city on the edge of forever

Perfect.

When you’re on a plane and you’re listening to your favourite music and you watch all the colours of the sunset transition like a lava lamp until darkness arrives like a blanket. 
When you sleep knowing you love someone and they love you back.
When you’re with friends and you feel things you never thought existed… a fuzzy sense of belonging and meaning you didn’t know you could feel.
Watching the dust swirl in the late afternoon light. 
Climbing into a soft bed, listening to music and sleepily thinking back on good memories from the day. 
Being close to someone that feels like home…You never thought you could love anyone this much. 
Reading something and it’s so real and beautifully written that it changes something in you. 
After you do your skincare and everything feels clean and smells nice.
Laughing so much with someone and for a rare moment, every cell in your body is happy. 
Putting your face into your warm towel after a long shower. 
Seeing someone cute and you briefly fall in love with them. 
When it’s evening and you’re on the balcony looking over the city lights and the stars and the moon seem to smile at you and you feel so insignificant but in a comforting way. 
Looking at someone and thinking “this is why I love them." 
Looking at someone doing normal things and they’re so beautiful you’re lost for words. 
Falling asleep on the car ride home after a long day of adventures. 
The excitement of arriving at the airport in a new city. 
When the sunlight looks nostalgic and it feels like you’re in a happy memory. 
Looking back on cute photographs and being transported back to that day. 
Being excited to see someone and they’re excited to see you too.
Random moments you think to yourself "you have to remember this moment forever." 
When someone does or says something nice and you’re so surprised and thankful and your heart is blushing. 
When you open the curtains in the morning and it’s sunny outside and the light floods into your room.
Misty mornings where the world’s edges are soft and blurred. 
Chewing the sweet pearls in milk tea. 
Going home on a Friday. 
Feeling the breeze on your face and red leaves swirling around you while riding a bike down a boulevard. 
When a song is perfect for your mood and it understands.
Being with someone that makes your heart feel warm, and you finally know what it’s supposed to feel like. 
When you’re lying on the grass watching the clouds and seeing animal shapes in them. 
When you can’t stop thinking about someone. 
Taking the first bite of something delicious and all the flavours and textures mix perfectly.
Wearing your favourite clothes and feeling pretty when you look into the mirror. 
Hugging someone you love and feeling happy inside and safe. 

sometimes i like to remember that kirk said to edith keeler

“let me help. a hundred years or so from now, i believe, a famous novelist will write a classic using that theme. he’ll recommend those three words even over ‘i love you.’”

and in the VERY NEXT EPISODE spock says

“let me help” to kirk

to which kirk replies

“i need you, spock”

and after i remember that i feel a little bit better thanks have a nice day

2

One of my favorite parts of The City on the Edge of Forever. 

Jim quickly jogs across the street forgetting that Spock is either unaware of 20th century vehicles or believes that the driver would be polite enough to stop. Jim has to run back into the road to rescue Spock who seems bewildered about the situation (and the driver’s irritability)  but doesn’t say no to Jim taking his arm and leading him to safety. Spock glances back at the car in such a way you can see that he just wants a moment to study the strange vehicle and discover all its secrets, whereas Jim is apologetically protective, like “You’re my favorite person Mister Spock, so let’s not lose you to your own scientific curiosity, okay?”

Songs for sun+moon combos

Aries

Aries sun, Aries moon: Greek Tragedy-The Wombats
Aries sun, Taurus moon: Lisztomania- Phoenix
Aries sun, Gemini moon: I Can Talk- Two Door Cinema Club
Aries sun, Cancer moon: Mountain At My Gates- Foals
Aries sun, Leo moon: Waste a Moment-Kings Of Leon
Aries sun, Virgo moon: You’ve Got Something- The Jungle Giants
Aries sun, Libra moon: Indigo Puff- Sundara Karma
Aries sun, Scorpio moon: Seven Nation Army- The White Stripes
Aries sun, Sagittarius moon: The Fire- Bishop Briggs
Aries sun, Capricorn moon: XXX 88- MØ
Aries sun, Aquarius moon: Time To Pretend- MGMT
Aries sun, Pisces moon: A Dustland Fairytale- The Killers

