4d mastery of thought and illusion
555 5 all elements(air, earth, water, fire, ether) combined is a sphenic number. In base 10, it is a repdigit, and because it is divisible by the sum of its digits, it is a Harshad number. It is also a Harshad number in binary, base 11, base 13 and hexadecimal. Represents 5D

666 creating the merkabah, star of david, aligning the elements and the senses together in understanding. the number of man elements of earth combined with spirit
777 spiritual divine connection (connected to crown chakra) 
888 rebirth, infinity, paradise regained
999 karma codes ending, life cycles complete. It is the Triple Triad - Completion; fulfillment; attainment; beginning and the end; the whole number; a celestial and angelic number - the Earthly Paradise.
10 completion and back to the source energy field or universal cosmic consciousness. Ten is the number of the cosmos—-the paradigm of creation. The decad contains all numbers and therefore all things and possibilities. It is the radix or turning point of all counting.   I get these type of questions a lot so i have a few pages for them. feel free to check them out. hope it helps

Sending love to you <3


I actually wanted to tell you that there’s this thing that happens to me when I’m out in public. I’m not sure if you’d believe me how much psychic activity happens to me but.when I’m out in public in my “nature” and by that I mean that I’m just comfortable nothing going on in my head but what’s going on around me all 5 senses. I’m a Virgo so analyzing things is just what I do for fun. This thing happens when I make eye contact with people I look at them and they look at me a for a brief moment I get a since of who they are but when I blink my eyes they kinda of have this action whether it be a trip or they drop something there carrying or down too a wipe of the face as if they shook something off. But it has been happening to me for quite some time I’ll make eye contact and then blink and they will “mess up” what ever it is there doing naturally. But it only happens with strangers I have no relationship with. Friends, aqqaintances … Idk spelling , etc. are all excused from this instance I was wondering what you thought about it because it happens so often it simply can’t go unnoticed now.

— kilo-predator

I believe you, it’s becoming more and more apparent to me that this is very real and the awakening shift is indeed happening. It’s surreal…Some days i feel like i’m tripping sober i see so much synchronicity. I feel like we’re getting more and more proof the Higher self is merging with the Earth Plane, the two worlds are starting to intersect. The Spiritual World is here. It’s always been here but now, it’s really deeply HERE. If you get what i mean…

Um i’ve had similar occurrences but usually they don’t react back like you seem to be experiencing. From my understanding what is happening is you are Aura reading, you’re reading their energetic field due to your sensitive nature. Anyone can technically do this, some do it unconsciously others who are aware like yourself can tap into it pretty easily. The key word is Eyes. Eye contact. Ever heard the expression, the eyes are the window to the soul? That is because they are, when we look someone in the eyes we are looking through their focal point. The focal point is right between the forehead where the pituitary gland is nestled. It is the central region of where our frequency channels, telsa talks about this frequency but everyone has one. When we channel we pick up on this frequency because we’re all connected to it, this is what the unified mind is made of frequencies. When we tap into the frequency of another, we can encounter their thoughts, feelings, empathize with them, pick up on memories or even past life memories. Sometimes it can come through as a vision or a flash but acknowledging the focal point you can read into someone’s soul. 

I don’t want to go too much into it but this is also how they developed mind control. You have to think about it, the government is powerful and if they were to say have a technology to control others through the frequency for say soldiers for the MK Ultra project. They could control the minds of others. It’s extremely bad mojo and it can destroy your will power. Soo i don’t like to take about it much but that is what they mean when they say kundalini is bad and it can be used for mind control. 

Anyway i’m guessing when they have a reaction back you’re accidentally causing a reaction towards their energy. The beautiful thing when you pick up on these frequencies you can also use them for good, such as sending healing light if they need it or just sendin them good thoughts or feelings. The people that are real psychics and mediums tap into this channel and that is how they can aura read people. I know my reiki teacher could do that as well. She freaked a girl out and told her “you know why your root is messed up right, it’s when you broke your arm when you were a little girl”. So i’ve witnessed it both within myself and others, what is happening to you is very real. My advice is to work on making it stronger and channel positive vibrations towards it. This is a beautiful gift to acknowledge within yourself. It’s our innate nature. We are frequency as if we are like a radio signal that we can tune into eachother. This is also how telepathy works, it goes into the process of entanglement. Some people aren’t ready to acknowledge the frequency but it is there. There is a deep connection here that has yet to be explored by the general populace if only they knew where to look is within. Our world would be an entirely different place. 

excellent question, so good to see others acknowledging the frequencies <3


Deja Vu and Dreams

Hola! I have been having experiences where I remember things that happened, but I can’t tell if it was a dream I had or something that happened in real life..what does this mean?
Also, I find that when I go to sleep sometimes, my brain does’t. So if there is something bothering me, I will work through it the entire time I should be sleeping…why?

