THIS IS IMPORTANT TO UNDERSTANDING THIS COMIC: this is part of a serious autobio series I started months back to document my gender transition. These took place months ago.
August 21, 2016. Small moments through the day. Going through old clothes to get rid of brought back tons of memories, leading me down memory lane. I was still dealing with self-acceptance, feeling distanced from the life I had lived before.
Like, despite how awful life was pretransition, at least it felt simpler, easier. Then I went shopping to fill my closet with clothes to make new memories in. :)
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She manages about three t-shirts, an extra pair of jeans and underwear, a box of treasures she’s been keeping since she was five years old, a tin containing about $130 she’d saved over the years, and the journal she had started keeping this past year. She tries to gather more - memories, clothes, whatever - but her father stands in the doorway, arms folded, snarl permanently in place. She can’t bear be under his gaze anymore, so she leaves.
She can hear her mother crying from the kitchen as she walks out the front door. Her bag is heavy on her back, and she can feel the whispered gossip of her neighbours follow her down the street.
She calls her Abuela first, her mom’s mom and winces when she hears words like ‘abomination’ and ‘devil worship’.
Her mom’s sister is the same. How dare you call here, how dare you put your parents through this.
Issy is her last hope. Her father’s baby sister, only ten years older than Maggie. Issy had managed to escape Blue Springs when she was eighteen, and had not once looked back.
But Issy drives the two hours from Omaha to pick up Maggie. She calls Maggie’s school and explains the situation and helps get her transferred somewhere closer to where she lives. She’s twenty-four and getting a Masters in Software Engineering and doesn’t have to do anything, but she does. Her two roommates - both also in grad programs - agree to let Maggie live in their spare room without hesitation. Ashe studies law and Bridget studies economics and they both hug Maggie when they first meet her because she’s so small and so sad. They take her to Target and buy her some new clothes and they get a new dresser from Ikea and they try to make sure she’s okay without hovering too much.
Ashe tells Maggie that she’s brave, that she still hasn’t come out to her parents despite the fact she’s in a serious relationship. Bridget tells Maggie that she’ll help her with her homework and beat up anybody who gives her hell at her new school.
And Issy tells Maggie that everything will be okay, that they’ll get through this together.
Maggie keeps her head down at school, stays quiet and does her homework and gets good grades. She doesn’t dare rock the boat or cause trouble, because she just can’t do that to Issy. Issy does the same, works hard and saves money, thinking of nothing but her and Maggie’s future.
When Issy graduates, she manages to get a job at Wayne Technologies, and the two of them move to Gotham City. Maggie is just fifteen and she gets a job to try and help out as much as she can. Issy refuses to take a dime from her. So Maggie learns to cook and clean and she makes sure there’s always a plate of dinner waiting for Issy after a long day at work.
When Maggie brings her first girlfriend home, Issy interrogates her. And when Issy brings home Robbie - the man she’ll one day marry - Maggie does the same.
Their family is just the two of them, but there is more love than they know what to do with.
Issy cries when Maggie graduates as valedictorian of her high school class. She cries when Maggie gets a full-ride scholarship to Gotham University. She cries when Maggie moves out. She never cries over her estranged family, over the hateful things her brother has said to her over the years. Maggie makes her strong.
Maggie cries when Issy tells her she’s pregnant. She cries when Issy and Robbie ask her to be the godmother of their child. She cries when she holds her nephew Beckett for the first time. She only cries once over her estranged parents, and when she does, Issy holds onto her tightly, and doesn’t let go until Maggie is ready.
When Alex Danvers kisses her, the first thing Maggie does is call Issy. They talk for hours, Maggie convinced she’d blown things for good, Issy telling her to have a little faith. And when her and Alex finally become an item, Issy texts Maggie nothing but ‘I told you so’.
When Maggie blasts Alex for ignoring her about Valentine’s Day, she calls Issy in tears, rambling about ‘cards from her mom who just happens to be named Eliza’ and ‘there must be something wrong with me’. Issy waits patiently until she’s done, before telling her that no, nothing’s wrong with her. She went through hell and she survived and nobody can make her feel guilty about that.
And when Maggie brings home Alex a few months later, Robbie reminds Issy not to be too embarrassing or hard on Alex. Issy agrees until she sees just how in love Maggie is, then she pulls out the old year books and laughs over them with Alex. Alex invites Issy and the family to National City for Family Thanksgiving, Issy invites Alex and her family to Gotham for Christmas.
As they leave, Issy pulls Maggie aside and tells her how proud she is, of absolutely everything Maggie has accomplished. She tells her that if anybody deserves the love she’s found in Alex, it’s Maggie. She tells her she loves her and to come home again soon and Maggie grins like an idiot and pulls Issy into a hug.
As far as she’s concerned, Maggie Sawyer has only ever had two homes. One is in Alex Danvers’ embrace. The other is wherever in the world her Aunt Issy is.
Derek goes missing and when Stiles finds him, he’s without his memories. He can’t let Derek out of his sight though. Not now that he’s right there in front of Stiles, within touching distance, for the first time in almost a week. “Derek, please, just let me get you to the loft at least.” “No.” “What do you mean, ‘no’?” “I’ll walk myself into town.” “Sure. But you’re going the wrong way.” Derek furrows his brow and looks along the road. “I suppose… I don’t know which way to go.” His voice is small. “I can’t remember.”
I keep coming back to this - how Sherlock starts to remember his childhood and how Mycroft seems to remember it.
Who does Sherlock see even before he finds out about Eurus? Victor. He does not know it is him but while being drugged he clearly sees a boy his age playing pirates with his younger self. And he also sees Redbeard which is interesting because in the TST memory scene Victor and Redbeard both exist.
But there is more - Sherlock is wearing a yellow sweater and red trousers and a pirate hat.
The same clothes he wears in Mycroft’s memory sequence in TFP. And there is a dog. And a sister. And a big brother. But no Victor.
So why these differences between their memories if we are meant to believe that the memories are from the same day? Why does Mycroft see the dog but not Victor?
No spoilers, you might say, but from TST we knew that there was a boy who could not be Mycroft since he was about Sherlock’s age and stature.
Why are their memories so identical and yet so different?
I didn’t expect people to like this random thing lol the last one had like over 100 notes I’m so happy 😂
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Related songs (in order) :
• Panic! At the Disco - House of Memories
• Panic! At the Disco - Miss Jackson
• Panic! At the Disco - The Ballad of Mona Lisa
• Panic! At the Disco - This is Gospel
• Panic! At the Disco - Emperor’s New Clothes
Pls kindly ignore the mistake on the first picture lmao
Located in Transylvania, this forest is a hot-spot for UFO sightings and unusual activity. It has been called the “Bermuda Triangle” of Romania. According to a local legend the forest is actually named after a shepherd that disappeared in the forest along with his 200 sheep.
The photograph on the right is of a UFO that was taken by Alexandru Sift during a scientific research trip to the forest. Since then many people have reported seeing UFO’s in the area.
There is also a large clearing (left picture) in the forest almost in the shape of a perfect circle. It is termed as a “dead vegetation” zone. Test samples of the soil don’t show any reason why nothing grows there. Some consider it a landing zone for UFOs while others believe the center of the forest is haunted by ghosts and demons. There are stories of people disappearing in the forest and when they come out, they have no memory of what happened. There is a story of a 5 year old girl who disappeared in that forest and was found 5 years later wearing the same clothes with no memory of what had happened.
There is a very interesting documentary you can watch about the forest. It is called Baciu Forest, “a Romanian Bermuda Triangle”