1. Somebody To Die For- Hurts 2.Weathered- Jack Garratt 3.Reforget- Lauv 4.5AM - Amber Run 5.Silhouette- Aquilo 6. Come Back For Me- Jaymes Young 7. Howl - Florence And The Machine 8.One Way Or Another- Until The Ribbon Breaks 9. Stripped- Shiny Toy Guns 10. Between The Bars- The Civil Wars
A/N: Okay lovelies I just want to make it clear if you didn’t see my post earlier, Insoo calls the boys hyung because she was raised as a boy in the military for the last 100 years. Since she is so used to it she continues to call every older man hyung even though it is not right which is why EXO was so confused by it. I hope this clears everything up for you lovelies!
Half of the table is on
their feet, low growls come from deep in their chests, sending me sinking into
my seat. My face burns with embarrassment at Chanyeol’s question, I find myself
hiding me face in my hands, thankful that no one is really paying attention to
me but focusing all of their rage at the giant on the other side of the table.
I have been dreading this question, secretly praying they wouldn’t even think
to ask but of course they did, they must be curious.
“Chanyeol,” Head alpha snarls, “Out.”
The tall boy gulps as he stands from his seat
and shuffles towards the back yard where I’m guessing he will transform and sit
outside for his punishment. I feel a little guilty, he is just curious, he
doesn’t deserve to be punished for that. In a quick decision I jump up from my
seat to defend him.
“Wait Hyung, it’s okay, I understand that you
want to know.”
Kris shakes his head, “We all discussed this,
you don’t have to explain anything you are not ready to say. Chanyeol knows
that we wanted to wait before we asked personal questions like that.”
“You guys don’t have to wait to ask anything,”
I reassure. “You guys are my mates, you are going to learn about these things
no matter what, and they are going to be embarrassing to admit no matter what
so might as well get all of those things out of the way now.”
“Are you sure?” Minseok rests his hand on my
shoulder, his gaze much softer.
I nod, “Yes, there shouldn’t be any secrets,
“Yes but since I can imagine this will be
followed by even more questions can we wait for the answer until you are done
eating?” Kris pushes my half eaten plate of food closer.
The table nods.
“Are there any questions you would like to ask
us?” Luhan wonders.
“Um…” I think for a moment, “From the way Kris
hyung was dressed yesterday, I take it you guys have jobs? What do you do?”
Kris is the one who responds, “We shadow run a
few companies and business that are under our family name.”
I cock my head in confusion, “Shadow run?”
“We have a family that serves us be the face of
the company since we don’t age. We are the ones who do the paper work, approve
everything and other things, they just get to sit in the office with the title.”
“But we all still work in the company, just at
lower levels to make sure things are running good,” Yixing ads on.
“So what will I do when you all go to work? How
long do you work for? I mean I can get along fine I just,” I pause, debating if
I want to sound as desperate as I imagine I do.
Yixing catches on to my struggle and tries to
help, “You don’t want to be alone?”
“No need to be shy about that Love,” Luhan coos
sweetly from across the table. “We don’t want to leave you either.”
I push my plate away with the last large bite
of food stuffed in my mouth. A silent signal that I’m done. They all watch me
with amusement as I struggle to finish the massive bite. I give them a big
smile when I’m done, “That was the most delicious meal I’ve ever had in my
life, thank you so much Hyung!”
“Are you sure you are full?” Yixing questions
as he pats my head.
“I’m full. I want to answer anymore questions you
have for me as soon as possible. I don’t want worry to be weighing down on your
minds like I know it is right now. So to answer you question,” I take a deep
breath to try and calm my racing heart and ease the burning in my cheeks. “I
would have to handle it by myself. Jin or Namjoon hyung would lie to our
superiors that we had a lead about some group of powerful alphas so we could
leave base. When we were far enough away from everyone they would send me off
to a cave with some previsions and I would um, take care of myself for that
Suho grimaces, “Did they leave you out there by
yourself while in heat? What if some wolves came along and caught your scent?”
