“ In between jobs, Sam and Dean would sometimes get a day – sometimes a week, if they were lucky. They’d pass the time lining their pockets. Sam used to insist on honest work, but now he hustles pool, like his brother. They could go anywhere and do anything. They drove 1,000 miles for an Ozzy show, two days for a Jayhawks game. And when it was clear, they’d park her in the middle of nowhere, sit on the hood, and watch the stars… for hours… without saying a word. It never occurred to them that, sure, maybe they never really had a roof and four walls… ”
what if dean used to touch the samulet as almost like a security blanket when he was feeling anxious about something and in the first few days after throwing it away he’d reach for it and realize it’s not there and it's his fucking fault and he’d just have to soldier on without crying
I was looking through caps for a graphic I’m currently editing and I came across this one and it stopped me dead in my tracks.
At first, you can’t help but be overwhelmed by the emotion of this cap. This is Sam finally realizing that Dean is alive–that it’s not some trick. This look is complete and utter disbelief. Maybe Sam thinks he is dreaming, because this can’t be true. You can physically see the many emotions that he is going through, just trying to grasp the fact that Dean is standing in front of him.
And what really just made my heart shatter, was more of what Sam is wearing. You can barely see it, but it’s there. The black rope of the amulet around Sam’s neck. And the immense gravity of what Sam had to go through just completely hits home. The fact that Sam had to pry that necklace off his Brother’s lifeless and bloodied body in order to keep it just speaks multitudes of what that necklace truly means to Sam. Because if he truly only kept it, to give back to Dean–it makes no sense, because Dean would have come back with it already.
Sam kept it, because it symbolizes everything about how he feels about his Brother. It’s one of the most precious things in the entire world, to Sam. And then we must think back to when Dean threw it away. And we need to realize just what that meant to Sam; how that completely and utterly devastated him.
It’s no wonder we were faced with the Sam we saw in The Sacrifice.It had truly been a longtime in the making.