Transition Update #29 (31 weeks on T)
(Please don’t reblog this!)
I met with my nurse practitioner yesterday for a routine checkup and I’m getting my blood tested again, but she told me everything looks fine. I’m staying on my dose of .35mL because I’m comfortable with the rate my changes are happening. I have one dose left in my T vial so I got another one today and found out that my insurance now covers my hormones!!! Which is awesome and I hope it means they’ll help pay for top surgery too.
I also trimmed my beard a bit because it was getting out of control in my opinion. I don’t really want to grow it out. I like it short and maintained, so I got a cheap beard trimmer at CVS and cleaned it up a bit. Left is before and right is after. It’s a subtle change but I like it. I’m also super grateful that this is a problem I have at only a little over 7 months on T.
Last week I spent a lot of time talking about physical changes, and nothing of note has happened in a week, so this time I wanted to talk about emotional changes, because I’ve kind of glossed over those for a while.
I’ve definitely noticed that I’ve been crying less. I used to not be able to have a difficult conversation without crying, and now I’ve had several very calm and neutral. I really, really like this change, partially because it makes me feel more masculine but also that I never liked how easily I cried. I think this is also due to getting the right cocktail of mental health meds (and taking them regularly) and finally getting on the hormones in the first place, but the T is definitely a factor in my mind and my nurse practitioner thinks so too.
In general I’m so much more confident and happier now that I pass. I’m still nervous going into men’s bathrooms, but I’m doing it anyway because I feel I look strange in women’s bathroom now. Every time I get called sir or something like that in public my heart just soars. I sometimes still get misgendered over the phone, but I’m giving my voice time.