“Jin hyung stayed close by but Namjoon hyung
had to take the others farther away so they wouldn’t feel tempted to come after
“What about when your pack members would be in
“Whenever a solider was in rut they would kick
him out of camp until he could handle himself. Kookie was the only one who ever
actually tried to do anything to me and he stopped the moment he realized what
he was doing.”
Kai snarls, “What the hell did the little punk
“He crossed a line and I made sure to let him
know. The rest of the pack gave him hell so you have nothing to worry about.”
“But you do,” Chen hums with an amused smile,
“One of your mates will be going into rut here soon and the rest of usually
Again the room goes silent, my face is burning
with embarrassment, “Really? How soon is soon?”
“Chen,” Kris warns.
“What Hyung?” Chen fakes innocent, “Embarrassed
to talk about your rut? It’s a completely normal thing that you have gone
through before, but this will be your first time with a mate. Don’t tell me
your aren’t excited. I’m over the moon at the thought.”
The room fills with strong alpha pheromones
that have me sinking into my seat. Kris is on his feet, his eyes a brilliant
gold, “We need to go for a run, now, apparently everyone has too much energy.
Everyone out!” The group of men quickly pushes away from the table and rush
towards the back doors that lead to the forest. Kris is the last one, his hands
are gripping the table, eyes closed tightly for a moment while he tries to rein
in his wolf. When he opens his eyes again they are their usual brown. “I am
sorry about that.”
“These are things we need to talk about, no
need to apologize. Now go for your run, I’ll be fine here.” I try to wave him
away but he shakes his head.
“You haven’t transformed into a wolf for a long
time, this would be a good time to do it.”
“I can’t control myself very well when I’m like
that, I don’t want to do something wrong.”
He chuckles, “You won’t do anything wrong, plus
don’t you want to show us your wolf? I’m dying to see what you look like. I bet
the rest of the pack is too.” He holds a hand out to me that I quickly accept
not wanting to keep all the others waiting. “You can take off your clothes in
here so come out when you are ready okay?”
I want to disagree again but I close my mouth
when I see the stern look on his face. He gives me a smile before walking the
way the rest of them went, leaving me alone to transform. I sigh, it has been
so long since I’ve transformed and I’m actually scared of how I’m going to do
once I step on the snow-covered ground. But a small howl comes from the living
room and I know it’s them telling me to come. I slowly begin sheading Yixing’s
clothes and for a minute I just stand there with my arms wrapped around my
trembling body. My chests rises and falls as I take long deep breaths, relaxing
as much as I can.
I grunt when I feel my bones start t contort,
my shoulders go back before shifting legs send me forward on all fours. A snarl
leaves my chest as my bones begin to crack before snapping back into place. It
doesn’t hurt like the first time I transformed but it isn’t the most pleasant feeling
now either. My fur pours out of my pores until I’m completely covered sandy
colored hair. I can’t hold in the howl that rips threw my lungs and fills the
My ears ring as the world buzzes around me. It
has been so long since my senses have been this sensitive. It is strange
walking on all fours again after so long, I don’t imagine I look very graceful
as stumble into the living room and out on to the patio but they are looking at
me with the golden eyes I suddenly feel beautiful. My omega status is obvious
in my wolf form, I have never been so thankful for the military’s rule against
transforming. There is only so much I can hide. Being half the size of an alpha
that isn’t something I can hide. Kris tires to approach me but Chanyeol happily
hops in the way, making the head alpha growl. Chanyeol sniffs the air around me
before going straight for my neck. I jump back surprised by his sudden attack.
That’s all it takes to have the others rushing
over and tackling the other to the ground. Yixing comes in between me and the
fight breaking out, a small whine of concern comes from the sweet man. He leans
down so we are nose to nose, I lick his nose softly to let him know I’m okay,
just surprised. I happily nuzzles into his neck breathing in his sweet scent
when another wolf appears next to me. Kyungsoo is there glaring at the older,
obviously upset with our closeness.
