You don’t always say what you want for fear of hurting other people’s feelings. This does little for you, except to build resentment that comes out in unintended, subtle ways. Clearing the path for self-expression is a good practice to get into. Try practicing telling yourself what kind of day you’re going to have in the morning: look straight into the mirror and talk to yourself! This sounds silly, but it works, especially with the current celestial energy at play!
I promise I will be done expressing my anger via other people’s gif art after this. Just let me do this…cause it’s both relieving AND entertaining to me.
I’m going to try to relax now. Thanks to all who created this wonderful art, so that I can use it for artistic expression, rather than leave the house and damage public property somewhere, cause I can’t control my shitty temper.
today’s run was intense.. it was hot and humid, i was dripping, i didn’t run on a clear path, i met a turtle.. the list goes on. but long story short, i wish i could end my run with this feeling every day
God, I know the path I walk each day is not this attractive. But it sure would be nice if it were! Dear God, please send some cheerful cherry blossoms (or something equally as nice) into my life today. Help me be aware of it, and grateful for it. Thanks, God!
Because I Know I'm Good at Something, I Just Haven't Found it Yet
Miserable at Best - Mayday Parade
I am officially a junior. That’s crazy. I don’t know what I want for dinner much less what I want to do with my life. And at this point everyone seems to kind of be finding themselves or in the process of doing so. They’re taking a road trip with a clearly drawn map; I have the car and gas but have to stop to ask directions every few miles. I have no idea where I’m going or where I’m supposed to be going in life. It’s been a very trying year. There have been ups and downs, and I’m surprised I haven’t gotten whiplash.
Reflecting on the year, and my life thus far, I realized I don’t really do anything. A lot of my friends are different types of performers or they can easily show the world what they’re good at. I’m the friend who sits down in the audience with awestruck eyes and claps once everything is finished. Maybe it’s my lack of ability that enables me to appreciate other’s work more. I don’t mind, but it made me realize I don’t do anything where people do that for me… and that’s a really sucky feeling.
And I really have no one to blame but myself. I start things that I never finish, and then what I can do is only passable. I can sort of sing. I can sort of write. I can sort of do a lot of things, but nothing I'm good at. It’s like learning for a language for a year or so, fiddling through the symbols that suddenly start to mean something, then going to the country. You can get there, enjoy yourself, but you really don’t understand what’s going on.
I know I can change this. I know I’m good for something. I have to be. I just haven’t found it yet.