Taurus

Taurus sun, Aries moon: Gold- Sir Sly
Taurus sun, Taurus moon: Anchor- Novo Amor
Taurus sun, Gemini moon: Unbelievers- Vampire Weekend
Taurus sun, Cancer moon: The Love Club- Lorde
Taurus sun, Leo moon: Electric Love-BØRNS
Taurus sun, Virgo moon: Tessellate- alt-J
Taurus sun, Libra moon: Strong- London Grammar
Taurus sun, Scorpio moon: Grave Digger- Matt Maeson
Taurus sun, Sagittarius moon: Live For The Moment-The Sherlocks
Taurus sun, Capricorn moon: The Funeral-Band of Horses
Taurus sun, Aquarius moon: What You Know- Two Door Cinema Club
Taurus sun, Pisces moon: Dark Matter-Andrew Belle

Gemini

Gemini sun, Aries moon: Tyrants- Catfish and the Bottlemen
Gemini sun, Taurus moon: Spirits- The Strumbellas
Gemini sun, Gemini moon: Diet Soda Society- The Maine
Gemini sun, Cancer moon: Round and Round-Imagine Dragons
Gemini sun, Leo moon: Gold- Marina and the Diamonds
Gemini sun, Virgo moon: How Do You Feel?-The Maine
Gemini sun, Libra moon: Rose-Colored Boy- Paramore
Gemini sun, Scorpio moon: Young & Unafraid- The Moth & The Flame
Gemini sun, Sagittarius moon: Broken vow- The Kooks
Gemini sun, Capricorn moon: Something Good Can Work- Two Door Cinema Club
Gemini sun, Aquarius moon: Junk of the Heart (Happy)-The Kooks
Gemini sun, Pisces moon: Kids- MGMT

Cancer

Cancer sun, Aries moon: If U Love Me Now- MUNA
Cancer sun, Taurus moon: True Care- James Vincent McMorrow
Cancer sun, Gemini moon: It Works Itself Out- Half Moon Run
Cancer sun, Cancer moon: Cherry Wine- Overcoats
Cancer sun, Leo moon: Into The Black- Chromatics
Cancer sun, Virgo moon: Mother & Father- Broods
Cancer sun, Libra moon: Empty hands- Mother Mother
Cancer sun, Scorpio moon: Nothing to No One- Gin Wigmore
Cancer sun, Sagittarius moon: Young Blood- Noah Kahan
Cancer sun, Capricorn moon: The Wreck- Delta Spirit
Cancer sun, Aquarius moon: Life on Mars- AURORA
Cancer sun, Pisces moon: Matilda- Alt-J

Leo

Leo sun, Aries moon: Fire rides- MØ
Leo sun, Taurus moon: Ready- Kodaline
Leo sun, Gemini moon: Greetings from Califournia- The Neighbourhood
Leo sun, Cancer moon: Pink+White- Frank Ocean
Leo sun, Leo moon: Lets Dance To Joy Division- The Wombats
Leo sun, Virgo moon: Angel of Small Death and the Codeine Scene- Hozier
Leo sun, Libra moon: Piledriver waltz- Alex Turner
Leo sun, Scorpio moon: Feeling Good- Muse
Leo sun, Sagittarius moon: Always Where I Need To Be-The Kooks
Leo sun, Capricorn moon: Chelsea Dagger- The Fratellis
Leo sun, Aquarius moon:  Jungle- Tash Sultana
Leo sun, Pisces moon: Learn To Let Go- Kesha

Virgo

Virgo sun, Aries moon: Sensible Heart- City and Colour
Virgo sun, Taurus moon: Chasin’-Cub Sport
Virgo sun, Gemini moon: The Draw- Bastille
Virgo sun, Cancer moon: Unbearable Light- DAUNT
Virgo sun, Leo moon: 17-Youth Lagoon
Virgo sun, Virgo moon: Towers- Bon Iver
Virgo sun, Libra moon: Opera House- Cigarettes After Sex
Virgo sun, Scorpio moon: Small things-Ben Howard
Virgo sun, Sagittarius moon: Dreamer- Adna
Virgo sun, Capricorn moon: Smile Like You Mean It-The Killers
Virgo sun, Aquarius moon: Sleepyhead- Passion Pit
Virgo sun, Pisces moon: Buzzcut Season- Lorde