Kris comes over to defuse the situation pushing
both boys away. I don’t know what he says to them through their pack bond but
they part like the red sea. Head alpha nudges me forward into the snow, I know
he wants to have fun in my wolf form but I already feel the urge to run when I
see the massive forest at the edge of the field. But when he pushes me forward
again I quickly follow his orders and my urges. Without anymore persuasion I
shoot past all of them straight to the forest. Apparently that is not what Kris
wanted because the next thing I know they are running after me, their snarls
echoing through the forest. Of course they can easily catch up to me but not
before I catch the scent of my pack near by. I didn’t think I could reach this
far so quickly but apparently I am a lot faster than I thought.
Jiminie! Taetae! Hobi! Hyungs! I scream gleefully, briefly forgetting the
group of alphas only feet behind me. The idea of showing them I transformed has
me smiling in my mind but that smile is quickly wiped away when someone tackles
me. I roll on to my back to see Kai leering over me his teeth bared. My heart
stops and I let out a small whimper. Out of nowhere a black wolf takes Kai
down, they roll together, nipping at each others throats, Jongin manages to get
on top of the younger wolf
My pup whines when the older bites down on his
throat, his hind legs kicking in a panic. I rush over and try to push Jongin
off but he’s too strong for me. The others only watch with a bit of
satisfaction in their eyes that makes me snarl. Without hesitation I bite
Jongin’s leg, he jumps but doesn’t move away, from Kookie whine I think he
actually bites harder. A second later my thought is confirmed when the smell of
Jungkook’s blond enters my nostrils. I jump at Jongin again and again but he
won’t budge. Kookie’s whines become more frantic, our pack must hear us. They
come rushing into the forest in their human form.
“What the hell is going on?” Namjoon roars, my
pack bare their teeth at the site of Jungkook on his back and me whining in
The black dragons return the action. Kris comes
forward with obvious irritation in his eyes. I look to Namjoon, begging him
with my eyes to help Kookie.
“Get off our pup!” Jin commands.
I scratch at his side gently hoping it might
work but when his eyes flick to me they are still red. I do it again and again
my whines becoming more and more desperate. But he continues to ignore me.
“Are you trying to make her hate you?” Yoongi
snaps, “That pup matters more to her than all of you combined!”
Wrong thing to say. Jungkook screams, I charge
at Jongin one last time but fail. With no other choice I transform, ready to
beg of his life if that’s what it takes. On my knees my legs are buried in the
snow, my whole body bared but I don’t care. My fingers tangle in Jongin’s fur,
I rest my forehead on his rib cage and beg, “Please stop. Please don’t kill my
pup. I can’t loose anymore of my family.” Tears are streaming down my face, my
body is trembling from the cold and the small cries vibrating in my chest.
“You idiot! It’s fucking freezing! You can’t
transform!” Jin tries to run to me but half of my mates get in between us,
Yixing wraps himself around me to keep the cold at bay but I push him away.
Glaring over my shoulder I snap, “Now you want
His mouth opens as if he is trying to say
something but it snaps closed when his eyes scan my back. Scars, so many scars
from punishments and raids gone wrong. Is he just noticing them now? I look
back to Jongin and gently tug on his fur.
“Hyung please,” I mumble softly. He releases
Jungkook’s throat, he slowly steps away allowing me to collapse on top of my
pup. I rest my head on his chest and let out a sigh of relief. “I thought you
were going to die,” I admit quietly. Kookie rolls over, a small whine escaping
his muzzle. Our press our forehead together, “I know I said I would never beg
but I was so scared. I can’t loose you Kookie, I can’t let you die because of
“Insoo what the hell is going on?” Namjoon
“I’m sorry Hyung, I got excited when I
transformed and rushed here to show you guys because I got so excited.”