— appellemoi-deej

This is known as Deja Vu occurrences, the feeling that you are experiencing a situation that you’ve been through before at other levels of reality. These usually happen when we experience a shift in consciousness. As the Veil is merging within our multidimensional self we have these occurrences because past-present-future is unifying together so our memories are merging together. I also see these experiences as a symbol of change. Watch your thoughts and actions during these times, it’s usually a sign of a shift in conscious understanding. For instance we were out shopping and i was trying to park but every row i turned down a car kept stealing our spot, this happened three times in a row it was really trippy. I saw this as an experience of acceptance and slowing down.  We have these deja vu moments because they are like glitches in reality, it means change, a change in awareness, a change in circumstance a change in inner knowing. the more you see, the more you question the more you know ;)

As for your brain never fully shutting off, this is also just part of shifting energy, it sounds like your consciousness is going through deep changes within yourself and your dreams are telling you so. As the veil is thinning and merging, our dream world is changing because our consciousness is changing. everything interconnects because the dream world is our inner subconscious, and waking reality is outward projection of experience consciousness. So  symbols and memories in our dreams can be carried out into waking reality and vice versa as they interconnect. As we become more consciously aware our dreams can change shape because our consciousness is changing in the understanding of itself and it’s memories. It’s kinda hard to explain i hope this makes sense lol. 

much love <3

Hello, I am a confused indigo/crystal child and so I decided to message you. In general I have a lot of questions but I suppose I’ll only ask them when they come back up in my life, so some later time perhaps? Anyways, I’m only thirteen but I do know quite a bit about starseeds and intuition and charkas and all that jazz, I’ve never really “learned” it, I just kind of already knew it? If that makes sense. I’ve never felt like I belonged here, I feel so alienated and lost and like I don’t fit in, I’m not really like any of the people I’ve met before. When I was younger a guy who was a stranger was able to tell me what I was thinking before I said it and then he said I was “special” and that is where my curiosity sparked, and that brings me to the state I am today! I have some “abilities” like empathy, aura reading, ect.. but I’m not sure how to “use” them, in a sense. Anyways, I guess the point of this long.. long.. message was to ask if all these things are normal? (Like, for my age and experiences), is it normal for a starseed?

— happymeatloaf

es very very normal to experience these things, because this is truly who we are, i feel society has suspressed the spiritual world because we needed to experience masculine force, experience it through our karmic bonds but also to see how much we need the feminine/spiritual world within our lives. The Spirit world is our birth right and our innate personal sense of self. Many have just forgotten who they truly are, we’re kinda like that show Once upon a time. All the fairytales have amnesia  and are “cursed” not remembering who they are, then someone brings hope into their lives and things start awakening within them. They slowly get back their long term memories and piece by piece they remember who they truly are, both <3

You intuitively know about chakras and energy because you have always technicallly known about this. Awakening is moreso an act of remembrance of our past ancient selves rather than something we have just randomly picked up out of nowhere. It’s our universal nature and existence. The act of remembering you are a starseed is truthfully about reclaiming your Spiritual side of yourself, your feminine energy intertwined within your masculine. Society has everything quite backwards, life is truly a paradox. We go through various stages of the illusions of separation and yet after awakening we realize that we are infinity connected. This fear of death, is nothing but fear, death is an illusion our souls are boundless, eternal and infinity just like the multiverse. We create all these points of division within this world but many fail to see our basic existence. Why is it the most mysterious research of all besides dark matter is the understanding of our own mind? This is because they are looking outside of themselves for answers instead of looking within. It’s as simple and as complicated as that. Society has so many things backwards, it’s like bizzaroworld lol. 

Therefore YES what is happening to you is normal, it might not be the conventional definition of “normal” but what is happening to you and so many is something we have known since before birth. We have known this for aeons of time and now we are starting to get back our memories of who we once were/are. You are never alone, we’re all in this together as we are one unified mind. These abilities we have, we have used them before, that is why they are more intuitive rather than learned, this is not something to teach per-say, it is something to unlock, something to reveal and most importantly something to remember within yourselves. 