Libra

Libra sun, Aries moon: I Dare You- the xx
Libra sun, Taurus moon: Soul to Squeeze- Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Libra sun, Gemini moon: Jilted Lovers & Broken Hearts- Brandon Flowers
Libra sun, Cancer moon: A Dream of You and Me- Future Islands
Libra sun, Leo moon: Someday- The Strokes
Libra sun, Virgo moon: It’s Alright- Fractures
Libra sun, Libra moon: Whistle For The Choir- The Fratellis
Libra sun, Scorpio moon: Misunderstood- Youth Club
Libra sun Sagittarius moon: Little Wanderer- Death Cab for Cutie
Libra sun Capricorn moon: Four Walls- Broods
Libra sun, Aquarius moon: For What It’s Worth- Liam Gallagher
Libra sun, Pisces moon: R.I.P 2 My Youth- The Neighbourhood

Scorpio

Scorpio sun, Aries moon: Aint No Rest for the Wicked- Cage The Elephant
Scorpio sun, Taurus moon: Suck It and See-Arctic Monkeys
Scorpio sun, Gemini moon: A Little Death- The Neighbourhood
Scorpio sun, Cancer moon: I Follow Rivers- Lykke Li
Scorpio sun, Leo moon: What Am I Becoming?-POP etc
Scorpio sun, Virgo moon: Black Mambo- Glass Animals
Scorpio sun, Libra moon: There Is A Light That Never Goes Out- The Smiths
Scorpio sun, Scorpio moon: Dark Necessities- Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Scorpio sun, Sagittarius moon: Arsonist’s Lullabye- Hozier
Scorpio sun, Capricorn moon: Off She Goes- Bad Suns
Scorpio sun, Aquarius moon: Graveyard Whistling- Nothing But Thieves
Scorpio sun, Pisces moon: Sleep Forever-Portugal. The Man

Sagittarius

Sagittarius sun, Aries moon: Leather Jacket- Arkells
Sagittarius sun, Taurus moon: Habits Of My Heart- Jaymes Young
Sagittarius sun, Gemini moon: Dug My Heart- BØRNS
Sagittarius sun, Cancer moon: Mt. Washington- Local Natives
Sagittarius sun, Leo moon: You Only Live Once-The Strokes
Sagittarius sun, Virgo moon: Entropy- Grimes, Bleachers
Sagittarius sun, Libra moon: Cigarette Daydreams-Cage the Elephant
Sagittarius sun, Scorpio moon: Reptilla- The Strokes
Sagittarius sun, Sagittarius moon: Edge of Town- Middle Kids
Sagittarius sun, Capricorn moon: Houdini- Foster The People
Sagittarius sun, Aquarius moon: Magnetised-Tom Odell
Sagittarius sun, Pisces moon: Midnight City-M83

Capricorn

Capricorn sun, Aries moon: UGH!- The 1975
Capricorn sun, Taurus moon: Feel Something- Jaymes Young
Capricorn sun, Gemini moon: Fake Happy- Paramore
Capricorn sun, Cancer moon: To Be Alone-Ben Howard
Capricorn sun, Leo moon: Life Itself- Glass Animals
Capricorn sun, Virgo moon: $ting- the neighbourhood
Capricorn sun, Libra moon: Winter- Pvris
Capricorn sun, Scorpio moon: Cruel World- Phantogram
Capricorn sun, Sagittarius moon: Train- Brick+Mortar 
Capricorn sun, Capricorn moon: Shattered & Hollow- First Aid Kit
Capricorn sun,Aquarius moon: Oh No!-Marina and the diamonds
Capricorn sun, Pisces moon: Bloom-The Paper Kites

Aquarius

Aquarius sun, Aries moon: Black Butterflies and Deja Vu- The Maine
Aquarius sun, Taurus moon: California Numb- Cloves
Aquarius sun, Gemini moon: Driving- Wanderer
Aquarius sun, Cancer moon: Your Life Your Call- Junip
Aquarius sun, Leo moon: Second Guessing Games-Colony House
Aquarius sun, Virgo moon: Made Of Stone- Daughter
Aquarius sun, Libra moon: Sing of the Moon-The Collection
Aquarius sun, Scorpio moon: Narrow Margins-Half Moon Run
Aquarius sun, Sagittarius moon: Beautifully Unconventional- Wolf Alice
Aquarius sun, Capricorn moon: She Moves In Her Own Way- The Kooks
Aquarius sun, Aquarius moon: 10,000 Emerald Pools- BØRNS
Aquarius sun, Pisces moon: Simple Song- The Shins