“But what’s with all the hostility?” Hobi
“I’m not sure,” I confess. “Jongin hyung
tackled me and Kookie came to try and save me and things just got so messy.”
“Can you get out of the way before she fucking
freezes?” Jin spits. He must have ran inside quick. In his arms are some of my
clothes that my mates will probably not approve of because of the scent. But
right now I couldn’t care less. I stand up and walk past my mates to Jin. I
happily accept the clothes, noticing the intense atmosphere when my mates
notice the scars on my back. I throw on the long sleeve shirt and pull on the
wore out pair of jeans. Jin nicely helps me with my boots and jacket. “There
“Thank you Hyung.”
“Now you should get going,” He pats my head.
I curse, “What? You expect me to go back with
them after that?”
“They probably thought you were coming to run
off with us or something. Go home and talk.”
“Insoo,” He warns. “You can’t expect this to be
simple. This is going to take a lot of work. If you expect them to understand
you, you have to understand that they are going to be possessive.”
“But I want to be with you guys!”
“Tomorrow, okay? We can spend time together
tomorrow okay?” He pulls me into a hug. “I know this is hard but you have no
idea how hard it would be to be a part from them. Plus they saw your back they
are going to be concerned.”
I sigh but turn around. Kookie runs up to me
and licks my cheek, I pat his head with a smile, “See you tomorrow pup. Stop
causing trouble.” I walk closer to my mates and try to pick who I hate the
least at the moment. Yixing, Kris, and Jongin, can go fuck themselves right
now. None of them helped so it’s hard to decide. Jongdae is staring at me with
big eyes that draw me towards him, “Jongdae hyung, can I ride on your back?”
“I don’t want to talk about it right now,” I
end with a firm glare directed at the doe eyed man who asked.
Luhan frowns, “I know you are upset with us
right now but we want you to be able to talk to us even if we are in a bad
spot. Insoo you have scars all over your body, what are they from?”
I groan, “They are from years of abuse and
torture in a slave army, what do you think they are from?”
“Insoo,” Kris warns.
“I’m sorry, am I being insensitive? I imagine
it’s really hard to think about all the things that could have happened, I have
no idea what it must be like to think about things like that. It’s not like I
had to go through it.”
“You need to go cool down,” Kris commands.
“Oh really? Are you going to make me?”
“I don’t want to make you but if I have to I
I scoff, “You really think you can make me?”
He grabs my hand and pulls me along. We leave
the others behind, they huff and mumble to each other about me and I’m guessing
about what could happened to me to get so many scars. Kris doesn’t say anything
as he drags me up the stairs and to the door all the way at the end of the
hall. I don’t put up much of a fight when he throws me inside and stomps into
the closet. He emerges with a t-shirt in his hand that he tosses at me.
He growls, “I am going to talk with my pack. I
want to be out of those stinky clothes by the time I get back.”
“You can’t talk to me like that! I am not some
pathetic omega you can just order around!.”
“I am speaking to you the same way I speak to any
other disobedient alpha. Regardless of the fact you are my mate I will not let
you disrespect my pack like that. This not how I want to talk to my mate but
you are leaving me no option.”
“You guys attacked my pack today!”
“Because we were all horrified that they were
trying to runaway with you.”
“I told you I didn’t want to go for a run! I
told you I would do something wrong but you assured me there is nothing I could
He is silent for a minute, “I’m sorry for
raising me voice and speaking so rudely to you.”
“I’m sorry for snapping.”
“I really need to talk to the others so can you
please change out of those clothes? I’ll be back in a little while.” He turns
on his heel and leaves. I stare at the shirt in my hand before pulling off my
clothes like an upset child. The shirt is like a dress on me, I grumble to
myself about finding some pants but I really don’t want to go digging through
things and start another fight. I eye up his bed for a minute before crawling
on to it. It smells like firewood a scent that warms my insides. I bury myself
in the blankets and pillows hoping if I dig deep enough I’ll just disappear.
