Today is April 20th, 2017.
18 years ago today you two showed the world how you really felt. You took 13 innocent lives, followed by taking your own. There’s a lot I wish I could say, there’s a lot I wish i could express but I’m simply still speechless. I’m so sorry you boys suffered so much, I’m so sorry that you were filled with so much hate and anger. I just hope you boys are no longer suffering and I hope you are finally happy. I hope you’re Listening to your favorite songs and eating your favorite snacks in peace.
“Goodbye, sorry to everyone … I just can’t take it … all the thoughts … too many … make my head twist … I must have happiness, love, peace. Goodbye”
“no emotions, not caring, yet another stage in this shit life. suicide.”
“Society is tightening its grip on me, & soon I & will snap. We will have our revenge on society, & then be free, to exist in a timeless spaceless place of pure happiness. The purpose of life is to be happy & be with your love who is equally happy. Not much more to say. Goodbye.”
“This is prob. my last entry. I love myself a close second to [redacted] my everlasting love. goodbye.”
“The happiness is close, visible ending, end of the beginning of the halcyons.”
“Time to die, time to be free, time to love.”
“Today is the day I die!” Woooo!“
April 20, 1999 - April 20, 2014
15 years later on the earth plane, and on this day, we hope you have found that reprieve, Dylan. That ‘PEACE’ that you so craved to end your earthly infinite struggle. Here is hoping that your resurrection into the Halycons and beyond, into your next Existence (whichever door that may be in the Great Hall) is filled with everlasting love, peace and happiness. Absolution from your own self tormentations and forgiveness from the 13 victims of whom you projected your earthly pain and suffering on to. This day falling upon a date of resurrection is in many ways a bit like a phoenix rising from the ashes - for all fifteen, for their families and extended families and everyone else who have been affected by this tragedy in their own ways, like a multitude of ripples on a unfathomably large body of water. Peace out.
(I don’t normally like to post much from the journal, but I’m in a warm n fuzzy mood so..)
Love is more valuable than anything I know. To love is to enter a completion of oneself. I hate those who chose to destroy a love, who take it for granted. love is greater than life even. As i look for love, i feel i can’t find it. ever. but something tells me i will. Someday. Somewhere. As my love will find me. She feels as i do right now, i can feel it. We will be inseperable. Her & i. Whether it is her or not, i think i’ll find it (my love). we will be free, to explore the vast wonders of the stars. To cascade down everlong waterfalls, & thru the warmest seas of pure happiness….no limits…no limits. Nothing will stop us.