Always Remember who you are <3



anonymous asked:

Hi <3 I'm just wondering if you've ever heard of this happening to anyone else/know what it's about...I've been seeing sacred geometry for years, before I knew what it was, both with my eyes open and closed I see it. Recently I've also started seeing huge, swirling galaxies and a few other things. Impressions of figures and such. I have nobody I can talk to about this, and I'd love to know, how can I work on these abilities? (Cont)

(Cont) I also have prophetic dreams quite often and can feel energy from people to the point that I very accurately know what people are thinking, but I don’t have any control over what I can do, it all just happens and I can’t stop it. Is there any way I can develop control? Thank you for running this blog, it has helped me immeasurably since my own awakening :) <3

You’re welcome, it makes me happy that so many people are touched by it, it means a lot to me and mother earth <3

It sounds to me like you are quite in tune with yourself and your energy. After the procession the barriers lifted and it’s much much easier to tap into energy and other people’s energy auras. It’s kinda trippy actually how easy it is these days.  The swirling galaxies and impressions of figures are also merely energy just different currents and structures of our energy time matrix we live and create in. It’s also connected with the sacred geometry you see, it’s the architecture of the universe. Rooms are like tesseracts and energy is surrounded by us, just not many see this because they are out of tune with their soul and body. They are still sleeping in the now instead of embracing it they operate from the mechanisms of fear and past/future thinking. Rather than surrendering into the present where limitless possibilities are available. 

It takes a lot of time and experience to learn to control these things, however the best way to do it is to become the ultimate observer to yourself and others within reality. You will see patterns and be able to create with these patterns and symbols much easier over time. We are a collective unified mind which is why you can accurately known what people are thinking, innately we all have this gift just many don’t know how to access that part of them. It’s pure channeling of spirit and being a receptive channel to opening up to others by listening. Learning to control your gift is by realizing that the universe is more playful than serious, our divine will acts as a conduct for experience and mind exploration. I used to have problems controlling my emotions around others because i would act like an emotional sponge but overtime i learned that all i needed to do was learn to tone down my frequencies and accept those emotions, rather than act on them. I find it really truly helps to acknowledge yourself within others and feel them as they are and truly listen. When people talk they are releasing their soul experience to you and when you clearly listen you are giving them what they need to hear. It works in the same way with other gifts such as telepathy. It’s all about learning to control you, by controlling how you experience. We have limitless potential so it’s really about learning to see that you are the vehicle, you drive it, you have a choice of hitting the accelerator or stopping the car, you are fully in control with your thoughts, actions, deeds and kindness. It’s all you, all along so to learn control first you have to learn to understand the manual of your own mind ;)

It’s as simple and as complex as that, it’s your experience. You are the door. You are the light or the dark. You are the thought. You are the idea. You are the energy. You are the observer, the listener, the speaker, the god, the goddess in one. 

hope this helps

Namaste <3


Hello. I have a question regarding your recent post about the shifts. Since new years day I have been feeling a little outer touch with my body. My body doesnt feel like itself, its like swollen up all over and i feel like I have a lot of fluid all through my body. It isn’t weight gain as I have been eating fine! but was just wondering if it could be to do with this new shift? I am usually effected by full moons etc as I am quite sensitive. xx

— reincarnatedangel

As i just literally posted, there is a lot going on right now, i’m still a little flabbergasted how this shift seems to be pushing people off their feet literally.  When i was sick, i didn’t even want to move i felt so awful. I really can’t remember the last time it’s been this bad so many people are getting it….It’s very possible this has to deal with both the full moon and the shift. My synchronicity today has been off the roof…In general if it doesn’t go away, i would still get checked out to rule out it’s nothing serious. If it mainly just feels like a bloated heavy feeling, it could just be a sign of the dense energy trying to release from your body. The fluid feeling is the only thing that concerns me, as far as i know that isn’t ascension symptom related. The only time i’ve felt swollen like that was when i was pregnant lol or possibly your cycle is close? That always is the most sensitive time and you can get swollen around them. Is it an all over the body type feeling or is it only in certain areas?  It sounds a little dissociated too so it could have something to do with the Root chakra and not fully feeling grounded. Though to be honest with this shift, it is VERY ungrounded, i haven’t even been wanting to eat myself, my appetite has been gone. This shift seems to be dislodging our lower chakras and giving the solar plexus[willpower] a cleanse. So it could be a number of things, it’s hard to really pinpoint it. Is anyone else experiencing similar symptoms?  

anonymous asked:

have you heard of / experienced any headache issues regarding the energy changes since 2012? i awakened two summers ago, and since then its been up and down with my connection with myself and spirituality in general because of medications i was forced to take..ive had a headache for a week and a half now, and i have no explanation for it. my boyfriends mother says it can be because of the energy changes, but i dont really understand it and i feel more off centered now than i have in a long time.