God I made such a mess. I should have
controlled my wolf and my mouth better. How could I let things get so out of
control? Kookie could have died today. My mates don’t trust me and pretty much
hate me right now. Did they really think I was just going to run? Do they
really think that little of me? I want to scream and cry but all I can do
burrow deeper into Kris’s scent. Maybe this will be better when I wake up.
I can only hope.
I’m so sorry if this sucks, I’m half asleep and
wanted to finish this while I still have the determination!
LIKE MY FATHER’S COME TO PASS: “Wake Me Up When September Ends”
I told myself I wasn’t going to write about grief in this letter, and especially not the first one. But grief is selfish and greedy and its worst quality is the way it makes you like to it. I have been trying to find a way to write around the hole my father left in my life since the day he died. I have been looking for words that would come without forcing me to confront a howling absence. They haven’t come. Loss is like a black hole, and until you deal with it it will exercise the same level of gravity upon you as a black hole does until you are crushed within it. I said that I look to letters to find honesty. Well, here is my honest truth: it hurts. It hurts so much that I am scared to look it in the face, still, even now.
I still don’t know who I am, this new, wilder beast rubbed raw against the edges of death’s implacable brutality.
I wrote these words over two years ago now, but they are as true today as they were then. Grief makes you strange to yourself. Grief re-orders your entire fucking world, and all it takes is an instant.
My father is dead. My father is dead. Six years have gone so fast and my father is still dead and he is always going to be dead, now, and I have no real better idea of how to deal with it than I did the day the call came and I broke a mug across the floor of my tiny London kitchen.
Billie Joe wrote this song about his father, who he lost even sooner than I lost mine. There’s no ordering of grief, no claim to a greater portion of it because your tragedy is somehow bigger or worse; we are all swallowed up in the force of it when it comes. But I got more time with my dad than Billie Joe did with his, at least. I am grateful for that.
What is grief? I have dedicated years of my life and considerable amounts of academic focus to that question. It’s not one that can be answered rationally, aside from “the yearning for something that is not there, will never be there again,” and that is not, will never be enough to explain the tiniest fraction of all that grief is, all that it does.
To turn to poetry, and music:
Sappho says in the house of song there shall be no mourning, but all song is mourning. All shapes reflect absence; I have collected all the bits of soap, every trace that can still float, and strung them from the rafters. I am here with my flesh and my thoughts, trying to let go of you.
- Sina Queyras, from MxT
It took less than a year after my father’s death for people - well-meaning, kind people, who just wanted to see me get “better” - to start to ask me, gently, hesitantly, if maybe I needed to get over it. “Let go,” is the phrase they used.
But you don’t “get better” from grief, just like your loved one will never (unless they are a comic book character, I suppose) “get better” from death. Despite what our current, western, self-help and power-of-positive-thinking culture might like to believe, there are some things in life that simply can’t be fixed. Grief is one of them. The only thing you can do with grief is carry it, and learn how to live with your new weight.
I don’t know how to let go, anyways, not properly (David Foster Wallace: Everything I have ever let go of has claw marks on it.) and I wouldn’t even if I could. It would mean letting go of my father, too. Billie Joe, I think, understands this: Drenched in my pain again / Becoming who we are / As my memory rests / But never forgets what I lost / Wake me up when September ends.
Sara Ahmed, from The Cultural Politics of Emotion
When you suffer loss, the feeling isn’t actually of something going away from you; rather, it becomes something you have to carry with you - forever. You can’t fix it, you can’t get over it - because the only thing that would do so is the one thing that you cannot get back again, whether that be a person or a relationship or a stage of life or an innocence. Trauma recurs; we know this. It returns to you again and again and makes you relive it. Why are we so hesitant to admit that grief acts in a similar way?
