I cried so hard on the way to school today while reading this. Might make a part 2 later

To the artists...I hope you will note that I did not blur or crop your name. I thought these were beautiful and I will gladly give you credit.

I’m so sorry I loved you for so long. I’m so sorry I kept trying to hold onto you when it was obvious that you didn’t want me in your life anymore. All you wanted was to be set free and I think I have finally learned to let you go. Not because I want to, but because you’re happy without me. And all I ever wanted was to make you happy.

Ok so if you dont know already there are rumors of Zayn possibly coming back to the band. Rumors are he was made to leave the band as a publicity stunt. So i did a little research.
This is what I found:

The Facebook post about Zayn leaving was deleted

Zayns profile is back up on the Official 1D website

Simon said he had an announcement 

They used Zayn’s pic for their next show in Denmark

Google updated the ‘One Direction’ and added Zayn back

Naughty boy tweeted this, which is basically saying ‘look how far i’ve got you and now you decide to leave’ (Not that Naughty Boy did any good for him anyway)

Then he tweeted this, this basically says that he knows Zayn wont stay with him but he wants him to

#ZaynIsComingBack has been trending all day

Note:  This isnt a solid fact and has not yet been confirmed, i feel as if these things forshadow Zayn returning

Paps: “So Zayn, have you bought the new One Direction album yet?” Zayn: “Wot? *scoff* No, I haven— *trips* *thousands of the special edition Louis MITAM album covers fall out of his coat* Fook, these aren’t mine i swear! *sweating* i-i’m just holding them for a friend, i- *slips on a pile of albums* fu ck no, it’s not even a good alb- *more albums fall out as he falls to his knees, desperately trying to pick them up* WELL FOOK. hang on a sec, just listen—LISTEN To wot I’m sayin.”

He will decide to stop loving you.
When he does, do not let him see your tears.
Don’t fall apart in front of him; act as if you are unaffected.
Leave quietly, carefully, without looking back.
Listen, baby, it’s going to hurt,
and you’re going to cry yourself to sleep for months.
Your chest will feel like it’s caving in, God, it’ll hurt.
Pick yourself up and keep going. Love like you have never been hurt.
—  When he leaves 

i can’t believe you have fallen out of love with me so easily

how have you forgotten?

remember that one winter night, drinking tea on your front porch after our first date? it was late and we were sleepy but our hearts were wide awake. i knew i had found something so special that night.

remember holding hands underneath the table at dinner? not because we wanted to show off our love to everyone, but simply because we wanted to be as close as possible to each other? we just needed to be touching, in the most innocent sense.

remember the night we sat by the lake? i held you while you cried. i was the first person who ever saw you cry, remember? remember when i told you i would never leave, that i was in it for the long run? i would’ve kept that promise forever if it was up to me.

remember the first time i let you touch me? i was so nervous i nearly cried but you kissed every inch of my body and made it all go away. you never asked anything of me. you only wanted to show me how much you loved me.

remember the phone calls? i don’t even remember what we talked about.. but i guess we never needed to talk. i just needed to know that you were on the other end of the phone. i needed to fall asleep to your breathing.

remember the way we used to look at each other? god, please, if you forget every memory we’ve ever shared… please don’t forget the way we used to look at each other. you never needed to tell me you loved me. all you had to do was look at me. i felt it radiate through my body.

i’m sorry we didn’t last. i’m sorry you couldn’t stay. i thought we’d have more time because god, were you good at pretending you’d be able to love me forever.

—  i think i’ll miss you every day 

“My life with One Direction has been more than I could ever have imagined. But, after five years, I feel like it is now the right time for me to leave the band. I’d like to apologise to the fans if I’ve let anyone down, but I have to do what feels right in my heart. I am leaving because I want to be a normal 22-year-old who is able to relax and have some private time out of the spotlight. I know I have four friends for life in Louis, Liam, Harry and Niall. I know they will continue to be the best band in the world.”


no no no no no no