Pisces 

Pisces sun, Aries moon: Deadcrush- alt-J
Pisces sun, Taurus moon: Overthinking- Adna
Pisces sun, Gemini moon: Set Me Free- Charli XCX
Pisces sun, Cancer moon: Naive-The Kooks
Pisces sun, Leo moon: Sedona- Houndmouth
Pisces sun, Virgo moon: Blush- Wolf Alice
Pisces sun, Libra moon: Loveless- Lo Moon
Pisces sun, Scorpio moon: Empty- Pvris
Pisces sun, Sagittarius moon: Be Who You Are-The Kooks
Pisces sun, Capricorn moon: Half- Pvris
Pisces sun, Aquarius moon: Nitesky- Robert Koch
Pisces sun, Pisces moon: The Forgotten- Greenday

Top Ten Appropriate Anagrams For “Leonard Horatio McCoy”

Very appropriate anagrams indeed

3

I always wondered about this line. 

Because it sounds almost bitter and bitterness is something I was never able to associate with Spock. Sure, he can be angered and he can be pretty stubborn, but he is so gentle and bound to logic that turning bitter just doesn’t seem to be compatible with his nature.

So I was asking myself where did that come from?

Spock is really not broken up about losing T’Pring to another man. He isn’t even mad about her almost getting him killed, because he understand her reasoning. He knows that in order to marry someone she wants and keep her social status she had to divorce him according to the old traditions. So that’s definitely not it. 

Could it be that only a short time before he witnessed how it would be like to get something greatly desired…

…and having to live with all the consequences?

I think “City on the Edge of Forever” is the episode Spock realizes what nature his feelings to Jim Kirk are. Maybe it was the close proximity, (I mean they always lived in each other’s pockets an the Enterprise, but here they were even closer…) or maybe it was the fact that Jim let himself fall in love with Edith Keeler. Because it’s when we see something we can not have that we realize how much we want it, isn’t it?

I never understood Jim falling for Edith, not because I don’t like the woman, far be it! She is amazing, a bright and gentle spirit far ahead of her time, although a bit naive… But for Jim to fall in love on a mission, while being trapped in the past and thus coming very near to breaking the Prime Directive on a massive scale is just plain unprofessional. 

(Shout-out to plaidshirtjimkirk at this point for writing a beautiful piece of work that got this to MAKE SENSE! The thought of Jim Kirk who, away from his ship and command, would let himself fall for someone who couldn’t exploit him or would want him for prestige and influence is by far the best explanation I read for his behavior here. Because he had nothing and Edith still wanted him.)

Furthermore, Spock’s demeanor throughout the episode is worth noting. I mean what were Nimoy’s instructions for this scene? Did Joseph Pevney go ahead and say: “Hey you know what? Just look as heartbroken as you possibly can, that’ll work!”

Because he does. 

Spock is so resigned, almost sad for most of the episode. Just imagine: he had to watch his best friend fall in love knowing how it would end, knowing that although Edith loved Jim back, she would still break his heart. Jim is the one person Spock trusts and he can do absolutely nothing for him. He can’t save him the heartbreak. (An interesting observation here is that later, muuuuch later, into the 5-year-mission when Jim mourns Reyna’s death, Spock DOES intervene. But by that time they have already established a mental rapport so Spock is not afraid of disregarding Jim’s privacy to help him.)

I think after this mission Spock had to acknowledge that Jim Kirk was far more important to him than he previously thought. But he also saw what really letting himself fall for someone did to Jim. Considering all the pain Spock witnessed maybe “After a time, you may find that having is not so pleasing a thing after all as wanting.”, is the lesson he learned from watching what love could do to someone. 

It could be the reason he never acted on any eventual feelings. Why possibly ruin a sufficient working relationship and a dearly cherished friendship for a “What if”? Longing for something from afar is a lot safer than actually risking something in order to get it.  

After all, where is the logic in heartbreak?