It comes down, I think, to our cultural fear of death. To grieve, openly, publicly, is to remind yourself and everyone else that we, too, will die. Any mention of death, in our culture, is a memento mori, and we do not want it. This is, aside from the somewhat clumsy political statement, why I think the official video for this song is something so unrelated to what the song is actually about. It’s a narrative that glancingly acknowledges the possibility of death, but does not solidify it - it blinks and looks away at the last second. This is what most people prefer to do.
So what do people like me, or Billie Joe, or others like us, do with the grief we have to carry?
To return to Anne Carson, who I mentioned yesterday:
Grief and rage–you need to contain that, to put a frame around it, where it can play itself out without you or your kin having to die.
from Grief Lessons
Over twenty years after his father died, Billie Joe wrote a song about it. Five years after mine died, I wrote a thesis. We put our separate griefs into the boxes afforded us with the tools we had at our disposal, and we let them play out.
It’s still there, still needs to be held, still heavier some days than others. But almost everything is easier to carry when you have a box to put it in.
Oh…yeah… Namjoon was telling me that I’m a werewolf hybrid and then I fainted. Too much information at once. Things were too strange to not believe him. I felt a rumble underneath me-must have been the bed I was on. It was really soft.
“Mom, should Hobi-hyung be underneath Y/N like that?”
“Well, it’s the only way I can wake her up.”
Warning bells sounded off in my head, and my eyes flew wide open. Only to see a giant wolf face.
Jungkook smiled, “Y/N! You’re okay!”
“Hobi, you might want to…”
I scream, scrambling off the belly of the monster. Then I noticed that the air smelled eerily like wet dog. Looking around, I saw that i was not surrounded by men ( besides Jungkook) but 7 12-foot tall werewolves.
My scream grew even louder as I rushed out of the house.
That did not go well.
Halfway toward my house, I paused to catch my breath. I did not need the neighborhood to think I was a crazy teen running from nothing. I was already the the friendless teen.
I sat on the curb, holding my head between my legs. Being blasted with new information then actually seeing it was enough for me. I could piece the rest together. Dad had been a werewolf and Mom had been human, so that makes me a wolf-human? But werewolves are already shape-shifting humans right?
I started walking again. Walking gives me time to collect my thoughts. I remember something Namjoon said before I passed out:
“Your father did not listen to our warning and married your mother, who was indeed another species of supernatural….”
So does that mean I’m not human at all? Or am I one-fourth human since werewolves are half-human? Regardless I am a hybrid. I wish I had parents to explain this to me, but sadly they died before they could. Well not died, but murdered the same way my grandparents were. But there was one more family member who knew everything.
Aunt Noel. She was still alive and walking. She was the only member alive, and the only member who somehow hated me. Neither her husband nor her spoiled children. But she was the only person I could talk to. I will just have to call her when I get home-if she answers.
I found myself, practically running to the house. This was a chance to finally know another piece about myself and to connect with Noel.
Why hadn’t she told me earlier? She had obviously known about this; she wrote a freaking book based on her “adventures.” Why hadn’t she told me the last time she saw me? Sure, the last time I saw her was in a shopping mall–buying school supplies.
“Y/N, what are you doing here?” I turn around to see my aunt and my cousins. They were each holding a three bags in a hand.
Jinhyun, the daughter my age, snorts, “With what money?”
Jinyoung, the son also my age, snarks, , “ The money she doesn’t have. “
I sigh. I didn’t have time for either of them. The sale is was going to end in one hour and I was only on pens and pencils.
They all laugh as if it were the funniest thing ever. I roll my eyes and try to move to the notebook section. My eyes were on the one with the basket full of puppies.
Noel blocked my advance, “ It’s actually nice that I met you here. I don’t need to go to that bastardly house. Who knows what you have been doing. You might even be waiting for a man here.”
I could just slap her if it wasn’t for the fact that a lady was trying to take my notebook.
“What do you want?”
“ I just wanted to tell you about something I forgot. Your father wanted me to give you a letter.”
I wait for her to give it to me. “And where is it?”
