cognitive disfunction

Yah know?

All of my symptoms suck butt respectively on their own but the one that tops the charts for me is the cognitive disfunction (aka brain fog or fibrofog)
I see nonspoonie folk get ahold of brain fog posts sometimes and think they relate but it’s just so much worse and so much more frustrating for everyone than normal brain farts.
I forget important things, I can’t remember common words, I have delayed responses, forget what I’m saying, hearing what someone says but I can’t comprehend average sentences, light headed, hazy, bump into things, trouble navigating and judging distances.
It’s so painfully frustrating for me and it’s even harder when you see the people you interact with getting frustrated with you. They can’t help it and I try so hard but it doesn’t seem to matter. I mean, you don’t have a problem with any of these things normally and then BAM, a flare up hits and all of a sudden it’s like you have the brain capacity of a 6 year old.
I just feel like the equivalent of earwax sometimes.

I have something to confess.

Not only have I had thyroid cancer but I also have several other invisible illnesses.


I have a learning disability/cognitive dysfunction.

What does this mean? This means that I don’t function like the rest of you.

This means I am easily distracted. This means that even though I have the answer it may take me a moment to find the words. It means that I am impulsive and impatient. It means that it is hard for me to keep the steps to do something in order. It means that I have trouble in math. It means that I can’t spell. It means that my grammar isn’t always the best. It means that I can come off as stupid. It means a lot of different things.

But it doesn’t mean that I am stupid. It means that I have to be different, that I have to find my own way. Everyone does, but for me it is so much more important to find out how I work the best so that I can use it to my advantage.