Yes they are usually common when we experience a huge shift in the energy, most prominently April was a strong month. In general it seems like this energy has been going throuhg a lot of ups and downs since the procession of 2012. we’ve been doing a lot of transitions as we’re in a more 4th dimensional space, entering the triad of 5d6d7d. So it’s more than just your medications, it’s globally as well. Winter was a particular harsh one and i feel like as we reached the equinox of Spring things have eased up quite a bit but the Shifts are coming up a lot more frequently. I also find myself to be massively in alignment with the planetary shifts and symbols that come with them.

Headaches are caused from pineal gland activity, usually a releasing. As we get new energy between these shifts and solar flares, our body goes through a density shift which can cause friction as we are letting go of this energy. It is the same with sinus issues as sinues are also connected to the pineal gland and pituitary glands. Headaches and Pressure in the Crown/pineal gland area are also quite common. 

Experiencing any pressure around the forehead or back of the head may be due to the opening of the pituitary and pineal glands as they absorb more light and energy. These physical glands are connected with the third eye and crown chakra. When these glands are fully open, activated and functioning at the highest level, one experiences many spiritual benefits such as an increase in intuition and vision, and a slowing of the aging process. But before the birthing of these benefits, the labor pains of these chakra centers awakening may bring some of the uncomfortable symptoms around the physical areas connected to them. 

We all get headaches from time to time, but the headaches associated with the ascension process often occur without any physical cause and are sometimes unusual or occur with odd sensations. These type of headaches may not respond to treatment, may come on suddenly and intensely for a few hours or over a period of a few days before dissapearing. 

During the ascension process there is a lot of activity occurring in the crown chakra, and third eye chakra, and these symptoms can often manifest on the physical level as strange sensations within or around the head or face. The headaches may be accompanied with sinus issues or the head may feel sore or heavy. Many describe the head or skull pressure as if something is squeezing their head tightly or as if their head is ‘filled with energy’. 

During the time of these awakenings and activations, one might also feel a bit cloudy headed or muddled in their thinking during these times as well. This is because there is a lot changes happening on the mental level to accompany the physical changes and spiritual changes occurring in the head chakras. - See more at:

I recommend good tea like chamomile or peppermint or some dark chocolate to help you feel better!

much love and healing light <3


Sorry this is private message, i cant figure out how to get to your ask box on mobile lol. I keep getting these headaches that feel like my brain is simmering in a pot of hot water. They are migraines and wont go away with over the counter painkillers. Are these awakening pains or am I just crazy?

Most definitely sounds like awakening pains or the classic pituitary migraines that accompany awakening due to the pineal gland releasing energy and opening up more. 

Of course if they don’t go away over a period of time, get checked out just in case it is something serious. Ascension symptoms come and go they don’t last for weeks, they usually come up then they work through healing and release sometimes followed by mental clarity. Especially headaches, i find we have them the most when we are going through a big mental block,something you are not seeing, perhaps not listening with your intuition or a sign you are in denial or ignoring. These are all signs of the pituitary gland being worked on or a third eye block. 

hope this helps!


Hey so like me and this one guy used to talk for a couple of months. However we stopped talking because I started not being able to handle my liquor. He moved on but lowkey still have feelings for me and so did I. We have the same friend group and this one crazy girl belives she has powers or what not told him crazy lies about me to him making me sound crazy. He believes her because he known her longer that he has known me. We haven’t talked for a couple of weeks but I see him around and he doesn’t wanna talk to me because I “talked shit” when I didn’t and everyone else believes me on that because I’m not crazy. Anyways that was the back story but I keep having dreams of him with other girls but I’m ALLWAYS there and he ALLWAYS either holds my thigh or arm or something. Last night he apologized in my dream for believing her and kissed me I front of his other girl. Idk what this means but I dont want these dreams anymore but they just bother me. Can u please explain what they mean and what u should do about it? ~ anon

Um well it’s good to always keep in mind our Shadow Self, All is a projected reflection of you through your relationships. In theory, your crush we’ll call it, stopped talkng to you because of this girl who was telling lies about you, in return he stopped talking, but in your dream you kiss and make up essentially. 

It all sounds very…heart shift. Masculine and feminine energy, she was the catalyst to get you to see inside yourself. He was the masculine force your material connection with yourself and you are dreaming about it because you are still subconsciously bothered by your heart. 