“Oh, it’s in his room, “ She takes a moment to think, “In a shoebox. Good luck finding it. “ She, Jinyoung, and Jihyun walk out the store. However, Taehyun stays behind. She was the quietest of her siblings and takes pity on me whenever they pulled a prank.
I ignore her and continue to sift through notebooks–the puppy basket was gone. I felt someone move behind me. It was her.
“I saw you looking at this while Mom was talking and I grabbed it before that lady did,” she hands the puppy basket notebook to me.
I eagerly take it, “Thank you. “
She stares at me before saying, “ Mom won’t tell you this but… You’re really special to our family. If you ever want to know what I mean, I can… I can help you. “ And with that, she hurriedly catches up with her mom and siblings.
I had never spoken to her or my aunt since then. I was too afraid of learning I was adopted or something. But now, I desperately needed answers. I was either getting them from Aunt Noel or Taehyun.
Opening the door to my house, the hairs on my neck stood up. Something had changed. Did someone come fix the air conditioner? It had been broken and the house had been a desert. Usually they left a note, but the guy they sent must have been lazy.
Even so, I grabbed the bat I keep near the door and turn on the lights. I walked towards the kitchen, since it’s the place thieves steal from first. Nothing. Until I rounded the island. There was a huge glob of my peanut butter, bread, and bananas on the floor. I stared at the mess for a long time. That was my favorite peanut butter, for one, and they didn’t bother to clean up the mess. How rude.
Spinning around, I see a shadow run up the stairs. Every sense in me told me to not run up the stairs, but curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back. I tiptoed up the stairs making sure not to step on creaks. It was dark in the hallway but the light to my parents room was on. I lifted my bat ready to swing if I needed to. Steadily toeing my way though, I listened for the tell-tale noises of an intruder. The room was silent as it normally is. I had never stepped into this room before now; I abandoned this room when my parents died. I didn’t need the memories.
I let my bat drop loosely, and sighed. Maybe it had been my imagination. Turning around to walk out, I banged my head on a wall. A furry wall. A breathy growling furry wall.
The wolf launched its snarling mouth at me, but I used the bat to keep it open while I ran away. Three stairs down, I heard the bat snap. It was metal, and the wolf had easily broken it. With that thought, I ducked inside the storage closet. I thought about all the ways Teen Wolf and Twilight had written about wolves.
Smell. He probably has a scent of me. I knew there was a bottle of Bleach on the upper shelf. Maybe if i drowned my body in it, I could mask my scent. I reach up for the bottle, unscrewing it, and, holding my breath, doused myself in the foul smelling stuff.
Sound. I had to be as still as not to cause a single sound. How do I do that? I don’t know, but this is life or death and I wanted life.
Sight. More than likely the guy could see in the dark, so if he somehow opened the door, I was screwed.
Tough skin- No knives could help me. Not even silver. I would have been dead a long time ago.
I had to sit quietly. However long that took.
Two hours had passed according to the little clock on the wall, and the wolf had not noticed me yet. He hadn’t left–I could hear him in the kitchen. Probably eating more of my peanut butter.
I could not be a sitting duck any longer. If I only I had a phone, then I could contact Taehyung or Aunt Noel if it needed be. But sadly, I was too stubborn ( and lazy ) to go out and buy a phone. I always used the house phone. I didn’t have friends to call anyway. Plus if I used it, the beast in the kitchen would hear my voice amid his munching.
Wait…. Could I use the mind-talking Jin and Jimin used? Only one way to find out.
Well, I didn’t expect it to work. I don’t have any idea of how to work this. Maybe I don’t even have the stupid thing. Regardless, I tried again.
Jin-oppa! Can you hear me?
Nothing again. What had Jin said? That you have to be in close proximity. Well, I totally couldn’t get close. But what if I pictured Jin or any of the boys in my head? I took a deep breath and focused on any boy. Dark brown hair with a deep tan… Taehyung.
I exhaled. Taehyung?
There was a something that sounded like television static then it connected
Y/N? What’s wrong? How are you doing this?
Don’t worry about that. Is anyone else listening?
Yes. The other guys.
Well… I am kind of stuck in a situation.
There’s sort of a man-eating werewolf in my kitchen eating my peanut butter.
The connection was cut short. Only because the door of the closet flew open. A man’s hands grabbed me by the collar. I squeaked.
“Did you think you could hide forever? I smelled you before you poured the bleach on you. I just wanted to tease you,” Wolf-man growled into my ear. “By the way, you have great taste in peanut butter.”
I kicked him in the place where it hurts the most. He was momentarily shocked but that’s all I needed to wiggle out of his arms and run. I was halfway down the driveway when Wolf-man came bounding after me. He springs up, his teeth bared, but I dive to the side. I threw a stick at him… It didn’t work. Miffed, Wolf-man roars and charges. I would have been killed if it wasn’t for another wolf crashing into Wolf-man, knocking him through the doorway.
That’s the least of your problems right now Y/N.
It was Namjoon’s voice-thought. Behind me, I hear six other howls. They had come for me… Taehyung had listened… They had listened…
A midnight blue wolf with scarlet eyes pushes against me with his snout. It’s best if you go to our house. It was Yoongi.
I nod. I could only guess what was going to happen to mine. A deep chestnut wolf with the same colored eyes lets me get on top of him. It’s ok. I will try and salvage some of your things. Jin.
“give me prompts so I don’t just draw nothing but clowns,” I said to the internet. “DRAW MIMES” comes howling back @ me from the void. OK
Figured I would design a few minor characters from Killjoys, then, starting with this guy! He’s Marcela’s adopted son by her 5th husband. That dude met a…mysterious…end, but despite Marcela’s pretty obvious hand in the matter, Fleur adores her and is strikingly loyal to his mom. He’s not really cut out for the rougher side of the family business so he helps out as a personal assistant for Marcy and Cath.
It was unseasonably cold that day. I remember it well. I had hiked that trail many times before in all weather and felt no danger nor indeed anything out of the ordinary. Halfway up the mountain, it began to snow. Slowly at first then with increasing intensity, until it was a full white out. I could see nothing of the trail. All of the familiar landmarks were obscured by the swirling blizzard. The wind was howling like a living creature and the snow was coming at me sidewise. I needed to do something and to do something fast.
I burrowed into a snowbank first down then upward. This was to make the entrance lower so the warm air would stay in the cave. I made a round chamber and packed the sides and ceiling down firmly and then sealed it by melting the surface with my lighter so that when it re-froze it made a tight seal. I put spruce boughs down on the floor and then put my Sterno can in the center. I made sure that there was plenty of ventilation to prevent asphyxiation.
Night closed in. I heard the howling of the wind increase as darkness fell muffled now by the three feet of snow above me. I could see the light dim though the opalescent surface of my little cave. I wrapped myself in a blanket and then slipped inside a Mylar emergency sleeping bag. The mylar did a good job of keeping the warm air trapped inside and the warm woolen blanket kept me snug. Through most of the night, I lit the Sterno and warmed up then extinguished it to conserve fuel.
I was warm and content. I wondered if this was because I was freezing to death or if I was really warm. In my exhausted state, I decided that it didn’t matter one way or the other. I fought to stay awake. I was so tired my eyes just wouldn’t stay open. Then, I drifted off to sleep and my last waking thought was “I wonder if this is the end?”
It wasn’t. I don’t know how long I slept but it was nearly noon when I woke. The wind was no longer blowing. The sun was shining and I was alive. I must admit I was a little surprised. I was alive and well. I warmed my hands and mittens and poked my head out of the cave. The landscape was transformed by several feet of fresh snow. It was beautiful. I was alive, the sun was shining and all was right with the world. I reached my cabin just as the sun was setting. I was home.