The symbolism of this is that the heart has to be open and if it’s not, it will follow in karmic patterns like above. However your dreams are denoting otherwise which is showing your growth in your self-relationship. In laymans terms, listen to your inner knowing.
Release. Cut Cords with this situation and listen to your heart. 

love <3

Everything is off

i agree with everything you say. for months ive been subconsciously looking forward the full moon on the 29th but i dont know why. everything is changing. my sleep is off, my diet is off, and my energy has been off. 

— radicaldaydream-er everything is off i believe because we’re dramatically shifting, everything feels almost floaty some days too doesn’t it?   It’s as if everything of the old you is fighting to be released.  trouble sleeping, waking up at odd hours of the night restlessness as if something is going to happen thoughts racing as you shift between past and future while wanting to stay present. No appetite then suddenly crazy hungry It’s like part of me can no longer concentrate on the old things, like school right now is soooo hard for me. Everytime i go to write or read some homework, my mind will do anything BUT actually comprehend what i’m reading or fight to do anything but write that paper. It’s sooooooo weird. I’ve never been this restless before, i just feel like a crazy person who’s obsessed with ascension and wants to think of nothing else lol  I have a feeling this full moon will bring a lot of changes but i was also thinking about 11.11 which was my own awakening anniversary, what if another group of people is coming in? what if 11.11 is a mass awakening or another huge awakening shift for humanity or just in general another group of people like us? OR it’s something to do with the elections….which is also around the same time. I don’t know the structures are starting to break all around us. It really reminds me of the 10 of swords and the card of the tower.

It’s really like nothing makes sense anymore but at the same time everything does… We’re literally being flipped in the air right now lol

I send my best <3 Ash 

Hi Ash,so I’ve been having a lot of strange things happen to me recently; a lot of strange things have happened to me since I was a child, but I digress. So I’ve been seeing light come from people and stop, then seconds later that person will go where that light went. It’s like I’m watching consciousness enter the mind and be processed and evaluated before the person even grasps it. I see a rainbow of color from the corner of my eyes. I know when people are looking for me and where they are. I break down in tears for no reason. My chest (over my heart) hurts almost constantly. It’s hard to be around people for a long time. Also during meditation, it was as though the sun had shone in my eyes, even though they were closed. All attempts to describe that experience, greatly fall short of how amazingly beautiful it was. I can help but feel drawn to your posts, I feel profoundly alone. If you can suggest anything to read or anything that you think would be helpful I would greatly appreciate it. 
Thank you for everything Ash.
<3 love you.

— youcantfindus

ou sound immensely sensitive to energy and the spiritual awakening is happening to you which is why you’re starting to experience these things at a faster rate in time. We’re in a very strange shift right now, our memories are returning and with that comes old old old ablitites and innate language that comes natural to us. This is what you are seeing in others, that light is just like you described energy/consciousness perhaps energy processing new information or energy leaving or entering their body due to shift. The fact that you are seeing this type of thing also is the symbolic reflection of yourself, don’t forget. So you’re seeing energy enter and process in people, which means it is probably also happening for yourself. The Rainbow of Color in your perpherial vision is another sign to me that you are very much awakening, rainbow is a sign of the healer, it is also the sign of kundalini energy being raised and also the sign of the spectrum of light based frequency. Some people can have more dominant colored auras because this is the frequency that they work with but their are others who have rainbow as healers. The chest pain is usually due to teh heart opening and closing, we’ve been a crazy heart shift for about a month or so this is very apparent to me. I also recommend if it doesn’t go away to get checked out just in case, health comes first. But usually it is a heart chakra shift, it means the heart is opening more and more as it releases the pain surfaces and manifests into the physical. The meditation experience is probably you tapping into solar energy, we can easily do that unconsciously, the people who get addicted to sunbathing? yeah they are basically tapping into solar energy, it’s a very powerful, euphoric, blissful energy it’s very peaceful since why people get addicted to that and sungazing. It’s generally safe but it’s also best in moderation like all things. 

As for books to read, truthfully the best book to read in this case is looking into your inner mind and looking more inward in general this will always be the best place for answers. more than any book. any movie. any tv show. any anything the best place for answers is in the most obvious spot and never leaves your side. Your mind is always the best guru you could possible ask for because it shows your true infinite potential. If i were to mention a book i would say maybe find one on energy reading or look into carl jung’s work Man and his symbols. He talks a lot about archetypes and how they influence the mind. Energy wise i love Cyndi Dale’s the subtle body: an Encyclopedia of your energetic anatomy. She has  A LOT on frequencies, auras, energy reading and the different cultural practices of healing and inner medicine. Ultimately the best direction is always following your intuition because the intuition is the gps to the soul :)

Hope this helps you on your way

love <3